Please give me more advice from now on.

1.

In the past, I only thought that the most affectionate words in the world were "I love you". But now, I have not lived half my life, but I already have a way of seeing through the world of mortals. feeling.

After many times of falling in love, quarreling, and breaking up, I no longer have any hope for love. The vows that we made in the beginning can be wiped out in an instant when the last straw falls. Talking about growing old together is a joke.

One day Xiaoxi told me that she felt that the most affectionate and heart-warming words in the world were the real words "Please give me your advice from now on."

Xiaoxi told me this the day after I was single. As a foodie, I was eating my favorite roasted sweet potato, but for some reason, I stopped, not knowing whether I should bless her or not.

The hot sweet potatoes radiated heat in my hands, and the sweet smell made people drool, but I had no time to care. I stared at her blankly, wanting to see her future.

"He's so kind to you." I didn't know what to say and just said this. I will often say this in the days to come, because other than saying this, I don’t know how to bless a love that has no outcome.

Until they broke up, I didn’t think of a single decent thing to say.

They were together for a total of 108 days. I think maybe the 8 in this number is the luckiest thing in Xiaoxi's relationship.

"Beifang, he broke up with me." I was stunned for a moment while eating chestnuts in the dormitory. The air was freezing. I almost choked to death after stuffing a mouthful of chestnuts into my mouth, but I still didn’t know what to say.

I said where are you and I will go find you. She said she was on the steps in front of the dormitory building.

When I got to the dormitory downstairs, the chestnuts that I had not yet swallowed were all over my mouth, so I swallowed them in one gulp.

"Beifang, he broke up with me." She was afraid that I didn't hear clearly, and she said again while wiping her tears with the back of her hand.

Looking at her red and swollen eyes, I knew without guessing that she must have gone through a very difficult time before I came.

I went up and hugged her, patted her back gently, and did not forget to stroke her little head, "Xiaoxi, it's okay, without him a crooked neck tree, we can still There is a big forest."

As soon as I finished speaking, she cried even harder, as if she had been punched. She cried intermittently, and she couldn't even take a breath. "I beg him. Can he not leave? He said no, he can’t forget her yet.”

If he can’t forget his ex-girlfriend, he’s afraid of delaying Xiaoxi and not being able to give Xiaoxi what he wants. These reasons for breaking up were placed in front of me one by one.

Although I comforted Xiaoxi with my mouth, I still sighed in my heart, alas, it is another insignificant reason for breaking up, like scratching the itch, do we dare to take off our socks? I forgot to tell you earlier. ah! What kind of man are you?

2.

I have never seen such a cute girl like you. You must have been an angel in your previous life. With these words alone, Xiao Jie walked into Xiaoxi's heart and declared his permanent sovereignty.

Xiaoxi said that after being a golden single for more than 20 years, no one had ever said such a thing to her. This time, she was moved. The girl's heart in the creek is blooming like a flower in the early spring breeze.

I have known Xiao Jie for two months, and our relationship has been ambiguous for two months. Xiaoxi likes it very much, but because of the girl's sensitive heart, Xiaoxi has been reluctant to pierce the layer of paper. Every communication and meeting is cautious, walking on thin ice, for fear that if she makes a wrong step, she will be doomed.

Xiao Jie fell in love with Xiao Xi at first sight, so he started the most clichéd plot. Companionship is the longest love confession. Although it is very romantic, when it comes to a playboy like him, it can only be said that the routine is not deep enough.

But Xiaoxi followed Xiao Jie as if he was possessed by a demon.

Every night when he came back from his internship in the company, Xiaoxi, who never went to bed late, worked hard until 11:30 every day just to chat with Xiao Jie for a while and say good night to each other.

He had to work overtime at the company to write copywriting, so Xiaoxi took the bus for an hour and took three trips before he found the Xiaolongbao restaurant that Xiao Jie liked to eat. After buying it, I took four more subway rides to Xiao Jie's company to give it to Xiao Jie.

In Beijing, a city where you have to leave two hours in advance if you work far away from the company, every time I see Xiaoxi get up at four or five in the morning to wash up and put on makeup, and happily see Xiao Jie off. At the bus stop, I felt so uncomfortable inside. I knew that Xiao Jie was just a butterfly, but I couldn't bear to tell Xiaoxi this cruel reality.

Xiao Jie, a junior in the English Department, is a scumbag in studies and a butterfly in social circles. Throughout the university, he was busy flirting with all kinds of little girls. Today it was so-and-so in this class, and tomorrow it was so-and-so in that class.

I met Xiaoxi because Xiaoxi posted a message about water cards on Weibo. The next day, he sent a private message to Xiaoxi: My water card is cheap, do you want it? purchase.

Actually, he doesn’t have any cheap water card at all. His wishful thinking is that as long as he gets the contact information, he will sell his water card to Xiaoxi at a low price, so that he doesn’t have to spend any money to pick up girls. How could it be soaked?

