The Golden Gate Bridge committed suicide (9 years later)

Giving up is a difficult choice, especially when you climb to a high place and can immediately pick the fruit from the cliff. It is difficult for you to give up the adventure and go back the same way, although you know that this may bring worries in your life.

Four years ago, Peking University student Tang Xiaolin chose to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge while studying in the United States, ending her young life.

Some people will say that she is fragile, some people will feel sorry for her, and some people will denounce the pressure from outside.

Everyone has their own opinions on Tang Xiaolin's choice, but the death of Tang Xiaolin has caused many questions:

What is the choice for optimistic schoolmaster Tang Xiaolin to jump off the bridge? Why didn't Tang Xiaolin, who published seven high-level papers during her Ph.D., graduate? What is the content of the six-page death investigation in the school?

1985, a talented woman from Peking University, Tang Xiaolin was born in an ordinary family in Yantai, Shandong. Several family members live in a small house, and their daily life is also very poor. According to the normal script, Tang Xiaolin could have continued to live a hard life like her parents, but reading changed her fate.

For the poor, reading is always the road with the greatest probability of success.

On this road, Tang Xiaolin relied on her own cleverness and hard work to overcome difficulties and became someone else's child.

Since childhood, Tang Xiaolin has always been the best student in her class, and her grades are often the highest among her peers.

Although she is a girl, she is full of interest in science and has outstanding talent in physics. She left a deep impression on many boys with her own ability, and was called "Sister Lin".

In 2004, Tang Xiaolin entered Peking University with high marks and chose her dream major of space physics.

Tang Xiaolin chose physics, the most difficult subject in mathematics, because she was curious about the starry sky since she was a child. Even if it is impossible to go to the universe in person, she hopes to contribute to the starry journey of the motherland in her own way.

During her four years at Peking University, Tang Xiaolin never lost herself. She still keeps self-discipline and studies hard as in the past ten years, and looks forward to the day when she will contribute to the aerospace industry of the motherland.

In 2008, Tang Xiaolin graduated smoothly. At this time, she did not choose to rely on her Peking University diploma to seek a high-paying job, but chose to study at the University of Utah, which is known as the Hall of Space Physics.

There is a world-class academic atmosphere and experimental conditions, and she wants to make greater progress there.

Located in Salt Lake City, the University of Utah is one of the oldest public universities in the United States. In the ranking of western universities, only MIT ranks above it, and it is not inferior to MIT in physics.

Top universities naturally have strict admission requirements. This major only enrolls 20 students all over the world every year. However, after overcoming many obstacles, the excellent Tang Xiaolin succeeded in getting the admission notice.

Considering the family economy and the time to go to the United States, Tang Xiaolin chose direct blog because it can save two years. Although shorter academic time often represents greater pressure, in order to save money and return to China as soon as possible to contribute to the cause of the motherland, Tang Xiaolin chose this road.

At this time, Tang Xiaolin, who went to the University of Utah, was full of her own dreams and the expectations and blessings of people around her.

Before going to study at the University of Utah, Tang Xiaolin's life was quite smooth.

However, at the University of Utah, Tang Xiaolin faced a blow in her life. She originally chose Direct Blog to finish her studies as soon as possible, but she stayed here for 9 years.

In the first two years, Tang Xiaolin performed well and successfully completed her graduate studies. According to the process of directly studying for a doctorate, in two or three years, she can get a doctorate and return to her motherland.

Reality broke Tang Xiaolin's plan. Even though she finished her doctoral thesis in the fourth year in the United States, three years later, her doctoral degree is still far away.

20 17 years, at this time, Tang Xiaolin had been in the United States for 9 years and studied for a doctorate for 7 years, which greatly exceeded Tang Xiaolin's expectations.

At this time, 32-year-old Tang Xiaolin was under great pressure. She has no job, is abroad, has a poor family and has no degree. She doesn't know why her past efforts are no longer useful.

During the seven years of studying for her doctorate, she completed her doctoral thesis and published six high-level papers. It stands to reason that she should have graduated and returned to China a long time ago.

But this is America, and tutors have the right to decide students' graduation.

Tang Xiaolin is excellent, and that's exactly what happened. This excellent and diligent China female student is even less likely to graduate. Who wants to spare a free labor force?

