A belated rebellion

stepping on my 23-year-old tail, I got a pierced ear to welcome my upcoming animal year. May the coming year be less dull and more hopeful.

I'm ashamed to say that, in a trance, the year of the animal is coming. Over the years, I haven't read well, I haven't talked well about love, and it's too difficult for me to jump from pit to pit.

When I was in college, I fell in love with director Jia Zhangke from Platform. I watched Jia Kechang's films one after another, and I felt at arm's length. The scenes inside were both familiar and unfamiliar, the times, urban youth, ideal love and life, family friendship and love, and I was lost and pursued in a hurry. In the end, the bus will arrive at the station, and the journey is far from over. People on the bus get off one after another, but the vagrant has no end.

If you are a boat, drifting is your destiny, so don't dock.

to be honest, I don't miss the past. It's always hard to remember. When I was in junior high school and senior high school, the girl in the class next door was still the girl in the class next door. Although I passed my window countless times, the fate ended. The girl who didn't catch up before now has a new beginning, and maybe a favorite boy. After several years of acquaintance, we failed to get together. Nostalgic me, despite trying to rescue me, ended in failure. She told me that "late at night is the best time to talk to myself", which means "wake up in Sao years". I dare not bother. You taught me the goodness of love, you taught me to hate savagely, and you taught me to forget to be sad for too long. Finally, you taught me to talk to myself late at night. As a result, I woke up at three o'clock in the morning, thinking of you I never got, and my heart was mixed. Forget it! Winter sunshine, please be gentle. Those who shed tears last night are still suffering.

Children who cry have milk to eat, and those who dare to love and hate are more likely to catch love. A gentle and sensible person like me seems to have been like this until now. Looking for spring in early spring, enjoying leaves in beginning of autumn, and snowing in winter. Everything seems to be like this. However, when spring scenery is everywhere, I am slow to find that spring has come, and it is messy in the fallen leaves in early winter. When the girl who approached me on her own initiative stepped into the marriage hall with others, she remembered her silly self. Really, I didn't think about falling in love with her at first, and I didn't realize anything, just thought she was fun.

I have been very sensible since I was a child, and I don't seem to get anything more from being sensible. I never asked my parents for anything. At the age of five or six, when students began to dye their own hair of all colors, they didn't dare to dye their own hair, because they felt that they were three good students, not little hooligans, and that kind of thing could not be done; When junior high school students and classmates around them began to fall in love, they became addicted to online novels and could not extricate themselves. At the same time, they studied hard to meet the senior high school entrance examination and enter the university. So, I looked at online novels with a sense of guilt, walked into the examination room of the senior high school entrance examination with a face of embarrassment, and looked at the results of the senior high school entrance examination with a face of embarrassment, just like a friend with a face of embarrassment around me. If it weren't for the poor mix, there wouldn't be friends like you.

At this time, my family's original high-handed attitude was also relaxed. They didn't go to high school, so they were all blind to me in the future. I just know that with my small body, I can't do anything but go to school. Knowing that my foundation is not good, I will follow the current path. The college entrance examination can only be the same as the senior high school entrance examination. I chose to take the art examination and take the shortcut. A person's road is always lonely! My family and property didn't support me, so I learned for a while under the rare rebellion of crying and making trouble in adolescence. I felt very depressed when I crossed the river by feeling the stones. As a result, I dropped out of the music class under the persuasion of my parents who didn't know which friend. I was depressed about how my parents had such friends and how they couldn't carry them clearly. How can I go in the future if I mess around like this? You didn't give me a plan, and you didn't recognize my own plan. How can I live this life without seeing the light? I can accept failure as well as my own failure, but I can't accept passive and arranged failure that I know. I can't let it go, I can't let it go with you, with this dissatisfied status quo. I'm not a Buddhist. There's nothing I can do.

I'm 22 years old. I dyed my hair for the first time. I'm an adult, financially independent and no longer rebellious. You can do something you haven't thought about before but dare not do. I chose a dark red color number, and after more than an hour, I dyed it, but there was actually no wave in my heart. The next day, I was found to have dyed it too much, and it was all over my scalp. It was full of cheapness, like a turtle. After that, I secretly greeted the ancestors of my hair dyeing technicians in my heart. It's easy for me!

I felt a slight pain in my ears, and I gave you a wry smile in the middle of the night, which made you laugh! Poetry and girls are far away, but I dare not leave. Ma Ma will worry that there are no friends in the distance. I am very Buddhist in the late stage of literary youth disease. I know that I can't hedge all risks, but I always feel unprepared. I am not ready for anything: I am not ready to start a relationship, I am not ready to run a marriage, I am not ready to accept a person's existence. Being single for a long time may really be addictive!