30-year-old debt million: I want to turn back now.

The apprentice of the former unit called me and said that the phone of Industrial Bank had called. He asked me if anything had happened.

I perfunctory a few words, returned to the station and continued to do what I was doing. What should have happened still happened.

Debt broke out this month. Looking at the remaining 56 yuan in the change, I am only numb except for a trace of bitterness.

Looking back at this time the year before last, I had no debt and my life was simple and full. Occasionally, I will go to eat something delicious with Lin Lan and buy her some gadgets, so I feel that the whole summer belongs to me.

I bought a coat for my father in September. I measured it according to my size. I remember my dad and I were about the same age. I didn't expect to go back and try it and find it too big.

In fact, when I saw that the validity of his new ID card became longer, I should have understood that the stern man in my impression was old.

If the days have been so dull, it is also a good thing.

However, stupid I did a stupid thing.

When I was a child, my father often told me: a big fool praises himself, and two fools praise his wife. I have always regarded this sentence as a joke.

Years later, when I was desperate, I realized that I was that big fool.

I always feel that I am a smart person and should do something. I'm tired of my steady job, and I don't want to be stuck here.

At this time, a friend who has known me for many years asked me to borrow money and said that the company needed to turn around. After working for two years, I didn't save much money, but I made up my credit card and lent it to him150 thousand.

I envied him at that time. After graduation, I joined the company and he chose to start his own business. I work only for salary, and he works for his own career.

This is my first debt, but I'm not worried at all. We played together for more than ten years. On the day I was admitted to the university, he walked several kilometers early in the morning to see me off at my door.

So after receiving the last message he sent me that day, my mind went blank. He jumped off the 24th floor of the hotel and disappeared from this world.

My apprentice and I had a drink in the middle of the night and rolled around in the dormitory corridor. The next day, I found my broken glasses in the corridor.

It was not until half a month later that I received a short message from the bank about the bill that I realized another problem. I have to pay it back.

You can only choose to pay by installment, but the monthly salary is only 5 thousand. I began to rob Peter to pay Paul, and I also began to look for some ways to make money.

Until April last year, the price of crude oil fell to -40 dollars, which was once in a hundred years. I saw everyone discussing in the group chat, and a screenshot sent by a group friend attracted me.

He is a futures trader, and he thinks this is a good time to bargain-hunting into the market. I added his friend application and talked with him for a long time.

His prediction is very good. The crude oil really began to explode in those two days. I also opened an account on his recommendation and raised $65,438+0,000. During May Day, the fund in my account changed from 1000 to $7,000.

Suddenly I feel it's easy to make money. But there is an old saying: Don't make money beyond your knowledge.

When the dealer started to smash the plate, I stared at the rapidly shrinking figures and didn't even have time to do the corresponding operations.

The first explosion was deeply shocked. The feeling of riding a roller coaster is very charming, so I bought many books, such as Livermore, Soros, candle map and so on. , trying to find the password to master wealth.

I did make some money, but these quick money will not be cherished, as if it were really a number. I even despise the monthly salary of the company, because I may earn that much money in a few hours.

However, the pig on the tuyere, no matter how high it flies, will fall down. The epidemic rebounded twice, crude oil plummeted, Abe resigned, the exchange rate between the United States and Japan plummeted, Trump infected COVID-19, and every diving and emergency caught me off guard.

After the last explosion at the beginning of the year, although I didn't want to get into debt, I was powerless after all. Followed by a variety of collection calls, overdue information, deduction notice.

The loan has been difficult to support until now, until the loan is less than a penny and the debt is overdue. But to some extent, this may be a good thing.