Lost, years in the forest, looking for yourself on the road.

Under the call of drums in the distance

I embarked on a long journey.

Wrap up an old coat.

Leave everything behind.

Wandering in the dark whirlpool all day, waiting for someone who can be saved, reaching out and pulling himself out of the whirlpool and back to the shore. In the life of being at a loss and in fear, I keep saying goodbye to myself, to yesterday, to the city where I was born, and even to myself now. I don't want to catch up with anything and I don't want to look back. I just packed my bags in the quiet forest these years, and my mouth turned up, showing a sweet smile. Find yourself in a free and easy way.

I think, in Haruki Murakami's pen, I found it.

Haruki Murakami is a person with his own rhythm. He doesn't want to be like most people, constantly painting the ground for the prison, imprisoning his own steps, doing what he is used to but doesn't like, and living a life that has become inertia but no passion. I don't want to pay for any whim, just want to be stable at the same time. Therefore, he would rather choose loneliness than go with the flow and live a life he doesn't want to live. So, at the age of 37, I decided to leave Japan and live in Europe. Because I am worried about staying in Japan all the time, I may get old in dealing with trivial matters of daily life, and I may lose something unconsciously.

For the explanation of "Chu", in Murakami's "South of the Border, West of the Sun", Shimamoto said: "The sun rises from the eastern horizon, crosses the horizon in the sky and falls to the western horizon ~ Every day, when you witness this situation repeatedly, something suddenly dies with a bang. So you threw down your hoe and went west without thinking, to the west of the sun. I was possessed for several days and didn't eat or drink until I fell to the ground and died. " Murakami's Shimamoto is undoubtedly his true inner portrayal. Through his novels, he explored life bit by bit. He extended the writer's keen tentacles to the subtle corners of life and explored the ultimate meaning of life that many people have been asking.

For example, in life, everyone will fall into a heavy sense of fatigue, which is inevitable. After all, the longer you walk on the road of life, the more you suffer. If you have nowhere to put your heart, you will be at a loss. We all hope to have a place where we can relax and feel the flow of time truly and vividly as when we first started on the road. This place is just south of the border.

I believe many people have experienced this feeling: knowing that they have tried their best, but they can do nothing in front of the whole world, they will feel ashamed, for themselves and for poverty. Poverty is a sudden state. You want to hide, but you can't. Just like walking in the sun, I suddenly feel that I should find a shadow to hide, because I don't know what will happen later.

Murakami also leads a very miserable and poor life. But for those who are bent on becoming writers and writing wonderful words, life itself has been relieved. In 1q84, he thinks that the so-called life is just a process of continuous loss. The fact that we once thought it was precious and regarded it as a treasure of life will fall from our hands one by one, and we can't catch it or get it back, even if we want to find a substitute. This fact is really tragic.

Since life is a losing process, you don't have to pay too much attention to the process.

Returning to this monotonous and chaotic real world with thoughts and joy, I still hope to keep my real textbooks. With the ordinary and humble life, I have never thought of giving up my life voluntarily, and I have never thought of giving up myself who is not excellent. I can't shine like a perfect person, but I believe I am good enough, I am relaxed and confident. He is friendly and persistent with an uncouth smile on his face.

Indulge in the forest of words, travel all your life to find the most formal self, and really live.