The love you gave me is like the tide.

"Can you wait for me? I don't want to miss you, because I really like you! " He suddenly became excited and his eyes were extremely complicated. Some of them don't want to stay, but more people don't. But I know that feelings can't be repeated. If I know there is no result, I will fight for it and it will end in the end. I said, "You know, your feelings for me are as easy to rise and fall as the tide, but once I pay, my feelings will never come back, just like a river flowing into the sea, never looking back."

encounter

September 20 14, I just entered this university, full of freshness. Although the school is small, I still wander around it like a tireless bird. Indeed, there is nothing special about this school, but I firmly believe that there is a magical power hidden in a corner waiting for me to discover.

It is here that I met him. It was a sunny day. At the school gate, he wore a black sweater and ripped jeans, and his hair was a little messy and fluffy, facing the big sun. From my point of view, it's like a golden egg on the Bird's Nest in a Li Yong program.

? "Hey, want a coke?" He looked at me and said.

? "Me? Me, I don't want it, my mother won't let me drink the drinks given by others! "

? I'm serious, and my face is red. The man looked at me like a psychopath for a long time, then turned around and greeted others to buy drinks. Only then did I realize that he was actually selling coke, not buying it for me. I was so embarrassed that I pretended to be calm and walked into the campus, but then I heard him say to another partner pitifully, "This girl must have never been accosted." It's really pitiful. " I suddenly felt suffocated

? Later, I learned that he was a junior and had advanced placement because of his good grades. Seeing the new students entering the school, he wanted to make a fortune. Ben is about my age, but he knows how to make money better than me. This man is very economical. He sells warm treasures in winter, fans in summer and lipsticks in spring and autumn. He is really a woman's friend. Not only that, he also embarked on the road of getting rich with the whole dormitory and was nominated as the principal. Because he knows how to make money, he was invited to give a speech on stage, telling his personal experience and setting an example for his younger brothers and sisters.

There are many rumors about him at school. For example, when he first entered school, he took a fancy to a senior, but he didn't try hard to catch up with him. Finally, the senior became his half-girlfriend, and closed the door for days and nights without eating or drinking. For example, he is not handsome, but he never lacks women. For example, his parents divorced, and he grew up on his mother's meager salary, so he studied hard to make money. ...

I saw him again at a school cadre party. I happened to sit next to me this time and saw me here. He said sarcastically, "Hey, don't you have a boyfriend yet?" Just because you didn't buy my coke. "

? Hehe, this man is really funny. I gave him a white look. He ignored it, but turned his head and stood up and began to speak: thank you for coming, thank you for your support all the time, so that I can earn so much in our school. Let's not talk about anything else. Today, let's not get drunk! "

After that, I heard two rounds of applause with different frequencies. The boys screamed and cheered, clapped their hands fiercely, and the girls were sparse, as if they turned a deaf ear to what he said.

I seem to hear their psychological activities: "Cut the crap, I'm starving!" " ""Drink up and I'll leave. " "Why hasn't anyone moved chopsticks? "This embarrassing time is particularly long. Finally, someone put down the glass and picked up the food. I'll eat it soon. He invited many people, but few came. I had a few drinks during the dinner, but I went to the toilet more than a dozen times. Alas, we are strangers, but we like to drink other people's wine. My head was a little dizzy and I fell asleep on the warm pillow.

be overwhelmed with shame and rage

? The next day, the whole school exploded, saying that I ate tofu from a boy named Liang when I was drinking. I swear I've never eaten other people's tofu, except that one day I pinched my roommate's chest on a whim. After class, I walked out of the teaching building in frustration, thinking about the strange things that happened today. Suddenly, someone patted me on the shoulder and whispered, "Hey, did you hear?"

? "What?" I am absent-minded.

? "What do you pack garlic? Of course, you ate my tofu! " He's a little angry.

"Oh, so you are Liang." I turned my head. It sells coke. "When did I eat your tofu? Even if I eat your tofu, you don't have to tell the world! " I am more angry than him. I was taken seriously by him because of something untrue. I am a girl! My reputation is ruined!

