Why is Yao Zijin unwilling to marry Zhu Zhanji in "Shang Shi"?

Because Yao Zijin was forced to enter the palace at the beginning, and a woman who had been employed by the royal family could not marry unless she became a monk or died. The reason for approaching Zhu Zhanji at the beginning was just to see what she would do for him. What kind of person is she who has lived for so many years? After all, she is proficient in music, chess, calligraphy and painting because of him. She learned pipa, orchestra, horseback riding and hunting all for him. Secondly, it was also to prove that she is not inferior to Hu Shanxiang. When her true identity is exposed When she came out, it was impossible to pretend that this was not the case. Her biological mother died because of this, and her adoptive mother asked her to take back everything that belonged to her before she died. Later, when I went to the prince's study and found Hu Shanxiang, I felt that she really liked her too. Zhu Zhanji, and because of her kindness at that time, Yao Zijin did not want to fight anymore, and did not want Zhu Zhanji to feel guilty, so he wanted to stay in Shangshi Bureau for the rest of his life. In the past many years, she lived for Zhu Zhanji and endured it. From now on, she no longer wants to live for herself and lives according to her own heart