Tender sympathy (1)

I met my ex-girlfriend Xu Na when I was doing my first job in Beijing. At that time, we were all college graduates, but the schools were not 958,211,and they were all unknown universities. Fortunately, neither of us likes anyone; we have the same hobbies. We both like singing. We met at KTV where friends met. I am the same age as her and my major is just the same, so we have a lot in common.

We exchanged contact information with everyone's input. I have a feeling that every time I want to get close to Xu Na, I shrink back. Xu Na is not an indifferent girl, but she always feels that she has rejected people thousands of miles away. Xu Na doesn't like to laugh, but she always has an unspeakable sadness, which always makes me feel that she is different from other girls, which further arouses my desire to protect her.

Once, after I got off work, Xu Na called me and asked me if I was okay. If I'm okay, she asked me to find her. She said she needed me. I asked her if something was wrong, and she said she would know when she went.

As Xu Na and I are not in the same administrative region, and the distance from Beijing is very large, I took a luxury taxi for fear that Xu Na would wait for me in a hurry. I went to the place Xu Na said. When I saw Xu Na's red eyes, I knew she had cried. I asked her if something happened and if someone bullied her. Xu Na didn't say anything. She hugged me, buried her head in my arms and cried.

I didn't react at the moment. After I reacted, I looked at the person in my arms. The softness and warmth of my chest made me feel different. I obviously felt the ups and downs of my chest, which convinced me that Xu Na needed comfort now. Fortunately, where we met, there were very few people coming and going. I hesitated for a moment before I dared to touch Xu Na's back. Unexpectedly, Xu Na cried even harder, more sad than before. It was summer, and Xu Na was wearing white short sleeves and light blue jeans. I felt a lump when I touched her back. Although I have no experience of falling in love, my face is still hot, and my mind immediately appears choppy. I know, at this time, I am a little immoral and hypocritical. I also came to my senses automatically and didn't deliberately do anything to hurt and bully her. I was a little embarrassed, so I patted Xu Na three times and waited for Xu Na to recover.

I won't comfort girls, let alone tell jokes to make them happy. To be precise, I am extremely nervous when facing girls. I'm too nervous to say a complete sentence.

When Xu Na and I first met, I was like this and didn't say a word for a long time. Xu Na bowed his head and smiled. I was also amused by Xu Na. The smiling atmosphere is much better. I am embarrassed to touch my head and say, "I smiled!" " She smiled and said, "OK, that's good!" Say that finish, Xu Na turned away, secretly smiled. Maybe she has never seen a boy like me, so she thinks a boy like me is very funny.

At that time, my palms were wet, like a flood.

I didn't talk to Xu Na until her mood stabilized. I said, "Xu Na, why are you crying?" Xu Na wiped her tears and said, "Nothing." I don't think Xu Na will talk, and it's not good for me to ask any more questions. In fact, I am still very sad when I see crying, and I especially hope that I can make her laugh.

"Jie Gu, I think I'm going to die alone in my life." Xu Na didn't look at me when he said this sentence, as if he were mumbling.

"no!" I tried to laugh at Xu Na's expression, but I didn't laugh. I said, "How can a girl not get married? Even if we are lonely, we boys are single. " When I saw Xu Na, I still looked unhappy and said, "I'm still here. You can think about it. " I volunteered to give Xu Na some confidence. Although I don't know what she has experienced, I always regard her as a friend and hope she can be happy.

"You be my boyfriend!" Xu Na suddenly said such a sentence when I was unprepared. Although I always wanted Xu Na to be my girlfriend, I never thought I would be in this situation. I don't know why, but I feel like a hypocrite. I'm not aboveboard and immoral at all. I stood there in a daze, speechless, as if the "good" weighed a thousand pounds, and I couldn't say anything.

