How did you realize the importance of learning?

I am as handsome as my deskmate. He is the admirer of many beauties. All kinds of beauties always come to his lips, care about him, ask him questions, and give him gifts. Gifts, treating him as a prince, being proud of being able to get in touch with him, and I am hated by all girls. Whenever he sees me, he will just tell me to go away or make me work. It seemed like I was the trash they were tired of. Hate, inferiority, and envy were always intertwined in my heart like a devil. Then one day I couldn't stand it anymore and yelled at my deskmate while eating the food in the bowl and looking at the food in the pot. I was obsessed with lust. Later All the girls scolded me, feeling sad and sad. I started reading the sentences in the English book loudly and vigorously, and happened to be seen by the beautiful teacher. She said that this classmate is so active and is our learning goal. One hundred praises, I feel proud in my heart. In the next few semesters, I always ranked among the best in English and was surrounded by beautiful women. To have fun, I kept calling them scheming bitches in English... and they clapped their hands and applauded me. What are they talking about to me.