I had the idea of suicide for the first time.

I think we should be masters of life, not slaves of life. Although these words are very young and frivolous, they are not worthless. You said you might feel that your personality is lacking, but have you ever thought about where it is? Although you say that personality is innate, it is extremely important to cultivate yourself the day after tomorrow. To tell you the truth, I am similar to you, but I think I may just care too much about what others think. We are who we are, and what we care about is having our own ideas. The ability to live is really strong. You are weak, it is strong, but you have to make some changes, even if it is only a small change. Accumulate slowly over time and enjoy the joy of success in every small step. You will really find that giving him face, life is life. If you don't give him face, he just eats and drinks Lazarus. It's not that easy, but try to get out of the house first, try to communicate with his parents and listen to their opinions. Just don't do anything big, just do something ordinary. There is also to think about how you want to live in the future. Although it is really difficult, ask yourself what you really like. First, try to chat with neighbors, buy food, bargain, go out for a walk and distract yourself from complaining all day. The most important thing is your attitude. I won't believe that you are caused by others today, and I won't believe that others are talking about fate. Only you are responsible for this, slowly shoulder your own burden and make progress bit by bit. The world is really not that bleak. There is another saying: if you want others to be good to you, be good to others first. Think about it. I haven't laughed for a long time. If you were you, would you like to live with a sad face every day? Ask yourself what is holding you back. Anyway, I'm just saying something. Everyone has his own life, but everyone's life is really different. Also, if we can remember some changes and share our success all the time, we must stick to it. At this time, we'd better make a plan for ourselves and realize it step by step. We may be an ordinary person, but we are even more extraordinary ordinary people. You still have to go by yourself, come on! By the way, my QQ59828 1677, if you have any questions, you can talk about it. If you don't have any ideas, consider me floating away.