How to evaluate the life of the despised Song Zi?

The life of the despised Songzi, a disqualified person in the world

Watching the movie "The Despised Songzi's Life" and the novel "The Disqualified Life of the Human Being" will always leave you with a sense of detachment and anger.

After reading the film, most people may sympathize with the protagonist's experience. Her unfortunate childhood was similar to his, which led to a tragic ending.

But I think the lack of love in childhood is pitiful, but the loss of qualifications as a human being is the result of self-pity and self-pity.

I have wasted my life but lost my true self. As a human being, I am sorry not for others, but for myself.

The childhoods of Song Zi and Ye Zang were very similar. Whether they were making faces or deliberately making a fool of themselves, it was all for the sake of others.

Even if he has an extreme fear of humans, he still has to act like a clown to keep his last connection with humans.

This kind of compromise, surrender, and dependent personality lasted from childhood to middle age, and continued until death.

Songzi would rather be deceived, despised, insulted, and beaten, and would give up her self-esteem to win the so-called love.

On the surface, Ye Zang attracts women to be infatuated with him. Women need him, so why not his unspeakable attachment to women?

Why am I angry? Because I can always see my own shadow in them, past and present.

It is pitiful to prefer to obliterate and deny yourself in order to respond to the expectations of others and try your best to please others.

So I am always angry, cynical, and self-righteous, but inside I am a trembling and pitiful person.

The tragedy of Ye Zang and Songzi is not that they make careless friends, but that they themselves are "selfless".

My misfortune is the misfortune of those who lack the ability to refuse. Is it also a sin not to resist?

Ye Zang actually knew what the problem was. What he feared was "the world" and not just people.

So he envied painters like Van Gogh, because they didn't care about other people's opinions at all, which was ridiculous.

Those who can remain unmoved by all the eight winds are dead. Living, they can only continue to be hindered by "disqualification" in this world.

But the hardships of the world are not the reason for giving up. Their enviable passion and intelligence are put in the opposite direction.

Dazai Osamu said, "This is my last courtship for mankind.", while Matsuko still had the strongest love for the world at the last moment before his death.

If you project a bit of this enthusiasm onto yourself, why do you get to this point? Why blindly seek love towards the abyss? It's just false.

Some people say they see hope in these two works. Forgive me for my incompetence, but I see far more despair than hope.

While it is painful to watch "The Crucible", it is difficult to have too much hope for this society. The reality is too cruel.

But we still say, "We fight all the way, not to change the world, but to prevent the world from changing us."

"The Life of the Disliked Songzi" and "The Human World" "Disqualified" is more like the most objective presentation of marginalized people.

When you see yourself inside, where will you see your truest self?

I just hope that when I look back on my life in the future, I will only say: "I am a human being and I am not sorry."