A fired person has to keep looking for a job.

In his life, Xiao Bai never felt what it was like to be "unhappy anyway", except that he was dismissed by the company this time.

After working for seven years, he was dismissed after only three or four days, and he was still a director-level position. The wave of dismissal in Beijing was thought to be just news, but I didn't expect it to happen to me so soon. How can I put it? It's a bit like a movie, but it's thrilling to become an autobiography.

Xiao Bai clearly remembers that he received a notice from the human resources department on Tuesday, thinking that there was a new person to interview. Unexpectedly, he just stepped into the conference room and crossed the corridor. The news that entered his ear was that he had been fired.

"I'll ask the boss." Small white subconsciously said to the personnel department

"This is the boss's signature. Stop looking for him. More people will be notified next. " HR handed over a document.

Xiao Bai felt a cold needle in his heart, as if someone had inserted a knife silently. I immediately thought of a life script as coincidental and true as a joke: my one-year-old child, my wife who is a teacher in a training institution, and my parents who have retired at home and have not found their old age.

"I can temporarily reduce my salary and tide over the difficulties with the company."

"The company's business transformation this time will open a new department. You can turn, but it will start from the general staff level. "

After listening to HR's answer, he felt that he had eaten a cement brick for no reason, and his heart was blocked.

"When are you leaving?"

"You can leave after the handover."

Two hours later, Xiao Bai walked out of the company. Press the top floor in the elevator.

The door of the rooftop was opened, and Xiaobai fixed the door with one arm and moved sideways.

A 50-story building is not a tall building in Beijing, but standing on the rooftop is a bit sudden. The wind speed alone can blow my hair back and forth, and there is not much hair on my forehead struggling in the wind.

Working hard for the company and working overtime on weekends will end up like a fiddled piece. No, it's not even a pawn. There is still room for chess pieces in every game. I don't know where I am this time.

This wave of internet dismissals made people panic and finally spread to themselves. This kick was kicked out, just like being hit off the track by a hammer in the sprint of life and having to climb back to continue running with young people. Being old is really out of my depth.

I used to work for myself, single, able to rise and fall. It's a big family now, so it's not good to lag behind a little. I suddenly remembered Chaplin's movie "Modern Times", and I realized that my Buddha was a screw in the production of that big machine, but I changed into decent clothes, and the keyboard replaced the wrench for screwing the screw.

Suddenly the shoulder was patted. Turned out to be a former subordinate Zhang Chen.

"What's the matter with you?"

"Brother Xiao, after you go out, it's me who goes in behind."

"Oh ... ah ... I'm sorry, brother, I couldn't take care of you."

"Xiao elder brother, don't say that. My current department is also in jeopardy. "

"You are the manager now."

"Yes, last year. I remember that you encouraged me to go to other departments to develop. "

"Yes, you worked hard at that time, but I found that I couldn't bring you well and there has been no progress. Actually, I can't stand it anymore. Well, anyway, you got promoted later. It's more comfortable to say it now. "

"At that time, I graduated from an ordinary university. You said that I am diligent and studious, so I have been studying and working overtime. Later, I felt that I was still working too hard, and there was no planning and flexibility. Thank you, at that time. "

"The speed of Internet development in China is ... unpredictable. In the internet companies that have been cultivated everywhere and blossomed everywhere, we have become so small that we can't even see ourselves. "

"Brother Xiao, I remember when I first entered the company, you said to me,' Do you know why we call Snow Chicken Technology? Snow chicken, a creature that lives at the highest altitude in the world. Although it is a chicken, it stands the highest. It's called a chicken head! Our company would rather be the head of a chicken than the tail of a phoenix, and pursue to become a leader in new fields. " "

"I also listened to the boss. In the past ... all the past ... "

Zhang Chen handed me a cigarette. "Brother, what are you doing here?"

The little white-handed man grabbed the railing hard and walked downstairs to the traffic avenue like a cartoon car. He took a deep breath. "I want to jump off a building, an impulse to jump off a building. You got it? You don't understand. "

"I know, brother, I know."

