Why do people cry before they die? What exactly did you see?

In the summer of my sophomore year, I stood on the balcony on the sixth floor, and the mountain breeze was blowing gently. I know it's time to say goodbye to the world. At that moment, I burst into tears and couldn't control myself. Twenty years later, sitting in front of the computer, recalling the past, I can't help but sigh, coming back from the dead, and cherish it in the next life! Why, your feelings, what you have heard and heard, are all shared with you.

1. My eyes are full of tears, and the street lamp is dim and shiny. I chose to say goodbye because I couldn't get through this hurdle.

I chose to give up because this "game" has become a dead chess game.

I chose to end it because this "heart" has no attachment.

There is no song, only the mountain wind;

There is no sadness of parting, only the mind is made up;

No soft greetings, only no memories.

I put my elbow on the concrete balcony, supported my head with my hands, and stared at the concrete platform 20 meters below, where my classmates played football after class in the afternoon.

They cheered, and I walked over with my schoolbag on my back, mumbling to remind myself that you still have a lot of things to finish. Unlike them, you are not qualified to play.

There are several street lamps on the downhill slope of the cement platform. At that moment, I was surprised to find that street lamps could actually talk.

Accent, intonation and tone are just like when my mother left me when I was a child. I tried to remember how trusting and earnest she was when she finally told me.

By the light, I followed the shadow dizzy and suddenly saw myself as a child.

Second, the tide of thoughts, the warmth of mother, and the sadness of childhood. I am wronged, I am angry, I am helpless, and I am disappointed.

Fate is like the rotation of the four seasons. In my winter, I slammed on the brakes, the spring breeze stopped, and the summer was cool.

For half a year, I have been immersed in insomnia and anxiety.

I complain about my mother, why she brought me into this world, the night is so long, the expectations are so desperate, and the reality is so absurd.

My life is like an embarrassing joke, and the bugs flying around the street lamp seem to laugh at me.

No one wants to listen to me, only I, a storyteller, guard my loneliness and make my own decisions.

I couldn't eat for a month before, and I relied on coffee to refresh myself every day.

At that time, I drank coffee every day, and when I got angry, I had a nosebleed.

In the evening, everyone will review for the exam in the corridor. I didn't like this major, and I couldn't learn it. This is all rote learning. But on the first night of the exam, I found that I had prepared for a long time and couldn't do any questions.

This is a point, a straw, and I realize that my time may have arrived.

At that moment, my frustration doubled. I put down my pen and went to the balcony.

I can't face the humiliation of failing the exam any more, and all the questions come to the end, which makes me very uncomfortable.

I can't wait to be sentenced, so I decided to end myself.

The reason is simple: I don't want to die at the hands of others, I can only die at my own hands, which is my last dignity in this world.

Third, recall the past, the unbearable past, and talk silently. Some people say that when I leave, there will be attachment, fear and sadness, but you know, when I leave, I feel warm all over.

Because before I go, I will relive my childhood scenes from the beginning.

As long as I can remember, on that snowy day, I was sent to my grandmother's house, and then my mother left, and I was faced with two strange old people. This is the beginning of my memory.

Every time I leave my mother, she cruelly breaks my hand to go to work. I miss my mother wearing a little red plaid shirt at that time, and I miss taking me to the pond alone before she left, telling me to be obedient and not to think about my mother.

Countless nights, I cried because I missed my mother. I was rejected by my grandmother and grandfather. I looked at the stars all over the sky, and I was tired. I can see the stars twinkling, wink at me through tears, and tell the stars what I want to say to my mother through a little starlight.

A rural child gradually adapted to the life in the county town on the road of his own growth, until his parents struggled to survive in the county town and lost their way after going to college.

I miss everything in my childhood. Most of the good things in the world come from being found again and again.

A voice echoed in my ear, "Jump, jump, everything is free."

A height of 20 meters is enough.

At that moment, the blood rushed to the head, and the head was heavy.

Like a warm cloud, it will bring me back to my childhood.

Fourth, a suicide note, which I wrote to my parents, details the past. I felt that I still had something to say to my parents, so I gritted my teeth, endured the ups and downs in my heart, climbed to the upper bunk and decided to write my last words to my parents.

I miss the past infinitely, I confess myself, and I complain about society, but I finally asked my parents for proof.

I felt a little lost, but my parents were even more lost because no one supported them and died.

After writing for two hours, I couldn't help crying after writing. After writing, I looked up at the time, four o'clock in the morning.

I was tired and sleepy, so I fell asleep cross-legged

When I woke up, my roommate asked me to take the exam. I drank another cup of coffee, and it was no longer bitter.

In the examination room, I wrote down my name and the test paper was blank.

At this time, the students behind came to me with calculators, and I took the calculators.

It says 43 124 13. I know, this is a multiple-choice question.

Then I returned the calculator to him.

Then he handed it to me,12012301234012. I know, this is a multiple-choice question.

Then, short answer questions and big questions are written in pencil at the back of the calculator.

In the examination room, I mechanically took the calculator given to me by my classmate behind me and covered it with paper.

