The obsession is too deep

Her original name was Roubai, and her stage name was Niyi. She was a Qingguaner in a brothel. She was originally a housekeeper, well-educated, and good at playing music, chess, calligraphy and painting. However, her father was framed, and her family was in ruins. , there is a younger brother and a younger sister in the family. At the age of 28, she had to go to a brothel to make a living. Fortunately, she relied on her skills and became the pillar of the brothel. She was a high-ranking official in the capital and a child of a wealthy family. When she was having sex, her mother had many discussions with her, but to no avail

His name was Zhimo, a prince who was not ashamed of women in brothels, but Niyi was an exception. They met each other but did not fall in love. Appreciate Ni Yi's proud temperament, appreciate her piano, dance, singing, and music, and appreciate Ni Yi and other promiscuous women's unusual upbringing and unyielding stubbornness

Ni Yi said: "I never accept my fate, even if my family is in decline, even if I have to find a way out in a brothel at a young age."

Zhimo said: "I admire your innate arrogance."

Zhimo didn't know Roubai's experience and admired her attitude towards things, but he couldn't fall in love with a mortal woman. Niyi knew that, but Niyi never thought of leaving the land of right and wrong for him. After all, there was a younger brother in the family. The first sister, she doesn’t want them to live a life of mediocrity

Roumeng, Roubai’s younger sister, has been well protected by Roubai since she was a child. Roubai told her that although her father is not an official in the court, he must As an official woman, she must be carried in and out by a sedan chair when going out. Only in this way can she show her identity and find a good family

It is said that Roumeng and Zhimo met by chance. They fell in love with each other

Although Zhimo had a sweetheart, he did not refuse to find Niyi for her. Niyi knew it, but he was never jealous

Zhimo got drunk one day and fell in love with each other. Ni Yi said: "Do you have someone in mind?"

Ni Yi didn't answer, just smiled, and then asked someone to send the prince back. She knew that the stories in the book were all lies, and this Jingzhong Although some people go to great lengths to make her smile, they are just playing for fun and do not want to marry her home. Even if they are willing to marry her, they are just a concubine. In the end, she will have to suffer from the indifference of others and the torture of the main wife. Reluctant and disdainful, there are many such examples in this brothel every day, but these women are miserable

On this day, Zhimo came to see Niyi again, and he asked Niyi: " Did I say anything when I was drunk that day?"

Niyi said, "Young Master didn't say anything. He fell asleep when he was drunk. I ordered someone to take you back." Zhimo was still puzzled that he always felt that he had forgotten But he didn’t get too entangled in the end, maybe there really wasn’t any

Zhimo asked: “You think, should I tell Meng’er that we are our best friends? Will he mind? "

Ni Yi smiled and said: "Ni Yi can't say more about the young master." Zhi Mo smiled and drank a glass of wine. He liked Ni Yi's uncontested style and never said anything. He doesn't like women to interfere too much in men's affairs. Like his father, it's because he listens too much to the wind, so he harms the country and the people

As the days go by, Roumeng is about to arrive. They were old enough to get married, but Roumeng couldn't be happy because she wanted to enter the palace. She might be able to pretend in front of others, but she couldn't do it in front of the Queen Mother. She was a little panicked, but she didn't want to talk to her sister anymore. She knew her sister's difficulties and didn't want to cause trouble with her, so she kept them secret for a few days.

When Roubai came home to visit her and the others that day, she had already developed a seven-piece exquisite skill during the romantic occasion. She knew the clues at a glance and asked. Roumeng evaded it at first and said it was nothing. Then she told Roubai about it under pressure. Zhimo said that he would take her into the palace in half a month and ask the emperor for his blessing. Wedding, compared to Roumeng's panic, Roubai was much calmer, as if she had expected this to happen, and said: "Sister, don't panic, you only need to stand by the prince when the time comes. If the emperor and the others When I ask you who is the girl from the He family, you just need to tell the prince that your family is just a small businessman, and you must not tell your father's real story or name." Rou Meng kept this in mind, and everything about her since she was a child. It was her sister who took care of everything, she was just responsible for listening

Compared to Roumeng's panic, Roubai was much calmer, as if she had expected this to happen, and said: "Sister, please don't Don't panic. When the time comes, all you have to do is stand next to the prince. If the emperor and the others ask you who is the girl, you just need to tell the prince that the family is just a small businessman. You must not say that your father is really Rou Meng kept it in mind that everything she did since she was a child was handled by her sister, and she was only responsible for listening