So naturally the two of them added each other on WeChat. When a person likes someone, some people know it and pretend not to know it, and some people just know it after they know it. Xiao Jie must belong to the second type. He knows that Xiaoxi likes him. I don't know why, maybe it was loneliness, maybe it was loneliness, but it couldn't be because he really liked Xiaoxi. One day in the third month, Xiao Jie confessed to Xiaoxi.

On this day, there was light snow in the sky. Under the dim street light, two people could be seen standing in the distance. Their eyes were facing each other. The snowflakes mixed with the hot breath, forming a layer between them. The white gauze is hazy and dotted with the sparkling reflections of snowflakes. Xiaoxi said that she would never forget those words in her life, "Xiaoxi, I like you, please be my girlfriend. From now on, please give me your advice." Before Xiaoxi could say her answer, Xiao Jay kissed her.

The heart of the creek slowly melted into the heavy snow flying in the sky.

3.

Xiaoxi never imagined that the tall and handsome Xiao Jie in front of her would be her boyfriend, and that her first love would be so dreamy. The story of Cinderella came to mind and quietly bloomed in her heart.

Xiaoxi told me that from then on, she could only see Xiao Jie through her glasses. Even when the boy she had a crush on for half a year passed by, she no longer looked at him. . Because Xiao Jie is by her side, Xiao Jie is already the best gift this world has promised her.

Xiao Jie never bought her roses. She said she was allergic to flowers. He never gave her lipstick. She said she likes to wear makeup without makeup. He didn’t take her to high-end restaurants. She said roadside snacks are just for her. The most economical.

It’s just that Xiaoxi, who was so overwhelmed by love, never paid attention to it. He never sent her back to the dormitory, never bought her breakfast, and even when she was sick, she only gave him a five-minute call. I called him to report it, but he didn’t even ask me to drink more hot water.

Xiaoxi always comforted himself by saying that he was busy and could not cause him any trouble. For her, love can make her full. Just remembering that the look in her eyes is her boyfriend's is enough to make her happy all day long.

4.

I don’t know when Xiaoxi started to covet other people’s love.

She began to feel that Xiao Jie did not like her as much as she imagined. But she just didn't want to admit it, she was afraid, she was afraid that all her dreams would turn into bubbles and cease to exist in an instant.

Xiao Jie’s chat box on WeChat no longer responds instantly. Every time, he has to wait for more than half an hour for a reply that is either “um” or “oh”; Xiao Jie also I no longer go to the movies with Xiaoxi, and then happily eat a bowl of powdered rice noodles at the restaurant in front of the school.

What was once love at first sight turned into wishful thinking in the end.

Finally, after Xiao Jie lost contact for a week, Xiaoxi couldn't help it anymore and came to ask me. "Beifang, he...does he not love me anymore?" Xiaoxi looked at me innocently.

"Has he ever said he loves you?"

But in fact, these days, love is like a flood, with so many impurities mixed in that you can't see the bottom at a glance. Love is not as pure and clean as liking.

5.

Put your phone face up on the table when eating; turn on your phone in a hurry after taking a shower without wiping your hands; eyebrow pencil in front of the mirror I picked it up and put it down, put it down and picked it up again. I don’t know what kind of makeup I should put on to show my most beautiful self.

And all of this is because Xiao Jie has not seen him for a month. There were only a few short phone calls in between, and then no more news.

Finally unable to bear it any longer, she went to find Xiao Jie. I put on exquisite makeup, put on nice clothes, skipped a day of class, and looked for Xiao Jie in the big city, but I didn't see Xiao Jie.

It rained heavily when she returned to the dormitory. Without an umbrella, she had nowhere to hide. Her hair was wet and her makeup was stained. She walked slowly, crying as she walked.

-6-Xiaoxi broke up. Day 108.

"I'm sorry, I really can't forget my ex-girlfriend." Xiao Jie took out a photo of himself and his ex-girlfriend. One by one, it hurt Xiaoxi's heart. The photos were full of love.

Whether you love someone or not can be seen at a glance. Xiao Jie never left a message for himself, never said nice words to himself, and never sent himself to the dormitory. How could I be so sure that Xiao Jie loved me? Is it because of those words or that look?

Xiaoxi edited a very long message but did not send it out. Xiaoxi stared at the text on the phone screen closely and suddenly felt that there was no need for it.

The very long message was not sent in the end. Xiaoxi deleted it word by word, and also deleted the WeChat friends with Xiao Jie.

She would ask me every day, "Didn't he say, please give me more advice from now on? Why don't you fulfill your promise?"

The road you want to take in life is the wrong one. It doesn't matter, just don't make the wrong mistake next time, why bother. When a person leaves for any reason, the subtext is: You are no longer worthy of me, okay, let me go find my own happiness.

Xiaoxi believed that the look in her eyes that night was true, the hug she gave her was true, and the caring words she said were true.

It’s just that those words are only true at that moment. When time moves forward like running water, people have changed.

Xiaoxi only understood this later. She said that it took her a long time to finally open Xiao Jie's circle of friends without being so uncomfortable. It's not that it's not uncomfortable anymore.

After all, Xiao Jie still owes her a promise, "From now on, please give me more advice."