Seeing that I didn't talk, Xu Na lowered his head, smiled gently and said, "Look, I scared you!" "I want to defend myself. Xu Na shook his head and said, "Stop it, I don't want to hear it." Xu Na said and left. I couldn't see her face clearly when I left. She was pale and bloodless, and her long hair just covered her haggard appearance. She is really having a hard time, like being lovelorn, like a life change, and like an unexpected trouble. Judging from her state, she is in a terrible mood.

In this cold city, I think Xu Na and I are the closest and friendliest friends. I don't know why I didn't promise just now, but I regret it.

Xu Na hasn't contacted me for a long time since I came back. I think she is angry with me and wants to break up with me. I returned to a state of being alone, eating alone, sleeping alone, walking home from work alone, and walking alone in the park of the community. In fact, I once dreamed that there was a girl by my side to do these boring and trivial things, and the life I wanted was so plain. I like and yearn for this kind of male and female life very much. I also want to accompany that person to wherever she wants to go. She climbs the mountain if she wants to, and sings if she wants to. I even want to take her to challenge the limits and challenge herself. I will take her to the North Pole to see the Polaris and polar bears, to the South Pole to see penguins, to climb the Malong Mountain in Homa, and to dive.

Whatever you do, as long as she is with me.

So after a month, I went to bed very late one night. On that day, my mobile phone just forgot to mute and vibrate, and I don't know how long it rang. When I woke up to look at my mobile phone, I saw three missed calls, all from Xu Na. I hesitate to call Xu Na back. Xu Na's phone rang again. After the connection, I didn't speak. I heard a familiar and strange phone call first. To tell the truth, I was very happy at that moment. She remembers me, calls me, and remembers having me as a friend. Xu Na came over and said, "Jie Gu, won't you call me unless I call you?" I said, "No, I'm just worried about disturbing your life and making you unhappy." I didn't expect Xu Na to be silent, so was I. I am most afraid that the two of them will not say anything, just like the air is petrified. I don't know how long it took, but Xu Na said, "You know, I'm very unhappy that you didn't call me? Jie Gu, I want to know what you are thinking. " I don't know why, but I especially like Xu Na's tone. Maybe people are just cheap to the bone. I said, "What is it? Go! " My tone is like asking the other party the lowest acceptable price when talking about the bill. The air became silent again, and Xu Na said simply, "I miss you, Jie Gu." I didn't speak, I didn't know what to say. Xu Na and I have never said such a thing, Xu Na said to me for the first time. I said calmly, "What's there to think about? I know I'm not as good as you think. " Xu Na said, "Did you miss me?" I was at a loss by this question raised by Xu Na again, just like a bomb thrown at me by Xu Na, which made me at a loss. "Is there?" Xu Na asked me again and I said, "Do you have to answer?" Xu Na said: "Must!" I said, "No, it's fake. You are my friend. " Xu Na said flatly, "Oh!" Xu Na say that finish, hung up the phone.

I don't know what medicine is sold in Xu Na gourd, but I don't feel at ease, so I sent a short message to Xu Na and said, "Is it difficult?" If you need help, just ask. "Mainly worried about Xu Na accident, embarrassed to speak, just ask. Five minutes later, Xu Na didn't reply to the text message. Half an hour later, Xu Na still didn't reply. Until I waited an hour, Xu Na still didn't say a word.

I give myself a wry smile and wish you a wonderful Xu Na.

Colleagues see that I am half dead, and they want to introduce me to my girlfriend. I began to refuse, and he looked at me meaningfully as if I couldn't do it. Anyway, I said yes When my colleague pushed the girl's WeChat to me, I thought I made a mistake. I sent a smile to the girl, and it took her a long time to reply. The reply was very official. The girl said, "My name is Xu Na. Nice to meet you. "

It would have been impossible if it hadn't been an accident. For the first time, I feel that this city is so small. God let me meet Xu Na again in this way. I replied to Xu Na: "Hello, my name is Jie Gu, nice to meet you!" Let everyone down, so my conversation with Xu Na is over.