Rou Bai after returning to the brothel

It was a bit difficult for my sister to enter the palace. It was very expensive. The sedan needed the best, and the clothes she wore needed good fabrics and custom-made by someone. She heard that a few days ago, a set of high-quality fabrics came to the embroidery room. They were very rare because they were rare. Expensive, many ladies from high-ranking officials wanted it, but they were put off after hearing the price. She must buy those for Roumeng, but he didn’t have so many banknotes in his hand now. What should he do? Roubai could only think of selling Chu Chu. *, after thinking about it, she went to discuss it with her mother. Her mother was very happy at first, but when she heard about the price and share, her mother was a little embarrassed. It was too high, but her mother still followed Roubai's wishes and did all the preliminary work in advance. Everyone knows the purpose

The brothel was crowded that day, and of course there were many people joining in the fun. Because of such a high price, everyone was curious about who would buy it

In fact, Ni Yi had no interest in herself. Confidence, if no one can afford this price, she will probably become a laughing stock in this brothel in the future, but she has no other choice. Although she will have some savings on her hands after staying in this romantic place for a long time, Niyi is different. All his siblings have In recent years, Niyi has been responsible for all the expenses. Niyi has high requirements for these things. All the studies of the siblings are taught by the best masters, including the daily expenses of the siblings, so the people in the capital only know that there is a couple. Siblings with status, but do not know their status in the family

It was late at night, there were still many people in the lobby, but no one bid, most of them were waiting to see the joke, and competitors in the same industry also began to ridicule from time to time , Ni Yi basically has no hope in her heart, and is thinking about seeing if there is any other way, selling some jewelry to see if she can get some money. Just when Ni Yi is frustrated, someone suddenly calls for a price, Ni Yi is a little surprised, but I also saw the light of hope, and then the bidding became higher and higher. It seemed that only the rich people really came out late at night. Gradually, the price was already twice as high as the original price. Niyi got up and got ready. At this moment Suddenly someone broke in. When Ni Yi saw it, he saw it was Zhi Mo. A trace of surprise flashed across his face, but he soon regained his composure. He smiled and said hello: "Young master, you are free to come to my place today, but I'm afraid It's a bit inconvenient to entertain you."

Zhimo looked unhappy and said coldly: "I thought you were different from other romantic women, but the result is still the same." He wanted to say that it was her who asked him He has greatly changed his view of women in the mortal world. It was she who made him feel that maybe the emperor's uncle's choice back then was right, but he was wrong...

Ni Yi still smiled and said: "Master, sooner or later I will be like this "One day" Zhimo left coldly after hearing this. Niyi felt a little uncomfortable looking at his leaving back. He knew his story. He had an uncle who was very good to him. He once fell in love with a brothel girl. He broke up with his family, abandoned his wife and children, and abandoned all his glory and wealth. He said that his uncle had told everyone for a long time that his wife was different. Zhimo heard this, but everyone was right. He said that his uncle was obsessed with Hu Meizi and wanted nothing else, so he didn’t like Fengyue Place and the people in it since he was a child

The noise in the hall gradually stopped, Niyi knew It was time, so she changed into sexy clothes and sat next to the bed. Although she was only a performer, not her body, she had been here for a long time and probably knew how other people pleased men, so she was probably ready to come in. She was a middle-aged greasy uncle, and he probably thought that in the future, like other women, he would need to practice eighteen skills to win the favor of men

After sitting for a while, he didn’t wait for her to buy her. , but when my mother arrived, she smiled and said: "Oh, you are so lucky. This is the first time I have met such a heroic person in the brothel that I have been running for so many years. Not only did he give you money, but he also said that he would not let others touch you." Mom smiled Their faces were squeezed together, and Ni Yi just smiled and didn't answer. She probably knew who it was, but she just didn't expect it. Her mother continued, "This is a good stunt. Let's do it again next time." Ni Yi took the money. She smiled and shook her head in refusal. Since the young master gave her a chance, she would seize it.

That day, Niyi went to Yipinfang to buy the batch of fabrics and made some clothes for Roumeng

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Later Roumeng smiled and said to Roubai that she did not expect that the emperor and the queen mother did not make things difficult for her, and the marriage was finally decided. In mid-August, Roubai smiled, she had expected that it would be I didn't expect it to be so easy. Roumeng asked melancholy: "Don't I need to inform my parents?" My father lost his official position because he was framed by others. He only took my mother to travel around the mountains and rivers without caring about worldly affairs. Although Roumeng couldn't contact her, Roubai knew her parents, but knew that Roubai knew about it. Roubai smiled and said, "I will inform them, but I won't let them come." Roubai knew that telling a lie would require unnecessary use.

