The daughter who was sent away

Many times, I think my second sister loves me more than my elder sister.

For example, my second sister remembers my birthday every year. Big sister seems to have forgotten after she got married. For example, my second sister calls me far more often than my elder sister, who seems to be very busy at work. For example, even when I grow up, my second sister will buy me clothes every Spring Festival.

There is not much difference in love, but there will be differences if there is comparison.

Said I never complained that my sister was dishonest. After all, I spend more time with my eldest sister than with my second sister.

When I was still looking at the entrance to the world, my mother was crying, holding a laundry list and shouting around. On the left is a 4-year-old elder sister, and on the right is a 2-year-old second sister. If it is selling children, it is not correct, because it does not involve money transactions.

Mother ran to several villages and didn't send any of them away. I have to take two children home again.

It's useless for father to scold mother.

A few days later, my father climbed a hill with a laundry list and arrived at Caojialing in the neighboring county.

A family with three sons adopted a second sister. The reason why they didn't choose the elder sister is simple, because she is too old and she may remember the way home.

In this way, the second sister was sent away.

After the second sister was adopted, my mother lived in Lacrimosa all day. In her words, her tears are almost dry.

After all, a child is a mother's heart. After thinking about it, my mother made an agreement with the family that adopted the second sister: our family and the adoptive parents of the second sister are relatives now, and the relationship will be automatically dissolved until the second sister gets married. This means that our two families can communicate frequently.

In Wang Jiacun in the 1980s, or Caojialing in the 1980s, even a few years later, it was very common for families like ours to send their children away.

In addition to sending children, there are children. The children sent out are usually girls. Generally speaking, the situation of changing children is that three or four children in a row are sons and three or four children in another family are daughters, so this family will exchange their sons for the daughters of another family, which is to change children.

As for the reason for sending the girl away, I think it is nothing more than the same as our family. Is to have a son to carry on the family line. The birth of the second sister means that parents have used up the places given to them by the state (in rural areas, the first child is a daughter who can have another child). But it doesn't matter, there are policies on the top and countermeasures on the bottom-one child is sent away and another quota is added.

Unfortunately, no matter how hard my parents tried, no one came to get the handle.

Before me, my mother had two children, one died at the age of 3, a girl; There is also an unintentional flow, and the gender is unknown.

Five years later, I came to this family again as a daughter.

My birth was undoubtedly a blow to my parents.

My father left Wang Jiacun in a hurry without even attending my washing ceremony.

His father was not from Wang Jiacun, and his mother died shortly after giving birth to him. My grandmother brought my young father back and raised him as her own son. And my grandmother is actually my grandmother, and my mother is her daughter.

Mom is two years older than dad. They grew up like brothers and sisters. When they reached marriageable age, grandma began to worry. She is worried that her raised son has married his wife and forgotten his mother, and she is worried that the married daughter will splash water. So, my grandmother thought of a way to kill two birds with one stone-arrange for my mother to marry my father.

However, this method of killing two birds with one stone, although it guaranteed grandma's later life, became the beginning of the tragedy of parents' fate.

When parents get married, it becomes their family responsibility to have a son. My birth finally made my parents feel hopeless about having a son.

Wang Jiacun's clan concepts, such as "son preference" and "raising children to protect the elderly", are still intact. No one thinks that having a daughter can honor one's ancestors.

Seeing that I am not a human being, my father can't stand the villagers pointing at me any more, and seems to be leaving.

When his father packed his bags, he made up his mind to succeed in his career. Since he can't have a son, he must make a career, put on his clothes and go back to his hometown to get back at those who poked his spine.

My father worked hard all the year round, and only went back to Wang Jiacun for ancestor worship and Chinese New Year.

My sister is seven years older than me and goes to boarding school. Only my mother and elderly grandparents are left at home, and I am sandwiched between them with half a left-behind child.

When I was three or four years old, my grandfather often took me to Caojialing to find my second sister. Grandpa sent me to my second sister's foster parents' house and went back. I will stay for a few nights.

I followed my second sister to herd cattle, I followed her to the pond to wash clothes, and I followed her to find her little friends to play. Anyway, whatever second sister does, I will follow her.

