At the age of 30, he turned to be a doctor and decided to be black.

20 10 graduated from a school in Hubei, majoring in clinical medicine. I left the campus when I was a sophomore, because my family was poor and I couldn't continue my studies. After graduation, I worked as an intern in a Chinese hospital. Because of my limited knowledge and frivolous personality, I thought I could not only earn 600 yuan every month, but decided to quit my job and go into business regardless of my family's opposition. In 20 13, when my classmates were still earning 600 yuan a month, I bought my first car, Cruze, which was beautiful in my heart. I thought I was too awesome. I choose more than I work hard, and I stagger when I walk. It's no exaggeration. 20 14 years, the overall situation was particularly good, and the first peak of life was won. 20 15 years, because of my arrogance, I fell for the first time and lost all my savings. Moreover, I was heavily in debt, and my life seemed to have lost all hope. I spent two years at a loss.

20 17 suddenly realized one thing, I have to live, at least I don't have to worry about my livelihood Try to sum up all the possibilities that can be realized. Finally, I found out that I used to study medicine, and I should return to this road. I began to try to make up for the lessons I left behind in college. There is only one goal. I must have a job to support myself. Even if I can only earn enough food, I can't drag my parents any longer. I am very lucky. Although I didn't study hard in college, I got my diploma. Graduation certificate became a stepping stone to my work, and I successfully passed the written test and interview. At the moment when the results were announced, I really burst into tears, with regret, injustice and satisfaction, and my life seemed to have a direction again. In this way, at the end of 20 17, I became a grass-roots doctor, and this time I no longer hate my profession. Although I still don't earn much as an ordinary migrant worker, I feel the biggest in my heart. I want to go this way slowly and steadily. I am 30 years old at this time.

When I first entered the hospital, everything was novel. I was assigned to surgery to help my master. The master is a very powerful surgeon. I remember his first minor operation was hand injury. The patient put his hand on his shoulder and entered the department, saying that he was injured by a chainsaw. My first reaction was, it hurts. I don't know what I need to do. The master asked the medical history carefully, let the patient expose the wound, and the blood flowed out. When I entered the operating room, I was still confused and at a loss. The master said, prepare lidocaine, renin, normal saline, 5 ml needle tube and disposable suture package. I'm confused, but I can't help it. The patient was still bleeding. I stubbornly asked, what is pararenin, Master? Master gave me a look of disgust, adrenaline hydrochloride. I ran to the drugstore to get the medicine, while repeating the strange and unfamiliar name that the master said. When I came back, the master said that the light was right, and I was confused again, but literally he should have asked me to adjust the round lights with many light holes on the operating table. It took a lot of effort to finally hit all the light on the patient's wound. Then the master asked me to wash the wound. He should know I'm useless. When I was clumsily cleaning the wound for the patient, he had already prepared anesthetic, took physiological saline from my hand, pressed the wound with gauze and performed local anesthesia. Of course, I didn't know the professional word local anesthesia until later. Hemostatic forceps, scissors, leather needles and strange words popped out of the master's mouth one after another. I am dazzled. I watched the needle holder shuttle back and forth in his hand, and the patient's hand stopped bleeding in a large area in just a few minutes. I am envious in my heart. I have mixed feelings and regret it. I must study. After minor surgery, grapefruit peel became my favorite thing, because I can practice sewing and knotting on it with a needle holder. So I spent a year learning the most basic things from my master. 20 18 years, I am 3/kloc-0 years old, and I can do the most basic surgery. Although working 350 days a day for 365 days, the monthly salary is only enough for living expenses, but I still feel that life has a head start and life has hope. Thanks to my first instructor, let me know that studying medicine is a hard but fulfilling thing. When every patient recovers and leaves the hospital under his own ability, there are endless words of thanks, and the goodness and sureness in his heart are the satisfaction that no amount of money can change.

20 19 I became a qualified surgeon. Because I am at the grassroots level, public health has become my part-time job. According to the requirements of the leader, I took over the management of chronic diseases at the grassroots level. The country has invested a lot of money in chronic diseases. A health record was established for each patient with chronic diseases, and 4 face-to-face follow-up visits and/kloc-0 comprehensive physical examinations were conducted every year. This is the first thing I realized when I first took this job. It is also a novel field. So many chronic patients need to be managed. Where should we start? How to complete each follow-up and physical examination? There are too many questions in my heart. At this time, I have no time to think about how to use the basic knowledge of surgery that I have studied for a year. Because it is arranged by the leader, I can only choose to accept it unconditionally. The only thing I can think of in my heart is how to fulfill the tasks assigned by the leaders dutifully. There is no master to lead the way this time, because my colleague in charge of chronic diseases has asked for leave, and the grass-roots work is too complicated to fully understand the job requirements. He only gave me a standard and the electronic files of patients with chronic diseases who are already under management. The first step is to know 3 1 village doctors, because more than 3,000 patients with chronic diseases are assigned to 3 1 village doctors. They do follow-up, have a physical examination and then report to the health center. Because I have several years of business experience, it is not difficult to deal with strangers. With this advantage, I quickly understood the workflow. At that time, I had an idea that this was a national livelihood project that benefited everyone with chronic diseases. What's wrong with it? Although there are also many village doctors who are embarrassed, they have solved it through their own efforts, because they understand that they are newcomers, and only by thoroughly understanding all the norms and processes can they not be picky in work guidance and cooperation. In 20 19, he greeted the inspection on behalf of the county and achieved the first good result in the city.

Two years is a long time, but with practical work, the livelihood problem has been solved, and life has begun to flourish. When my medical career passes one test after another, I can get the right to prescribe and raise my salary. In 2020, COVID-19 swept the country. The epidemic is the order, and I was assigned to be on duty in the fever clinic. There is no choice but to stick to your post. Although we can't fight in the front line, we are in face-to-face contact with fever patients every day. Under the leadership of the leadership, seriously study each version of COVID-19's diagnosis and treatment plan promulgated by the state. Try to appease the worries of every fever patient with what you have learned. Wrap yourself in protective clothing every day and conscientiously implement every disinfection standard. At this time, all clinics are closed, and only the fever clinic in the health center can get antipyretics. The farmers must have panicked. Every patient with a fever will ask again and again: am I infected? Will I get COVID-19? I think my symptoms are too much like COVID-19's pulmonary inflammation ... Patiently asking about the contact history and symptoms every day, carefully examining and judging the common cold and COVID-19 according to the symptoms, and then calming the patients' hearts, which has become another direction of my efforts. At that time, I really hoped that I was studying psychology, could understand the anxiety of patients and give correct guidance. Unfortunately, my qualifications are limited, so I can only try my best to ease it slowly. Stick to your post until today, suspected cases should be isolated and ordinary patients should be treated. Thankfully, no source of infection has been missed. Now all clinics have resumed normal business, and the China epidemic has been brought under control. I really don't want to mention how excited I am. 2020 is destined to be an extraordinary year. After this epidemic, I have strengthened my medical career and hope to help more people in need with my own ability.

On March 2020 10, I submitted my application for joining the party, hoping to study hard in my post and take my own path of practicing medicine.

I decided to write this today, not afraid of jokes, but also to give myself a new understanding. Falling down in life is not terrible. The terrible thing is that you don't have the courage to stand up. Efforts are not necessarily successful, and giving up is bound to fail. In the future, I will share my past with you in more detail when I have time, hoping to make friends who are experiencing and may experience a little direction and take every step.