Kimi tells jokes, princess.

Jimmy, he has been dead for five years.

At the peak of his career, at the age of 28, he committed suicide. These five years have been a long pain for Kimi's parents.

Five years ago, in the sudden rainstorm in Shanghai, they lost their only child and became orphan parents.

Kimi once said a word with lost eyes on a program, which still makes people feel sad. "I'm not broke, I'm still sick." .

2007 talent show "Come on! My Hero shows an ordinary person how DeUEX became an idol and how Kimi became a runner-up overnight. He officially debuted and plunged into the entertainment circle.

Not very lucky.

After that, the record industry declined sharply, and Jing Bo Ran and Yifeng Li successively transformed the film and television industry. Kimi was depressed by the disillusionment of her musical ideal, so she had to obey this era and act.

Kimi walked on thin ice in this circle for five years and found that she had nothing.

He was arranged to play some insignificant roles in some shoddy TV dramas. He was despised and ridiculed by the director, and occasionally interacted with former friends Jing Boran and Yifeng Li, which was misunderstood as "rubbing heat" and "mixing so badly, I am so embarrassed to be together" ......

Kimi became a joke.

In everyone's eyes, he is just an idol product, not a talented person.

Later, he suffered from severe depression.

Kimi, in her twenties, became cautious. He always draws the curtains at home during the day, and no amount of sleeping pills can make him fall asleep before three in the morning. He even started hurting himself.

Finally, one day in September of 20 16, Kimi was overwhelmed and left. It rained heavily that day.

Jimmy's parents left a death certificate.

Recalling the scene that day, Joe and dad described it in two words: sad.

Ten years ago, "Come on! My hero's Four Towns was finally reunited at Kimi's memorial service.

His ending ended in tragedy.

Joe and Gao were left behind. Neither of them is the parents of the star Jimmy. They are ordinary parents who have lost their children.

Joe's father has been to a nursing home in Shanghai, and the environment is OK. The canteen is very big and will be Kimi's parents' home.

They have obvious old ideas.

The white hair on his father Joe's head shows his deep pain. He called his son's sudden death fate, and there was nothing he could do.

Later, he repeated it twice: fate.

20 16 September 16, it rained heavily in Shanghai.

It was the second day of Mid-Autumn Festival. In the evening, Joe and his wife Gao were cooking at home when they suddenly received a phone call: "Come on, he's not breathing. I am so scared. "

It was Jimmy's girlfriend Lee on the phone.

Li recalled that ordinary afternoon. After eating buckwheat noodles and scrambled eggs with tomatoes, she and Kimi felt sleepy and took a nap on the second and third floors of the villa respectively.

This short farewell is farewell.

In the evening, I went downstairs and saw Li lying upright in bed, as if quietly waiting for some kind of ending.

When she approached, the whole person felt at a loss. Jimmy had a plastic bag on his head, and Li quickly tore it off. It turned out to be several layers of bags. She called his name and pulled his body without any response.

Jimmy, killed himself.

After his father Joe received the phone call, he went blind. He ran downstairs, got on the battery car and ran to his son's house. The road became more and more gloomy, and the rain drifted from the beginning to the pouring, and the rain fell on his face in big drops.

After Joe arrived at his son's villa, the ambulance had arrived and left a death certificate.

The old man couldn't accept this sudden loss, and the whole person collapsed on the ground, surrounded by crowded people and various voices. Not until the day of farewell did Joe know that his son was suffering from severe depression.

That's his son Kimi, not the star Kimi.

This boy, who likes pink and bright, saw a gray and cold world on the last day of his life.

Five years ago, the sudden heavy rain in Shanghai filled the humid air with an inextricable mist, much like Kimi's unspeakable grievances and pains.

Being with you.

When Joe and Gao were interviewed by Chen Xiaonan, it was only a few days before their son Kimi 10+05' s birthday.

Two months ago, Kimi's father choked up during a talk with strangers. On the eve of his son's 34th birthday, Joe and his father said, "Mom and Dad didn't embarrass you."