"What do you know? The performance of these seven years reminds me of a story with no ending. Seven years has no ending. The only ending is to be expelled. "

"This is an era full of stories, but there is no ending ... My girlfriend just deleted my WeChat and blocked the phone, but I couldn't get in touch. Four years of love broke up, and finally there was no ending. It's fucking painful. "

"You broke up?"

"More abrupt than being fired, I don't know how to react. I occasionally discussed when to get married last year. "

"Don't be sad, who will marry you in the end?"

Xiao Bai took the last sip of cigarette, and the cigarette in his mouth was immediately blown away by the wind. "Ha ha, let's come up for fun today, and don't be too sad. Go out and look for it. There are still good companies. Jump off a building and let people jump. " A trace of white smoke lingered on his lips.

"Yes, let the company's share price dive." Zhang Chen threw away his cigarette and stamped his feet. His shriveled and stubborn body lay on the concrete floor.

Two people picked up their boxes, tandem, went downstairs.

Xiao Bai was fired, naturally with his wife. It's just better packaged and "parted ways" with the original company.

Xiaobai felt uneasy from the first moment she came home. After her wife gave birth to the baby, the original company has found a reason to quit her. After coming back, with a good English foundation, her wife became an English teacher in an educational institution.

The two mountains of mortgage and car loan have been holding down the income of the family, and the days are tight. Before I was fired, if life was a piece of absorbent cloth, I screwed up a lot of car loans and mortgages, and then I screwed them again, but occasionally some water dripped out. Now I only rely on my wife's income, so I have to start using my savings. Life is a wringing. I can wring the water drops after a while in the sun, but it's a little too hard.

Xiao Bai took out his resume, wrote it several times, asked his wife to translate an English version and sent it to all headhunters he had contacted before.

There are many interviews, but very little can be talked about.

Some interviewers ask questions, but don't ask about work; Some began by asking about the economic situation and what major Internet companies are optimistic about, and frequently appeared flashy and fashionable online vocabulary, which blocked Xiaobai several times in a row.

Interviewing for two weeks is more tiring than working all night. I really miss being young and energetic, and I will boldly express my unique views on any question, making the interviewer nod frequently.

Now my answer is like a college entrance examination question that has been brushed for dozens of times, and the interviewer's face shows a smile that is both understanding and dissatisfied.

After running in leather shoes for several days, I simply changed my sneakers at the back and went out in a casual sportswear.

The whole person's figure has shrunk by a circle. When I go to the vegetable market to buy food in the morning, it is easy to be covered up by the momentum of vendors and lose my boldness. Sometimes I look at food for a long time and don't know what I see in my eyes. It was not until someone picked the food away that my eyes noticed the change and asked the vendor.

A month has passed, and I can't sleep at night with anxiety, which is more anxious than waiting for my wife to have a baby. Get up in the middle of the night, sit on the sofa in the living room, dig out kazuo inamori's book from the bookcase and see his favorite words inside:

"I think work is a panacea for all diseases. Through work, you can overcome all kinds of difficulties and tests and make your life turn around. "

"Suffering is neither what we want nor what we started, but unexpected suffering followed. ..... However,' work' hides a great power, which can help you overcome the suffering in your destiny and bring light and hope to your life. "

Every time I finish reading these sentences, it's like kazuo inamori's near-re-embodiment. Tell him in my ear.

"Husband, go to bed early." I don't know when his wife has stood in the living room. "Urgent is not the way. According to my former colleagues, the situation is also very serious now. The husband of one of my best friends has also been fired and is looking for a job. "

"Yes, worry is not a way. You go to sleep first, I'll sleep later. "

"Isn't there some money in our bank, or I'll take a few more classes and teach the same content anyway."

"No, no, don't take too many classes and come back from work early to accompany your mother and children."

"Well, you say, it's better to be a student, learn to draw, learn English, learn to dance and play with classmates of the same age all day. What a good age, I am not worried about money at all. "

"There are advantages and disadvantages. You see, when we were young, the teacher didn't teach us the importance of money. As a result, when I came out to the society, I desperately made money, which was completely different from what I thought in college. "

"How can you blame the teacher? There is nothing in the textbook. How can you ask the teacher to talk about money for you? When you study, who doesn't treat money like dirt? "

"So, this kind of education in China should be changed, and children should be taught to recognize money, at least in universities, so that society will not suddenly recognize money and be beaten by money."

