Farmers' illiteracy jokes

Great souls remain open-minded and calm, strong and brave when suffering, and will never be defeated by despair and vulgar sadness.

In the face of suffering, we don't regard the past as loneliness or the future as terror, but cry bitterly and stride forward.

"I am the daughter of peanuts", after being shattered by reality again and again, Xu Yanji, who is 80 years old, wrote this sentence.

She didn't say she was Xu Dishan's daughter, only her father's pen name-Peanut. Because of herself, she lives like a peanut, covered with scars, but full of fruits.

People in deep pain, if they fall, fall into the dust and disappear into the world; If you ascend, you will die and shine in a short time.

However, Xu Yanji did not choose any path, but obediently let fate push Fiona Fang. I am not indifferent, but trying to get rid of the bondage of fate.

Such contradictory two personalities form harmony in her, so that she can keep a sincere soul in the days of wandering.

The war is raging and everyone is in danger. This kind of life can be said to be the normal state in Xu Yanji's memory, but it is impossible to imagine that she will have such an unexpected trouble.

1950, Xu Yanji was admitted to Beijing Agricultural University. Since her father's death, she has lived alone with her mother and brother, living in the world. Now that she has been admitted to the university, it is her father's last wish.

Not only did she succeed in her studies, but Xu Yanji also formed a family and gave birth to children. Happy families are thriving.

But in those days, everyone's fate was not up to them, and a pair of invisible big hands came down without warning, no matter whose wife or mother.

1958, Yan Xu was fired from the company, and she had to go to Nanjing to join her mother. However, the shock of losing her job and the bumps on the road made her a pregnant woman unable to support herself and finally fell down.

"People living in our time can't tell how many people are involuntarily. Life is cut into pieces by the giant blade of history, just like a clay doll broken on the ground, which can't stick together. I am one of them. "

She was devastated by this setback and almost lost everything.

Xu Yanji had a miscarriage. I was very old at that time and had to go to the hospital for surgery. The baby with his hands and feet in his mother's belly didn't come into this world crying.

The doctor told Xu Yanji that it was a girl.

A girl, the spiritual sustenance of Xu Yanji. She wanted to have a look at her, even though she was dead, but the doctor wouldn't let her see it for fear that she would leave a psychological shadow.

At that time, Xu Yanji did not insist, because she was not sure whether her weak self could support this, but what she didn't know at that time was that this was her only child.

"If I had known that she was the only one in my life, I would have seen her anyway." Even if Xu Yanji became an old man, time did not take away this pain.

It rained all night, and Xu Yanji, who had experienced the pain of losing her son, had no comfort from her husband. Her husband Wu Furong not only didn't look at her, but even turned a blind eye to the child who died young.

1in July, 958, Xu Yanji was sentenced to six years in prison. At this time, Wu Furong pressed a straw on her again and divorced her.

There are many reasons for divorce between husband and wife, but few people go their separate ways directly for disaster. Wu Furong said very directly. He was afraid that Xu Yanji would drag him down and filed for divorce five months after her conviction.

Xu Yanji finally got married and wrote a long letter. She couldn't accept the loss of her child and husband, but Wu Furong took the divorce to court without any pity.

Wu Furong's eagerness and disgust were seen by Xu Yanji, especially Wu Furong was glad of her daughter's death and left no future trouble.

So Xu Yanji also woke up. Wu Furong is by no means a good match. The love and marriage between them is just a fortress made of paper, which can't protect themselves at all, let alone protect their children.

Xu Yanji finally shattered, finally invincible. At this time, she has nothing but her own life. Even in prison, she lived her own life.

Faced with the teasing and ruthless betrayal of the current situation, Xu Yanji did not choose to resent others or feel sorry for herself. He always keeps his inner peace and reason.

Xu Yanji said that she was only sad for one night and forgot this person from then on.

"Fifty years have passed, and the thousand-year feud has faded. Why is it more embarrassing to get together? Birds are scattered, and there is no return. " She later wrote this poem and gave it to this experience of walking alone.

She will pick it up, melt into her body and become a part of her. After a new day in prison, Xu Yanji is a rational person, and at this time, she is only 25 years old.

There are regulations in prison that people who have rendered meritorious service can reduce their sentences and get out of prison early. After all, Xu Yanji is a scholar. She quickly understood this policy and made two contributions. She was eligible for early release one year before she was released from prison.

