I still like you, but I won't pursue you anymore.

When you met me, I was already like this, a finished product that met or didn't meet your ideas. You didn't participate in my growth. You can't see that I'm never sensible to sensible, never gentle to gentle, so what you know and like is only half of me. You can't understand my strange taboos, my persistence, giving up, patience and waiting. But I hope that in the end, you will choose me, find me and hug me.

one

Prince Gao Shuai was named Gao Shuai, because he was tall and handsome, with a height of 186 and angular features. But I privately added the prince at the back, with an exclusive title, and no one knows.

Prince Gao Shuai is not handsome. On the contrary, he is fat, with his chin hanging down to the neckline and his face full of "pronouns" of youth.

No one expected that the drama of diaosi attacking the male god would be staged on him.

It's no wonder that people who have appendicitis after emergency surgery don't want to exercise any more, so it's no wonder that Prince Gao Shuai has developed the physique of a male god in just half a semester.

Don't get me wrong, I don't like him because he is handsome.

Well, well, I admit, it was through his sunny and handsome appearance that I discovered his excellent inner essence.

However, if you study liberal arts in an engineering school, then you should understand how valuable it is for me to finally find a clean, refreshing and knowledgeable sports man when I am faced with the problem of going out with oily head cancer and engineering male's narcissism.

Besides, I smell "the same kind" from him.

The thing is this: my best friend ran away with a male ticket, and his buddy ran away with a female ticket.

We are all very emotional people, and we won't let go of other people's good feelings and the past, so we all become friends and know nothing about the light bulbs that stick together every day.

However, don't get me wrong, I'm not just tempted by this kind of "empathy", it's just accumulation, and the real trigger is in a certain oral class.

The foreign teacher asked us to exchange several groups of partners for dialogue practice. After that, we use rich psychoanalytic experience to evaluate and summarize our observations in the communication. Prince Gao Shuai and I were "lucky" to be nominated by him, because when we interact with others, we always subconsciously show our precautions-always holding our schoolbags tightly in our arms. I watched the foreign teacher pick up the schoolbags of Prince Gao Shuai and me, but my heart was filled with joy, as if I had finally found someone in this world who could feel the same way.

So, I searched him in the class. Fortunately, this semester, I joined Prince Gao Shuai's class, so I can pretend to ask about another boy in his dormitory for my friend and start a relaxed gossip conversation. After that, we naturally added WeChat.

That night, I turned over the dynamics of Prince Gao Shuai's circle of friends from beginning to end, and found that he was really a boy with great connotation. He has been to many places and left many excellent photographs, and he has his own profound and unique views on many things. The most important thing is that the whole person is very low-key, and there is no exaggeration and self-righteousness peculiar to liberal arts men.

This makes me prefer to pay attention to Prince Gao Shuai. Then, I found that he was very professional. He is generous when he speaks on the stage, and he can speak English in Kan Kan.

During that time, I only felt that I had been turning a blind eye to a pearl and insisted on covering it with dust.

two

I am a very smart person, so smart that I have to tell each other if I like it. Therefore, as soon as I confirm my inner thoughts, I can't help but express my thoughts excitedly.

As my best friend orange expected, I was rejected.

The reason is: it is irresponsible to promise others without knowing your feelings.

I cried bitterly and felt that I had grown so big. I used to like someone so much and was rejected so simply. It's really a failure to live.

But in fact, as the orange said, we really didn't have much in common before.

The fox also said, "I can't play with you because I haven't been tamed." There is no connection between us. You are an ordinary little boy to me and I am an ordinary little fox to you. "

Prince Gao Shuai and I are in this state.

Taming is to establish a spiritual connection, which we haven't yet. Prince Gao Shuai seems to have no intention of accepting this connection.

In addition, Fox also said another sentence, "It takes courage to establish contact, that is, taming. If I tame a person, or be tamed by a person, I will be in tears. "

Therefore, it takes a lot of effort to really establish contact with a person. It's not that simple, just like Gai Lou. After the cover, in the same way, breaking up is like tearing down a building.

In this way, I easily accepted the grandiose comfort of oranges, and made up my mind to establish contact with Prince Gao Shuai and cultivate feelings. So, my career of chasing men began.

First, chatting online, starting with how to practice listening and speaking, asked Prince Gao Shuai about his daily life arrangements, such as the specific time of reading in the morning and running at night. After getting familiar with each other, they began to involve more personal topics, such as hobbies, travel experiences, emotional exchanges and so on. Soon, I discovered the personality hobby of Prince Gao Shuai.

