The embarrassment that happened in the coffee shop

But sometimes we all foolishly believe in our own eyes, so that his kindness to you blinds your heart.

I have always wanted to write a story about coffee and love, but I have always lacked inspiration and experience. Until one day, when I passed by the floor-to-ceiling window of an antique coffee shop, I remembered that Z called me many years ago in the middle of the night about an awkward meeting in the coffee shop.

Yes, maybe people are like this. What you really want to look for can’t be found. Then when you suddenly want to give up, it jumps out and appears like a show off. In front of you, you can see your helpless little mood, so it seems to be very happy.

Ha, I’m going a bit far, let’s continue telling Z’s little story that happened in the coffee shop.

Here’s what happened. I was just thinking about how to find a job that day, because after all, there were still two or three months left before I could graduate to my undergraduate degree. I couldn’t just go home and stay there, and then I have been looking forward to the interview call and so on, so I paid close attention to the movement on my mobile phone. I was a little excited at every movement, because it meant that I would have the opportunity to go for the interview. However, you can think of what happened next. What I waited for was Z’s call, and as soon as she answered the call, she started complaining, saying that she only wanted to understand it now, and it was a good thing she didn’t agree to it at the beginning. She said a lot of nonsense on the phone, so I sorted out my thoughts and tried my best to restore the scene at that time.

What impressed me most was that Z said that she went to a coffee shop to drink coffee that day. For some reason, when she ordered a cup of coffee (as shown in the picture below), she always felt a sense of déjà vu. Then she suddenly remembered the person who invited her to drink coffee, and then she said seriously that now she finally understood why she was so decisive at that time. Because some things are really hard to do.

Actually, when I just heard this, I was quite confused, because the preface didn’t match the subtext. I don’t know why she decided against it, and then when that person invited him to drink coffee, they It's possible that there were some little snippets that happened in between that I don't know about.

Later she said the following meaningfully.

"I thought he was so nice to me. If I didn't accept it, wouldn't I be too cold-blooded? So I agreed to have a cup of coffee with him."

Oh, after hearing this, I probably understand what's going on. It turned out to be Mr. Q from before.

What I want to say is, girl, remember what you told me,

z mentioned this person to me, and Z said that he had just broken up with his ex-girlfriend recently, and he was in a weeks ago. He was very sad and said that he had given so much to his girlfriend, why did she leave and so on. Just two days before the start, I saw that Z was always answering the phone, and each time he called for a long time.

It wasn’t until a week later that Z told me that Mr. Q kept calling her on the phone to ask her to go out for a walk with him, eat something, or drink coffee, saying he wanted to relax. The feeling of depression after a breakup.

Z, on the other hand, asked me hesitantly whether he should go or not. It was obvious that Z actually liked Mr. Q. Otherwise, what girl would stay with a boy all the time, and when he was around? When I'm a girlfriend, I'm willing to smooth things over while giving the boy advice on how to please another girl. But boys always say that Z is a girl and understands girls' thoughts better, so it's inevitable to have to do it during Valentine's Day, anniversaries, etc. Think of some romantic gifts for Mr. Q to please his girlfriend.

As Z’s best friend, I know a little bit about it, but Z is a good old man and never rejects others.

I remember the first time Mr. Q called me in the morning, and Z said he didn’t have time now. Yes, Z was busy with the work at hand at that time.

During lunch time, I received another call, and it was him again.

It can be seen that Z still doesn’t want to go, because Z said that day that she clearly didn’t want to see him in her heart, because he always regarded her as a spare tire, and would not look for her when nothing happened. When showing affection, treat her like air and feel like she is nothing.

When he had a quarrel with his ex-girlfriend, Z became a punching bag, saying everything to Z, crying to Z, and then seeking comfort.

For a period of time, Z would drop the work at hand and act like a mother, caring, comforting, and telling jokes to make him laugh. But every time after hanging up the phone, Z couldn’t hide his anger. Live with bouts of disappointment.

I know that Z actually hopes that he will care about him, even if it is just a simple sentence of "it's very late, you might as well go to bed early", but every time he calls so late, Z doesn't receive it.

