Forgive my husband for cheating.

I met my husband four years ago, when I was in a state of extreme inferiority and mild depression. After the doctor diagnosed his father's illness, the whole person was desperate and didn't know how to face the future. ...

But my husband happened to be at that time. After learning about my situation, he developed a strong desire for protection, saying that my emotions are switching every second, and I am very distressed. He gave me the most profound sentence: "If you change, you are a butterfly!" " "

From then on, I was deeply impressed by him in the company. But I also rejected his passionate pursuit. I know my situation, and I am not qualified to fall in love. No one is willing to make a commitment to this. So, I also refused in front of all my colleagues in the company.

Women are fragile, so fragile that a word of concern from others will make them burst into tears. His concern finally made me unable to refuse, and his age was in front of me. Since a man knows his situation and pursues it without hesitation, let's live together. His age is also there.

To tell the truth, with him, I don't have the throb of falling in love. I just feel very comfortable together, that is, I feel very comfortable and bored even when I am silent. As long as he responds with "hmm" and doesn't answer a word, I feel very comfortable.

In the past four years, I have never had a shy girl love with him. For a long time, it was like holding an old couple with one hand. It was not romantic, but he was very kind to me. He said that I didn't know what home was until I knew the goal of struggle. He said that he was like a duckweed, floating for several years, without a home, and with me, he felt at home. I secretly swear that as long as he is kind to me, I will be sincere.

I told my friend that I admired her love at first sight with her husband and how happy she was to be married to love. But sometimes she complains to me that her husband is sometimes bad. When I persuade her, I am glad that I met a man who likes me so much and holds me in his hand for fear of melting.

Also, my friend of this age has been married for 2 ~ 5 years, my husband is not motivated, and his husband is having an affair. I feel that marriage is unfortunate. Sometimes, I will take it out and analyze it with him, and finally ask him if he will do this to me in the future. He touched my head, put it on his chest and said no. He said that he had seen too many such people and things, but they were all inexperienced and easily tempted. He said that if he watched too much, his wife and children would separate. He knew he wouldn't, so let me put my heart in his stomach. I believe it, and once again I feel that he is the husband I can't find with lanterns, and my heart is warm. Even for me, it is good to live a sweet life without love!

When I was immersed in a honey pot full of love, I didn't know that the outside of the honey pot was covered with thorns.

In order to pay off our debts, he had to work in other places and went out for two years. I began to think of him in various ways, and he was homesick. Moreover, the signal on the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau where he is located is not good, and he often loses contact and contacts from time to time. I usually send WeChat at night. He will reply to me when he goes to the office in the morning and leave the construction site at noon. Like, I spent the whole night, and he spent the whole morning.

In this intermittent contact state, I found that he had not returned the message I sent that night for several days. A lot of things, I want to talk face to face and solve them face to face, but I can't. I held back my anger. If it weren't for me, he wouldn't leave home to work in Tibet. I told myself that it should be my fault.

Later, he took advantage of the exam to come back for a few days and said that he would come back to accompany me. It is in these days that we have not had a good day. I am used to browsing his mobile phone, and he is willing to show it to me. The mobile phone is very clean, and I haven't contacted anyone except work and family.

He often tells me that I am a hundred Sherlock Holmes. He's right. At noon, he was sleeping, his laptop was in the living room, and it was posted on WeChat. I clicked on the mobile phone WeChat message and didn't see the ambiguous message sent to him by the opposite sex in my imagination. However, the list of computer WeChat chat records betrayed him. Before he came back, he cleared all the information in his mobile phone. He knew I would ask him for my mobile phone. But he ignored that the words "I miss you, holding hands, shopping, eating and watching movies" suddenly appeared on the computer with a woman's head on WeChat, and he burst into tears in an instant. He cheated. If he hadn't cheated physically, emotional infidelity would have. Emotional cheating is more terrible than physical cheating. There is also a woman named Yan below, who is still more subtle and talks about some trivial things in life. But the two women he said are both in the same industry.

Let's talk about coquettish women first. From their chat, I learned that the woman is a teacher. During the chat, he exaggerated his economic strength, mentioned buying a house, asked the woman to meet, and said that he would pay a deposit tomorrow. Look at the chat time, isn't it the time when he called me in a hurry and asked me to pay the deposit at home the next day? I didn't make it that day. Later, I heard from a friend that that building is the third delivery room. People who buy now are pulling banners, and the money is not coming back. If it's true, if you buy it, kick me out and bring that woman in when you come back? The more I read it, the sadder it gets. Many times their chat time is in the afternoon. Why didn't they reply to me in time? I was chatting happily when I lost contact for a few days. Why is there no suitable network for me? Ten thousand questions and grievances, I forced to swallow. ...

