Don't cry, your mother is back

A few days ago, Su Liang’s grandma spent the whole day reading maps of China with the third master next door, and stopped watching the news. The 16-inch black and white TV series finally belonged to Su Liang, and she guarded it. Children's Channel From finishing homework until eight o'clock in the evening, my grandma took care of me and washed me and went to bed.

She doesn’t understand why her grandma, who always likes to watch the news, stops watching it. Her grandma, who watches the weather forecast on time every day, doesn’t understand why she doesn’t understand. What’s so interesting about a map? .

One evening, she was playing with the girl next door at the intersection. The sound of the old-fashioned three-wheel motorcycle was getting closer and closer. She finally couldn't help but raise her head and look towards the road. The old red three-wheeled motorcycle made her stunned for a moment. It was not until the car drove in front of her that she panicked and ran back home. The man shouted "Su Liang" from behind, but she seemed not to hear anything and kept struggling. Run home.

"Grandma, grandma, me"

"What's wrong? Speak slowly, why are you running? Don't fall."

"My dad Mom, I seem to be back..."

The middle-aged and elderly woman in front of her ran outside before she could take off her apron. When she saw the old red motorcycle tricycle, she suddenly couldn't stop crying. She lowered her head and wiped her eyes. Greeting:

"Ran, I'm back. Are you okay? Are you injured?"

Su Liang followed behind, stuck his head out, and looked at the three people in front of him carefully. , when her eyes were filled with her father's eyes, she hid behind her grandma again.

"It's okay, mother, we have nothing to do. Come and see your granddaughter."

Grandma pushed Su Liang out:

" Didn't you keep saying you missed your mother? Why didn't you say anything when you saw her?"

Looking at the mother in front of her, her eyes turned red, and then she saw the baby in her mother's arms.

"Who is she?"

"Girl, didn't I tell you that you have a sister? When she grows up, do you want to play with her?"< /p>

Su Liang nodded and said, "Can I hug her?"

"No, how old are you? She is still young, not yet one year old, don't you?" You know how to hug, why are you so ignorant?"

Su Liang's hand was hanging in the air. She still hoped that her father could be gentler to her, but... this seemed to be her fantasy after all.

"What are you talking about? Ah Liang is eight years old. There is no problem. Ah Liang is very sensible. She never cries or makes a fuss. Her grades are very good and she gets certificates every year!" Grandma The proud smile made Ah Liang feel guilty, and he rubbed his hands uneasily.

"It's true, mother." Su Liang's mother handed the baby in her arms to the man, squatted down and stroked Su Liang's head, "A Liang is so good and sensible."

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But she looked at the man with her peripheral vision and couldn't help but hold back her tears.

"What's the matter, Liang? Mom is back. Mom is not leaving. Don't cry."

"It's okay, Mom, I'm so happy. Oh, by the way, grandma The soup has been cooked. I'm going to wash the bowls and serve the soup. Let's get ready for dinner." Su Liang ran into the yard. Grandma followed Su Liang into the yard and squatted by the well to wash the dishes. Su Liang entered the kitchen again. The sound of charcoal burning on the stove made a muffled sound, and the dishes in the pot always felt like they had lost some color. The woman took the baby back. The man drove the car into the house and carried the things in the car to the grocery room. The woman poured the man a bowl of hot water. The man drank it in one gulp and then picked it up from the woman's arms. Baby girl, sitting on the bedside to make her happy.

The laughter reached Su Liang’s ears. She felt it was harsh and aggrieved. In her memory, her father had never treated her like this before. Unconsciously, tears fell again. She wiped her tears and picked up the dishes.

"A Liang, what's wrong with you? Aren't your parents back? Why are you always crying?"

"No, grandma, I'm just too happy."

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"Oh~ you have to know that your parents love you. They didn't stay with you for so many years because they wanted to earn money for you to go to school."

"I know, grandma, I'm fine. , I know, they love me very much." When she said the word love, she felt ironic and wanted to laugh at herself.