When I got off work that day, I was sorting things at the station. I heard my colleague say with a smile, "Yes, your boy has a pie in the sky, someone is looking for it, and he is still a beautiful woman." What good things have you done in your last life, and your personality is so explosive. " I said in a daze, "Just laugh at me. Who will come to me?" . Even if you fool me, try another way. "My colleague came up to me, patted me on the shoulder and said," If you are lucky, don't be ignorant. Now there are more wolves than meat. You don't cherish it, but there are people behind it. "I thought about what he said and couldn't figure out who was looking for me, but his tone didn't sound like a joke. In desperation, I took off my badge and went out.

I went to the front desk and saw a girl from behind, with waist-high curly hair like a big wave. This hairstyle is just my type. Wearing a professional black dress, the figure is perfectly displayed. I stepped forward and asked softly, "You wanted to see me?" The man turned around slowly. I thought I was wrong. She said, "Why, I don't know him?" I feel embarrassed. I don't know where to put my hand. I touch my hair and put my trouser pocket. She smiled at the moment and bowed her head and smiled. Seeing my embarrassment, she said, "Are you off duty? I invite you to dinner! Do you have time? " I nodded, looked at her and said, "Off duty!" She took my arm and said, "Let's go!" This time, I really thought that my personality had exploded, and my mind was at a loss. I became a docile little sheep, and I would go wherever she went.

After getting off the elevator and out of the office building, she said, "Let's take a taxi. The place to eat is a little far from here. " As she spoke, she waved the car to stop, but she still wouldn't let go of my arm. I dare not move, for fear of upsetting her, but I am worried that she has been holding me uncomfortable and wants to break free. She grabbed it again and said, "You are my boyfriend tonight!" "She still doesn't look at me, but I can feel that what she said is true, and I can smell her faint perfume, and I don't know whether it is the fragrance of shampoo or the smell of shower gel. However, the taste is not as pungent as that of other women, but it has a faint fragrance, like a drop of dew on a lotus flower, and clear water produces hibiscus.

She stood beside me, and I was afraid to look at her. Out of the corner of my eye, I accidentally found her wearing a pair of black high heels and wearing light makeup on her face. Her eyelashes are long, dark and thick, and I saw her breasts. Don't get me wrong, it's not what I think. The clothes she wears show her breasts very well, and I try not to let myself see them. I also saw her sexy mouth, like lipstick. I don't know what color lipstick to wear. It looks natural and perfect, just like it was born. I can't help but want to take a bite. It looks particularly fleshy.

When she saw that I didn't talk, she let go of my arm and crossed her hands on her chest. She said, "Jie Gu, I'm sorry to tell you now. Please accompany me to the party. I will buy your time. You can be my boyfriend tonight. Just this once, okay? " She was so sincere and dedicated that I thought I heard wrong. I was about to see her when I saw her face facing me, so I quickly turned my head away.

This time, she is really different from before, beautiful and sexy, sexy and intellectual. I can't find any words to describe her and praise her.

Jie Gu? She called my name again, and there was a sadness in her tone. I think this party should be very important to her. There must be someone she cares about, otherwise she wouldn't be dressed like this.

"good!" I looked at the road ahead and didn't even ask why.

When the taxi arrived, I opened the door for Xu Na, blocked the roof for her and let her get on the bus. I sat next to Xu Na, and Xu Na gave me the address, so we went.

After getting off the bus, I have to admit that the luxury in Beijing is always beyond my imagination, just as people say that poverty will limit people's imagination. I suddenly understand why Xu Na is dressed like this, and how out of place I am here. All the people who come in and out here are glamorous people, either with outstanding looks or with money and status. I can only think that my inner self-esteem was instantly defeated and turned into a withered eggplant, and I felt that my back could not stand up straight.

"Let's go in!" Xu Na still took my arm and smiled at me just now, which made me feel that my life had reached its peak. I don't know if being addicted to money is how I feel now. No wonder so many people would rather have no country than beautiful women. I suddenly understood that if so, those people could forgive me. Because in that environment, it is easy to make such a choice. Who doesn't care about beauty, who doesn't want to fight for a smile.