"It is difficult to graduate from studying abroad, not because the students' level is poor, but because the tutor doesn't want to let go of the free labor force, which can be delayed for one year." Some international students say this.

Lost Soul in Kinmen 20 17 10, Tang Xiaolin suddenly disappeared, and could not contact her family and friends. At the same time, she reported the case and released Looking for You.

After investigation, Tang Xiaolin's last stop before her disappearance was the Welcome Center of Golden Gate Bridge, which was 20 17 10 1.

The news came from a netizen who claimed to be a friend of Tang Xiaolin: "Xiaolin went to the welcome center of the Great Golden Gate Bridge by car that day."

The Golden Gate Bridge is a landmark building in San Francisco, and it is called the Holy Land of Suicide. Since its completion, more than 65,438+0,000 people have jumped off the bridge.

In the past, Tang Xiaolin's friend sent a photo of the Golden Gate Bridge in a circle of friends with the caption "I couldn't help crying at the moment I stood on the Golden Gate Bridge."

Tang Xiaolin commented below: "It's because it's too cold and windy."

Tang Xiaolin knows her good friend's mood. She is confused, but she doesn't know how to solve it, so she can only pretend to be strong.

20171On the evening of October 6, the police found a body on the shore near the Golden Gate Bridge. After several days of identification and inspection, the police confirmed the identity of the body four days later. It was Tang Xiaolin who had been missing for many days.

After the news of Tang Xiaolin's death came out, her tutor Savitz Safarian deleted the information of Tang Xiaolin and another China student on the information official website, as if Tang Xiaolin had never existed.

This is very suspicious. China students asked Savitz Safarian to announce the reason why Tang Xiaolin was not allowed to graduate, and asked the school to give the reason why Tang Xiaolin died.

201710 June 13, the university of Utah met with representatives of overseas students in China on the death of Tang Xiaolin. The results of the exchange were announced the next day: the school expressed its sadness at Tang Xiaolin's death, and had arranged an investigation on Savitz Safarian.

The school said that they would give a true answer and would never shield the tutor. The results of the survey will be announced to you by email.

After investigation, many details of Dr. Tang Xiaolin's life were published.

During the seven years that Tang Xiaolin studied for her doctorate, she was not the only student who delayed her graduation.

Her tutor has long been used to making students think they are poor and can't graduate by suppressing and belittling them. In fact, he just wants students to be his free labor force indefinitely.

In Tang Xiaolin's laboratory, it is normal to do experiments all year round. Tang Xiaolin often works as a tutor in the laboratory in the early hours of the night, testing data, and other students are overworked.

Tang Xiaolin's school sister said: "Xiaolin often stays in the laboratory until midnight, just to watch the experiment." It's really hard. " "Once after the afternoon of 10, I had just finished eating with her, and she said that she would go back and see the test results."

The school investigation team also found that Tang Xiaolin's tutor deliberately created an atmosphere of vicious competition in the laboratory, released limited experimental resources, and let his brothers and sisters quarrel over resources, using the tense atmosphere to urge them to work harder for themselves.

The investigation team also found that Tang Xiaolin had not obtained a degree for seven years.

In the United States, a doctorate is closely related to a tutor. As long as the tutor doesn't recognize the students' research results, no matter how good the students' papers are and what level of publications they publish, they can't graduate.

Although Tang Xiaolin published a high-level paper during her doctoral period, as long as the tutor doesn't nod, Tang Xiaolin won't get a doctorate.

At the same time, Tang Xiaolin's tutor also has obvious problems in the doctoral qualification examination.

According to American regulations, students who want to get a doctorate must pass the doctoral qualification examination. Generally speaking, the tutor decides the way and result of this qualification examination.

According to the regulations of the school, the qualification examination must be completed within three years after completing postgraduate studies and starting to study for a doctorate. However, Tang Xiaolin was not eligible to take the exam until the seventh year of her Ph.D., which is obviously inconsistent with the regulations of the school. Obviously, the tutor is deliberately embarrassing Tang Xiaolin.

After a series of investigations, the school found that Tang Xiaolin's tutor delayed the graduation of many foreign students from China in his past career, although they performed well and fully met the graduation requirements.

This survey lasted until 20 18.