"I'm afraid I taught the same. What if I know? It's not just a radish and a pit. Can I become Ma Yun with a sigh? "

"At that time, textbooks taught us to study for the rise of the motherland. You don't have to tell us, we all believe it. I changed the channel in the ideological struggle in high school for the college entrance examination. "

"studying for the motherland is still not as good as the price of the motherland. You said that this house was built on this land, how could it be worth so much money? When I just bought it, I really felt that my feet were gold. "

"Ah, this problem is not just the problem we face. Or immigrate to Thailand and Malaysia, and the house price will be lower. However, there is no domestic mala Tang. "

"Immigration is impossible. I have lived for so many years and I am not used to moving anywhere. "

"Well, go to bed early. You have class tomorrow."

Xiaobai has experienced the longest unemployment in the workplace. For a whole month and a half, he couldn't find a satisfactory position for this screw, which was convenient for him to get in and make some achievements.

HR, who is best at euphemistic refusal, has become his most annoying person these days. Those company jobs they look down upon are just like Jue wax, even if they go to make money for emergencies, they won't last long.

A director like him is especially hard to find. A few days ago, there was news that a technical director of a big Internet company had just been here for half a month and his ass was not hot, so he dissolved the department. Therefore, the technical director specially published 3,000 words to express his dissatisfaction.

The wind is particularly strong today. Xiao Bai sprayed more than three times of hair gel to get her hair done. Faced with this situation, Xiao Bai finally bowed his head. If the deadlock continues, the workplace will not show him mercy. I just came out from an internet company that has completed the B round of investment, and I was interviewed for a manager-level position.

Fortunately, this company is reasonable in both salary and department structure, and has a good chat with CEO.

Coincidentally, when they came out, they saw Zhang Chen, and they met and smiled at each other.

Three days later, Xiao Bai received a phone call to the effect that there are two CEO candidates and they are still deciding, so I will give you an answer in a day or two.

After walking in Xiaobai Park, I passed the stationery store. There was an old song "If there is love in the sky", which sang "Please come back with me for a while when you are young". At this time, Xiao Bai thought of not love, but Zhang Chen who came out of the office that day.

Xiaobai couldn't sleep, and got up at 6 o'clock in the morning. Finally, I stayed up until eight o'clock in the morning and immediately sent a message to Zhang Chen, "Let's have a midnight snack at ten o'clock tonight."

From eight o'clock in the morning to nine o'clock in the evening, Xiaobai spent 13 hours constantly brushing the news and reading the recruitment information, thinking about what to say to Zhang Chen tonight, like writing a paper with more than 10,000 words.

There are about 20 supper stalls. As soon as Xiao Bai and Zhang Chen sat down, they drank several glasses of beer. It seems that everyone's energy has been tossed for a month, and there is unresolved sadness on his face.

Two blocks away, there is a row of nightclubs. People who mix out of nightclubs are used to eating supper here, and their voices make the whole supper stall big and small.

After another glass of beer, Xiao Bai cut her forehead hair and told Zhang Chen:

"Do you have an offer?"

"No, the interview didn't go well."

"Oh, are you still looking for something better?"

"There is a similar one, waiting for news."

Xiaobai obviously can't get out of this circle, so I don't want to say more.

"I don't beat around the bush with you. I came here today to tell you something serious. But if you think it's not good, you can take it as a serious joke. "

"Brother, if you have anything, just tell me." Zhang Chen changed his face and tried to stay focused, not thinking about the food and wine on the table.

"That day, we interviewed in the same company. Did you interview for the position of R&D manager? "

"yes. We won't interview for the same position, will we? "

"It's the same one." Xiaobai was silent for two seconds. "Your brother and I need ... this job." Just finished watching a straight line of Zhang Chen, Zhang Chen's face muscles froze for half a second. "Well, forget it, I'm really embarrassed to say it. I tell you this as a big brother ... "

"Brother, I understand that I understand my brother. It's not easy for anyone these days. It's really not easy."

