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"The Best Confidant" Pang Jielei

Xiaotong and Xiaoqing are classmates in junior high school. Like other girls, they like to go to the toilet together and make up stories in self-study classes. Lucky Star, likes to go to the school gate after school to buy stinky tofu worth 1 yuan for the two of them to share, and likes to comment on the boys who have just transferred to school... Unlike other girls, they write to each other almost every day.

She told Xiaoqing that the kitten at home had a bad appetite recently and was curled up in the corner without making a sound; the host of the 9 o'clock music station was replaced by a woman who spoke very seductively and spoke an average of six times every ten minutes. Non-standard tone; every time I walk from Huaihai Road to the library and see the handsome guard in front of the consulate, I always feel a little moved... Xiaoqing told her in the letter that her mother makes a cup of wolfberry tea every night and goes upstairs. While playing mahjong at her aunt's house, the remote control of the TV fell into her "clutches"; a math problem stumped her, giving her an excuse to call the math class representative; she often did white stuff I dream about losing a key every week and wonder if I am suffering from Alzheimer's disease early...

They arrive at school almost at the same time every day, park their bicycles in the shed and take out the letter from their schoolbags Give it to the other party. For a while, she and Xiaoqing were obsessed with "A Dream of Red Mansions" and liked to compare poems, so they wrote in the letter: "Let's write poems about peach blossoms next time."

They had telepathy, and Xiaotong was in his heart Thinking of which song, before she could say anything, she heard Xiaoqing singing. The two of them cut their nails at home over the weekend, and when they talked about it on Monday, they discovered that they cut their nails at exactly the same time and in the same order.

Xiaotong feels that Xiaoqing is the best confidant in her life. While she was studying painting in the Children's Palace, she drew a card, showing two girls playing on a swing, and wrote a few round words next to it, "To my best confidant - Xiaoqing." Later, she put the card in an envelope and gave it to Xiaoqing, who folded 99 lucky stars and gave them to her in return.

The head teacher said they looked like twin sisters, and their classmates said they were conjoined twins. They accepted it with a smile and continued as usual. They also said that it would be great to live like this for the rest of their lives. No one was allowed to fall in love. If they had to fall in love, then they should fall in love with a boy at the same time. The three of them would love each other. When my parents heard this, they laughed so hard.

But from that day on, Xiaoqing’s letters gradually became fewer and shorter. Xiaotong panicked.

Yueyue, a new girl in the class, seems to be very close to Xiaoqing. They sit in the front and back seats. They often whisper to each other in class and laugh from time to time. Xiaotong often sees the two of them together at noon. We went shopping, bought books, and even shared a cone. Xiaoqing didn't like the chocolate chips on the cone, so Yueyue did it for her. The two of them should be as good as Xiaotong and Xiaoqing before.

Having not received a letter from Xiaoqing for a week, Xiaotong squatted in the toilet and cried secretly. By chance, Xiaoqing came to the toilet and heard her crying. There was no door to the toilet, so Xiaoqing took her out directly and asked her what happened. She burst into tears, pointed at Xiaoqing's nose and asked almost growling: "Tell me clearly, who is your best friend?" There were many girls watching in the restroom, and even boys were in the women's restroom. Poke your head at the door. Xiaoqing said nothing.

The next day, Xiaotong received a letter from Xiaoqing, which was the card she sent. Xiaoqing wrote on a small piece of paper, "Maybe I am not your best confidant. You can give this card to others."

When Xiaoqing was writing a classmate list after graduating from junior high school, Xiaoqing left a message to Xiaotong. In his little file, Xiaoqing wrote "Your best friend." "Yueyue's name was written in that column. Xiaotong cried all night while holding the book of classmates.

In high school, Xiaotong, Xiaoqing and Yueyue are in the same school but in different classes. The three of them often meet in school, nodding to say hello, or saying a few words casually, such as there is a lot of homework recently, so they are polite.

Xiao Tong does not have a particularly good girlfriend. The girls in the class who live on campus have their own circles, which are basically based on the dormitory. Talking in bed will make their relationship unbreakable. For girls like Xiaotong who attend day school, their best friends are probably their deskmates.

Seeing Yueyue suffering from new injuries but still putting a smile on her face all day long, Xiaotong thought to herself, no wonder Xiaoqing likes Yueyue so much.

Xiaotong never asked Xiaoqing why he suddenly got together with Yueyue. He didn’t have the courage, not to mention, it was already in the past. Xiaotong just wants to be good friends with Xiaoqing and Yueyue.