Joe, who has never cried in public, keeps crying. He misses his son.

The white hair on his father's head shows his deep pain.

On the talk show, Chen Xiaonan, as the interviewee, has always been very reserved and calm. However, in this conversation with Kimi's parents, she shed tears.

Chen Xiaonan

Mother Gao said that she must live every day seriously. She won't think about what will happen in the future, and her son in heaven will be happy for himself.

When it comes to my son, I look proud, and Kimi is in "Come on! My hero got the out-of-print photos of the top ten. "He is very handsome. He was ranked first at that time. I'm just proud of my son. He is really sunny. "

When the couple make food videos, their son Kimi's songs will be played in the background music, and they will feel that their son has never left and he is with them.

"That's enough, you can come back."

They must keep themselves busy, otherwise they will collapse when they are empty and miss their sons in their own way.

There is a pink desk calendar on the living room table at home all the year round, staying on Gao's favorite photo. Jimmy sat on a park bench and smiled happily in the sun.

The son coexists with them like this, and the old desk calendar will never fall on the dust.

Kimi has never been forgotten by her parents.

In the first two years of independence, Kimi's parents tried to find out the reasons for their son's depression through various clues.

Later, they stopped looking and started shooting short videos. "If you find the reason? The life of the living still needs to continue. "

2065438+March 2009, after losing their son for nearly three years, in order to get out of great grief, the husband and wife began to try new things, shoot food videos online, cook and share food every day.

Although this is a bugle call to commemorate my son, it is also a bugle call full of different voices.

Joe's crooked mouth was caused by a medical accident decades ago. When he was doing a biopsy in the clinic, he encountered a nerve. He smiled at the video and said, "I don't mind. You can call me grandpa Joe with a crooked mouth. "

Mother's big eyes and long face are caused by pituitary tumors. Because some netizens said that her One Piece looks like a monster, she deliberately searched it, and it really looks like it.

They solve contradictions by teasing themselves. In this case, a smile is more powerful than tears, which is what the son wants to see.

It hurts to send someone with white hair to someone with black hair. People who have not experienced it are not qualified to make any judgments. Shut up can also be a kindness.

Joe's parents didn't do anything wrong, and they never got over their grief. "They all say we can come out, but we can't."

For Kimi, he must have never thought that he would be more widely known after his death. Isn't this another kind of sadness?

After Kimi died, her mother wrote in the middle of the night: "I didn't take good care of you. You are my eternal pride."

Shortly after his son was born, Gao resigned and became a housewife. Jimmy loves her mother deeply.

When I was a child, Kimi was a polite and intelligent child. Whenever he walks in the alley of the old house, he will take the initiative to say hello when he sees his uncle and aunt. He never moves his first chopsticks. He always helps his mother with food first.

With such a clever son, Gao and Joe are envied by their neighbors, but they just want their children to live a simple and happy life.

Kimi and his mother as children.

Kimi's sensitivity and delicacy may be due to his personality.

He always calls his mother Sister Ping. Whenever Kimi sees something new outside, she wants to take her mother to experience it. Once, he took Gao to a disco, and when he went in, there were all young people.

"In the town where I was born, there lived a sailor. He told us about his life in the submarine, so we sailed until dawn until we found the blue sea. We live in a yellow submarine under the waves, and all our friends are on board. Most of them live next door to us ... "

The Beatles's Yellow Submarine was Kimi's favorite song when he was a teenager, because his father was a sailor.

Joe works outside all the year round and can only come back a few times a year.

Kimi is always strict in front of her father, afraid of making mistakes.

There are not many photos of a family of three. Most of the time, he sits next to his mother in the photo album.

In his photo album Private Life, Jimmy once wrote:

"Since I was born, my life is not perfect. My father is a sailor, and I have been away all the year round. My mother raised me almost alone. When I grow up, I know that being a sailor's woman is very hard, because besides managing my own family, I have to wait for my husband's return for a long time, so my mother is the woman I admire most. "

Because of this, he had an idea from an early age, "I am an adult, and when my father is not at home, I will shoulder the heavy responsibility of protecting my mother."

