Thank you for coming, it makes my heart glow.

If God gives me another chance, I will still choose to meet you that summer.

?The first time I met you, in that small electronics factory, it was not a very beautiful environment. I clamped my glasses and looked at the indifferent faces of the employees in the computer room through the thick lenses, letting the personnel decide which position I should work in. You walked over with your fat body swaying, and stood in front of your supervisor with your head lowered. You seemed to be respectful, but actually you had an unclear expression on your face. The supervisor asked you to arrange for us to take our places. I stood in the middle of the queue, but I was the last one to be arranged. You looked at me for a few seconds, as if you were surprised that a gentle girl like me would appear in such a place, and I was the first to be arranged. When I see your face clearly for the first time, my first reaction is: so ugly.

?Actually, this is really not to blame for my irrational inner activities. I am used to seeing handsome boys and beautiful girls in school. At first glance, you are indeed not good-looking. What's more, you almost meet all my definitions of diaosi's appearance: fat, small eyes, and full of acne.

?The days of working in an electronics factory are dark and hard. I work more than ten hours a day, and my picky stomach doesn't allow me to eat those work meals that are cooked like pig food. The work pressure is huge, and it is impossible to take a break from the busy work. In that boring life, luckily I have you, otherwise I feel like I really wouldn’t be able to survive.

?Actually, I know you sympathize with me, an inexperienced little girl who works hard. You would come over to me from time to time, help me with some work, and tell a few jokes to make me laugh. Little things like your voice really lifted my tired spirit many times at that time. Besides that, what I never told you is that you have a nice voice.

?Your forced intervention in my life is like a different color, giving me a different scenery in my heart that has been barren for more than ten years.

?You are indeed different. No one has ever told me such rude jokes, and no one has ever taught me lessons about real society that are almost arrogant.

?But at that time, I knew that you and I were not very interested in either of us. Compared to my quietness, my best friend Huihui's passion seems to be more in line with your taste. You talked and laughed together, and you jokingly called yourself her Wang Baba. Although I looked calm on the outside, I actually envied Huihui very much in my heart.

?It feels really wonderful to have someone who is willing to accompany you, laugh with you, and make you happy.

?You take us to dinner and talk to us about human relationships. You were punished to work overtime until early in the morning because of me. For the first time, I felt so sorry for others that I burst into tears. I was bullied outside, and you were even angrier than me. You wanted to vent my anger on my behalf and tried your best to comfort me with words. The January period came quickly amid the torment of pressure, and I embarked on the journey to leave eagerly and reluctantly.

?I will go back to my ivory tower to study, and you will continue to live in this dark little room. The two of us are like intersecting lines. Whether we are willing to admit it or not, we did become friends after a brief encounter. Fading away.

?The weather was very nice on the day I left. I wore my favorite white dress to say goodbye to you. You walked past me and looked at me for a few seconds without saying anything, just like when we first met.

?Later I asked you: Why did you leave nothing when others gave you parting words or at least a hug?

?You said slowly: Because I don’t want you to remember this place. When you leave and go back to school, go to school and forget about this place. Don’t forget about the hustle and bustle here and study quietly.

?However, the nostalgia rooted in my bones did not make me forget you quickly. We still maintain relatively frequent contact.

?I love eating snacks. You sent me pictures saying that you and Huihui ate all over the food street; you said you were still out and couldn’t get a taxi back, so I called you and told you Be careful on the road. You laughed out loud, seeming to be mocking my pretentiousness. You told me that Huihui was by my side, and then I heard your cheerful laughter. I was so happy that my face turned pale, and I felt a sense of shame of being treated as a clown.

?At that time, I actually complained about you a little. If you can't concentrate on being nice to one person, then it's best not to give warmth to others easily. You know, warmth is addictive!

?Of course, later we ended up together inexplicably. The two intersecting lines that were getting farther and farther were forcibly twisted by me into a curve with a second intersection.

?Forgive my selfishness, I can't stand your kindness, your warmth, and you can't stand your forced tearing down of my heart wall. Although I know you are like this to most people, after being alone for nearly twenty years, I still greedily want to grasp this warmth, and like a glutton, I want to swallow this beauty to myself without letting go.

?You said you don’t want to fall in love. I said, it doesn't matter. When you want to talk, just consider me.

?So we were together, that day was September 9th. I'm very happy. Let me tell you, look, how wonderful the fate is. September 9th, does it mean that we can last forever? You also laughed and said, "Right." So I smiled even more happily, this is your first promise. You see, I am actually very easily satisfied.

?The more than 100 days we were together were the most princess-like time I have had in twenty years.