Five years in prison didn't crush her. Now that she is about to be released from prison, she looks at the roof for five years, and she is excited about freedom.

However, just when she thought she could get out of prison, a prison guard found her. The prison guard told her that it would take five years for a prisoner to get out of prison, and she only had one year left, and asked her if she would give up the quota.

What a cruel choice!

What Xu Yanji has been thinking about for five years is to be able to leave and start a new life, but even this wish can't be realized smoothly.

But she still gave up the opportunity. She has been in prison for five years herself. She knows what it's like. She has been in the rain herself, and now she wants to hold an umbrella for others.

Xu Yanji silently gave up this opportunity. She didn't show her sadness to others, but kept her tears in her heart.

As usual, she got up to work with her cellmate, which was unimaginable to others. She was so peaceful and gentle that she made such a selfless decision.

Xu Yanji is not an ordinary person. She doesn't like to forget or vent. On the contrary, she is a human experiencer, feeling dull and leaving traces on secular desires.

This is her usual practice, not to let the sadness flow on the surface, but to stay in her heart, so that the sadness will not evaporate with tears and can be remembered for a lifetime.

Xu Yanji's character is not acquired, but it was shown as early as when she was 8 years old.

194 1 August 4th, is the sixth year that Xu Dishan came to Hong Kong with his family. After he came home from a business trip, he washed himself and went to bed. Unexpectedly, a good person suddenly turned blue and was slow to respond.

The house was in a mess, and the nurse was forcibly brought in to rescue. The nurse eagerly said to Xu Dishan's wife, "You are responsible!" Stick the needle into Xu Dishan's arm.

This moment is a hundred times slower. Xu Yanji watched intently with his eyes open. The medicine slowly entered my father's body, my brother covered his eyes, and my mother put her trembling hand on her chest.

All this is like a bladeless knife, slowly cutting Xu Yanji's heart. She did not escape. She is still observing and recalling every detail.

After a dead silence, Xu Dishan snorted and died. The cause of death was sudden death, and the rescue was invalid.

Xu Yanji's mother clutched her hand tightly and put it on her chest, her knuckles were white and trembling slightly. Her brother cried and threw himself into her arms: "Dad is dead! Dad is dead! "

Mother held him in her arms: "Never mind, I'm here!" "Mother and son began to cry together, while Xu Yanji stood by without crying or laughing, as if she were an outsider.

Xu Yanji recalled that her mother told her that when she heard her brother crying, she suddenly woke up and realized that she still had responsibilities, which shocked Xu Yanji.

Xu Yanji touched his father's hand and was silent. People around her are crying farther and farther. All she knows is that her father can't come back.

She didn't shed a tear from beginning to end and let others cry. Because at this time she has fallen into her own grief, which is the last thing her father left her.

But such Xu Yanji does not understand. Mother looked at her tearful brother and saw the calm Xu Yanji. She cursed Xu Yanji for being heartless!

Xu Yanji remembered this sentence together with her mother's responsibility for a long time. She didn't refute, because her words had told the world how much she loved her father.

"If God permits, I hope that time will stop the day before, and I will never grow up until my father leaves."

It's just that these are written too late. Xu Yanji's mother didn't see it. Since Xu Dishan died, she has been indifferent to her daughter.

In fact, these early signs of their family photos, the mother never took Xu Yanji, and even a hand would not put her.

So I can understand why Xu Yanji said that without a father, he can only grow up. Losing his father, Xu Yanji almost lost a home.

Just after 1964 Xu Yanji was finally released from prison, he still did not reunite with his mother.

At this time, she is 365,438+0 years old, and the best years of her life have passed. It stands to reason that she should go to her mother to heal the pain for so many years.

But she chose the prison again and went to work in the Second Women's Prison in Hebei, far away from her mother's Nanjing.

Some people say that she is afraid that her identity as a criminal will bring trouble to her mother, but as a mother, how can she bear to see her spoiled daughter lead that life?

Because at this time, the mother already thought that her daughter was a cold-blooded person, and she had no desire to know Xu Yanji.

The captain transferred Xu Yanji's account to Xu Yanji's mother. Unexpectedly, the mother not only refused to accept it, but also cancelled Xu Yanji's account.