When filling out their application for the college entrance examination, the three of them agreed to stay in Shanghai together. Xiaotong wants to major in philosophy. Although it is not popular, she likes it. In fact, she doesn’t know much about what philosophy is. She just likes the word philosophy. Her parents are very democratic and respect her choice. They only remind her to do well. Be prepared for jobs to be hard to find. Xiaoqing decided to take the economics major because she wanted to be a strong woman. When she said this, Xiaotong was surprised. In her impression, Xiaoqing should be a good wife and mother. Yueyue is determined to take the medical exam because her mother is in poor health and becoming a doctor has been her wish since childhood. Female academics, strong women, and doctors, they all have clear plans for their futures.

Xiaotong and Xiaoqing are going well. Their college entrance examination scores make them sure that they can enter their favorite school and study their favorite major. However, every month, their scores are falling behind their expectations. Unable to get into her first choice, she chose to accept a transfer and went to Guangxi Medical University. Xiaotong and Xiaoqing couldn't even imagine such a far away place. At first they thought that the farthest place Yueyue could go would be to Nanjing, but who knew that the quota in Nanjing was full. Yueyue said that as long as she can study medicine, it doesn't matter where she goes.

During the summer vacation, Xiaotong and Xiaoqing accompanied Yueyue as they wandered around major department stores. They picked out a lot of underwear, hair accessories, T-shirts, jeans, sneakers, bags, cosmetics, daily necessities, and even... I bought several packs of White Rabbit toffee, saying I was worried that it would be inconvenient to shop there just now. Hearing that summer in Guangxi is relatively long, Xiaotong bought two bottles of sunscreen with a relatively high SPF value and stuffed them in Yueyue's suitcase.

Before leaving, they went to Beijing with a tour group, took photos in front of Tiananmen Square, ate roast duck in Quanjude, looked for handsome guys everywhere on the campus of Tsinghua University, and also wrote "The three of us will always be the best" The note "Good Friend" was hung on the bridge of the Imperial College.

When sending Yueyue to the train station, Xiaotong and Xiaoqing promised not to cry, but they broke their promise and cried so much that they were out of breath. Instead, they asked Yueyue to comfort them. Yueyue said that communication is so convenient now. You can send text messages, video chat, and make phone calls. What are you afraid of? She will come back every winter and summer vacation and take them shopping together. Don't think she has become a bitch by then. Yueyue also said that it was only seven years and it passed quickly.

In the past seven years, I have been studying for a bachelor's degree and a master's degree every month. When I went there, I was young and as young as a flower, but when I came back, I had already entered the ranks of older women. Xiaotong and Xiaoqing seem to be able to wait, but can Tao wait?

Tao is Yueyue’s boyfriend and a high school alumnus of Xiaotong and Xiaoqing. Tao is tall and strong, likes to play basketball, has his own style of play, and is very humorous. Wherever he is, there is always laughter. He runs very fast, has good explosive power in short sprints, and has good endurance in long-distance running. He is a bit stinky. Very confident. Xiaotong and Xiaoqing did not expect Yueyue to be with him. They thought that Yueyue should be with a mature and steady person who could protect her, but Tao was obviously too playful.

But Xiaotong and Xiaoqing will still wish them well. Feelings are like shoes. Only the parties involved can know whether they are suitable or not.

Yueyue went to Guangxi for two weeks before contacting Xiaotong. She said that it took a lot of time and energy to move to a dormitory, get books, freshmen training, and become familiar with the surrounding environment, so she didn't contact her until now. Because it was a long-distance call, I couldn't talk much. There were many people waiting to call in the dormitory, so I hung up the phone in a hurry.

Later, Xiaotong learned all the news about Yueyue from Xiaoqing.

Xiaoqing’s school is quite far away from Xiaotong’s school. It takes more than an hour to get there by taking two cars. Xiaotong went there once. Because the weather was hot and the car was too crowded, she got carsick and vomited for a long time. After that, she was too frightened to go. Xiaoqing works in a travel agency after school, and often takes tour groups to the Jiangnan area. Every time he returns to Shanghai, he will give Xiaotong some local specialties. Of course, I also left a copy for Yueyue and sent it to her from the post office.