After that, I changed my lazy style and decided that "it is not a dream that wakes me up every morning, but Prince Gao Shuai". You know, for a slacker like me, I can't go to class at 8: 00 before 7: 30, let alone kill me while running, but I do it to get closer to Prince Gao Shuai. Every morning and evening, pretending to meet a "hi" is enough to make me happy.

In addition, I have always been sophisticated in "tracking", because I am in the same class and the schedule is the same, so I have a very accurate grasp of Prince Gao Shuai's leisure time. Except that he goes to the Student Affairs Office as the sports minister every Wednesday, the rest of the arrangements are basically soaked in the dormitory or library. As for the specific location, it depends on his qq online status. Wiffi or 2g.

Therefore, whenever he goes to the library after class, I will follow him. But don't get me wrong. I'm a stalker, girl. I am also a principal. I'm going to study.

Slowly, I found that Prince Gao Shuai likes to sit in the big row near the bookshelves on the fifth floor of the library. Naturally, I gradually got used to sitting in the inclined window seats in the rows behind him. From there, the light is just right, and the side is at a 45-degree angle, which is perfect. When I am tired of studying, I will look up at the profile of Prince Gao Shuai, smirk and study with great motivation.

I vowed to tell Orange that I must catch up with Prince Gao Shuai, but I was a little depressed within half a month. Because no matter how hot I chat with Prince Gao Shuai on the Internet, he is reserved and elegant, gentle and indifferent, and close to people feels alienated.

This makes me want to go further and I can't do anything about it.

One day, I followed Prince Gao Shuai into the library and was about to say hello. I was sure that the corner of his eye must have swept towards me, but it disappeared in my sight at the corner of Prince Gao Shuai on the second floor, and there was no Prince Gao Shuai on the fifth floor. Ruling out all possibilities, my sixth sense realized that Prince Gao Shuai was avoiding me.

However, this concern was dispelled in the next moment. I screamed loudly in the dormitory, and my speechless friends even rolled their eyes.

Well, my friends chatted with their classmates after running orienteering. The topic didn't involve any information related to me, but Prince Gao Shuai, who was casually playing with his mobile phone, suddenly asked them, "Xiao Bai? Xiao Bai, what happened to her? "

It is said that his speech is quite absent-minded

After listening, I jumped around happily in the dormitory. Does this mean that my long-term combat is still effective? I firmly believe that women chase men? Interlayer yarn, with perseverance, will never lose.

three

When my brother gets married, I want to go back to this province. Before I left, I made a reserved promise that Prince Gao Shuai would come back and bring him a bunch of "lucky" sweets. Prince Gao Shuai thanked me. I am elated again. This is the first time he has expressed his intimacy to me in this way.

For the next three days, Prince Gao Shuai was not around. I didn't even care about my brother's wedding, but I was anxious to go home.

I finally got back to school that day. I got up at five o'clock and began to dress up. I wore a linen solid color dress, white canvas shoes, and my hair was put down. The tip of my hair was curled with a curling iron and spread over my shoulders. Finally, I added a straw hat and made a fresh, literary and clever young woman.

I specially put some pigeons with love in the gift box carefully selected for Prince Gao Shuai, which I think is enough to show my heart.

When I got off the bus, I didn't even dare to go back to the dormitory, so I ran to the classroom directly with Prince Gao Shuai. The first thing I did when I came in was to find the position of Prince Gao Shuai, and then I sat next to the orange next to him.

But after the whole class, Prince Gao Shuai never looked at me again, which made me very disappointed.

It was not until the class was over that I quickly pulled oranges to avoid the eyes of my classmates and successfully followed the footsteps of Prince Gao Shuai. Prince Gao Shuai and his roommates went downstairs from the other side of the stairs, and the gift box was held in my hand nervously, leaving deep sweat.

Yes, I'm nervous,

Oranges laugh at my futility. She called out to Prince Gao Shuai to come here. A roommate next to Prince Gao Shuai stopped to tell him that someone was looking for him. To make matters worse, Prince Gao Shuai quickened his pace, as if he wanted to escape from the scene of the disaster.

Only the orange smiled awkwardly at me.

I took a deep breath and comforted myself. It doesn't matter. It's just the wrong occasion. He is a low-key introverted person, and naturally he doesn't like the goodwill of others in full view.

I succeeded in comforting myself again.

That afternoon, I was still standing in front of the library, with a carefully prepared gift in my hand. Far away, I saw Prince Gao Shuai coming, and then I watched him suddenly turn around and run away. . .