?I have a stomachache and the pain is so painful that I can’t speak. You called me and choked up, wishing you could bear it for me. My eyes were moist. In the end, I comforted you: It’s okay, you’ll be fine in a while. ; I suffer from severe insomnia, so you stayed up most of the night and picked out milk for me; I love snacks, so you bought me a lot of snacks every month, all of which I love; you secretly "bribed" my roommate , ask them to take good care of me for you; you spent your own small coffers and saved a month to replace my broken mobile phone for me...

? A lot, a lot, I thought I I have forgotten it, but actually, I remember it more clearly than anyone else.

?You said you wanted to decorate our little house with me, and you came to ask me about every detail. I said, why are you telling me this? I don’t understand! You said with a smile, if you don't ask me, then what if you get married and look at me and scold us and say why the decoration is so ugly? At that time, I was smiling and almost burst into tears, and my heart became soft.

?Happiness turns out to be like this, it’s so good.

?You said you want to buy a big sofa, the kind that you can lie down on. When I get tired, I will lie on my head and you give me a massage;

?You said that in the future our family will , we have to take turns cooking. I lied and said: No, I have my period every day! You smiled helplessly and said: Okay, from now on, I will serve you as a child;

?You said, I never thought that one day I would fall in love with such a person. Within a few months, I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her;

...... During that time, my roommates always told me that they envied me for finding a husband. But no one expected that we would be separated later.

?On the day we broke up, you cried and asked me if I had ever loved you.

?I was speechless for a moment. For the past twenty years, I have been walking alone. like? This is a foreign word to me.

?Seeing my silence, you smiled bitterly and said: Let's break up. I'm tired. When we are together, I find that I can't do anything for you.

?I hurriedly explained: You don’t need to do anything, I can handle the little things around me...

"You are always like this," you interrupted me angrily, "You are a girl and you also need support, but I can't do anything for you."

?I am very confused and confused. This feeling is very bad and I don’t like it at all.

?But that time you didn’t pay attention to my feelings as usual, you were still talking. You said that you feel very tired and that you have been loving someone who doesn't love you back.

?I opened my mouth, but no sound came out from my mouth or heart.

?We finally broke up, just before the warm Christmas Eve.

?On the second day after the breakup, there was a lot of excitement outside. The couple held hands and looked at each other sweetly and talked happily.

"It's so cold." I frowned and whispered to my heart, but I couldn't tell where it was.

?On the third day after we broke up, you asked me to get back together. You said you couldn't let go, and you apologized to me, saying that you had made a mistake and didn't want to leave me.

?I was very happy to hear that and agreed immediately. In fact, I don’t want to break up either! I can't bear it!

?However, less than a day after getting back together, you went back on your word. You said that you thought it would be better for us to break up. Your role is more like my brother.

? I was angry, and the shame of being treated as a clown came to my mind again.

?I frowned and intercepted your words: Don’t say anything. This time it’s my turn to say, let’s break up!

?This time, you said yes calmly. It was so calm that I felt like you were just waiting for this sentence.

?Throwed the phone and covered his face. I know that this time, we really broke up.

?You said I should take good care of myself and not throw away the Christmas gift you gave me. This is the last gift. I responded calmly. The inner shell began to wrap up my heart again.

?It’s ridiculous, I thought to myself, because you love me, you broke up with me.

?If you love me, how can you be willing to hurt me?

?…………

?Actually, if you think about it carefully, why have we come to this point?

? Could it be that my heart has been cold for too long and needs more love to thaw it out; or is it that you are always frightened and have an attitude of anger or even hatred towards the opposite sex around me? I can't make you feel at ease no matter what method I use; or maybe it's the isolation of time and space that makes the relationship fade into fresh water; or it's your tough attitude of never bowing down every time there is a conflict...

? That's all. Well, it’s meaningless to say this now. Just like the wind blowing by, it feels very comfortable when it blows, but once it blows, it is gone and there is no going back.

? However, I still want to thank you. After all, your arrival has brought sunshine to my heart that has been desolate for a long time and has not been seen for more than ten years, making my heart glow. , let me also experience what it means to hold it in the palm of my hand.

Postscript

Later, I was left alone again. Life is still the same, just like I have been for the past ten years, but occasionally I still think of that person, who once made me have the urge to marry someone else.

?Then one day, I went to chat with Huihui and talked about you.

Huihui rolled her eyes: How lacking in love are you that you actually fell in love with him? Huihui said, you once asked her whether you wanted to buy her a mobile phone. Say that you have never revealed our relationship to her, you are still the same as before, and you will flirt with her from time to time just like you did when we were not together...

? I smiled palely, feeling in my heart A little helpless, it turns out that it was really a dream...