My nagging and annoying grandma passed away during the epidemic, and I didn’t get to see her for the last time.

I called home a few days ago and chatted with my mother for a while. My mother told me that my grandma was gone because funerals were not allowed during the epidemic. My uncle asked someone from the team to help and called her. Several aunts held a simple ceremony and buried grandma. My uncle's family was far away in Xinjiang. Considering the various control measures during the epidemic, they did not come to see his old mother on her last journey.

Grandma is not my biological grandmother, but my father’s biological aunt. She is the third daughter-in-law of my grandfather’s four brothers. Grandma is the last one to die among my grandfather’s generation. She He has witnessed the growth of the children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren of our big family. He died at the age of 83.

When I went back in the summer, she came to visit us on crutches. My mother and I sat under the pergola in the yard and chatted while drying apricot peels. She asked me many times, " Do you have a stove in the city in the winter?" I told her: "No, there is a heater in the city in the winter." A few minutes later she asked again: "Do you have a stove in the city in the winter?" "My mother told her loudly: "No! There is heating in the city in winter. It is clean and warm. What kind of stove should we set up?" After a few minutes, she asked again, and her mother became impatient: "Auntie. , you just asked, why are you asking again, I told you that there are no stoves in the city in winter!" Grandma suddenly became anxious and said, "I'm old and can't remember, why do I ask a few more times? Why, you Do you think I'm too annoying? That's right, why should I live and not die? I'm annoying everyone everywhere..."

"You still don't want to die. If you want to die, don't take the medicine. What are you doing? As soon as you feel sick, go to the hospital. Even if the doctor prescribes bad medicine for you, you will die sooner if you don’t take the medicine. "My mother and grandma continued to bicker, and I secretly laughed next to my eighty-year-old grandma. My memory is obviously failing, and my face is blue and black, as if I haven't washed my face for many days. My mother told me that my grandma's energy is not as good as in previous years.

The third grandfather passed away twenty-seven or eight years ago. At that time, grandma was a little over fifty, several aunts were married, the eldest uncle’s son had just been born, and the younger uncle was not yet married.

After the eldest uncle got married, he separated and lived alone. The younger uncle worked outside, and grandma farmed more than ten acres of land by herself. Grandma at that time was very "overbearing" and it was the team's turn to water the fields. She was always the first to block water into her field, and she often quarreled with her team members over this.

It is also "reasonable" for her to order her nephews. Today, she will ask this one to help her plow the ground, and tomorrow she will ask one of them to help her block the dam. However, her own son is reluctant to use them. My father has a few more. Although my uncle complained a lot, he still helped where he could.

After grandpa left, grandma farmed for another twelve years. During this period, she helped her uncle get married and start a family. After his marriage, he lived with her for a year or two, then took his wife and son to Xinjiang. . The eldest uncle’s family also moved to the town during this period, and later moved to the city. For more than ten years, grandma has been living alone.

Grandma is not short of money. After she stopped farming in her sixties, her uncle in Xinjiang often sent her money. Her three aunts either gave her money or bought her things and sent them over. Grandma had food and drink. There is no shortage of people, but life is very lonely.

She would get up early in the morning and visit her nephews' houses. She would go to each house many times a day. Her mother and aunts would cook over the fire, so she would move a small stool and sit in the kitchen. They chatted for a while, and when the food was ready, her mother or aunts would scoop a bowl for her. She ate it and stopped cooking when she got home.

Later she was diagnosed with tuberculosis. She heard that the disease can be transmitted to others. She was afraid that others would dislike her. When she visited my house or other aunts' houses, she would neither sit for long nor enter the house, nor would she bring her food. , I only stayed in the yard for a while and then left, but I still went in and out many times every day.

When our grandchildren go back to visit their parents, we will buy fresh fruit cakes and other fruits for her to eat. Every time my sister and I go back, we will go to grandma’s house to sit there, and we will also do it during the holidays. Bring gifts.

Grandma is the grandma of all of us. Although she is nagging and annoying, her mother and aunts still coax her like a child.

