We will always encounter many difficulties on the road to fighting cancer, but never give up fighting for life at any time

09.08

Looking at the blood stains on the quilt, and then looking at my toes that were already bloody, I couldn’t help but sigh deeply. It was definitely a mistake for me not to buy a fully automatic washing machine. Big failure.

Nowadays, washing quilt covers is semi-automatic. I am a bit of a mysophobia and can't stand the sight of blood. But washing the quilt covers by myself is such a huge project, which can only make me sigh.

I slept all day yesterday, and I have to admire myself. Of course, this is not my first time lying dead. Whenever it rains or the season changes, I will definitely feel weak and sore.

Then I didn’t want to do anything. I just wanted to have a good sleep and regain my strength. Perhaps only in this way can I calm down my mind as quickly as possible.

Gradually it became a habit, which is not surprising. It is better to lie down for a day than to be unable to get up every day. Calculating it, I seem to be quite lucky, and I recovered in one day.

For more than a year since my transfer last year, I have sometimes felt as if I was in a dream. Only when I wake up every day, knowing that I am still alive is the most real thing.

Autumn is here, the fallen leaves are flying, and the weather is getting cooler. I like autumn the most because I was born at the beginning of autumn, so in my understanding, autumn always brings more good luck.

Even in the autumn of 2019, my body was getting worse day by day. Those days were particularly painful, but the amazing thing is that I persisted until 2020.

After surviving life and death, I persisted until 2021, and now I am moving steadily towards 2022. Time has given me hardships, but it has also opened a window for me, giving me a new perspective. Treat the pain of life.

So, I struggled like this, and then became more determined little by little. No matter what I encountered along the way, I would always remind myself not to forget the original promise to myself.

You must live well. I will tell myself every day at that time that you must live well and must not give up on yourself. In this belief, I have lived well until now.

Compared with before, these little pains and discomforts are nothing to worry about now. People are lucky enough to live to watch the sunrise and sunset, smell the morning flowers and cherish them. What's not to be satisfied with?

I am very satisfied. At least I have lived up to my trust in myself, my trust in myself, and my friends who have been accompanying me in my efforts for more than a year. For many years to come, We all hope that we can go on like this together.

We will always encounter many hardships on the road to fighting cancer. Compared with life, it is so fragile. Many times we need enough strength to face it, overcome it, and defeat it. , to believe that you have the faith to withstand any outcome.

Because I still can’t let go of myself and my loved ones, sometimes I think about it, maybe it’s this desire to survive that makes me persist, and it’s this persistence that keeps me going. I can look at the most torturous illness with the most normal mind.

Everyone will encounter suffering in life, and life is so short, so short that sometimes many people do not get to see the world properly, and have to leave in a hurry after getting to know themselves, leaving only Full of regrets.

Then we who are still alive should cherish our lives, fight for our lives, use the most optimistic attitude to help life, fight for life, work hard for today, and fight for tomorrow.