After the exam, let's play basketball, play basketball.

I played for five hours that day, and my leg cramped and collapsed.

Go back to the dormitory at night and sleep from nine o'clock until noon the next day.

That day, I had a dream. Grandma took my hand and came to the familiar pond to accompany me to find my mother.

I am quiet, because I clearly remember my mother telling me, "Be good and be obedient".

At noon the next day, my classmates came to see me awake and asked me, "Are you feeling better?"? Last night, I thought you had a problem. "

Postscript: One day, when my parents were sorting out the bookcase, they found the suicide note in my diary. Mother wrote a reply and sent it to my unit.

Mother said in the letter that she was in a cold sweat after reading my suicide note. Fortunately, my son didn't walk away willfully at that time. After all, a person's ultimate path is his own choice, and his parents can never be replaced.

I closed the door and cried while reading my mother's letter.

Lying on the table, tears gushed from my fingers, and it was a long story.

I spent the whole morning making up with the past.

This matter, in my heart, has been suppressed for almost twenty years.

Tears are still flowing, the difference is that the balcony on that summer night is the last warmth; Let go now is the first ray of light after waking up from a dream.

Birth, old age, illness and death are unavoidable laws for everyone. Before dying, people will have some seemingly abnormal behaviors or words, such as tears is a very common phenomenon.

In addition, there are many other external manifestations. People's consciousness when they die is actually vague. He doesn't know where he is, and he can't move and talk normally.

I may sometimes talk nonsense for a while, but I have no idea. At this time, the human brain almost stops working, so consciousness is chaotic.

Some people may show panic or irritability at this time, and even have the consciousness of speaking, but in fact, the body has long been unable to complete this work and can only wait for the end of life.

Some people are already asleep when they are dying. With the overall decline of body function, the human body will enter a relatively long dormant state because of the decline of metabolism.

Under normal circumstances, I can't sleep, and I have no consciousness of everything around me, and my consciousness is vague. At this time, human organs are also accelerating failure, and their hands and feet are cold.

This is mainly due to organ failure, blood pressure drop, blood can not be recycled to the limbs, that is, insufficient blood supply. As the temperature of limbs drops, the face will turn pale or blue.

These are some manifestations of people before the end of their lives, and some people will twitch and cry. Physical function gradually loses, and lack of energy will show struggle.

There are many tears in my eyes. Some old people call this phenomenon "motherly tears", saying that old people are too reluctant to part with their loved ones and lives, or have unfinished wishes.

In fact, this statement has no scientific basis. It is a normal physiological phenomenon that people cry when they are dying, which can be completely explained by science. So what is the reason?

As we all know, human tears are produced in the lacrimal gland, which is composed of thin tubular glands and ducts. This is an organ that secretes tears. Before people die, organs are gradually closed.

In addition to the gradual cessation of organs, various nerves in the human body are no longer controlled. As an organ of human body, lacrimal gland has been closed, so it can no longer secrete and store tears.

The nervous system responsible for diverting tears in the lacrimal gland has been shut down, and tears can no longer be stored normally. With the continuous enlargement of the pupil, the eye muscles are in a tight state.

At this time, the tears that cannot be stored will be squeezed out. In fact, this is a truth of laughter and tears. The rapid contraction of eye muscles will greatly lead to the secretion of tears by lacrimal glands.

Therefore, it is a normal physiological phenomenon for people to cry before they die. As for what I saw, I guess no one can answer this question.

Birth, old age, illness and death are natural laws, and everyone can't escape and avoid them. Some people will have a hunch and appear calm before they die. But most people can't face where you are going.

The topic of death is usually heavy and sad, but it is inevitable because of the law of life. No one can live forever, so we should treat death with a normal heart.

Many people want to know how people feel before they die. Or saw something? In fact, the answer will never be known. An American psychologist has studied this problem.

He studied the cases of 150 near-death experiencers and summarized the feelings of 14 people before they died. Just look at the content, no one can judge whether it is like that, and it is not really dead.

For example, some people say that they will have a strong sense of loneliness, but they cannot communicate with others. Others said that they could observe the body and even heard the doctor clearly declare death.

Any strange sounds, feelings of being invisible, etc. Although these feelings all come from near-death experiencers, there is an essential difference between experiencing life and death and real death.

No one can confirm whether these statements are correct, it can only be regarded as a speculation. But there is a scientific basis for people to cry before they die, not because of what they see.

How reluctant it is to come into this world crying! From ignorance, to teenagers, to youth, getting married and having children, taking care of the elderly, and being good at family planning, my ideals and dreams have come to an end. What kind of life do you want? What kind of life do you want? This time, I am dear, painful, bitter and tired. In the end, everything passed away like running water, and I was disillusioned in the long river of historical time and space. The world once had me, and the world never had me. Even if all my wishes in this life are realized, I will always stay, and I can't bear to part with it. After that, I left! Why not shed tears!

Come into this world with tears, leave this world with tears. At this time of life, ups and downs, decision is a kind of practice!