Qian Qian's Knot: Bitterness, Bitterness and Sweetness of an Urban Leftover (21)

21: Dong Zi wants to divorce and marry Qiansui

Dongzi has a lot to say to Jin Qiansui, but he doesn't know where to start. He feels guilty for her, but the situation at that time can't allow him to think much.

mistakes in life are made carelessly, but they have to be made up at a great cost.

He knows that "I'm sorry" can't make up for any mistake. He doesn't want to make up for those useless things, he just wants to meet her, just meet her.

After Dong Zi arranged everything in Shenzhen, he kept dialing a number in his hand again and again, and when the number was in the middle, he pressed it off and dialed it again.

I don't know if she saw the message on the internet, and I didn't see a reply. I wonder what's on her mind?

Dong Zi felt uneasy, and finally dialed the familiar number with difficulty, and waited for the answer on the other end of the phone with a little anxiety.

"hello!" Jin Qiansui saw that it was a strange number, and the voice with a little doubt answered.

"Chisui, it's me, Dong Zi." Dong Zi tried to keep a steady tone.

"oh." Jin Qiansui replied softly on the phone.

"I'm in Shenzhen. Do you have time to meet me tonight?" Dong Zi asked carefully.

"I ..." Jin Qiansui hasn't come to a conclusion about whether she wants to see or not since she saw Dong Zi's message that day.

"meet me, I want to meet you." Dong Zi heard her a little hesitant, hurriedly say again.

"oh, ok." Jin Qiansui said.

they hung up the phone after an appointment, but they both took a long breath when they hung up the phone.

Dong Zi felt a little happy, but Jin Qiansui gave himself a little calm sigh.

***

How long has it been? On the night when the lights were on, they were sitting in a quiet coffee shop. Jin Qiansui tried to keep himself calm and looked at the man who had been warmly loved with a smile.

Dong Zi has grown a beard, adding sophistication to his immature face. His clothes are as neat as ever, but he feels a little fat. He was already tall, but now he is more and more attractive to men.

Jin Qiansui's calmness actually made Dong Zi a little uncomfortable. He had thought that she might be full of resentment when she saw him, or she might just scold him.

he didn't expect Jin qiansui to be so calm and still keep a smile.

"I'm sorry!" He said that he didn't want to say these three words at first, because they were of little use, but he couldn't help saying them. Maybe this will express his inner feelings more truly.

"Don't apologize, it's all over." Jin Qiansui took a sip of his coffee gently.

Those scenes of the past with Dong Zi appear in my mind, so real and illusory, so close but far away ...

"Don't you want to know why?" Dong Zi said directly, because Jin Qiansui never asked him, of course, that's why he wanted to see her.

"What's the point of knowing?" Jin Qiansui showed the tolerance of a vicissitudes of life like an old man and sighed gently. "Maybe you have your difficulties, too?"

"thank you, you can understand." Dong Zi said.

Jin qiansui didn't speak. He glanced at Dong Zi and thought: What's the use of understanding? Haven't you lost it? If you don't understand, you are suffering from yourself.

Jin qiansui is silent. Is it useful to blame? Is it useful to scold him? When love comes, it comes, and when it goes, it goes. Looking at the man in front of her, a familiar strangeness suddenly rises in her heart.

"No, you can also tell me why? Why did you leave? ..... "Jin Qiansui transformed a tone like chatting with an old friend and asked with some ridicule.

since they are no longer related, it doesn't matter whether they know or not.

"Forget it, let's not talk about it." Dong Zi listened to Jin Qiansui's wrong tone, thinking it would be better to say less.

"Go ahead, I really want to hear it." Jin Qiansui became more and more petulant and looked at Dong Zi with a smile and added, "You said, I'm not angry".

Dong Zi looked at the girl with a mischievous smile in front of her, and suddenly reached out and wanted to gently shave her nose, which was their habitual intimate little gesture.

Before his hand touched Jin Qiansui, Jin Qiansui suddenly hid back unconsciously.

Dong Zi's hand stopped awkwardly in the air, and then he suddenly realized that they were two people who had nothing to do with each other, so he had to slowly retract his hand.

Jin qiansui looked at Dong Zi's retracted hand, and tears suddenly fell.

it's far, it's really far away. The small intimacy that I used to get used to has now become so unfamiliar and strange.

Dong Zi looked at Jin Qiansui and suddenly burst into tears. At that time, she was confused. She quickly pulled out a tissue on the table and handed it to her.

"sorry, it's all right." After twitching for a while, Jin Qiansui wiped her tears with a paper towel and whispered, "I just suddenly remembered before ..." < P > "I know, it's all my fault." Dong Zi whispered.

"it's okay, you just have a good life now."

"I, actually ... well, anyway, I'm very sorry." Dong Zi said, "That ... is my wife now. She is pregnant, so she has no choice but to get married. That time, I drank too much with some friends, and I was in a fog. I don't know what happened, and she may have liked me, but I treated her ... Ah, it's all my fault ... "

Dong Zi's intermittent narration shows that she really doesn't know how to speak in front of Jin Qiansui, and she doesn't know how to give her a confession. Although this confession is too late now.