Of course, every time I go to my second sister's adoptive parents' house, I not only cultivate the sisterhood between her and me, but also undertake my life.

When I want to go home, I will invite my second sister to my house to play. This sentence is very strange, because in a sense, this is also her home.

Sometimes, my second sister will come to my house for a few days.

Sometimes, if her foster mother doesn't allow me, she can't come, so she took me to Wang Jiacun Village and went back.

On the way back to Caojialing, Second Sister occasionally meets Wang Jiacun people who are doing farm work in the fields. Knowing that the second sister is the daughter sent out by our family, they will tease her and ask, "Where are you from?"

"I am Cao Jialing's." Second sister answered.

"Then what's your last name?" Wang Jiacun people continue to ask her.

"My surname is Wang." Second sister answered.

"You are from Cao Jialing, how can you be surnamed Wang?" Wang Jiacun people asked her with a smile. He doesn't know how much his jokes hurt the young second sister.

Second sister didn't answer his question, but left in a hurry.

She cried as she ran.

After that, if someone asks her last name, she will reply that her last name is Cao.

At that time, I didn't understand why the second sister didn't change her surname to Cao.

When I grow up, I want to understand this problem-because it is a woman, her descendants will not continue her surname, no matter whether her surname is Wang or Cao, what does it matter?

When I didn't finish the task of inviting my second sister to my home, I had another task-to bring some information about Cao Jialing to my mother.

My mother will be disappointed to see me coming back alone, and then she will ask me angrily, "Where is your second sister?"

"Menstruation (the second sister's foster mother) forbid her to come." I only promise.

"What is your second sister doing at home?" My mother was even more angry after hearing my answer.

"Weave firecrackers." I watched my thumb open another window from the cloth shoes.

"Did she go to school the day before yesterday?" Mother continued to ask.

"..." I shook my thumb with rapt attention, and my mind wandered too much.

"I'll give you new cloth shoes. I haven't worn them for two days and they are broken!" Mom saw me wandering and the volume immediately increased by several decibels. "It seems that I have to give you a pair of iron shoes for you to wear!"

At that time, I was still young, and I didn't know why my mother was really angry, but I vaguely felt that it had something to do with my second sister.

Mom has always been ashamed of her second sister, especially studying. Because my elder sister and I received a good education, and my second sister didn't even finish primary school.

Mother said that it was all because adoptive parents loved money too much. If there is someone in the school, Second Sister's adoptive parents will let her stay in the school for two days. If the school is neglected, they will let her weave firecrackers at home to supplement her family. The second sister finished her primary school education after two days of school and three days of weaving firecrackers at home. Her adoptive parents didn't let her go on to school. They said that second sister's academic performance was not good.

Mother said sadly, how can you get good grades if you always weave firecrackers at home?

So every time I talk about this, my mother will complain that my father didn't send my second sister to a good family. Then, they began to quarrel.

"This is your second sister's life." Mom's eyes are red.

Second sister had a chance to receive a good education. Because at first my mother gave her second sister to her 40-year-old childless sister. However, the second sister is always sick at her aunt's house. My aunt was very scared, because she adopted several children, but they all died of illness, so she returned the second sister to her mother in two days. Strangely, the second sister recovered when she got home.

Second sister began to work as soon as she graduated from primary school. However, at the age of 12, she can't find a job in the city because she is still a child laborer. Her adoptive parents found her a job in an orange orchard from nowhere-picking oranges.

Mother thinks Second Sister is too young to go abroad alone. She walked around, hoping to find a relaxed and decent job for her second sister near her home, but it was too difficult for a rural woman. In the end, she can only find a person who runs a restaurant in the county to take her second sister as a waiter.

Once, an acquaintance of a mother was eating in a restaurant. It happened that her mother went to visit her second sister that day, and he asked her, "Whose child is this, who came out to work at such a young age?"

Mother was in tears when she heard this.

When Second Sister 15 years old, her mother decided to get her back. She told her second sister's adoptive parents that she could give them money.

However, Second Sister was unhappy when she heard the news.

Gentle, she quarreled hysterically with her mother for the first time.

