When have you ever been decadent? Why?

In the last three years of four years of college, the gift of fate comes at a price. She has always been a smooth girl, ignorant and fearless, ungrateful and arrogant to those close to her. She took their favor for granted. I am selfish and reasonable, and extremely flattering to the outside world. I am very empty, but I have been speculating about other people's preferences to cover up and package myself. This university has opened a strange. I am full of ambition to display my fists and feet, and I have gained some affirmation, praise and admiration, but I lack an accurate understanding of myself. I just saw a label and chased it. In the end, I became the most tired amateur student. In action, haste makes waste, and my goal is gradually distorted. In my mind, I pay too much attention to gain and loss, which leads to my anxious development in every effort.