Have you ever met someone you couldn’t love?

I believe everyone has encountered this. It just feels very regretful, and I personally pushed away the person I couldn’t love, and I regret it every time I think about it.

It was the first time I saw him during the military training in the first year of high school. Because the sun was very bright, I could only look down at my feet. He was standing behind me. Every time the instructor gave the command to turn left, I You could see his shoes. They were not very clean, but they had a pig's nose pattern on them. They felt so cute, so I started to pay attention to him. He was tall, a little dark, and his appearance was kind of cute and handsome. Type and hairstyle were also the most popular among students at that time. Anyway, I like him however I look at him, and the more I look at him, the more handsome he becomes.

The ten days of military training passed quickly. When I started to divide my seats in class, I found that my seat was very close to his. Because I was studying in junior high school, I didn’t talk to boys much, and I didn’t understand how they talked. jokes and dirty jokes they told. Every time they joke with me, I always don't understand and look confused. Maybe the boys around me think I'm relatively innocent, so they always like to tease me. Of course, he was among them. Although I don't like them joking with me like this, I don't care if I can talk to him more and look at him for a while. I listen quietly when they joke and occasionally ask him out of curiosity.

After a while, some people began to say that they liked me and made jokes about us. Although I said not to joke, I was really happy. Later, people said in front of him that I was his wife. He didn't deny it, he was very happy at the time.

Because he was that kind of bad boy. He would always block me after class and wouldn't let me go. I was really embarrassed and annoyed at the time. After a few days like this, one day I went upstairs for self-study in the evening, and I happened to encounter him holding a mop and going down to mop the floor. Then he blocked me in the corner and refused to let me go, and then kissed me on the face. He left immediately and I was totally confused. After returning to the classroom, I was still a little overwhelmed.

Because I had never been in a relationship before or been very close to a boy, I was a little panicked, so I told a young lady I had a good relationship with. The young lady asked me if I liked it. I was shy at the time. She said, of course not, and then she told me that you should tell him clearly and ask him to stay away from you in the future. If he keeps doing this, how will the school evaluate you in the future?

I didn’t understand at the time, but I just felt that I couldn’t bear it if someone gossiped, so I sent him a message saying that you should stay away from me from now on. I don’t want to talk to you at all. He just replied One word, good.

The two of us never spoke again even if we were in the same class. Even now I regret it very much, so don’t let shyness and embarrassment miss the most sincere love