What moments do you think you are living like a joke?

Now everyone's life pace is relatively fast, and these years have not been particularly smooth. 30-year-olds have no savings. Some of my friends in my hometown have no particularly stable jobs. I don't know why, others buy houses and cars in the city. On the contrary, I work hard outside and have no requirements.

Sometimes I inadvertently think about what I have done for so many years. I think I just had a baby. The only thing I don't think is a joke is to harvest a little guy who fell off me. My joys and sorrows seem to come from her.

From pregnancy to the birth of a baby, and even the growth of a child, it is a stumbling person. From ignorance to groping slowly, I carefully let my children grow up safely. Looking back at friends who are far away from home, my parents-in-law help to take care of the children, buy a house and buy a car, and my parents-in-law can contribute to the payment. Even if there is no big income in a year, it is safe and stable on the whole.

But I don't know what I have gained after so many years. I left my parents and married my present husband. I thought we would have a good life, but in recent years, I have really become a joke. When my parents objected and my relatives objected, I thought I could tell them with actions that my choice would not be wrong. But after all these years, I hit myself in the face.

Don't compare yourself with many excellent friends. I feel that I am already the worst. Renting a house outside and raising a child is a big expense every year, and there is almost nothing left. I don't know what I'm insisting on, and I don't know what to do next. I can only pretend that my eyes can't see, my ears can't hear, just muddle along, stay with my children every day and don't want to face the outside world.

If possible, no matter which turning point in life, choice is very important! Please be realistic?