Yueyue also sent them some local gadgets, and Xiaotong's share was also handed over to Xiaoqing. Xiaotong often writes letters in public class, to Xiaoqing and to Yueyue, writing about common things, such as sisters in the dormitory, reading experience, or meals in the cafeteria. These letters read real, plain and simple. Trivial. At the end of the letter, the junior classmate told them not to reply if they were stressed about their studies. As a result, they rarely replied to letters, and occasionally sent postcards with a few words to wish them well. But that's it, Xiaotong is satisfied. She prepared a shoe box specifically for postcards.

After all, college life is much richer than high school, and Xiaotong no longer leaves a reputation for being withdrawn. She participated in various club activities, such as the drama club, the literary club, the catering association, and the music lovers club, and she insisted on participating in the activities of each club, and it was by no means a three-minute hit. The relationship with the girls in the same dormitory is also okay. We eat together, go to the supermarket together, attend lectures together, take a shower together, talk about skin care together, occasionally change clothes, and occasionally exchange thoughts.

The days pass by slowly like running water.

If Xiaoqing hadn’t talked to Xiaotong about Yueyue and Tao, Xiaotong wouldn’t have realized that Tao and he had been in the same university for two years. Tao was from the computer department. Playing games day and night, taking make-up exams for several courses every semester. The re-teaching fees he paid could be considered a small contribution to the construction of the school. Of course, that's not what's important. Xiaoqing seeks out Xiaotong for the sake of Yueyue and Tao's relationship.

No matter how good the long-distance relationship is, unexpected conflicts will arise. For example, a quarrel in person can be reconciled in person, but a quarrel on the phone often leads to a cold war for many days. Furthermore, because they cannot see each other in person, both parties will inevitably become emotionally irritable, and over time, the original deep affection will fade. This is what happened to Yueyue and Tao. At first, the two of them would save their living expenses and exchange for air tickets or train tickets, just for a short period of time, but as time went by, they became tired.

Xiaoqing said that he hoped that Xiaotong would do Tao's ideological work when he had time, so that he could be more proactive, positive, considerate, and learn to give way to Yueyue, coax Yueyue, and coax girls. Just coax it. Also, you should always pay attention to whether there are other girls around Tao. Once a third party appears, there is really no room for redemption.

Xiaotong asked Xiaoqing, if I encounter problems in my relationship, will you care about me? Xiaoqing touched her head and said, "Fool, of course you can. We are good sisters. If anyone dares to bully you, I will give him a beating." This is the answer he wants, but Xiaotong secretly hopes that his relationship will be smooth sailing and that Xiaoqing won't have to worry about it.

For Yueyue, no, for Xiaoqing, Xiaotong went to find Tao. Originally, Xiao Tong was the most annoyed with dealing with such stinky boys. He hated their cynicism and their unwarranted sense of superiority. Tao had many such qualities, but his occasional lack of confidence and childish temper made Xiao Tong I think it's cute too.

Tao knew Xiaotong’s intention of approaching him. He also said with a smile that Xiaotong was tired of being with him all day long. He was so outstanding, how could any other boy dare to chase her? If one day Xiaotong If you can't get married together, don't settle the score with him. Xiaotong said, who should he worry about? Once fate comes, nothing can stop it. She is not worried about becoming an old girl. What she is worried about is that if there are too many people chasing her, how will she choose? . When I'm with Tao, I can't help but argue with him.

Xiaotong had a lot of control over Tao, such as calling him early in the morning to urge him to get up, not allowing him to skip classes, forcing him to study by himself at night, making up for missed homework, and insisting that he take over the assignment. I am a tutor, saying that I know how hard it is to make money so I can study hard.

The girls in the same dormitory saw Xiaotong like this and advised her, why bother? Is it necessary to care so much about other people's boyfriends? But Xiaotong still has to take care of it. This is the task assigned by Xiaoqing.

When Xiaoqing knew that Tao finally broke up with Yueyue, and it was because of Xiaotong, she slapped Xiaotong loudly in front of Tao, and Tao also slapped Xiaoqing. Xiaoqing covered her face and left. She bought a plane ticket to Guangxi and wanted to see Yueyue.

Xiao Tong has been ill for more than a month. He has no appetite, insomnia at night and headaches.

Why does Xiaoqing have to believe that this is Xiaotong's fault? She didn't even ask, so she thought it was Xiaotong's fault?

When Tao gave Xiaotong a bouquet of roses on Valentine's Day night and forcibly took away her first kiss, she strongly resisted. She knew the consequences.

