Please answer 2020

Some people say that without the resumption, the experience will be lost. Undoubtedly, the magical year 2020 is the most memorable year, both for the world and for ourselves.

This year, we have experienced too much. This year, I am 30 years old.

30 years old is really a wonderful age, which is simply a watershed of my outlook on life and values. In this year, I rediscovered myself and the world. But that doesn't prevent me from making a lot of sand sculptures.

Although we don't want to recall this year, it will eventually become an indelible memory in our lives. So at the end of this year, I still want to record my real feelings and thoughts about the epidemic outside Wuhan as an ordinary person.

65438+1When the Wuhan epidemic broke out in early October, it was difficult to distinguish between true and false. I only thought it was a regional news event, and even some "eating melons" mentality, I didn't pay much attention.

5438+1in the middle of October, with the increase of reports, I began to feel as if this was a big thing, but it did not affect my life. On June 65438+1October1June, we still let Wa and Grandma go back to their hometown by train as planned.

Later, everyone knew that the situation was getting worse. With the approaching of going home for the Spring Festival, I realized what I should do around 65438+ 10/0/9. On October 20th, 65438/kloc-0 bought more than 200 masks, and on October 20th, 65438 265438/kloc-0 bought several liters of medical disinfectant alcohol.

However, the original intention of buying these things is not to deal with the epidemic.

Yes, at that time, I thought the epidemic was actually similar to a bad cold.

Then why did I buy wine? At that time, it had not been announced that alcohol could kill COVID-19.

In fact, it is purely an occupational disease. Because when you do experiments in the laboratory, you always wear disposable masks-disposable gloves-and then disinfect them with alcohol. It was a professional habit left at that time. I felt that the process should be complete, so I bought wine.

2 1 around noon, masks on major websites began to increase in price, and then they were out of stock. Later, alcohol and 84 disinfectant were also out of stock.

In 2020, thanks to my occupational disease, I didn't fall into the "mask shortage" prematurely.

Of course, I fell in later.

65438+1October 2 1 After work, I began to return to my hometown in Shandong from Shanghai. There were many people wearing masks on the train, but after returning to their hometown, everyone seemed to have no feeling about the epidemic. Wearing a mask, my husband and I walked strangely on the road. Everyone thinks that we are melodramatic and come back from big cities to pretend to be civilized.

In addition, it is worth mentioning that on my way home, I specially brought back a book, which is John M. Barry's 600-page "The Great Influenza-The Epic of the Most Deadly Pestilence". It's about1918-1919, which swept the whole world. It is said that 20 million people died, and statistics show that the death toll may be 50 million-1 100 million.

In fact, I took this book with me on the road, because I think there are some similarities between the 19 18 epidemic and the current epidemic. But I didn't expect the later development to make me not only believe, but also witness that "history is always strikingly similar."

Ok, come back to me during the Spring Festival in 2020.

I have been giving my parents popular science a few days before returning to my hometown, buying new year's goods early, going out as little as possible, and wearing masks when going out. But I don't really think the epidemic will have any impact on our lives.

Before the Spring Festival in 2020, I think few people would have thought that this epidemic would eventually become a global epidemic. At that time, I didn't even think that the epidemic would sweep the country. After all, in 2 1 century, our medical conditions are much more advanced than 19 18.

And I think that ordinary me will eventually lead an ordinary life, and it is almost impossible to experience major historical events.

If I had known that the epidemic would develop like this in the future, I wouldn't hesitate to go back to my hometown by car or by train, because I still chose to take the train because of the refund fee. Buying a mask won't take a long time to buy 5 boxes or 10 boxes. I only bought five boxes in the end. Needless to say, when I first returned to my hometown (especially before the Spring Festival), I was so arrogant that I used a mask. Even if I only walked in the village for five minutes, I would change my mask.

At that time, I thought that the "mask panic" would last for more than a month at most, and my five boxes were full. But the result is that it is still so difficult to buy a mask after coming back to work for a month or two.

We really wore masks for a whole year, and we may continue to wear them for a long time.

2 1 century, like 19 18, we really experienced the "great plague" sweeping the world.

During the isolation of my hometown, like most people, I stared at the data of new infections and deaths every day.

