Why am I afraid of being seen through by others but also eager for others to understand me and enter my inner world?

Actually, I also like to close myself to my own space. When I meet a friend who I think I can be close to, I can become a very good friend with him. In fact, you can close yourself to Your own space, but within limits. Don't say that no one cares about you, it's just that you don't realize that others care about you, because you have closed yourself in your own space, which is equivalent to locking yourself in your home. What can you see through the door? Try to slowly open the door a crack and look at the people outside. Try reaching out to the people outside your door.