"Well, you, you don't admit it!" He covered his chest with shame. "A few days ago, I saw your emotional instability and gave you a good hand. Who knew you reached out and pinched my chest? Everyone at the party saw it. If you don't give me money, I will accompany you! " I paused and recalled the scene that day. It turned out that I mistakenly thought that he was a roommate who pinched his chest. What was even more disgusting was that he felt worse than before …

"Well, my name is WeiShengJing you remember, later remember to find me to reimburse the cost of breast cancer. I have something to do. I'm leaving first, and I'll talk to you later! " I quickly escaped from his sight, leaving him with a sad and determined figure.

Back to the dormitory, I slammed the door and was covered in cold sweat. I couldn't stop the hormones in my body. How dare you extend an evil hand to my lovely classmates? Thought of here, I blamed myself, ignored the gossip in the dormitory and fell asleep.

grief

? "Sanitary napkins, losing money, sanitary napkins, losing money ..." Early in the morning, I was awakened by this alarm. Today is the weekend, but I heard Liang shouting downstairs in the dormitory. I checked my cell phone. It's only six o'clock. This man is so obsessed with money that he wants to make money in this way. I immediately put on my slippers and rushed downstairs, handing him a bag of coins. "Don't come to me in the future, we are even!"

? He ruined such a perfect morning, and I suddenly felt that the air was not fresh. Sure enough, after a while, he still called my name below. This time, he used a big horn for dumping goods in the mall. God, if everyone knew that I was the culprit who woke them up, I would definitely be beaten to death! If I hadn't been killed, it might have been pointing at me all my life. I shudder at the thought of it.

? I can't bear to rush down again. I wanted to give him a hammer, but in the crowd of onlookers, I actually met my senior in "Love" in high school. What could be more shameful than this? My face turned red, and Liang said shamelessly, "Let's all go home. I found someone who ate my tofu. Thank you very much. " He tried to pull my wrist on airs, and I left the crowd without saying a word, just letting him pull me. We ran and ran, through the school snack street and the coffee shop on the corner, all the way to the most profound scene in our memory.

? He was about to open his mouth to say something when I raised my hand and slapped him.

? "Hum, what do you think you are? Torture me and laugh at me. You haven't hurt me enough! If I had a choice, I would rather never know you! " I said viciously with my teeth clenched and my eyes red.

? Yes, I have known him for a long time. I met him before I was sixteen. At that time, it was the flower season. He is younger and more immature than now, and his eyes are full of lakes and mountains on earth, as bright as a mirror. I remember that I had a crush on him for a long time, and finally got up the courage to confess, but I was taken lightly by his words. I was in adolescence at that time, and I watched my weight climb all the way. Although I didn't care too much, I managed to control it. He and his girlfriend Jiao Jiao, who were together only a few days ago, flew past me.

? "So fat or what do you mean? Really self-sufficient! "Jiao Jiao is talking.

? "Stop it, you will get angry quietly." He pretended to be angry and smiled.

? His new girlfriend, an innocent girl, leaned on his shoulder, which reflected my strength ... I walked past him like a stranger with tears in my eyes. It's my fault to like him. I don't blame anyone else.

memory

? I still remember when we were children, we were inseparable partners, and we always had to wait for another one after school. When I fail in the exam, he will wipe away my tears. When I fall, he will blow on my wound and comfort me gently. And I never thought that our relationship was so cold that it would make him drift away on the road of time.

? I am sad, but there is no one to talk to. His new girlfriend always pretends to call me by my nickname. Every time I walk past her, I have to talk about his kindness to her, showing off intentionally or unintentionally, and my heart has changed from severe contraction to occasional dull pain. I'm getting used to such days, and I'm a little numb.

? When I noticed traces of his breakup, I didn't believe it. After all, their feelings are as good as fish and water. Just like the confession that day, I was trying carefully, and sure enough, they broke up. He is frank and has no ambiguity. At the moment, I am happy and happy. I am stupid enough to believe that he broke up because of me, and I believe that he can't bear our feelings for many years. During that time, he was devastated, as precarious as withered autumn grass. I see it in my eyes and it hurts in my heart.