Tao said that being with Yueyue was very tiring, but being with Xiaotong was very relaxing. Even if she was in charge of everything, he was still happy. A man's judgment on love is simple and clear, and happiness is the only criterion. Tao said that Yueyue may not really love him, but she was attracted to him just because he ran fast. Yueyue always had the urge to run away from home. She said that if Tao ran fast, he could take her far away and no one could catch up. Tao said that he was afraid of Yueyue's eyes when she said this, full of fear and panic. The Yueyue mentioned by Tao is something Xiaotong doesn't understand. In her eyes, Yueyue is such a cheerful and optimistic girl. It seems that she does not understand Yueyue, although she calls herself her best friend.

Tao's fierce offensive almost overwhelmed Xiaotong. No boy had ever shown such need for her, and she never knew that she would be so important in someone's eyes. Occasionally her heart was moved, but she still resisted, knowing what the consequences would be.

On the night of her birthday, Xiaotong had been waiting for Xiaoqing's call. She wanted to make it clear to Xiaoqing that she hoped Xiaoqing could help her solve Tao's matter. But there was still no call until ten o'clock in the evening. She couldn't bear it anymore and took the initiative to call Xiaoqing, but Xiaoqing said that she was checking information online for Yueyue and would just hang up if there was nothing wrong. Xiaoqing forgot her birthday.

After hanging up the phone, she felt soft when she saw Tao rushing into the girls' dormitory risking his life and delivering the cake to her, even though she knew what the consequences would be.

Before Xiaoqing went to England, she met Xiaotong in a private room in a teahouse near the school. The two almost ended the meeting in a quarrel.

Xiao Tong said, why do you have to believe that Tao and Yueyue broke up because of me? Why are you so partial to Yueyue?

Xiaoqing said, why do you have to compete with Yueyue for a boyfriend? Are all the men in this world dead?

Xiaotong said, you know how to take care of Yueyue, but when have you ever cared about me?

Xiaoqing said, you are fine and don’t need too much care from me. Why are you so petty?

Xiao Tong said, how do you know I am well? When you returned the card to me, you said that Yueyue was your best confidant. Do you know how sad I was? I feel like the sky is falling. Did you care about me then? Twins and conjoined twins are all bullshit. You change your mind faster than a man.

Xiaoqing said, are you willing to make me completely yours? You have a healthy family, you have parents who love you, but Yueyue doesn’t. I just care about her and feel sorry for her, what's wrong?

Xiaotong said, I don’t know, I don’t know anything. Anyway, I can’t accept you being so close to her all of a sudden.

Xiaoqing said, you don’t know, I will let you know that Yueyue’s father is a domestic violence man. He beats their mother and daughter when he is drunk. Do you think that Yueyue’s injuries are all her own? Did you touch it accidentally? I care about Yueyue because she needs me more than you!

Xiao Tong said, but why don’t you let me know? Why do you want to hide it from me? You say you treat me as your best friend, but why do you want to hide it from me together? You two have so many secrets, I feel like a fool.

Xiaoqing said that I kept it from you because I didn’t want these things to have a psychological impact on you. You have grown up so big, have you ever suffered? How many times have you seen the dark side of society? How strong is your mental endurance?

Xiao Tong said, if you had told me earlier, I would definitely not be with Tao!

Xiaoqing said, it’s too late to say this now. Do you know how much the blow of broken love is to Yueyue? Tao was her only spiritual support, and she almost collapsed!

Xiao Tong said, why did things become like this? I really want to be very, very good friends with you, Xiaoqing, you know how much I care about you.

Xiaoqing said, however, so many things have happened, and we can no longer be like before.

Both of them were tired and sat on the floor, hugging each other and crying.

Why did things become like this?

The most common thing Xiaotong said to Tao was: I have nothing left, I only have you. Xiaoqing and Yueyue left her at the same time, and their departure this time was decisive, and there was no possibility of reconciliation.

Xiaotong began to worry about gains and losses. She stipulated that Tao was not allowed to talk to other girls and could only think about her every day. He had to report to her wherever he went and said I love you once every day. At first, in order to calm Xiaotong's pain, Tao did as he was told. But later, he said that he couldn't live without his own space. He said that if he was monitored 24 hours a day, he would completely collapse. At this time, Xiaotong's tear glands began to work hard. She said, there are always many excuses for men to change their hearts. A change of heart is a change of heart. Why do you have to find so many excuses? Tao was not immune to Xiaotong's tears. He hugged her and said that he had not changed his mind and he would not change his mind.

We have said that we should separate many times. Xiao Tong said that, and Tao also said that they are still together despite being noisy. Sometimes they are more like two comrades. Because they have offended all their friends, they have to rely on each other closely, and they are just out of anger and want to prove to others that they are not together impulsively.

