What sentences describe my mood in My Cousin's Arrival?

I really want to master a powerful spell. If I say a word now, there will be a big storm, and my cousin and his party will change their plans and come here as guests.

Function: My mother always talks about my cousin's advantages, which makes me feel that I am nothing like my cousin, so I don't want my cousin to come to my house to avoid increasing family pressure.

I also want to learn the magic of calling the wind and rain, and I also want God to blow a storm. In this way, my cousin and his party can't go back to the hotel tonight, so they can only stay at my house.

Function: I know my cousin and I are in the same boat and want to increase our friendship.