I may really be a selfish mother.

I think I really tried my best, but as a mother, I'm a little tired of my children. It is said that maternal love is selfless, maybe I am not qualified enough to do it.

When my child was young, I took care of his life and tried my best to guide him to grow up actively and healthily. But people are multifaceted and complicated. In reality, all kinds of information will affect his cognition. As for me, as I get older, I feel more and more overwhelmed in everything, including the ability to bear pressure, the ability to think and the ability to control emotions. Or, I can use my menopause as an excuse. However, endless boredom will still haunt me. To be fair, I am an ordinary person. I don't expect much from my parents, children and husband. How big the pot is, how many meters to pour. Over the years, I have always believed that if everyone does his job well, the whole family will be harmonious.

However, it seems difficult to do this. I think the education of children, though unsuccessful, is at least normal. There is no chicken baby, respect his choice and give him reasonable advice. My wife and I set an example and insist that words and deeds are greater than words and deeds. We are filial to our parents, honest, harmonious and self-reliant. Down-to-earth, diligent, not too ambitious, give yourself the most objective and pragmatic positioning, and do the essential work well.

It's a long story to see the children again. When I was a kid, it was safe there. The more you grow up, the more paranoid you become. Blindly confident and optimistic, always overestimate yourself. I stumble again and again, but I still don't have a long memory. He is a popular major in 985, and he doesn't want to get a job, so he has to take the postgraduate entrance examination. The reason is that I don't want to work too early and don't want to take responsibility. Ok, no problem, we can support our children to continue their studies with our own strength. After all, continuing their studies is not a bad thing. Since you choose to take the postgraduate entrance examination, you should start early and work hard early. Why do you believe it can be done in three months? Still despising our school, must we report to the top school of top 1? As a result, I was beaten in the face and still did not change my original intention. World War II, good, support, perseverance in pursuing dreams, that's right. Suggest that he lower his expectations of World War II and apply to this school. After all, our major is also in the top 3. In the end, I chose not to change my mind. However, have you really tried your best? The result came out, but I missed it. I don't think this result is unexpected. On the contrary, I think everything is expected. I love leisure and hate work, my desire and ability don't match, my eyes are high and my eyes are low, my ambition is great, and my talents are scarce. This is my evaluation of children. Admittedly, he can go to the present, and he can't deny his Excellence. However, to become a top talent, the most basic Excellence is far from enough.

Now the loss of the status of fresh graduates, the cruelty of postgraduate entrance examination and adjustment, and even the possibility of going to double non-study, is definitely unwilling. Three wars? Who can guarantee that you can get what you want in World War III, even if you lower it to our school! Can't you accept that you are an ordinary person? Heart tired.

Nearly half a year old, I don't want to consume myself for my children. As an adult, he should be responsible for his behavior choice. I hate people who can't recognize reality and see themselves clearly, even my own children. I ask myself, is my education as a mother a failure? I don't know. I am not a god, and I am not great. I don't want to give my all selflessly for anyone. I just want to live an ordinary life now. Who knows Tian Ming and the accident who knocked at the door first? Things change, and nothingness is not what I need. Maybe I'm too fragile and not strong enough. However, after working hard for half my life, I just want to live a good day.