After finishing the count, Roumeng asked: "What about the younger brother? Can he come back?" Roumeng felt a little melancholy. When other people married their daughters, three aunts and six mothers-in-law were involved, but she was alone. She didn't understand why her sister had to send her brother away in the first place. Go join the army

Niyi naturally lived her old life in the brothel, but Zhimo never came again. It seems that she was deeply disappointed with her and decided to treat Roumeng well, but that's okay< /p>

That day Niyi told her mother that she wanted to leave the brothel. Although her mother was reluctant to leave, she did not stop her because she knew it would happen sooner or later. When Niyi found her, Niyi and She made an agreement not to sign a deed of sale, but to make a contract. Her mother knew that Niyi had the capital to negotiate conditions with her, but conditions like hers were rare in the brothel industry, so her mother decisively agreed. She had had it before The younger brother and sister are worried about each other and need money. Now that the younger sister has married well and the younger brother has been sent to join the army to train his mind, he will be reused when he returns to Beijing with both civil and military skills, so she has no reason to stay anymore

This time in Beijing, another It's a happy event. I heard that this is Zhimo Na's third concubine. I heard that Zhimo has been wandering among flowers since he got his wife, and his reputation is far and wide.

Roubai has been walking around alone these years. After going back and forth, I heard about such deeds when I returned to Beijing after many years. I couldn't help but worry about Roumeng's life after marrying into the palace, so I found a reason to visit Roumeng in the palace

Roubai Yi The lilac fairy dress appeared at the door of the palace. It was not pink and white, and it was fresh and refined. The guards all sneered, wondering which girl was relying on my prince again, and shouted loudly: "My prince is not in the palace now, and he wants to come find him." He, after noon"

A trace of displeasure flashed on Roumeng's face, but she quickly regained her composure and said respectfully: "I'm not here to see your prince, I'm here to see the princess, please. Everyone, let me know." After saying that, he stepped forward and handed some broken silver to the doormen. The doorman saw that she was a smart woman, and asked in a gentle tone: "May I ask which lady the girl is looking for?"

Rou Meng lowered his head and replied: "Mrs. Roumeng..." The guards were all surprised when they heard the name. This is the first time that Mrs. Meng has been married to the palace for so long that someone said they wanted to visit her. Although she was curious in her heart, she still went. Now, Roubai saw the expression of the guard. It seems that Roumeng has not had a good life after marrying into the prince's palace these years.

"Please invite the girl in." This is where a maid came to bring Roubai in. After walking around the palace for a while, they arrived at a relatively remote area of ??the palace. Roubai took a look and she had a rough idea.

Roumeng sat on the stone bench in the courtyard with a pale face. , dressed in plain white, with heavy bags under her eyes, she looked like she was crying every day, looking like a sad woman

The maid stepped forward and said: "Madam, I have already invited this girl in." Rou Meng didn't even raise her eyes and motioned for the maid to go down. They were the only two sisters left in the courtyard

Rou Meng was still sitting, and then she said calmly: "How have you been doing, sister, these years? "

Roubai didn't answer and asked: "Where is my sister? How have you been these years?"

Roumeng sneered and said: "Thanks to my sister, I can't die." Suddenly Her eyes were red, and she didn’t know how to express her feelings over the years

Roubai quickly stepped forward to wipe Roumeng’s tears with a handkerchief. Roumeng grabbed Roubai’s wrist and looked at it with wide eyes. Roubai, that look was very scary. Roubai broke away from the restraints and frowned slightly and said, "Sister, what do you mean?"

Roumeng covered her face with her hands and said in a broken voice, "I I really don’t know whether I should hate you, blame you or be grateful to you. You left a few years ago and left me alone in this huge Kyoto."

Roubai asked with some confusion: "You and the prince Didn't the two of them really love each other at that time? How could you be reduced to such a state?"

Roumeng suddenly lost control and shouted at the top of her lungs: "Yes, but if you tell a lie, you have to use more lies to cover it up, right? So what if I was all the limelight in the palace that day? After all, my family is not very rich. I can't help the prince if he has anything to do. The prince's mother and concubine are eager to find more people with real family power who can help the prince. Man, what can I do if the prince loves me again? What's more, the one you love most is not me." Rou Bai had nothing to say. Indeed, royal marriages are mostly related to interests. If you can hide it for a lifetime, you can never hide it for the rest of your life.

Rou Meng cried louder and louder as she spoke, Roubai could only pat her back to comfort her. Roumeng cried for a while and then said: "Later, I asked someone to find out. The prince once spent a lot of money to rescue a brothel girl. Her name was famous in Niyi. My sister is like me." I remember correctly, the stage name you used in the brothel at that time

It’s just neon clothing, right? You said there are such coincidences in the world."

