People say my thinking is different from others

Event: I was told by a colleague that my thinking is different from others

Emotions and beliefs:

I think I am weird -> I will be criticized by others With a strange look -> I am different from others -> Being laughed at by others - I feel shameful -> I can only stay alone in the corner silently -> I am the worst, the worst ——〉There is no hope——〉There is no point in living.

Corresponding life story:

When I was a child, I felt that I was too ugly and too fat, and my grades were not good. I often feel that others will dislike me and hide me in a corner, and I deeply feel that my life is over.

Read the life story:

But in fact it’s not as bad as I thought at first? Later, through my own efforts, didn’t I become a lecturer, department head, and executive? At that time, I only heard more labels that my mother kept labeling me because of anxiety and face-saving. It was only within the scope of my mother’s understanding that she would evaluate me like this. But that doesn't mean she's talking about me.

Looking at the current events:

How can you be the worst if you are different from others? Being mediocre and incompetent is just like everyone else. I am different from others, and everyone is different from others, because everyone has their own personality traits, everyone's homework, and everyone's belief system.

I am different from others. I just look at me from her perspective. Does her perspective have to be right? There is no absolute answer in the world. It is her business to label me. It has nothing to do with me at all. But it is true that my thinking is definitely different from others.

If they are different, they will have different views. It is true that for human nature, everyone will be curious about the differences in things, but there are too many strange things in this world. If they are all the same as others, then If we all become the same people, there will be no differences, let alone the development and improvement of science and technology.

Jokes are other people’s business. How others view me, whether they laugh at me or not, is all their understanding. Even if they want to laugh, that's their business.

Why do you mean you can only stay in the corner? No one told me where I had to be, and I wasn't controlled. How could it be possible? That is something I can choose, not something I can only do.

Why am I the worst, the worst? Everyone is a monad soul, and everyone is what I am, so at the source we are all the same. How could I be the worst when it comes to the physical body? What's the difference? Can't you still help others relieve their pain and find the answer to life? Where is the bad thing? Isn’t everything fine everywhere? She said that my thinking was different, so why was she saying that I was the worst and the worst? If it’s different, why can’t it be the best? Isn’t it possible to stand out from the crowd if you are different?

Aren’t such different people the most hopeful? If you have your own thinking and will not follow the crowd, living yourself is the best way to see hope.

Isn’t it true that being different means living oneself? Doesn’t being a person who lives oneself make life more meaningful?