"Well, Ah Liang is really sensible."

"Grandma, I'm going in. Let's put the soup in and let it cool down first."

"Well, go ahead Bar.

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She entered the house, quietly served the soup, set out the bowls and chopsticks, then went to the kitchen to put the fried dishes on the table. Finally, she found a basin for washing her face and dug a well. Water, it was early June, and the coolness of the well water was refreshing.

“Mom, wash your hands and get ready for dinner. "

"Well, don't worry about your dad. He will take your sister first and eat later. "A Liang nodded, turned around and went to the yard.

Her mother followed behind and suddenly said:

"A Liang, do you still remember that little brother? The one at the fruit shop? "

"Remember, that little brother smiled cutely. "

The cool ice water passed over Ah Liang's hand. It was obviously very comfortable, but she felt cold to her heart.

"Mom, where is his mother? Are there any injuries? "

"Her mother is about to go to heaven to find her son. "

"Why. "A Liang was shocked.

"Actually, that was not his mother. His biological mother had already run away after his father had a car accident. This fruit stall aunt was the boy's father's first love. No less, so he raised the boy. "

"What about his father? "

"Dead long ago. "

"Then, does he know these things..."

"I don't know, because these things happened before the boy had no memory, so how could the fruit stand aunt tell him? . ”

“Mom, why did you say that the fruit stall aunt is about to go to heaven to find her brother?” "

"Oh~ that aunt has cancer. "

"What is cancer? ”

“It is an incurable disease, a disease waiting to die, a disease that can lead to death at any time. ”

Ah Liang suddenly felt very sad. She thought, are people really that fragile? Death seems to be a common thing. She had never thought about it before. She looked at the people in front of her. Mother, asked out of nowhere:

The woman in front of her was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said:

"Really? Wouldn't mom lie to me? ”

“When has Mom ever lied to you?” "

"Hey, mom didn't lie to me. "

Ah Liang smiled happily, but a trace of sadness flashed inexplicably in her heart. She didn't know why, but her mother and father had completely opposite attitudes towards her.

"Well, mother , my house in the south is..."

"I know, let's live here now, and I've packed up everything. You, your wife, and Erya will live in my previous house together, and the bed big. "

"Thank you, Mom. "

"You are my daughter. What should I thank you for? I would like to thank you for coming back safely. "

As soon as he finished speaking, Ah Liang saw tears welling up in her grandma's eyes. The next second, her grandma waved her hands and wiped them away.

"Let's eat. ”

When Ah Liang was five years old, she was sent back to her hometown to live with her grandma. The neighbors would finish the joke and say,

Yes, because her grandma’s surname is Feng. , that’s why she has this trumpet, she doesn’t mind, but likes it very much, because I really hope that I am my grandma’s child, so that she will not bear the loneliness of her father, but will be much more relaxed. < /p>

"How can Ah Liang go to school now? "

"My grandma sent me there, but the school didn't allow me to ride a bicycle because I was not old enough. "

"Then how do you have lunch? "

"Grandma brought me food. ”

“Then from now on, will mom bring you food?” "

"Oh, okay. ”

A-Liang was in second grade when her parents came home. In the following year, A-Liang’s mother took A-Liang to school and gave her meals, no matter it was windy or rainy. Regardless of snow or hail, Ah Liang could always see her mother appearing at the school gate on time. Ah Liang thought that in such a life, she would not be so sensible and would not need to be so miserable.

Maybe it’s because A-Liang has experienced extraordinary things since she was a child, which made her understand things early that she shouldn’t have understood at that age. It may also be because A-Liang is born with high emotional intelligence, or maybe it’s because A-Liang is born with high emotional intelligence. It's Ah Liang's naturally sensitive character that makes her focus on others time and time again. Even though others hurt her, she still treats them politely and doesn't wrong others. She takes care of everything herself and naturally doesn't care about herself. She said that maybe because she was afraid of being laughed at, afraid of not being understood, or afraid of being exposed in public for fun, she hid herself and was never understood, and no one knew her true thoughts. She thought that if she was like that, she would not will be hurt.