Roubai didn't know how to defend herself for a moment, so she could only say calmly: "Your prince and I are just casual acquaintances."

When Roumeng heard this He got excited and shouted loudly: "What a casual acquaintance? As for a casual acquaintance, he spends a lot of money on you just to save you from fire and water? As a casual acquaintance, he went out of his way to look for you before I got married to him? We are casual acquaintances, but why has he been nostalgic among the flowers all these years? If outsiders don’t know, why don’t I still know? He has been searching for your whereabouts for these years, but you disappeared for a while and then showed up like nothing happened? "

Roubai couldn't help but panic. She had never known this and could not know it. Wasn't he extremely disappointed in me? Wasn't he the woman who hated the romantic place the most? Why are you looking for me?< /p>

After Roumeng finished shouting, she seemed to have used all her strength, and couldn’t help but cough a few times. Roubai wanted to pat her back, but Roumeng stopped her. She had held it in for too long. She couldn’t help but cough a few times. He had to say it no matter what, so he continued: "You don't know, do you? Let me tell you, there are many things you don’t know. My brother and I have been very obedient these years because we think it’s not easy for you. We always try our best to give us the best. But, here we are. There is a lot of invisible pressure below. In order to satisfy your full vanity, my brother and I need to work hard silently where no one can see us, and strive to do our best so that all your efforts will not be in vain. You seem to Everything is arranged well and my brother and I just have to obey. I also know that it was no coincidence that I met the prince that day. There must be your handiwork in it. It is really ironic to say that the prince cannot get over the hurdle in his heart. I don’t want to admit that I like a woman from a brothel, and you and I have some similarities. In order to escape his feelings, the prince chose me. But, my good sister, I never thought about flying on a branch and becoming a phoenix. Ah, I just want to join hands with one person and spend the rest of my life together. I have been worried about this since I knew he was the prince, but the attitude you gave me is that I must sit on the throne of this prince. position, so what if I get it now? The position of the concubine is just in name only. Which family among these concubines has a lower status than mine? If the prince hadn't missed his old love, I would have been pinched to death by them eight hundred times

After hearing these thoughts, Roubai It was a very unpleasant feeling, and she didn’t know what to think. In those years, she only learned that her father was framed and deprived of his official title. What she always wanted was to get ahead. Even if she couldn’t do it, her younger siblings had to, too. Being too obsessed and not thinking about it has caused misfortune to her younger siblings

Rou Meng saw Rou Bai was silent, so she continued: "You know my temper, and you know that I am not suitable for the intrigue between this woman, but you still treat her like a child." I pushed into the fire pit. I also hated myself. On the one hand, I couldn't refuse the prince's heart, and on the other hand, I couldn't accept all of this. Now that I'm in this situation, I brought it on myself. I know that I can't look like a resentful woman. Accept it, let alone the prince, but I can't do it. I can't watch the prince being intimate with other women. Even if I know that he has never liked me, even if I know that he has always regarded me as your substitute, but he He is my husband, the person I have chosen in this life. Since you have chosen to marry me, why can't you be responsible for me to the end?" After saying this, Roumeng burst into tears. Roubai didn't know what to do or what to do. Comfort

"I'm sorry, it was me who hurt you." Before Roubai could say anything, Zhimo walked in from the outside and said. Although this was said to Roumeng, he had been staring at her since she came in. She looked at Roubai, as if she was afraid that she would disappear suddenly. She had been looking for her all these years to no avail, and her longing for her for many years finally found a place to rest. Looking at Zhimo's eyes, Roumeng understood in her heart that all these years of hard work could not be worth it. The slightest trace of her beloved, even if she just stood there without saying a word, was worth her thousands of words. Thinking about Roumeng, she spat out a mouthful of blood, and then fell unconscious. Fortunately, Roubai was close, and she was able to do it in time. After holding on, Zhimo quickly picked up Roumeng and carried her into the room. Roubai had been waiting outside the door. She had mixed feelings in her heart

She never knew that things would develop like this

After Zhimo ordered his servants to ask for the imperial doctor, he went out to look for Roubai. When he saw Roubai standing there motionless, he felt temporarily reassured, fearing that he would turn around and she would disappear again. He was outside just now. After listening for a long time, in fact, everything was his fault...