Seafarers' family conditions are slightly better than other ordinary families. When I was a child, Kimi was always the first to eat a drink with pulp and drink foreign milk powder in the whole alley. Everything she ate was imported.

At that time, he always had a sense of superiority in his heart.

It was not until he grew up and became sensible that Kimi realized that his father could not see his progress and growth every time. He turned out to be a man who lacked fatherly love.

Kimi and her parents when I was a child.

Although the father loves "absence", Qiao Kangqiang also loves his son deeply, and he will clearly remember every detail of Kimi.

In 2005, Kimi participated in the first talent show "Let My Heart Fly" and won the national championship.

Mother Gao doesn't want her son to go this way. It's hard to walk alone on a wooden bridge in a strange circle with cold water on your face.

Gao thought his son was just joking and dreaming, but later he found that his son was getting farther and farther on this road.

That year, he was 18 years old.

Under the persuasion of his father, Kimi refused to sign a contract with a brokerage company and chose to study at Shanghai Dianji University.

Kimi is very popular in college and an active activist. At that time, the school promised to send him to study in Germany.

In the parents' mind, after his son returned from studying in Germany, he entered a good enterprise and it was time to get married and have children.

Qiao Kangqiang said: "This is also a good road. At least it's not that stressful. People will come to an end in these decades, but at least it can be less sudden. "

Safe roads, and Jimmy.

Kimi's life was completely changed because of the appearance of a talent show.

Jimmy and his mother are tall.

On the evening of July 2, 2007, Kloc-0, the talent show "Come on! After more than four months of noise, my hero finally came to an end. Among thousands of young men, Jing Bo Ran, Kimi, Yifeng Li and Fu Xinbo were selected as "four small cities".

The whole process, let everyone witness how an ordinary person, deus ex became an idol.

From left to right: Jing Bo Ran, Fu Xinbo, Yifeng Li and Kimi.

Among them, Kimi is the easiest to remember. He is tall and thin, with a bad smile and a little evil between his eyebrows and eyes. "come on During the audition of My Hero, the director of Shanghai Division interviewed many people and was deeply impressed by him: "This kid is cool. "

Father Joe came back from abroad and stayed at home for two months, watching TV with his wife Gao and cheering for his son.

Joe looked at his son in the TV set, so glamorous and handsome, even a little strange, more proud.

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/kloc-Kimi, 0/9 years old, is in "Come on! Editing Video in My Hero

That year, Kimi was 19 years old. In the era of draft, he experienced a brilliant moment of overnight fame.

"I used to stand in the audience and shout the name of' Wang Leehom', but when the people on the stage changed to me, the shouts I heard were all my names, and the shock was indescribable. Actually, it's no exaggeration to say that I really enjoyed it. Because every singer will enjoy the feeling of conquering others on stage. "

The boy is cold in appearance, but warm in heart. Kimi's favorite color is pink. He is as bright as pink. When a girl born in baby sounds was teased by the group, he offered to help.

However, vanity fair in the entertainment industry has always been ruthless.

Kimi once wrote in the book: Perhaps because my name is "Kimi", I have been complaining that the sky has not given me great responsibility. Why am I still struggling with my own thoughts, but I am still trying to fulfill my parents' expectations and be a pillar?

Libra, who has a special artistic talent, has done this propaganda work. Kimi wouldn't know that he was greeted not only by spotlights and applause, but also by attacks and misunderstandings.

Jimmy and his parents

"come on After My Hero, Kimi signed a contract with a brokerage company, officially debuted and plunged into the entertainment circle.

He was wrapped in the myth of overnight fame, and orange sky entertainment, who signed the contract, drew a beautiful blueprint for this young man. "The album will be produced by the top team, and KIMI will be made into a superstar in all aspects of film and television songs."

As a fledgling Kimi, the road to development is not smooth, and the fame of draft stars comes and goes quickly.