Is it impulsive? In fact, Xiaotong himself didn’t know much about it. Sometimes I feel that I love this man very much. I especially need his care when I am sick. I want to borrow his shoulders when I am sad. I want him to accompany me when I am lonely. Sometimes I feel like I hate this man. Without him, Xiaoqing would not have left her, and Xiaoqing would not have said those cruel words. She would often hide under the quilt and cry. The sisters in the dormitory thought that Tao had made her angry and comforted her one after another. Who would have known that she was crying because of another girl?

I decided to break up with Tao because I found that Tao still kept in touch with Yueyue. Tao Hui remembers to send gifts to Yueyue on her birthday, and calls her to say Happy New Year during the Chinese New Year. He often forwards interesting text messages to her. Moreover, the two of them will meet when Yueyue returns to Shanghai.

This is an opportunity to break up.

Unexpectedly, Yueyue would send a long letter to Xiaotong. Yueyue said that she did not want to persuade her to reconcile with Tao. After all, it would be hypocritical for her to say such things. She just wanted to tell Xiaotong that although she still hoped that someone could take her away from the violent family and run far away without letting anyone catch up, that person would never be Tao. In addition, she no longer hates Xiaotong. It takes time and energy to hate someone, which she cannot afford, and her studies are very heavy. Her biggest dream is to be a good doctor and give her mother a happy old age. In addition, she mentioned that Xiaoqing came to her after she and Tao broke up, hoping that she would not bear grudges against Xiaotong and that she could bless Xiaotong and Tao. She and Xiaoqing had a falling out over this matter. She blamed Xiaoqing for why she favored Xiaotong. Now she has figured it out. It's not hers and she can't force it. If Xiaotong knows Xiaoqing's address in the UK, I hope she can tell her that she misses Xiaoqing very much.

While reading this letter, Xiaotong was sitting in the car returning home from get off work. The car was bumpy and the light was not very good. It took Xiaotong a long time to read clearly every word written by Yueyue.

Having not contacted Tao for a long time, Xiaotong called him and asked him if he had time to have dinner together in the evening.

During the Chinese New Year, my mother sorted out old things and sold the books and exercise books from Xiaotong’s junior high school and high school to people who collected secondhand goods. She used the money she got from selling the books to buy them for Xiaotong. A piece of thermal underwear. Xiao Tong stepped on her underwear like crazy. Her mother pushed her away angrily and picked up the clothes. She said they were just selling old books. Is it necessary to be so angry? Why does the older you get, the worse your temper. How did my mother know that there were so many letters written to her by Xiaoqing mixed in those old books? Those letters were the most beautiful collection from her middle school days, and maybe the most beautiful collection in her life. How come they were included in the book and sold for a few cents a pound? Woolen cloth?

Xiao Tong left his mother’s nagging behind and went out for a walk. I met my high school teacher on the street. She was shopping for new year's goods. It was she who saw Xiaotong first and called her out. She said that Xiaotong had not changed much, and there was still a little melancholy in his eyes. Xiao Tong also said that the teacher has not changed much. In fact, he can clearly see that there are a few more wrinkles in the corners of the teacher's eyes.

After casually chatting about the situation of the classmates, the teacher suddenly said, you know, a girl from your class died in a car accident a few days ago, and she was in the UK. It is really a sin for such a young person to die in a foreign country. Xiaotong's hands and feet felt cold. The teacher thought for a while and finally said the girl's name, Xiaoqing.

Forgetting how to say goodbye to the teacher, Xiaotong felt dizzy. Asking Tao for Yueyue's mobile phone number, he pressed 11 digits tremblingly and called Yueyue. He wanted to hear Yueyue say that this was not true. Maybe Yueyue was chatting with Xiaoqing online at this moment. It wasn't Yueyue who answered the call, it was her classmate. Her classmate said that Yueyue had been mentally depressed for the past two days. Her best friend died in a car accident in the UK. She didn't talk or eat, and she kept lying in bed in a daze.

Crack, the phone fell from his hand.

Xiao Tong has always had a question in his heart and wanted to find an opportunity to ask Xiao Qing, why did he invite her to the bakery on the day of the coming-of-age ceremony? This question has troubled her for so many years. She wanted to find a suitable opportunity to ask her, but why was there no such opportunity again?

Xiao Tong squatted on the road and cried so hard that it seemed like half of his body had been removed.