At that time, my mother said that Xu Yanji was heartless and unjust, but under her mother's handling, Xu Yanji did not complain.

Left behind by her father, she didn't cry because of the separation of Yin and Yang. Abandoned by her mother, she didn't cry. After leaving society for six years, she still found a job independently.

How much practice and tempering have made Xu Yanji's life a thick cocoon, calmly facing the bleak reality alone, still sincere, rational and tenacious.

Perhaps it is Xu Dishan's Peanut that nourishes Yanji, Jamlom infinitely, so that she is not afraid of hardships in life and just wants to be a person with rich heart and a warm person.

The death of her father was the first lesson, and she applied the experience of this lesson to the loss of children; The marriage broke down; Mother gave up and waited until the next lesson. She spent her whole life finishing it.

From 65438 to 0969, Xu Yanji was evacuated to a remote and closed mountain village in Xinle County, Hebei Province. In order to survive, she began to work hard every day.

Because this village is very poor, Xu Yanji can't earn as much as a pig even if he works in the dark, and he can't even maintain basic food and clothing.

She lived in silence for two years, and finally, she couldn't stand it any longer, so she went to Shaanxi to be with her brother who worked at the racecourse.

17 after a long separation, the two brothers and sisters are still strangers, and they are embarrassed to look at each other's vicissitudes.

However, the joy of reunion after a long separation did not last long, and the reality was submerged again. If Xu Yanji wants to stay in Shaanxi, he must marry a local.

Xu Yanji didn't feel how noble he was at this time. The title of talented woman of college students is worthless. All she wants at this time is a stable life.

She told her brother to marry anyone: "We won't talk to him about the past and the present."

My brother stayed up late, and my sister was spoiled since childhood. What hardships did you go through to polish her like this?

Finally, Xu Yanji married Wei, a farmer 10 years older than her. He is not only illiterate, but also married for the second time and has a 9-year-old son.

Xu Yanji didn't feel unwilling, but felt that life had finally stabilized. From then on, she had a place to rest and no longer had to wander around. She endured all the pain.

A line of tears flowed from Xu Yanji's eyes. Her tears are pure, and there is no sad substance. Only after years of restoration can they be purified and become clear-bitter with sweet.

Perhaps because of her optimism and open-mindedness, God finally showed mercy to Xu Yanji. Although Wei can't read, she is hardworking, kind and honest, which can be said to be another peanut. Although they have no love, they can support each other.

From 65438 to 0979, Yanji got up early and was greedy for the black, studied hard for ten years, and finally got into public office.

At this time, Xu Yanji is no longer a person who has no hukou and no job, and this marriage has become less suitable, but she doesn't think so.

"We just live and don't need to report. I am very calm and think it is fate. "

Xu Yanji seized the opportunity to end the turbulent life, but she was not greedy. After she got it, she was satisfied and returned to a dull life.

198 1 According to the policy, Xu Yanji was transferred back to Nanjing to engage in professional research in the Academy of Agricultural Sciences. A year later, he was rated as an associate researcher, joined the Nanjing Taiwan League and was elected as a city councilor.

However, Wei Zhenyu couldn't be with her. Many people advised her to give Wei Zhenyu a sum of money to end this inappropriate marriage, but Xu Yanji, known as "heartless", disagreed.

"He and I are a bitter gourd vine. How can I leave him? I was kicked and my heart ached for most of my life. Now I can't break his heart. "

Xu Yanji remembers the pain of being betrayed, so now she is willing to treat others according to her own needs and hold up an umbrella for the elderly who accompany her.

"Our combination is to live in our own way, just like landlords and tenants. In Guanzhong, he was a landlord and I was a tenant. Now in Nanjing, I am the landlord and he is the tenant. "

As expected, Xu Yanji kept his promise and brought Wei Zhenlin to Nanjing to support him to the end. Their life is dull and happy.

Xu Yanji said that he is a "twist life", which is not bitter, but a few twists more than others. "I am so happy that I have to find reasons for myself." This openness and gentleness make her very happy.

After her death, her brother wrote a couplet for her.

"I used to go through all kinds of hardships and hardships, and I was still calm about the whole life", criticizing "a gentleman with an open mind".

An open-minded gentleman can sum up Xu Yanji's life in four words. Taste life with a warm and blunt heart, and behave with the virtue of a gentleman.