"At first, I was afraid that you would be upset and really didn't know how to say it, so I ran away from it." Dong Zi dare not look at Jin Qiansui.

while Jin qiansui sat opposite him, without saying a word, tears flowed downwards.

"Do you know? At the beginning, how sad and heartbroken I was? " For a long time, Jin Qiansui couldn't help crying with tears. "It doesn't matter if you want to leave me. At least, you should tell me. Isn't our feelings worth explaining?"

"I know it was my fault." Dong Zi said apologetically.

"well, it doesn't matter. Now, you have your life, and I have a good life. " Jin Qiansui grabbed the bag and wanted to go. "If it's nothing, I want to go first."

"A thousand ears of gold!" Dong Zi looked at her to go, hurriedly got up from his seat and stood in her way.

"what are you doing? Is there anything else you want to tell me? Call me here just to tell me that you have a good wife, don't you? " Jin Qiansui is a little unable to control his emotions.

Dong Zi suddenly hugged her: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry ..."

"Let go! Let go! " Jin Qian ear tone tough softly cried.

at this moment, everyone else in the coffee shop turned to look this way.

"Calm down, don't cry, sit down, I have something to say." Dong Zi is also determined.

Jin qiansui sat back in his seat, tears still wet, and his face was covered with tears. She drew a tissue from the table and gently wiped her eyes.

Dong Zi watched Jin Qiansui sit down, reaching out and stroking her hair in distress, and trying to wipe her face with a tissue.

"No, I'll do it myself." Jin Qian ear stubborn turned away, she didn't want Dong Zi to touch her again.

Dong Zi had to go back to his seat and sit down.

"Anything else, go ahead." Jin Qiansui's tone is cold.

"I know you hate me. You can scold me if you want. Don't keep it in your heart." Dong Zi said.

"I don't hate, it's more tiring to hate someone." Jin Qiansui said.

"Well, that's all right." Dong Zi wondered if he should say something.

"a thousand ears." He thought about it and called to her softly, with an unusually gentle tone. "Let's get together again."

"ah? ！” Jin Qiansui suspected that his ears were wrong. "What did you say?"

"I said, I hope we can be together again." Dong Zi forcibly repeated, and then looked at her with determination.

"joke! What qualifications do you have now? " Jin Qiansui showed a funny look and said a series of words, "You shouldn't let me be your lover, should you? Isn't it enough that you broke my heart once? I cann't believe you still have such an idea ！”

"No, I mean seriously." Dong Zi eyes full of sincerity and apology, "I know I'm sorry, give me a chance to make up for it. I won't let you be a lover, I want you to be my wife all my life! "

"are you divorced? ！” Jin Qiansui was surprised.

"yes!" Dong Zi's face suddenly filled with sadness. "After being with her, I found out how different our thoughts are. The distance between the two is too far. We haven't had a peaceful day since we got married."

"what about your child?" Jin Qiansui still looked at him with wide eyes in surprise. The question was too sudden for her to think.

"It doesn't matter who raises the children. I know that you are also very kind and will be good to your children in the future. If you don't want to raise it, give it to her and we'll have another one. " Dong Zi seems to be telling other people's stories, and his words are so light, as if a living child is as simple as playing with a doll.

Jin Qiansui was a little sober. She suddenly realized that she didn't know the man in front of her before. She was full of enthusiasm but she was so confused about love.

It is said that men mature later than women, which seems to be the case.

"have you been married for almost two years?" Jin Qiansui counted the time and asked, "We have been apart for almost two years."

"yes." Dong Zi didn't understand her question.

"How old is the child now?"

"one year old." Dong Zi said.

"The child is only one year old and you want to leave him so mercilessly? ！”

"don't say that, ears, I don't want to. But ... "Dong Zi's tone is full of helplessness.

"no buts! Since you have chosen your path, you should go on well! " Jin Qiansui is lecturing one of her younger brothers, and her tone is strict.

"well, it seems that you don't love me." Dong Zi said.

"love! I love you, Dong Zi. I loved you so deeply before! But now, I dare not say love again. I hope you can live a good life. Love does not have to be together. True love is to hope that the person you love can live a good life! " Jin Qiansui's tone is gentle and firm, and her eyes are full of love.

"But, Chisui, I really want a divorce ..." Dong Zi said, "I'm tired."

"I understand how you feel, but I won't marry you." Jin Qiansui still has a firm tone.

"why?"

"why not." Jin qiansui sighed, as if talking to himself, "how difficult it is to form a family ..."

"I'm leaving." After sitting for a moment, Jin Qiansui said, "I hope you can think about your life."

Jin Qiansui said, grabbed the bag and left the seat, leaving Dong Zi sitting there decadent.

Dong Zi didn't stop her this time. What he said has been said.

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