She asked her mother with tears in her eyes, "Why did I send me away?"

"There is nothing I can do about it, and I can't bear to part with it ..." My mother also shed tears, and her answer was very weak.

"There is no way? Is there another one at home? " The second sister vented her dissatisfaction accumulated in her heart for many years.

Mother answered with tears in her eyes.

"It's you who sent me away!" Second sister pointed to her mother. "Now, do you want me to go back? My parents raised me. If you want to send me away, you can send me away. If you want me to come back, why? "

Second sister squatted on the ground, hugged herself and cried loudly.

The mother stood next to the second sister and looked at her daughter. In addition to guilt, she felt distressed. She doesn't know what she can do to comfort her children at the moment. She mumbled "Sin …", as if to herself and the air.

When I spent the night at my second sister's adoptive parents' house, my second sister once told me that she hated everyone in our family except me and my grandfather.

"What I hate most is your father and your mother." Second sister's eyes sparkle in the dark, I think it's because of tears.

At this time, I can't seem to refute her. "What do you mean by' your father and your mother'? They are also your parents. "

I can only naively ask her, "Why don't you hate me? Why not hate grandpa? "

"You bitch, you weren't born then!" Second sister's voice sounds a little relaxed. "I don't hate grandpa, of course he is good to me."

As soon as the second sister finished, I leaned over and hugged her.

The second sister, like the big sister, calls her father "grandpa" and grandpa "dad", and her mother and grandmother are still mothers and grandmothers. The only difference is that the second sister has two fathers and two mothers.

If she shows which one she loves more, the other one will be jealous. From an early age, she began to learn how to weigh two families and how to treat two fathers and two mothers in different ways.

Second sister's adoptive parents have three sons, which means that second sister has three more brothers. However, growing up, she didn't feel that her brother had any feelings for her late sister. I think that's probably because they are much older than the second sister. The youngest brother should be ten years older than the second sister. So, very early, the three brothers separated from their parents and went out to be independent, no longer caring about their parents. The eldest brother is an honest farmer, the second brother is a lazy man, and the third brother travels all the year round.

The second sister began to weave firecrackers to earn money to support her family from primary school, and then went to pick oranges to do various jobs. It's hard for me not to guess that her adoptive parents regarded her as an ATM from the moment she adopted her.

Second sister worked as a waitress in the county town for a year, and followed Cao Jialing's people to make clothes in the weaving room.

I don't know when the young people in our area went out to work, that is, went to the factory to make clothes, which has continued to this day.

When my father, who worked in Ningbo Garment Factory, was promoted from a tailor to a manager, he called his second sister to Ningbo.

I think, when the father's career has improved, he feels he has the ability to compensate his children.

Second sister, even though she has absolute hatred for Qian Qian in her heart, she can only take refuge in her father because of blood relationship and adoptive parents can't give her a better choice.

However, the good times did not last long. The second sister stayed in her father's factory for three years and then left and went back to Zhili.

I think the second sister left Ningbo because of her father.

It is said that there is a boy chasing the second sister in the factory. When his father found out, he threw the boy's luggage into the street and told him to get out. Since then, no boys in the factory dare to chase my second sister.

When the second sister returned to her father, he began to feel that he had a responsibility to educate his children, so it was his responsibility to interfere with his daughter's love.

In my memory, the second sister seems to have sent a photo of her and that boy back to her mother. I think at that time, she should be in love.

Later, under the mediation of her mother, the second sister also returned to her father's factory intermittently. In the meantime, she kept switching between her father's factory and Zhili's factory.

I think it's because of my father.

Father has a bad temper, and his daughter is no exception. Our whole family is afraid of him. He cursed people, but his six relatives denied him. In addition, he is the manager of the factory. In order to better manage the workers, sometimes it is inevitable to play some tricks of "killing chickens to show monkeys", so the second sister has to play killing chickens in this case. Although it has not reached the level of "being killed", it is often used as an example, and she can't stand it.

It is said that at the end of one year, a batch of children's wear for foreign trade was rushed. When it was packaged and delivered, it was found that more than half of the cuffs were not cut, and all of them were sent back to the workshop for re-cutting. My father stood next to my second sister and scolded her.