And this woman named Yan. I know her because of her. After I was with him, the reason for the first quarrel was also because of Yan. Yan is his high school classmate, now a teacher, and also the object of his secret love in high school and college. Yan is married and has a second child, and her figure is out of shape. After he was with me, he happened to see his chat with her. Their chat was so ambiguous that I couldn't accept it. The first time I quarreled with him, I asked him to delete this woman and never contact her again. He agreed and finished the action in front of me, but he didn't see it clearly. He moves too fast. Since then, I have always looked at his mobile phone intentionally or unintentionally to see if he has deleted it, or if I have chatted with her again.

Sometimes, I tell him that my hobby is to look at his mobile phone, and he gives it to me consciously, so I start to look through his chat records, and he has a sense of victory. However, although I was sensitive, I didn't let go of his circle of friends. Sometimes he sends a circle of friends, and a woman named Yan also leaves comments. However, when I transferred to Yan's circle of friends, he praised me frequently, which made me very angry. To this end, I had another big fight with him.

I didn't trust his feelings for me so much after that. Apart from his work relationship, I restricted him from chatting with other sluts of the opposite sex. But every time he tells me to put my heart in my stomach ... somehow, every time I believe it. ...

It was not until the first day he came back this time that I found out and deliberately asked him about a friend. What does a man think when he cheats another woman? Hearing this, he hesitated, and then said that men have difficulties and go out to smoke. ...

I added the woman who was chatting with him on work WeChat, but I didn't make it clear. I added her by finding someone to do a part-time job. The purpose is that if I confess to him, he says I won't contact them again. I can see if they really stopped contacting each other, or deleted each other between friends. That woman is smart, too. She called him, sent him my message and asked her if she knew me. Of course, my job number is familiar to him.

He didn't say anything wrong after I found out. He thought I didn't know their relationship, so he smiled and said, So-and-so called me, and you actually added her. Is it really 100 Sherlock Holmes? At this time, he didn't find my anger and sadness, but he still laughed as if I was unreasonable again. I asked him seriously, and I said, "Don't you need to give me an explanation?" He said easily, what is their relationship? It's not what I thought ... I can't stand it. I told him their original conversation, and he realized something was wrong.

Yes, he knew I found him cheating, but he didn't explain. He smoked one cigarette after another. He was clever enough to delete all the records of his mobile phone. How can I possibly know their conversation? He doesn't understand. He gave no explanation. More importantly, he didn't realize that he was wrong and didn't apologize. It seems natural that he should cheat. ...

It's really hard for me. In the middle of the night, I decided not to give him any more opportunities. Even if he explained his apology, he wouldn't. He broke his word again and again, and I lost my trust. At the moment when I wanted to give up, I quit his family group, kicked him out of my family group and deleted any WeChat of his family and friends. After that, I never want to save his chance again. At the same time, I also took his mobile phone and deleted the WeChat of my family and friends to prevent him from discovering my opportunity.

He grabbed the phone and smashed it, looking at the broken glass on the screen of the phone, just like my heart. The phone is broken and my heart is broken. ...

That night, we didn't sleep and talked very late. We didn't talk about this matter, we just met before, and we talked about the time when we were together later. In the meantime, when I talked about his promise to me, I couldn't help but give myself a few heavy slaps. How can I just listen to his sweet words? When I hit myself, he was indifferent, let alone explain his behavior. He asked, "Are we going to part like this?" Yes! I said, although I didn't get the license, I took him as my husband.

As for the reason why he fell into an affair, he only said that I was too busy to chat with him and he had a lot to say. So as to whether to chat or not, both sides have a bottom in their hearts. One is that there is something wrong with his network, and the other is that he sometimes doesn't reply in time. I was angry that he didn't take the initiative to find him, and he didn't take the initiative to find me. Generally speaking, there was a lack of communication ... We talked until 4 o'clock, and he had an exam the next day. I'll let him sleep and take the exam tomorrow. He said that he would not take the exam. A few minutes later, he fell asleep, snoring one after another, but I couldn't sleep. At 5: 30, I got up to make breakfast, and sat by the bed, looking at his familiar and unfamiliar face by the light outside the window. My heart ached and tears could not stop flowing. Maybe, after dawn, we are no longer who we are.

Wake him up for breakfast at half past six. He said he wouldn't take the exam, so I said I'm going to the examination room anyway. Even if I write a name, it doesn't matter to me whether he will be rich or not in the future ... The task now is to let him take the exam. He got up, didn't take a bite of my breakfast, and after reading the simulation, the 200 yuan I gave him was still on the table and went out.

As soon as the door rang, he gradually walked away, and my heart was empty. I stayed at home all day ... cleaning, cleaning, and I didn't know what to do to soothe my heartbreak. I had a cramp in my heart several times when I was cleaning, and I was ready to call 120. This cramp tastes terrible. Why didn't he explain it to me? Why not apologize to me? Is it natural for him to cheat? I thought of Luo Zijun, whose husband cheated without warning. Everything came so suddenly. Everything was like thunder buried for a long time, and now it suddenly exploded!

