Be in love for a month. My boyfriend doesn't like me in every way. And said people would laugh when they were with me. All kinds of slander me. I really doubt that I am really that bad.

You've only been in love for a month, and your boyfriend dislikes you in all kinds of ways. He may not like you very much. That doesn't mean you are poor. Your boyfriend doesn't like you in all kinds of ways, and you are not suitable together. You should leave him and find someone who doesn't dislike you. You don't have to drink to get over it. You must relax.