I nodded to Xu Na gently, and Xu Na patted my arm gently to cheer me up.

A doorman dressed in professional clothes and as handsome as a movie star smiled at us and said, "Welcome!" "When I entered the hall, I was really shocked by the grandeur of the hall. The gorgeous colors suddenly amazed me like Granny Liu entering the Grand View Garden. The crystal lamp hanging from the top is like a blooming lotus with pink petals. If I didn't look carefully, I thought it was a lotus. I want to look around, but I dare not, for fear of exposing the exaggeration of that small place.

"Don't be nervous!" Xu Na felt my panic and comforted me in a low voice.

I tried to make myself smile, but I'm not sure if I did. I always feel stiff and out of control.

"Let's sit over there!" Xu Na motioned me to sit down in an empty seat in the corner of the banquet.

When Xu Na sat down, she smiled gently at me. At that moment, I thought Xu Na was really beautiful, and I really wanted to whisper this in her ear. Even if I do this, she shouldn't be angry, and she won't call me a rogue.

Unfortunately, I will always be a giant in language and a dwarf in action. Lend me a hundred courage, and I dare not say such frivolous things. Maybe that's why I'm still a virgin.

Xu Na hasn't spoken to me since we sat down. There are more and more people in the banquet hall, and everyone seems to behave appropriately, which is completely in line with this environment. Men are wearing flat suits, and women are wearing beautiful dresses, holding red glasses, talking and laughing, and enjoying themselves.

Xu Na sat there, drinking one cup after another, as if the outside world was nothing to do with her. Sensing that I had been watching her, Xu Na raised the goblet and said to me, "This wine is very expensive. If you don't drink, there is no chance. " Say that finish, gulp down, like those heroes in the water margin, just look up and drink and drop the bowl on the ground. I don't think I'm drinking real wine, but I hear that crisp and loud "pa" sound, which is very interesting and unfinished.

Xu Na took another glass of red wine to drink, leaned up to me and said, "Cheers! Jie Gu! " Her eyes are different, too, with the color of red wine, as if she were drunk.

I think something is wrong with Xu Na. When she drank the next cup, she quickly grabbed the cup and put it on the table, saying, "Stop drinking! If you drink again, you will be drunk! " Xu Na gave me a look, which surprised me. She suddenly smiled and said, "Are you afraid I'll make a fool of myself? Afraid I'll embarrass you? " I said, "No! You are drunk! " Xu Na's face suddenly cooled down and said, "Let go! I'm not drunk, I know better than you! " I couldn't convince Xu Na and I couldn't say anything in public, so I had to make her lose her temper.

I have to say, the traffic in Xu Na is really good, and I drank more than a dozen cups in one breath. Then I heard a speech in the middle of the hall. So this is an engagement party. I don't know why Xu Na drinks so much. Is this her ex-boyfriend's engagement party, which makes her so sad?

After the banquet, I helped Xu Na to walk back. Xu Na himself was drunk and unconscious. Red wine has a strong aftereffect, and Xu Na is already unstable. Her whole body leans against me like a pool of mud. I helped Xu Na call a taxi on the side of the road, got on the bus and left.

The driver asked me where to go, and I didn't know where to go. I shared a room with someone else, so I can't take her back. I don't know where she lives. If I had known this, I would have asked her current address in advance. The driver kept asking me where I was going, so I had to stop at a nearby hotel.

I opened a room in the hotel, helped Xu Na in, helped Xu Na to bed, helped her take off her high heels and watched her lie on the bed. I have a mean idea. In order not to overdo it, I hurried to the bathroom and washed my face with cold water. When I came back, I covered Xu Na with a quilt. I was worried that I couldn't hold it, so I took a cold shower. I just kept praying that I wouldn't catch a cold the next day.