Of course, fathers will feel too strict with their daughters. One second I scolded my second sister, and later I will buy some fruit snacks for my second sister.

Second sister has a good temper and is easily moved. If I were the second sister, I would definitely run away with my father in less than two days.

When my second sister returned to Zhili again, she met my second brother-in-law. Soon, she became pregnant.

At that time, she was 22 years old and her second brother-in-law was two years younger than her.

Parents often sigh and shake their heads when they know.

The second brother-in-law is not so cute, besides, the family conditions are not good and the parents are not harmonious. It is said that his father found a lover as big as his son, who didn't go home all the year round and was heavily in debt.

But when uncooked rice is cooked into mature rice, no matter which parent, it seems that there is nothing that can be done.

The adoptive parents are unhappy, I think, first, because the second sister can find a man with better economic conditions, and second, because the ATM has gone to someone else's house.

Although my father could do nothing at this time, he still had a long talk with my second sister.

"You are old now, not a child. There are some things I don't say much, and you are tired of talking too much. You chose your own husband, so don't come to me to complain if you have difficulties in the future. I hope you can find a good man, live a relaxed life without so much pressure ... "My father looked at the second sister's slightly bulging abdomen and let out a long sigh. "With a baby, the pressure will be even greater ..."

I know my second sister is a little unhappy, because this is love without parents' blessing. However, a girl who doesn't have much love experience, a young mother who is pregnant before marriage, seems to have no choice but to resign herself to fate.

The second sister's belly is getting bigger and bigger, so the two families can only discuss giving them a banquet first, and then the man can go through the marriage registration formalities when he reaches the legal age for marriage.

My father prepared 50 thousand cash for my second sister, which is a dowry for my second sister. Since the second sister made clothes with her father, her father has been looking for opportunities to make up for the lack of love for her. However, even if my father makes up for it all his life, it can't offset his guilt.

The 80,000 bride price sent by the man was, of course, accepted by the adoptive parents. After all, they raised the second sister.

On the wedding day of the second sister, she cried badly during her period. Although mother didn't cry, she was also wiping her tears. Aunt (second sister's adoptive father) and father look dignified.

It seems that they are attending a funeral, not a wedding.

My second sister took my hand and pulled it very tightly. I felt sticky sweat on my palms.

My second sister took my arm and I realized that she was going to kneel down. I helped her to her knees carefully, and I knelt down with her.

She sang in a choked voice-

"My mama ah my niang, you give your daughter a dowry, ten days to catch three games, nine games in January, the road into a ditch, run furry path. As soon as the chicken spoke, mother walked on the road; The sparrow entered the forest, and the mother walked halfway; Magpies fall into the nest, and mother touches them on the road; Red, green and green are several large quantities, and they are much more combined. Oh, my god, my mother, leeks have nine leaves, and my mother has been pregnant with me for ten months. Pregnant in October, miserable. 10/day, when I was in labor, my mother was too busy, biting her nails in her mouth and stepping on the ground. When I woke up and looked at my body, I was very sad. The benefits of niang tens of millions ... "

Firecrackers, fireworks, gongs and drums are loud. The noise drowned the second sister's singing.

I looked up and found that my menstruation was runny nose and tears. She took the second sister's hand and said something with an open mouth.

I listened with my ears. It turned out that my second sister's song had been sung, and now she is singing during her period.

I only heard her singing "Take you to No.16 and No.17" to know a little shit. I know how to help at home and in the fields. My parents will sympathize with their experiences and no one cares. " I don't know, but wow, I'm getting married and I'm not willing to send my parents out ... "

I looked up at my mother, who was standing by the curtain crying.

I don't know when my second sister's third brother came in. He picked up his second sister and walked to the wedding procession. I followed the wedding procession and walked very fast. Looking at the back of my second sister, I shouted "Sister".

The second sister smiled with a crooked face, and the appearance of half the red yarn floating in the air on her head was deeply engraved in my mind.

Hongyan flies in the air, swishing its wings.

My second sister, her baby's name is "Wild Goose".