He loves rock and roll, and once had the desire to become a powerful singer, but he failed.

Once, Kimi met Zheng Jun, a rock veteran, at the award ceremony. Zheng Jun, who has always been straightforward, said: "The talent show singer's overnight fame lacks connotation. The so-called rock singer only dares to come out and mix three or four chords. "

At that moment, he realized that he, a so-called new generation singer, was nothing in this circle.

Zheng Jun's words made Kimi miss it for a long time: "If I see Mr. Zheng next time, I will definitely tell him that my major is not strong enough, but I will try my best to improve myself every day ..."

Kimi worked hard and didn't want to make embroidered pillows, but she was unlucky.

After that, the record industry declined sharply, and Jing Bo Ran and Yifeng Li successively transformed the film and television industry. Kimi was depressed by the disillusionment of her musical ideal, so she had to obey this era and act.

Kimi walked on thin ice in this circle for five years and found that she had nothing.

He was arranged to play a small role with no sense of existence in some shoddy TV series. On one occasion, a director said mercilessly, "This is the third time we have met. Before we came out to meet today, I even had to search the word Kimi online. Don't you feel sad? "

Jimmy was ashamed. He doesn't know what expression to use to face others.

He didn't give up and worked harder than before. When making low-budget movies, the director asked him to shoot himself in the mirror every day and feel the feeling of "hating himself".

Kimi cherished this opportunity to be taught, so she did it when she returned to her residence that night, and specially recorded it as a video for the director to check the next day.

The director's eyes widened: "Did you really slap yourself more than a dozen times?" ? It seems that I can't talk nonsense. "

Kimi became a joke.

In everyone's eyes, he is just an idol product, not a talented person.

Later, he suffered from severe depression.

Kimi, who is in her twenties, became cautious. He always draws the curtains at home during the day, and no amount of sleeping pills can make him fall asleep before three in the morning.

For patients with depression, every day of life is suffering, not intentional, and already overwhelmed, which is an unavoidable dilemma.

They have no wounds to exhibit, no shocking medical images, and even no response to high temperature and pain.

Kimi looks normal. In fact, they have been stumbling on the wasteland for a long time, but no one can see them. In fact, they can't hold on any longer.

Kimi once said a word with lost eyes on a program, which still makes people feel sad. "I'm not broke, I'm still sick." .

No one knows what was on his mind when he said this sentence.

Maybe his heart is broken like glass, but he doesn't know how to clean it, and he doesn't know how to treat the bleeding and pain in his heart.

His arm is full of self-mutilation wounds. When his parents asked him in time, Kimi said that he did it when he was filming a car accident, and everything was fine.

Kimi loves her mother very much.

Every time he comes home from work in other places, he will touch his mother's head and spoil her as he did when he was a child, because he misses her.

Jimmy and his mother

Once, Kimi, who worked in a foreign country, suddenly sent a message to her father late at night: "Dad, I miss you."

Later, he sent another message to his mother: "Mom, I love you."

Gao felt something was wrong and told her husband that his son would be fine, so he dialed the phone and said, "Son, what's wrong with you? Is there anything wrong? "

Kimi on the other end of the phone smiled and said, "Mom, it's okay now. All solved. "

I am used to my son's character of reporting good news and not worrying, and I no longer ask more questions.

Joe and Gao

Joe remembers the last time he had a long talk with his son At that time, he waited for more than two months in Brazil and other docks. Ships in many places are concentrated there to load iron ore. He chats with his son on QQ every day.

It was the densest and longest conversation between father and son. Kimi told dad not to go out again after coming back from abroad this time, and he would do all kinds of things in the future.

Paradoxically, this child, who has been reporting good news but not bad news, took the initiative to reveal his various pressures to his father and could not sleep well. Qiao Kangqiang was far away at that time, and he didn't know what happened to his son.

He advised his son to stop temporarily and travel abroad for half a year. Kimi just said, "I can't stop."