On this day, Roumeng retreated from others, leaving only Roubai in the boudoir. Roumeng sat up with difficulty, and Roubai wanted to help her. , Roumeng waved her hand and refused

Roumeng looked up at the gauze tent and said slowly: "Sister,

That day, I had resentment in my heart and said some angry words that might have hurt you. I'm sorry. In fact, my brother and I have never complained about you. In fact, we have always been very grateful to have you. We are very grateful to have you as a sister who has given us such Many, because we know very well that you don’t have to do this for us. Our parents have only cared about their own happiness since they were demoted, and have never taken care of us in the slightest. You have always taken care of us, in order to ensure the safety of our lives. Quality, you are not allowed to go to a brothel to make a living...cough cough cough..." Roumeng coughed before she finished speaking, Roubai patted Roumeng's back and said quickly: "You are weak, lie down quickly, don't say that all at once "More." Roumeng grabbed Roubai's hand and begged in a tone of voice: "No, sister, please let me finish... I know my life is not long, and there are some things I'm afraid I won't have a chance to say in the future if I don't say them now... "

Roubai felt uncomfortable, but she couldn't bear to refuse, and said helplessly: "Don't say that, you are so young, the prince has already helped you find a famous doctor..."

Roubai Meng shook his head and continued: "I know that I am in such a situation now because I brought it on myself... I know that when her mother-in-law offered him a concubine in the first room, he also resisted. It was just a royal concubine. After all, you have no choice but to get married. If it weren't for the kindness of the prince, how could a woman like me be allowed to sit in the position of the concubine all the time? I thought about the prince and complained about him at the same time. He has never given me good things since he took a concubine. I showed him his face. I know he has you in his heart, and I also know that he has been looking for you. I have been jealous of you, but you are my sister after all... In fact, if you were looking for me earlier, maybe the three of us would not end up in the same situation. At this point, I hate you. I hate why you didn’t come to witness my wedding. I hate you. I hate why you never thought of coming to see me all these years. I hate you. You have been silently giving all these years and never considered you. Myself... But after all, I hate myself the most, why I am so useless and I have never helped you, even once, even once, let me return it to you once, even if it costs my life..."

Roubai finished listening She burst into tears and murmured to herself: "Stop talking, please, stop talking... It's all my fault, it's all my fault... I'm sorry for you." Roumeng couldn't help but cry when she saw Roubai. Crying, it was the first time in these years that I saw her so weak.

"Sister... I hope that after I leave, you can be with the prince. I don't want to be your fetters anymore, at least this time." This time, let you live for yourself...please..." Roumeng slowly closed her eyes as she spoke, and Roubai collapsed and shouted: "No, Xiaomeng, Xiaomeng, wake up..." Zhi Mo, who was outside the door, heard the noise and rushed in. He saw Rou Bai kneeling on the ground, holding Rou Meng's hand tightly, crying loudly. His heart seemed to be stabbed with the pain of a thousand knives... His first time Seeing Roubai crying like a child...

Roumeng's funeral was held in great splendor. Roumeng was buried in the royal mausoleum. She stopped the ink and told the world that she would never have a concubine. This concubine The position has been reserved for Roumeng

After the funeral, Zhimo saw each other off all the way, looking at each other in silence. Zhimo finally couldn't help but break the silence and said lightly: "I like women to be gentle. Virtuous and virtuous, I like the educated and sensible women from official families. Only in these years have I realized that what I love is your unsullied demeanor. What I love is your unrestrained demeanor that dares to love and hate. There are countless gentle, virtuous, educated and sensible women in the world. , you are the only one who attracted me like you. I finally let go of my prejudices and finally understood my uncle’s choice. At that time, everyone said that I was most similar to my uncle. Everyone advised me not to follow my uncle’s path. Now that I think about it, I'm not as brave as my uncle. I don't even dare to face my own heart..." After saying this, Zhimo couldn't help but feel bitter in his heart. He smiled softly and said: "Actually, I seem great these years and I have been working hard for others. , in fact, I am the most selfish. I never consider what others want or want. I am only obsessed with giving what I think is best to others. I am also proud of myself and think that I am the most selfless. In the end, I only hurt the people around me. "

Zhimo knew that Roubai was heartbroken about Roumeng's death, but he didn't know if he could be the one who could untie the knot.

"Niyi, have you ever had "More than the one I love." Zhimo remembered what he asked her when he was drunk that day

"My answer is the same as that day..." Roubai said lightly. Zhimo tried hard to recall the answer, Roubai looked at him. The tangled look makes me want to laugh, but actually it’s okay if I don’t remember.

“But I...” Roubai still has to refuse after all.

“You don’t have to go on, I understand...” Stop Mo said with a wry smile, Roubai smiled indifferently, it's hard to find a confidant in this world...

That day, "Ni Yi, do you have a sweetheart? Zhimo asked.

"Master, Ni Yi's sweetheart is the person in front of her." Ni Yi smiled happily. It was the first time she showed her sincerity in front of others, even if the person she faced was drunk...