I don't understand. Why did he betray me? Why did you break your promise? I am nervous everywhere except paying close attention to him at ordinary times. He said that he knew my bottom line would not be committed, but why didn't he explain it this time? Maybe he explained my feelings. ...

The more I think he has a teacher plot. A coquettish woman is a teacher, and her secret crush is also a teacher. No wonder he often asks me to be a teacher, because I am also an education major. I gave up teaching for family reasons, and he often joked that he would go back to be a teacher ... All kinds of problems together, I seem to be the shadow of his secret love, and what he can't get is always the best. He found me to replace his crush. That's not enough. The object of cheating is the teacher. The person I love suddenly makes me hate the profession of teacher. Why hasn't he given up his secret love and is still waiting for her? I remember quarreling with him for the first time. Yan had a quarrel with her husband and complained to him in a bad mood. He said that if he could not, he would marry her. After reading it, I was very angry. He explained that they were good friends. I'm kidding. After I quarreled, he said that he would not contact, and he had put it down. I thought it was true!

But in the past four years, they have kept in touch, especially in the past two years, when he was working outside, he kept in frequent contact and talked about trivial things in life. Now I understand that the real break-up is to delete each other, not to contact each other, but for safety. As long as this relationship exists, as long as we contact, it will rekindle one day! I am very sad that my existence in the past four years. ...

After cleaning the room, I went out for a walk by tram, feeling too lonely at home. I cry every time I think about it, so I want to go to a crowded place to divert my attention.

However, the more I go to crowded places, the more sad I am. In front of this grave to be buried, I cherish our past memories. We bought food at the vegetable market, ate roadside stalls and set up stalls. The tram tricycle was out of power and the cart was pushed. Separated, if I enter the next relationship, it is estimated that I have used enough love and may never believe in love again. Suddenly, I feel that I miss him so much that I can't live without him. Do I love him deeply? Besides loving him, I found that I have no ability to love others. Why do I feel so deeply and feel so painful at this moment?

People come and go in the street, but I still can't stop crying. Riding a tram, wearing a helmet, under the helmet, I silently wail, no one knows. ...

There is a chicken in a cage on the balcony, which was bought during the Mid-Autumn Festival. He said he would come back at the Mid-Autumn Festival. I bought three chickens and didn't return them. I left one for him to come back. It would be better to keep the chicken for a long time. We kept it in secret, and he laughed at me.

I come from the countryside. From small to large, we always kill chickens and ducks during Chinese New Year holidays. Killing chickens is easy for me. Anyway, I was going to separate, so I killed the chicken and stewed chicken soup all afternoon for more than two hours. I left him a message on the table, telling him to eat first, without waiting for me. I'm out. I didn't go to the store all day. My father looked at it for me.

In the evening, when he came back from the exam, his home was different, neatly packed and there was chicken soup on the table. He panicked instantly, and the whole family looked for me, thinking that I had left. Looking at the clothes in the closet, his hanging heart was temporarily put down. ...

Until the afternoon 10, he sent me a message saying that he was wrong. Don't give up on me for a woman I've never met. We have all suffered in recent years, and our feelings are too strong.

Once again, as a bitch, I forgave him easily. He said it wouldn't happen again. Delete what should be deleted and put down what should be put down. ...

However, my heart was riddled with this incident, just like his own broken mobile phone screen. The mobile phone can be replaced with a new one, but if the screen is broken, it will never be restored. Although I forgave him, my heart is still scarred and I can't go back.

My friend said that I forgave him too quickly, at least give him a heavy punishment. I said I didn't know what to punish. She said, like a fine! However, this is not a problem for him. As long as he has a little, he is willing to give it. I know him too well.

On my first day back from Tibet, I threw a stack of money on the table, with an estimated cash of 10,000 yuan. He knows I like counting money. When I first opened the store, I counted it several times every night, but after counting the money, it was not my own, but the payment. This time, he can't wait for me to count. But I didn't follow his routine. I said quietly, put them on the table!

Finally, I took out money from here and bought him a new mobile phone! I went back to the construction site two days after the exam, and I haven't recovered yet!

Although we have made up, our feelings are not the same as before, and there are cracks. However, the more I found that I fell in love with him. Since he went to the project, I contacted him respectfully, as if I had done something wrong, fearing that he would find that woman and his old love again when he was lonely. I became so humble, so afraid of losing him.

My friend asked me why I hanged myself in this tree. I was going to hang myself in this tree. On the day I decided to leave, I actually thought that after he left, I might commit suicide, or find a place where my family didn't even know, slowly heal and stop loving. ...

Now that I think about it, I feel that I am going to pursue him again and try to make him happy. I began to change my image for him ...

After his cheating visit, I found that I can't live without him. The feelings of these four years have already turned into family ties. I love him. ...