There is a girl in the east of the village who is three months younger than Ah Liang. To be honest, Ah Liang doesn’t like that girl, but she doesn’t say it and just get along with her simply. But the girl has always been cautious, so what’s the matter? If she makes a mistake, she will try her best to push it on others. If there is any difficulty, she will try her best to ask others to help her, or push others into it, and then escape unscathed.

Ah Liang knew all this. He already knew it from the first time he saw this girl. But Ah Liang didn’t say anything, he just hid it carefully. One day, the girl came to him. She asked Ah Liang to help her. She knew that she would call the girl's mother aunt, and she couldn't refuse, so she agreed. However, after the first time, there was a second time, and after that, there was no bottom. of abyss.

"Ah Liang, Ah Liang, I haven't eaten, please give me some money." In this way, the week's pocket money that Ah Liang was reluctant to spend was gone.

"Ah Liang, Ah Liang, I didn't write my homework, please copy it for me." As a result, Ah Liang was called into the office, and the "education" of the class teacher embarrassed her, and she turned into copying others. Homework, but she had trouble saying.

"Ah Liang, Ah Liang, I want to go play with my classmates on Saturday, but my mother won't let me. If you come and call me then, my mother can rest assured that she will definitely ask me to go out with you, okay~ "As the number of times increased, the girl became more and more unruly and came home late. A Liang gradually became a bad boy in the eyes of her mother, because every time her mother scolded her for coming home late, she would He said: It's Ah Liang who doesn't want to come back.

Because she didn’t want to tire her mother, Ah Liang began to secretly ride a bicycle in the third grade. This was the first time Ah Liang lied to her family. She told her family that the school would allow her to ride a bicycle. She is old enough. I also started buying my own meals at the school gate.

At that time, two yuan was enough for lunch a day. At that time, a cup of eight-treasure porridge cost 50 cents, a steamed bun and a piece of ham sausage, and Liang saved the remaining 50 cents, but he saved it. It's all gone, because as mentioned above, all of A Liang's pocket money was given to that girl.

It was also at that time that Ah Liang suddenly felt that she could not see the blackboard clearly. There was a little boy in the class who wore glasses and was often teased by his classmates. She saw this and thought of herself, so she did not dare to talk to him. the family said. In fact, Ah Liang felt that his eyes were different from others when he was in the first grade. However, Ah Liang was placed in the first row and could still see the words on the blackboard clearly, so he didn't tell his family.

In the fourth grade, she finally couldn't stand it anymore, because the teacher would ask her to get up and read the words on the blackboard, but her eyes were just a blur of white and she couldn't see clearly. She stood there stupidly. The teacher was disappointed. For this reason, her grades continued to decline. Her father was furious when he saw her failing grades. Ah Liang was frightened and said:

The man was stunned for a moment, and then said :

"I told you to watch TV, I told you to watch TV, and now you are myopic. What should I do? I have been myopic at a young age. What should I do in the future? Wear glasses to see how you get laughed at!"

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Ah Liang cried, feeling aggrieved and his tears kept flowing down disobediently.

"You're still crying, how can you have the nerve to cry! You don't have any ability at all, you just know how to cry! What's the point!"

A Liang choked, she didn't dare to cry, but She couldn't help but cry again. She looked at the man in front of her carefully, not only afraid, but also scared.

"Let me see what you do!" Then, the man left, leaving her alone.

A few days later, the man took Ah Liang by car to the hospital in the city and checked her eyes. The temperature was nearly 200 degrees. Ah Liang didn’t understand how serious it was, but she really couldn’t see clearly. blackboard.

"Do I need to wear glasses?"

"You are a parent who doesn't care if your child is so young and is short-sighted."