Joe felt a telepathy. During that time, he was inexplicably agitated and always flustered.

Later, Joe and Dad realized that when their son confessed his worries to himself, he was actually asking for help.

Jimmy and his parents

Finally, one day in September of 20 16, Kimi was overwhelmed and ended his life. It rained heavily that day.

Joe recalled that it almost rained that night. "I have never seen such a heavy rain."

On September 20 16 16, Kimi quietly ended his life in a villa in Putuo District, Shanghai. He committed suicide.

Less than a month before his 29th birthday.

The day before, it was the Mid-Autumn Festival.

Kimi called her mother and said that she would take her colleagues home for dinner. For Gao, this is just an ordinary Mid-Autumn Festival reunion, but it is not.

After dinner, the mother saw her son to the door. Kimi repeatedly told her, "You should play cards well every day, keep healthy and don't think about anything."

That turn is farewell.

At the height of his popularity, Kimi committed suicide.

Many spectators regarded his death as entertainment. They maliciously snooped and spread rumors that he died because "SM" was out of control. This 28-year-old boy became the talk of mass entertainment.

Their private speculation coincides with the general public's imagination of the entertainment circle, but in any case, a person's death should not be a gossip and cynicism.

When Kimi first debuted, she said, "I don't regret what I did today. I know what I want. Not a star, but an artist is second to none. I would rather be a happy civilian. "

Unfortunately, it is too late.

On that ordinary Friday afternoon, before bidding farewell to this world, was there a warm look and a gentle word that shocked him and made him want to stay?

Jimmy's parents left a death certificate.

The loss of a son happened suddenly.

Recalling the scene that day, Joe and dad described it in two words: sad.

Jimmy and his father Joe

In the rain, he rode a battery car to see his son for the last time, and his hopes failed.

He collapsed to the ground, feeling dizzy and his head was blank. After a while, the hearse came.

Joe was deeply grieved and had to brace himself to deal with his son's affairs, funeral and negotiations with the brokerage company. ......

At that time, Joe's mother had fallen down and her voice was hoarse and she could not speak. Joe's father told himself that he must not fall down, and he could only carry on these things.

"You'd better live well. We live well, which is the greatest comfort to him. "

Chen Qiaoen was KIMI's good friend. After his death, Jon always came to Shanghai to spend a few days with his parents. The three of them sometimes talk for a while, laugh for a while and then cry. She said to the two old people, "We can't cry, Kimi is watching us."

Come on! When My Hero was auditioned in Shanghai, Zhang Li in the director group was Jimmy's Bole. What he didn't expect was that nine years later, he saw the cool boy separated by Yin and Yang.

He kept asking himself:

"We can pick out so many precious, innocent and beautiful children in a flash. But when they leave TV programs, go to the society and go to the market, are they really ready? "

In an interview with Chen Xiaonan, Joe called his son's sudden departure fate, and there was nothing he could do.

Later, he repeated it twice: fate.

Ten years ago, "Come on! My hero's Four Towns was finally reunited at Kimi's memorial service.

His ending ended in tragedy.

Joe and Gao were left behind. Neither of them is the parents of the star Jimmy. What they lost was their son, an ordinary bereaved parent.

They have obvious old ideas.

Jimmy's parents

Joe's father visited a nursing home in Shanghai. The environment is ok, and the canteen is very big, which will be the home of parents who have lost their children.

Many nights when Joe can't sleep, he always plays his son's songs one by one. After a long time, he can sing every song skillfully.

It's just that singing Kimi will never come back.

When Joe Kangqiang was a child, he was a sailor and once crossed Indonesia. He bought many golden mangoes. Because of the typhoon, the ship stopped at sea for several days.

Black spots appeared on mangoes that were originally intact. Joe wakes up in a strange sea every day, eating rotten mangoes.

A week later, the ship arrived in Shanghai.

After the box of mangoes crossed the mountains, rivers and lakes, Joe put the golden mangoes in front of his son Kimi and watched him eat them sweetly. He couldn't help laughing.