Xu Na slept like a log. She just talks in her sleep from time to time. As for what she said, I couldn't hear clearly. What she said was vague. She just yelled. I was beside her, softly comforting her and saying, "Xu Na!" I don't know if Xu Na heard me, but after she heard me, she immediately quieted down. In this way, one night, four or five times, until four o'clock in the morning, Xu Na was better, and I squinted for a while.

When I woke up, I saw Xu Na lying in front of my eyes and looking at me. Her eyes were so big that I jumped out of my chair and knocked Xu Na down on the bed. Xu Na didn't expect me to have such a big reaction. After a few seconds, she smiled and pulled the quilt over her head. I said angrily, "What are you laughing at? Is it that funny? " Xu Na slowly emerged from the quilt, trying not to laugh, and said, "Nothing!" "Say that finish, she covered the quilt and laughed. Xu Na's smile embarrassed me, so I pulled the quilt forward. As a result, when Xu Na and I were fighting for a quilt, I accidentally kissed her, and even more embarrassing, I kissed her sexy lips. She drank so much wine last night that I was afraid she would throw up all over me. Unexpectedly, her wine was delicious and she didn't throw up at all.

I was still numb and thought I was dreaming. Xu Na suddenly pushed me aside. The atmosphere is so strange that I dare not speak again. Xu Na coughed, cleared his throat and said, "Thank you! It helped me so much yesterday. " I dare not look at Xu Na. I bowed my head and said, "Nothing!" Say that finish, two people who didn't say anything. On the contrary, Xu Na reminded me, "It's seven o'clock. Are you still at work? " I quickly said, "Go!"

"You ... you slept in the chair all night?" When I went to the bathroom, Xu Na suddenly said this sentence.

"Yes!" I always seldom talk. I hate myself very much. Why do I always want to say it but I can't? Just as I cherish words like gold, I am stingy and refuse to say a word.

Jie Gu! Xu Na called my name softly.

"What is it, you say." I turned around and looked at Xu Na sitting on the bed.

"Am I pretty?" Xu Na suddenly asked me an irrelevant question, which kept me guessing.

"Beautiful!" I dare not look at Xu Na, but at the window.

"Then you, do you like me?" Xu Na tentatively asked me if it was not as crisp as before.

I nodded, which means I like her very much.

"Are you dumb? Can't talk? " Xu Na asked with concern.

"Is there anything else? No, I'm just going to wash up. It's getting late, get up and tidy up. It's too late to go to work late. " It seems a bit passive for Nuo Nuo not to face up to Xu Na's problems just now.

"If you like me, we will be together! Will you, Jie Gu? " Xu Na's tone seems to be begging me to promise, with an unspeakable sadness.

"I won't take advantage of people's danger!" I'll tell the truth and take a stand.

"You didn't!" Xu Na shout at top of voice, let me shudder. Although Xu Na said so, I think Xu Na must be lovelorn. Otherwise, she wouldn't be as drunk as she was last night. I didn't answer Xu Na, but went directly to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. After washing and dressing, I saw Xu Na's hair tied up, her hair tied high, and she was refreshed, which was completely different from last night. "I'm ready, you go." I smiled gently at Xu Na. When Xu Na passed me, there was a faint smell of wine. "You go to take a shower! After all, you drank wine last night. " If Xu Na didn't come to pick me up, I would say, "I only paid the room fee at noon today. If necessary, I will go down for another day, don't go to work, have a good rest and adjust my state. Going to work tomorrow will make the whole person look different and give colleagues a different feeling. "

"Thank you, don't bother. I will go home after cleaning up, wasting money here, not spending money! "

"A few days, it doesn't matter."

"You don't have to listen to me. After washing my face and brushing my teeth, I have to go. "

"Then I'll go first!"

"good!"

Xu Na said this word while brushing his teeth. When I put on my coat and went to the bathroom, I struggled and said, "You were beautiful last night, but I prefer your natural appearance." With that, I left.