"Damn, there was a popular saying on the Internet a while ago that' the collapse of modern people is silent'. Fuck, who wants to be silent? I just said. Never mind, brother. Facing the pressure, I really can't help it. If I say it, you can be a joke. "

Xiao Bai rubbed his hands. For the first time in his life, he did such a disgraceful thing to ask for help. Sad and glad, others don't agree, otherwise his face would have fallen here. The last time I asked for help so sincerely, I asked someone to borrow money at the university.

"Brother, let me tell you. My girlfriend contacted me again. If I don't have a job, I can't explain it ... so I really want to fight for it. "

"Nothing, nothing, we all have our own difficulties, all want to fight for it. It is good to say it, and it is not necessarily the best position in the world. "

"White brother, I won't say anything else. Let me propose a toast to you first. " Zhang Chen gulped down a glass of wine, and several strings of kidneys snored. Just hollowed out from his stomach, he stuffed back some food.

Small white waved to the boss, "boss, a bottle of white wine. I want your best white wine. "

Fortunately, life is bitter, otherwise this wine can't join in the fun.

Obviously, two four-handed people are dancing on the table with drinks and barbecues, which abruptly creates an atmosphere of a big table.

"I really want to take this head off and knock it open to see if there are only a few copper coins in it, which will make a clang ... come and knock it for me ..." Xiao Bai shook his head and knocked it with chopsticks.

"Brother, don't say your head, my head shook, and it was all the sound of copper coins, and there was an empty jar. At work, I usually pretend to have the idea of working, and the other half is filled with copper coins. Ha ha ha ~ "Zhang Chen touched his chin. The unshaven beard makes him look older and laugh a bit like a security guard at the door.

"Ah, so to speak, we are engaged in technology, and this is the power of scientific and technological progress. Fuck, we're not trying to make money. Finally, if we can't do finance, the direction of this capital will change, and we will be out of luck. "

"Ha ha, brother, you don't say, our life is glamorous, but we still can't farm in our hometown. Last time I went home for the Spring Festival, boy, my neighbor's children and friends in their twenties knew everything, killing chickens and cooking. That's a line. My family has set up a few acres of land to grow vegetables and a big pigsty, with an annual income of more than 200 thousand. I will stay at home during the New Year, just like a waste with sound limbs. "

"Ah, stop it, we are all small wheels in this city. One more is not much, and one less is not much. If you can transfer, someone will invite you. Turning fast, there are many small wheels that can be driven, and others will pay a high price, which is nothing more than this. "

"I used to watch movies of young people and dangerous people, and I felt that the rivers and lakes were sinister. Maybe I will die suddenly, but now this wave of speculation has made people very depressed. It is better to fight and kill among young and dangerous people. "

"Yes, with the bosses, there are also some Jianghu status. Now, if you help the big boss survive, you can't fire him without saying a word. For the benefit, there is a feeling that time bombs are hidden everywhere. Too insecure. "

"As a man, I feel insecure. How to give your family a sense of security? Pretend to be Bai, it will be fine, so to speak, it will be fine ... "

"Yes, it's okay, you this wisdom brain, can tube a lot of people? Here's to you again. "

"Drink! Mama of, the interview didn't finish, Lao tze can't drink ~ "

"Drink! Brother! "

The two are getting more and more noisy. They are among a group of teenagers, and their clothes are a little out of date. They haven't lost the energy of sipping wine at all. Cheap drinks dispelled all the gloom from the nightclub and took to the streets.

Finally, on Friday, Bai Xiaogang took a nap and received the good news of employment.

The first second thought is not to celebrate, but how to tell Zhang Chen.

After some hesitation, I decided not to say anything for the time being.

When I was at work on Monday, I bumped into Zhang Chen in front of the office building. The two exchanged information, and it turned out that Zhang Chen was recommended by headhunters to another company in the same building.

As a result, they began to work overtime frequently and occasionally stayed up all night.