? "No, I don't want him to like me. I just want him to live a happy life. " I said to you, "If you can't talk, I'll say it, and I'll help you get her back!" " "You are tired and say no, you are very good, let me not worry. At that moment, I really thought you were back. After a few days, you made up, and my heart was sad and happy. Sadly, I wasn't with you, but fortunately, you came back to life. You and she are always on and off. She is warm and cold to me. My heart is flickering like a bird submerged by the night and the stars in the sky. I am lost here and can't find my way anymore.

answer

? I scratched my hair and remembered everything before, and at that time my heart was uncomfortable.

? "I, I really didn't mean to embarrass you in front of the person you like ..." He began to explain incoherently and anxiously. In order to save face, after he refused me, he immediately said that I liked someone else, but he wouldn't know that I didn't care at all, and the person I liked was not that other person.

? "You have a good look at this place. When we were young, we often came here hand in hand. You always ask me to buy you the biggest cotton candy. At that time, I often saved pocket money just to share it with you. You don't need to like other people anymore, I am your best choice. " He said confidently.

? I looked around. In a blink of an eye, many landscapes have been renovated, and even the old man selling cotton candy has been expelled by time. In those days, the position of her booth has been replaced by cold video game machines, and everything can't go back. Only those exclusive memories that I liked when I was young still hurt, as if it were yesterday. I don't want to have anything to do with him. Those dark days, gloomy yesterday, still tell me that I am deeply afraid of him. I dare not touch those secrets. I am afraid that one day it will suddenly penetrate into every corner of my body and blood vessels and devour me.

? "Why did you break up with Jiao Jiao?" I asked the question I always wanted to ask, but I was afraid to ask.

? "She chatted with other boys behind my back, thinking I didn't know." He snorted, as if he were the one who knew women's minds best. "Hello, always appear when I need it most, and never give me any trouble." He said happily.

? I sneered. It turned out that I was just a spare tire in his heart. In his view, I am his most loyal guardian and will never betray him. He never liked me, and I was full of myself. He regards love as a game and a pastime when he is bored, because he needs company and I can't. If I can't two of a kind, what is love?

? "I'm sorry, I have tried, but I really don't like you. Thank you for doing this for me, which reminds me of the carefree days before. Thank you very much. " I tried not to cry.

? "Why? Am I not doing well enough? " He probably didn't expect that I would refuse to love him so humbly. I've been trying to win his love for me. This time I decided to live up to myself and end all my wishful thinking about him.

? "I'm sorry," I said firmly with my head down.

? "Can you wait for me? I don't want to miss you, because I really like you! " He suddenly became excited and his eyes were extremely complicated. Some of them don't want to stay, but more people don't. But I know that feelings can't be repeated. If I know there is no result, I will fight for it and it will end in the end. I said, "You know, your feelings for me are as easy to rise and fall as the tide, but once I pay, my feelings will never come back, just like a river flowing into the sea, never looking back."

Final results

? 20 16 May, I was quietly drinking bubble tea in a tea shop, and I felt its temperature spread from my palm to my whole body through a cup, but my eyes drifted out of the window. A handsome boy took a girl's hand, and the girl smiled sweetly. The boy's name is Liang, and the girl's name is Wang, who is the senior sister of his brother's girlfriend. I smiled and continued to drink milk tea.

? "Do you still like him?" The man sitting opposite me is Jiao Jiao. In fact, we were very good friends before Jiao Jiao met him, so after he left her, we got together again. Now, sitting together, we can't help sighing about those youthful years, talking and laughing. At the beginning, it was he who actively pursued Jiao Jiao. When Jiao Jiao found out that I liked his boyfriend, it was inevitable that he would have some jealousy. Girls are always keen on who likes who between feelings. They expect talented people and beautiful women in love to spend a long time preparing for this, so that they can meet those predestined causes in the vast sea of people and then be together forever.

? "Of course not, but you, in such a hurry to ask if I still like him. Don't you like him? " I said sarcastically.

? "Hum, you are poor. Go shopping in the afternoon. I haven't seen you for several years and miss you very much. "

? "ok."

? She and I stood up at the same time, and naturally took her arm and went out.

? It is really sunny today.

end