Before the inflection point came, watching the number of new infections from 100 to more than 500, to 1000, and then to 1000 every day, I really had some moments and felt that I might become one of these figures tomorrow. I am afraid that maybe I will really die in 2020.

I'm beginning to worry, will we be like 19 18? No matter how hard we try, the number of infected people will continue to rise.

I began to fear, will we also find that "a friend or neighbor who was fine for a week or even one day died the next day". Will "people die like flies" and "piles of bodies are waiting for burial, but people can't bury them" because "the grave digger is sick and the coffin is in short supply"?

During the isolation period, my husband and I had fever without cold symptoms one after another, which made my fear reach its peak.

What I imagined was the description in 19 18 that "people are so ill that they have no strength to cook, wash and carry the corpse out of bed, so they can only lie in a bed with the corpse", and finally "the living gradually get used to being with the dead". I'm afraid that if we all die, only a 3-year-old child will be left alone, and no one knows in this closed village. How can he live?

Later, as the village was closed for longer and longer, I began to calculate how many cabbages, how many kilograms of potatoes and how much rice and flour food were left at home, and how long I could last if I didn't go out.

This was my real fear at that time.

I even began to regret why I had to bring it back 19 18, and I was very diligent, watching it day and night, always thinking the worst and always scaring myself.

When I returned to Shanghai on February 8, I wasn't even sure whether the epidemic was really under control.

I even calculated it carefully. There are so many people in the family, and only these masks are left. How much should we take away and leave it to our families to maximize their value. There is a very tragic feeling, just like getting lost in the desert, how to distribute the last half bottle of water.

Dare not take the bus, regret not driving back. After struggling, I decided to drive my only car to Shanghai. Anyway, my hometown is close to the village, so I don't need to get on the bus for a while.

But I still feel unsafe driving back, for fear of being infected in the service area. So, I have the idea of becoming a genius. I bought adult diapers and plan not to get off all the way. This is inspired by the news that medical staff should wear diapers into the isolation ward.

However, I haven't used this thing before, and I'm a little worried about what to do if it leaks. After all, it looks like an extra-large menstrual towel, and it is not surprising that it leaks sideways. Moreover, the experience of taking care of the baby tells me that diapers and too much urine are inseparable.

So the day before I left, I tried it at home. There is no leakage, but it is really a little heavy.

Ironically, I wore it on the way back, but it didn't work. Because I'm still worried that it would be embarrassing if it leaked out. After all, it is not easy to do it in winter. So, I managed to keep myself 12 hours without peeing and not drinking a drop of water all the way.

Even if I have made all the preparations, I still dare not take my children back to Shanghai.

Because the home in Shanghai is too small, I'm not sure if the children can stay at home for a few days. And I think Shanghai is such a big city with such a dense population that there are too many people coming from south to north. I'm not sure if it's really safe after returning to work. I am afraid that in case Shanghai becomes the next Wuhan.

So, I decided to send the child to her grandmother's house. Why? Because I drove my grandfather's car back to Shanghai. At that time, the public transportation in my hometown had stopped, and I don't know when it will be restarted. I'm afraid that if my child is ill or something, he can't go to the hospital.

On the day I returned to Shanghai, the village was still closed and no one was allowed to enter or leave. Grandpa told people that we won't come back when we go out, so we can come out.

I sent my children to grandma's house, but I didn't go into the village. Grandma sneaked out of a path, then hid the child under the windshield of the electric bicycle, told him not to make any noise, and quietly led the child back to the village. It's like hiding a man who was searched by the whole city during the war.

After settling down the children, we embarked on the journey of returning to work.

I wanted to drive all the way and try to enter the service area as little as possible, but I found that the gas stations in many service areas on the expressway were closed. We began to worry about what to do if we ran out of gas and couldn't find a gas station. Finally, when it is determined that there is still half a tank of oil, fill it up when you see a gas station.

As a result, this trip became our most frequent trip into the service area. Of course, it's the kind that only enters the service area to refuel and dares not get off.

This is my 2020.

This is my stress response to the epidemic as an ordinary person, which is magical and real.

Fortunately, however, all the worst imaginations did not happen.

202 1, I will stay in Shanghai for the New Year, just hope it will not be worse than 2020. A family is safe and healthy!