In the past two years, grandma has obviously become old and can no longer cook. The uncle was afraid that no one would know if she died in the house, so he returned to the countryside from the city and started farming again. He owned other people's land and became the party secretary of the village.

Grandma has been very dependent on her uncle in the past two years. He works at the village committee. If he doesn’t come home when the time comes, she will stand on the road and look around, saying to herself over and over again: "Why don’t you come back?" What about?"

My uncle's two sons and aunt all live in the city. My uncle returns to the city every once in a while. Whenever this happens, my grandma is either standing at the entrance of the village looking around, or she is standing at my house and Several other aunts walked back and forth, constantly asking their mother and aunts: "Why hasn't my xxx (uncle's name) come back yet? When he left, didn't he say he would be back in two days?" Mom and aunts were asked. He was impatient and said back in one sentence: "Aunt, how many times have you asked? He said he would be back in two days. Didn't he just leave for a day? He came back when it was time to come back. It's okay. Can you sit still? Sit down and stop being annoying."

Grandma was choked and could be quiet for a while, but after a while she started asking again. My mother said that in the past two years, she has been annoyed to death by grandma, an old fool. I joked that you are still anxious without grandma, an old fool, bothering you. Mom laughed and said, yes, there are not many young people in Zhuangzi. , there are only a few old men and women left to bicker and relieve their loneliness. Although grandma is annoyed, she still wants to come in one day.

Over the years, my uncle wanted to take my grandma to live in Xinjiang. Grandma was afraid that she would die in another place, so she refused to go. One year when she came back during the Chinese New Year, her uncle did a long time of ideological work for her. She just agreed to stay for a while, but she was sent back by her uncle after less than two months. She heard that her grandma couldn't stay in the building in the city, so she went downstairs and didn't know anyone in the community. She had been there for two months and kept shouting to go home, so her uncle had no choice but to send her back.

My eldest uncle also took her to live in the city for a few days a few years ago. My grandma had poor hygiene habits and often spit on the floor tiles. Her aunt told her several times and she was still very aggrieved. She couldn't bear to see her grandson stay up at night and wake up in the morning, and kept nagging her. When her grandson was annoyed by her nagging, he would also yell at her. During the day, her uncle and the whole family went to work, and she was the only one left at home. She was anxious. It didn't work. After staying for only a few days, she clamored to come back. Her uncle was afraid that her disease would be transmitted to other people in the family, so he didn't want to keep her here, so he took the opportunity to send her home.

In the two years since uncle came back, grandma and uncle cooked and ate together, but they didn’t live in the same yard. Grandma guarded her old yard and refused to leave. She stayed in another house during the day after her uncle got married. She would cook and eat in the house she built, and go back to her dim and dark old house to live at night. According to her, she would die there.

Although the eldest uncle returned to his hometown to farm to accompany his grandma, the aunt was not willing. Her two sons were adults, the eldest brother was thirty years old, and his wife had not yet been found, so the aunt was worried. Ah, when I occasionally go back to my hometown, I don’t look good on my grandma, so she always sighs in front of her mother and complains about why she doesn’t die earlier and is a drag on her children.

When I went home on New Year’s Day, my mother told me that my aunt had given my uncle some pillow talk. My uncle’s attitude towards grandma in recent months has been far worse than before. He always It only takes three or four days to go back to the city. When I leave, I don’t prepare any food for grandma, and sometimes I don’t even say hello. When grandma tells her mother these things, her eyes always fill with tears. Mom says she can’t bear to watch. , I would give grandma a few pieces of steamed buns from home, and grandma would cry every time.

Due to the epidemic, I did not go home during the Spring Festival this year and could not see my grandma for the last time. According to past customs, we grandchildren and granddaughters all have to go back to attend the funeral. This year's situation is special. My uncle only notified grandma's biological descendants and uncles and brothers in the family. My sister and I only found out after the fact.

My grandma is gone, and my family’s old village has lost an old grandma who sat under the elm tree at the gate of the courtyard to enjoy the shade in summer and moved to a place to bask in the sun in winter. She will always be fixed in our memory. , but can no longer be touched.