During this period, the University of Utah hired an external agency to investigate the death of Tang Xiaolin. During this period, it conducted secret interviews with more than 40 professors, students and Tang Xiaolin's family and friends, and finally gave a six-page investigation report.

This survey confirmed the harsh living environment of Tang Xiaolin and the slim chance of getting a doctorate because of the tutor's deliberate delay. However, in the report, more emphasis was placed on Tang Xiaolin's psychological problems rather than taking responsibility for the school.

Finally, the school decided to suspend the enrollment qualification of Tang Xiaolin's tutor, and announced that it would conduct a thorough investigation and rectification of the college and replace the head of the Department of Physics and Astronomy where Tang Xiaolin was located.

After death, no one knew what the reason was, which made Tang Xiaolin decide to jump.

However, her predicament before her death is imaginable: her parents' expectations, her own dreams and the pressure of her tutor's squeezing and waiting all made Tang Xiaolin feel desperate.

After the death of Tang Xiaolin; After the pain of losing their daughter, Tang's father and mother turned white overnight.

Because they were too sad, they handled Tang Xiaolin's funeral affairs in a low-key manner and refused to be interviewed by the media.

After Tang Xiaolin died, her best friend visited her father and mother every year when she returned to China.

However, with the outbreak of the epidemic, she rarely returned to China, but she still kept in touch with her father and mother from time to time.

"Now Kobayashi is gone, but our friendship will not be broken." Tang Xiaolin's friend said this.

Jessica, a China student studying for a master's degree at the University of Utah, expressed her views on Tang Xiaolin's death.

Tang Xiaolin met Jessica in the third year in the United States and became familiar with her because of the introduction of her other disciples.

Jessica recalled the feeling when she first met Xiao Tang Lin:

"At that time, she had just come for three years, and the pressure was not great. The whole person is sunny and cheerful and loves to laugh. Her eyes are cute when she smiles, and she is humorous and playful on weekdays. Usually she is also very feminine, wearing only skirts and jeans. At that time, I didn't expect that she would have such a thing. "

Later, when asked about Tang Xiaolin's situation, Jessica said she was not sure:

"People who are familiar with her graduated and returned to China at that time. After hearing about Kobayashi, they basically didn't contact the students in New China. Listening to people around me, Kobayashi has become more and more homesick, almost only staying in the dormitory and laboratory. "

When it comes to academic pressure, Jessica said:

"The particularity of physics determines that any achievement must be constantly tried. Only after thousands of attempts can one day succeed carelessly, and Kobayashi is naturally under great pressure. "

"In fact, she has always wanted to find a reliable shoulder, but she has never been bombed."

"Being unable to graduate on time is very stressful for doctoral students. Many people will be in a state of depression, self-doubt and self-degradation. Even after graduation, there is still a long way to go in this field, and teaching posts at home and abroad have become more and more saturated. "

On the topic of delaying graduation, Jessica added: "This is very common in the United States. Few engineering doctors around us can graduate on time within five years. On average, they will graduate after six or seven years or even nine years. "

When asked about the tutor, Jessica said that she was helpless. Tutors have great power over students and can decide their career, but it is difficult for students to distinguish the personality of tutors:

"When I applied, I was confused. I don't know what kind of person my tutor is, so I can only resign myself to fate. "

Yu Feng, another international student from China, agrees with this view: "At that time, I applied for a whole half year, and I usually submitted dozens of resumes when looking for a job. But when I applied for a doctorate, I sent resumes to more than 65,438+000 tutors, and only three tutors were willing to admit me. It's like looking for a needle in a haystack. At this time, where can I not afford to be picky? More is determined by objective conditions. "

Conclusion Some people will question Tang Xiaolin's cowardice, but many things cannot be explained by cowardice alone. There is an academic term in psychology called learned helplessness, which describes the phenomenon that people will regard it as normal and lose the ability to resist after being used to some persecution for a long time. To outsiders, countless avenues are just the one that people take for granted.

It is more necessary to think about the causes and solutions of persecution than to criticize the vulnerability of the persecuted.

Tang Xiaolin is excellent, but under the tutor decision system, the better she is, the farther away she is from graduation. For some tutors with dark minds, free and high-quality labor will not be spared.

It is a pity that Tang Xiaolin had the opportunity to return to the motherland, continue to engage in her passionate physical research, and make contributions to the motherland. Unfortunately, she died in America.