Why can a joke really make her believe it? So we broke up. ?

I had a beautiful life and a beautiful day, but everything changed because of the appearance of one person, thinking that I would get happiness, have a beautiful day and a beautiful life. At last I realized that everything was empty. It turns out that everything is just my naive idea, just my own guess, and everything is so helpless and illusory. I always thought that happiness was just passing by, and it didn't really exist, but there was nothing. Paying too much attention to everything will make you helpless, and you don't know what to do and how to face it, but what can you do? I always believe a joke, thinking that a miracle will happen, but everything is so uncertain and unrealistic. I insisted foolishly, just for a mirage, thinking that there would be returns and results, and the results came out, but they were not what I wanted. But what I always know, what I don't want to face, haha, is just the happiness of passing by. Why should I care so much? Why did you pass it, just for fun? Maybe it's true, just passing by, there is no possibility of staying, haha, it's ironic, why happiness is also passing by,