I almost couldn’t stand it anymore, but Z said that he and I were close friends, so how could we ignore him.

Finally that night, after he made nearly five phone calls, Z agreed to go out.

He heard that they went to a coffee shop that looked very feel-good. He ordered Z a cup of coffee that he didn’t know what it was called. Anyway, it looked beautiful.

But the next sentence made Z feel a deep chill. Mr. Q said that he and his ex-girlfriend often came to this cafe to drink coffee, and the seat where Z is sitting now is her ex-girlfriend’s seat.

Hearing such words, as a girl, I feel so entangled and helpless. But obviously Mr. Q was not aware of this. He went on to say that his ex-girlfriend liked the environment of this coffee shop very much. The coffee he ordered for Z was also her ex-girlfriend’s favorite. This cup looked very good. I don’t know what the beautiful name of the beautiful coffee is. In short, Z said that she took a sip at that time and said that it tasted good. Fortunately, I didn't say I liked it.

The entire conversation was inseparable from his ex-girlfriend. Z was so embarrassed sitting there because some couples were walking into the coffee shop arm in arm, and the design of the coffee shop was For the sake of mood, there are only a few faint lights shining on the wall. The surroundings are relatively dim. I can only see the blurry faces of the people opposite. There is a message board on the wall directly opposite Z, that's it. A place for couples to write their vows.

Even under such a weak light, I still saw XX, I love you forever; XX, I only love you in this life...

Such an atmosphere can be understood at a glance. It is exclusive for couples. As for why Mr. Q brought Z to such a place, my idea at the time was that Mr. Q actually knew that Z had some kind of feelings for him. When he was falling out of love, he was eager to grab a straw and climb up. , happened to find Z’s straw, so I kept wanting to ask Z out for a walk or something.

Z later said that at that time, she just felt that the person in front of her was not actually the person she imagined, so that her little liking for him before was completely eliminated in this coffee shop. Afterwards, I felt very lost.

But, after that date at the coffee shop, let’s call it a date. Mr. Q pursued Z in what should be considered a relatively fierce pursuit.

Sending flowers, chatting on the phone every day, asking her if she brought an umbrella when it rained, and asking her what she wanted to eat for lunch. In short, everything seems to be normal.

But when Mr. Q confessed his love to Z, Z said that she refused.

At that time, Mr. Q broke up with his ex-girlfriend less than a month ago.

Z said that it wasn’t until she encountered that cup of coffee again that she understood why she rejected Mr. Q’s confession in the first place.

Because it was her inner voice, she understood that Mr. Q did not fall in love with her at that time, but was just eager to get out of the shadow of broken love, so he confessed to her. Her heart made the choice for her.

The next story is that I went to study for undergraduate studies, and Z seemed to have changed jobs and had no contact with Mr. Q anymore.

Love is like this. You think the person you like also likes you. You accept his kindness to you. You want to lie to yourself. Maybe he only discovered your kindness after falling out of love, so he turned around. Let me tell you, he actually wants to be with you. But you can't deceive your own heart. After all, he doesn't love you, he just wants to get out of the haze of broken love quickly. What a painful realization.

Z felt a little like crying on the phone. I caught the slight tremor in her voice, but soon, Z said, J, I hope we meet people we don’t like in the future. When you are in love, don't confess your love just because you have just broken up or broke up, because it is unfair to that person.

Yes, Z used her experience to make me understand that in love, love does not mean you think he is good to you, but whether he is good to you also depends on the situation. If he just fell out of love and confessed to you soon, it means that his kindness to you at this time is not out of pure love for you, but because he wants to get rid of the fact that he seems worse and worse at the moment. Just a difficult situation.

Therefore, if we really encounter such a period one day, I hope we will all follow the voice in our hearts and refuse what we should.

Don’t be afraid of missing something.

Postscript: This is a text that I wanted to finish in September this year. However, due to some incidents that day, the save was not successful, so it was not published. Many previous inspirations were also I couldn't find it, so I kept it in the draft box, where it stayed for more than two months. When I was updating the article tonight, I suddenly saw the half-written article, so I tried to revise my ideas. Wrote it again.

I hope it can be repaired better this time, and I hope readers will find it comfortable.