"Her mother and I She had just returned from Sichuan and her grandma had been taking care of her. This child knew how to watch TV and her grandma couldn't control her.

"

"Oh, today's children..."

Ah Liang did not dare to refute, she just felt that something was about to fall from her eyes.

"Can a child wear glasses when he is so young? "

"Yes, but I have to ask her if she is willing to wear it. ”

“Wear it?” "

She suddenly thought of the boy called Four-Eyed Wolf and shook her head firmly.

The man asked: "How clearly can you read the words on the blackboard. "

"Sit in the front row and you can see. ”

“Okay, don’t wear it for now. Wear it again when you can’t see clearly.” ”

Ah Liang followed the man and left the hospital. She didn’t know, because she was afraid that being laughed at would make her regret her life.

The man didn’t know that the lights in her grandma’s house were yellow. It was very dark. The man didn’t know that before he came home, she would do her homework lying on the bed. Because there was no desk, the man didn’t know that her homework would start when she got home from school at 4:40. She would write until eight or nine in the evening. At dawn, she would move a bench and write in the yard. When it got dark, she would take it back to the house and lie on the bed under the yellow light to write. Days like this have been in her memory since the middle of the grade. Until the second grade, it didn't happen every day, but it happened most of the time. In such an environment, was it really just because of watching TV that her eyes had problems?

She felt aggrieved. Because her father didn't know the truth and thought he had seen through everything and fully confirmed what she did. Because her father clearly didn't understand her but had an attitude of "I'll tell you everything."

She returned to school. Facing the blackboard that she couldn't see clearly, she borrowed notes from her classmates. Facing the drop in her grades, she rushed to catch up after crying. Faced with her father's cold eyes, she hid.

< p> Such days lasted until she graduated from elementary school. During that time, her father suddenly became interested in her and said:

"We cannot let Su Liang go to junior high school in the countryside. We have to find a way to let her go." city. ”

Ah Liang didn’t understand what kind of existence the city was. He just followed his father step by step, as if completing his task. The man took her student registration number to the city and enrolled in a comparative school. A good school, I came home and asked:

"A Liang, how do you think you did in the exam? Is it the graduation exam? ”

“Not very good…My English listening skills are very vague…”

“Then it’s over, I’m sure I won’t pass the exam, alas~”

Ah Liang was shocked. She was afraid that the man in front of her called her father would get angry, so she found an excuse to leave.

After Liang left, the man took out his mobile phone that still had buttons and made a call. He said he wanted to call the school. He gave a gift and then let Ah Liang in. However, when he contacted Ah Liang and asked him about his specific results, the man couldn’t tell because the results hadn’t come out yet. After a while, Ah Liang’s results came out and the man was very embarrassed. I called the contact number of the school I applied for.

"Excuse me, does your school want this student Su Liang?" "

"Su Liang? Su in Jiangsu, cool and cool? ”

“Yes. "

"Yes! "

The man couldn't believe it and asked again and again. The other party replied:

"A woman in the countryside reported 1,300 people, and she ranked seventh. Ten, we’ll take the first two hundred, do you want it? ”

The man was overjoyed, thanked the other party, hung up the phone, and rarely asked Su Liang’s grandmother, Su Liang, what she liked to eat, and then went to the street to buy a large bag of snacks and vegetables. Reward Su Liang.

In this way, Su Liang spent her junior high school life far away from her parents and relatives. Although she went home once a week, she left home at the age of twelve and lived with a group of children of the same age. Living and traveling, just thinking about it, makes me a little reluctant.

The rural girl named Su Liang entered junior high school and socialized with a group of city children. She had low self-esteem and was sensitive. She began to transform herself into a child. A person wearing a mask, but at the same time, she yearns for beauty and does not reject it.

At the age of twelve, she is ignorant of feelings and curious about novel things. She may have met someone who touches her heart. Man, she may have found the person she can open her heart to.

Su Liang, wait, I'll come right away.