It really ran away. . .

I panicked, and then I seemed to understand everything. I panicked and subconsciously called oranges. "Orange, I have been deceiving myself!"

The orange rushed over and I held her in my arms and cried.

We walked around the school grove five times, and I finally decided to give up Prince Gao Shuai. Under the witness of Juzijun, I deleted Prince Gao Shuai's WeChat, qq and number, and completely cut off contact.

Back to the dormitory, orange pulled me to the bathroom mirror to cheer me up, and gave me a hard pull on the inner button I ironed specially for Prince Gao Shuai.

"Don't say the melon is not sweet. People are obviously chatting with you out of friendliness and courtesy. You still refuse to admit that you are not deceiving yourself, thinking that people have a good impression on you. Look at you now.

What about your arrogance and self-esteem? Why did you compromise for a man? What have you become now? Are you still yourself? "

I looked intently and saw that the original refreshing ponytail was put down by me to pretend to be a lady. Xiao Bai, who was originally sunny and lively, was adapted into a clever and quiet intellectual soft girl.

I lost my authenticity and suddenly found that my role was not happy at all. Even if I am with Prince Gao Shuai, how can I bear to live with a mask all the time?

Even if life is meaningless, I can't give myself a definition that doesn't belong to me!

Is it not a tall and handsome man? Toad with three legs is hard to find, but there are many people with two legs!

Must I hang myself from a tree? It's not worth losing yourself!

I take a deep breath and hold on to high!

four

Three months later,

I am still dressed in women's clothes, jumping on the fountain road in school with a tall ponytail, and running to the orange in front of me with open arms. A fierce man plunged into her arms.

Just came back from Hangzhou, as the first batch of writers and part-time editors, I completed the franchise contract with a newly established literature company.

I was so excited that I wanted to play with her with an orange, but she was indifferent and pointed to a place.

I turned around and saw the last scene of the phone being thrown into the fountain by a big arc.

At that moment, I finally understood what joy brings sadness. Next, I waited until the fountain overflowed at night, climbed down and took out my mobile phone. I am sad to think that I have to wait for my parents to send me a new mobile phone these days.

How to live without a mobile phone!

However, the next afternoon, the school post sent a notice of arrival. I was surprised by the efficiency of transportation. I didn't expect my family to be so considerate. It must have been sent locally. I am delighted to pull oranges to get the express. The moment I opened the parcel, both orange and I were shocked. I saw a note on the cell phone box, and the handwriting was still familiar and delicate:

"The little white, I saw what you wrote. Your writing is getting better and better. Watching you work harder and better, I'm really happy for you. Come on! "

Signature, Mr. Gao Shuai.

"I said how so fast, originally sent from school. Mr. Gao Shuai, what does this mean? " The orange complained discontentedly.

I immediately asked Prince Gao Shuai to meet him at the tea shop next to the school with the orange's mobile phone and return it to him.

"Xiao Bai, you don't like me, do you?"

Prince Gao Shuai looks a little sad.

"I just didn't have confidence. You are so enthusiastic and positive, I will avoid you. I didn't realize I couldn't let you go until you left! Xiaobai, can we start again? "

Prince Gao Shuai tried to hold my hand, but I avoided it mercilessly, a little bored.

"Even if I still like you, I didn't pursue your passion and motivation. Therefore, we can't go back to the beginning, and I won't love you as pure and unreserved as before. I am good to you, I have no power. Do you understand? "

Suddenly I feel that human nature is really cheap. People who are loved are always fearless, and only when they lose them can they know how to cherish them.

I remember that month I just decided to let Prince Gao Shuai leave. I am in pain. I gritted my teeth, stopped contacting and taking the initiative, but I still woke up from an uneasy sleep and just thought about that person.

But that man, now telling me to start over, asked me to forgive him for being "not ready" at that time.

With what?

Why didn't he think about whether those discerning people would laugh at and point out me when they avoided me, and finally came out, so he said he would go back when he went back? Jokes.

"So, small white, you still don't like me, right? If you really like me, you can go back to the way you were. "

Prince Gao Shuai said with a little consternation and anger.

I feel sick. I like it. Really?

Everything we see in this world has some dignity, let alone people.

Even if she is warm and indifferent now, isn't her sincere feelings worthy of your trust and respect?

"Yes, I just don't like you, and I didn't really like you before, I'm just lewd! Lascivious! "

I turned to leave, and the last thought in my heart finally broke into slag.

Out of the teahouse,

The sunshine outside is just right, and the years are good. It's good.