Blue face

The process of our understanding is normal to no waves. We went to the same high school, in the same class, and joined the same club in our school.

The process of him becoming my confidante is simple. I think he and I are "the same kind of people". We are equally enthusiastic and like to make friends. Similarly soft-hearted, they often prefer to wronged themselves rather than complain too much about others; We also like to study, strive for the college entrance examination, and exchange ideas on doing problems.

But these are all good impressions I left after I got to know him, and my first impression of him was disgusting! Why? Because he is far from the top ten good boys who are gentle, considerate and personable as I imagined! He is not very tall, he can't feel 1.7 meters, he is not handsome, and his facial features are very ordinary. He is the kind of "normal appearance" that is hard to remember after only seeing him once, and will disappear after being thrown into the sea of people. Look! Even looks are not the type that can attract girls' attention ... On the other hand, I have a cute name in my class, lively and intelligent, with above-average grades and many suitors ... (omit 1000 words here)

I shouldn't have noticed him, but fate made him appear too high in my life script, and I accidentally remembered him. Then, because of the intersection with the same club for Christmas, I ..... hate it.

Simply put, the process is like this:

Festival: Christmas

The way to celebrate the festival: everyone writes down their wishes, everyone draws them at will, and then realizes the wishes of the wishing person.

Rules: the wishes made by the wishing person conform to the principles of appropriateness, realizability and non-spoofing; The person who makes a wish and the person who realizes it cannot be the same person.

I hate him for the following reasons: First, I want to draw a little brother of Shuai Shuai in the department. I've coveted him for a long time, but I'm disappointed to draw that one. Second, his wish is that I bring him a barbecue snack. It takes a long time to wait for the barbecue, and it's night. For some reason, there was no one to accompany me that night, so I thought it was dangerous to walk out of school alone. I sent him a message hoping that he could change it to a simpler one, so a barbecue snack became a spicy snack.

This is our first face-to-face contact, which is very good.

I was embarrassed to let him change, so I went a little angry. Later, he also directed me to walk around here, and after walking around, I sent him snacks. I thought to myself, why did this boy have no manners at all and made the girls work so hard? They didn't care at all, so I hated him in my heart, so I hated him for a while later.

Later, the process of resolving contradictions was not as beautiful and romantic as you imagined, earth-shattering or sharing weal and woe ... It was simply getting along, getting familiar with each other, and then discovering that we were actually very similar, and then sharing our lives and troubles ... There may be something I don't like about him, but our relationship seems to have found a perfect balance. At this point, we are all willing to ignore each other's shortcomings and talk about each other's interests.

It was a sunny day.

He suddenly called me during lunch break,

The first sentence is: "Is there anyone around you?" -I don't know what to do.

The second sentence is: "if there is, you can find a place where no one is there." I have something important to tell you and can't let others know. " -My heart beat suddenly. I said, "OK, wait a minute, I'll go to the corridor."

I was thinking: he won't make me confess, will he? Why else is it so serious? It must be! It must be! Hey? Am I so charming? Although he is very nice, he thinks he is only suitable for being friends. If he refuses later, he will not stop contacting me in the future. It's a pity to have such a small partner with similar interests. ! How can I put it better? ......

Feeling a little happy, a little heavy and a little sorry, I breathed a sigh of relief: "Well, you can say it now. What's so mysterious? "

"Actually ... actually ... I'm gay ..."-A bolt from the blue!

"ah? ! Xiao Ye, are you kidding? Don't lie to me, I will be angry ... "

"I didn't lie to you. I treat you as a friend. I think you are not rigid and should be able to accept it, so I tell you ..."

"Have you told anyone but me?"

"Well, I also told Sandy that there will always be only two of you here."

I was silent, which had a great influence on my three views. I don't know how to react. Although I have read some bad articles, I know that I can't accept such things in reality, especially the pictures of two men kissing me.

"In fact, I've always wanted to tell you that it's really hard to hold it in my heart. I once tentatively asked Kobayashi (male) about homosexuality, and he seemed quite disgusted. I just feel that my heart has been blocked, and there is a feeling that I can't find the object to talk to ... "

Suddenly a little distressed him, a person carrying so many worries. ...

