You don't want to understand online prose.

There are not so many jokes. I'm just testing you, hinting at you through jokes. But you don't want to understand the truth in my joke. No matter how much I say, you will not understand. Then, I should give up. After all, people who play dumb can't hear the truth.

"You and I are lonely. Do you want to think about me? " You were silent, and I smiled and said, "I'm kidding." Your type doesn't match me, so I don't like you. "

"What is your ideal object? Is it a goddess like me? " You immediately said, "Of course not you." I also started to say all kinds of things that I don't like you.

"I want to get out of here. It should be several years since I come back next time. I will miss you. " You paused, and I immediately said, "It's a lie, I won't miss you!" " "

Maybe in your eyes, I am a joker, even a fool who speaks without thinking. But you probably never found out that I wouldn't make such a joke in front of others. Only when I face you, will I joke with you, but every joke has my sincerity. It's a pity that you didn't understand it once, let alone give me an answer I wanted or let me give up completely.

I once thought of telling you the truth directly and not beating around the bush with you. But when I talked about my lips and looked into your eyes, I suddenly lost my courage, because in your eyes, I was just a friend, just a friend. I'm afraid I'll lose my qualification to be with you, even if it's just as a friend, I don't want to leave.

However, I am not willing to do nothing, so I began to hint at you with jokes, trying to make you understand my mind. I don't know whether I am too circuitous or you are too slow. Every time I finish, you either keep silent or make fun of me, sometimes you just change the subject. I expect you to understand the sincerity in my jokes every time, but you disappoint me every time.

Now, I'm leaving. This is the last time I play a joke on you. Give us one last chance. If you still don't understand, then I'll give up. With the last expectation, I smiled and asked if you would miss me. You didn't answer my question, but you told me that time was running out, so let me not dawdle. I waved goodbye to you with a stiff smiling face, and the moment I turned to leave, tears fell down.

I didn't dry my tears and let them drip. I made a sincere joke with you for the first time. I don't know how many tears I shed, but this is the last time I shed tears for you, and I will give up on you completely after crying. Sometimes I think, maybe you're not so slow, you're just playing dumb. Maybe you just don't want to ruin our friendship, so you will always pretend not to understand. It's not that you don't understand, but that you don't want to understand, so you always choose silence to escape.

Since you don't want to understand the truth in the joke, I won't say it again. Goodbye, I have never regarded you as a friend. May time help me forget all the joys and sorrows caused by you. The next time we meet, I can be your ordinary friend, and I won't joke with you, get close to you, or expect anything from you.