"Do your parents know about this?" -"They don't know."

"So ... do you have someone you like?" -"Yes, he has gone to college."

"So you ..." "I'm with him."

I was surprised. "Are you ... in a different place?" -"Well, I want to enter his university."

……

We just asked and answered questions until the bell rang at the end of the lunch break. I silently put away my mobile phone, packed my textbooks and prepared to go to class. I felt a little strange when I met him on the road. I greeted him awkwardly and bowed my head and left.

"What's so strange? He is willing to believe you, and you should be happy. That's great. You don't have to worry that he will fall in love with you. If you speak or do things beyond the minefield, your feelings will deteriorate. You can meet him openly without some caution. Besides, you and he have been talking very well. What are you dissatisfied with? "

Gradually let go, I began to talk to him about my troubles in life and let him comfort me and give me advice; Occasionally, Doby will find him, talk about some interesting things and have a good time; When I go out to play with my roommate, I will take Zhou Heiya to him in the subway, because I know he likes spicy food. We often go to the canteen to eat together and chat. ......

People are gregarious animals, and there are many gossips in the crowd.

People around me began to wonder if I was with him. Although there are rumors, I still go my own way and get annoyed occasionally. I think it's nothing to care if they talk.

One day, I met him on my way to class and walked with him. Our high school is relatively large, that is, from the dormitory to the teaching building. On the way, I met my friends Rourou and Xiaoya in the department store. Xiaoya Xiaoya, she has nothing to do with the word "elegant". She is nosy and outspoken. I don't like her at all. Sure enough, as soon as she spoke, 10 thousand grass mud horses rushed through my heart.

"Oh, this is not and lobular know, why? Two people go to class together ~ "

"Yes, we met on the road and left together."

"Oh, I met you on the road. What a coincidence. I can't see you alone. "

I don't know what you said, but I have a clear conscience!

"Ha ha ha ha ha, do you hear? People say that she has a clear conscience! " She turned and whispered, and they both laughed at once.

I was so angry that I took one look at them and left without saying a word. I didn't alienate Xiao Ye. My idea is simple. They don't know the facts. There is no possibility between me and Xiao Ye. Why should I give up my friends for these messy rumors? They know nothing! As long as my friendship with Xiao Ye continues, such a confidant will envy me sooner or later! Hum!

However, it never rains alone. The ancients didn't cheat me!

As soon as I got home on weekends, I was called to talk by my mother.

"Really ... falling in love at school?"

"no! Mom, who told you nonsense? "

"Don't worry about it, just tell the truth. Are you in love?"

"... I said no! "

"Then why do people say that you are very close to that little boy in Ye's family?"

"mom! What do you mean, we are just ordinary friends with good relations, we just exchange and study together! "

"What's the good communication? Don't ask the teacher if you have any questions? You are only in high school, you can't fall in love! Isn't it possible to have a good relationship? What do boys and girls say about friends? When you are your mother, you are so gullible! Anyway, I've put my words here, so you should keep a normal distance from him in the future! Did you hear that? "

"mom! ! "

I feel wronged, tears are rolling in my eyes, and I really want to tell my mother that Xiao Ye is gay, so there is nothing to be afraid of! But reason tells me no, no, no! If I tell my mother that there is no windtight wall in the world, it will definitely be known by others. I promised Xiao Ye to keep his secret. I can't say I can't say! Oh, I am so angry. I feel helpless.

......

In retrospect, there were quite a few "setbacks" between us, hahahahahaha ~ I didn't listen to my mother, and it was very difficult during that time, but maybe it was because my grades didn't decline. Or has it been a long time, and everyone has no follow-up gossip? Or both, in short, the ending is: we are still very good friends! Even after the college entrance examination, we are thousands of miles apart and go our separate ways, but we still care about each other, support each other and share each other's lives!

It turns out that I think there is no pure friendship between men and women, only lovers have to become friends before they are full. The so-called blue face and red face are just using the veil of friendship to cover up the budding love that once admired and fell in love, but finally failed to come together. However, I dare say that I have never been moved by Xiao Ye.

Thank you for being my blue face and letting me experience another emotion.

Get to know you, fall into similarity, and finally get to know you.

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