Yu Xiuhua: Through the crisscross world, the only answer is ordinary.

20 15 1 month, a poem that doesn't look very serious, "Sleeping with You Across Half of China", has exploded social networks.

The author of this poem, Yu Xiuhua, is an ordinary rural woman in Hengdian Village, Jingmen City, Hubei Province, China.

It is not accurate to say that she is ordinary. Because she also has an "unusual" side. Before she became a poet, she was always a disabled person with cerebral palsy.

During 1976, mother Zhou Jinxiang was in labor. Due to dystocia, she lacked oxygen, which led to Yu Xiuhua's congenital cerebellar atrophy, and she was disabled since childhood. Father Yu Wenhai and mother took Xiao Xiuhua to seek medical advice everywhere, but there was no result.

Later, my parents invited a "magic doctor" from nowhere. The imperial doctor asserted that Yu Xiuhua had done too many bad things in his last life, which made him disabled in this life, so as to pay off his debts. This incident has formed a huge shadow in Xiao Xiuhua's heart. Throughout her childhood, she kept asking herself: Why didn't I be a good person in my last life?

Because of his disability, Yu Xiuhua was too old to walk, so he had to rely on crutches. At first, it was a crutch. People laughed at her for walking badly, so she became a crutch. Later, she didn't have to walk alone, so she staggered away.

Now, poetry has become her crutch, supporting her to stumble in this rickety world.

Because of his disability, Yu Xiuhua stayed at home before graduating from high school. No unit is willing to use her because of her disability. She once worked as a beggar in a big city for a month. She said she was just begging standing, not kneeling, because she hadn't arrived yet. If someone is so naive, she will kneel down. However, after begging for a month, she went home. Because there is family, because there is love from parents.

The ups and downs of life have given her more profound life experiences than ordinary people. There must be an outlet for so many emotions, so she began to write poems. From 2009 to 20 14, she has written more than 2000 songs.

Most of them are related to love and life. Unlike academic poetry, her poems are all from the bottom of society, and every sentence is a scream.

20 14, Liu Nian, editor-in-chief of Poetry magazine, stumbled across Yu Xiuhua's poems on the Internet. I feel that these poems are from the heart, hitting his heart directly. So he contacted the author, Yu Xiuhua, and was authorized to publish it in Poetry Magazine.

Later, Poetry Magazine published several poems by Yu Xiuhua. 20 15, 1 month, Crossing Half of China to Sleep with You detonated the social network and was forwarded more than 1 10,000 times.

Yu Xiuhua became famous overnight.

Since then, her originally quiet life has become lively. Being interviewed by the media and attending the award ceremony is very busy. She was at a loss from the beginning, and became able to calmly deal with all kinds of questions raised by reporters and readers, even witty, humorous and humorous.

Fan Jian is one of many interviewees. The movie "Shocking the World" is the painstaking work of Fan Jian's team in Yu Xiuhua's home for more than a year. It is a comprehensive and true restoration of Yu Xiuhua and his life.

Before shooting, Fan Jian didn't have a specific theme and purpose. When filming, I found many problems, such as divorce.

Yu Xiuhua's divorce can be said to be one of the main threads running through the film.

1995, 19-year-old Yu Xiuhua married her husband Yin Shiping, who was more than ten years older than him. In the words of my mother Zhou Jinxiang, "He (Yin Shiping) is in good health. If he doesn't dislike my girl (disability), I will. "

Unfortunately, the couple's love life is not harmonious. Yu Xiuhua said, "He gets tired of seeing me write poems. I saw him sitting there and I was bored, too. We don't like each other. " Later, Yin Shiping simply went out to work and only came back once a year. The relationship between husband and wife has become strange.

Years of reading and thinking have turned Yu Xiuhua into a thoughtful man. She is unwilling to accept this tragic marriage, and she already has the idea of divorce in her heart. But every time I bring it up, my husband refuses mercilessly, and my mother doesn't agree.

Yin Shiping didn't understand Yu Xiuhua's idea at all. He doesn't understand a disabled person. "I don't dislike you. Why do you want a divorce?" . Mother wants to try her best to maintain a "complete home".

For Yu Xiuhua, this kind of marriage is like a cage. It can also be seen from many of her poems that although she is disabled and he is a rural woman, she still longs for love. If a woman can't get love, she will fail forever.

Later, Yu Xiuhua became famous and rich. She is also worried that divorce at this time will bear the stigma of "kicking her husband if you have money". In addition, mother Zhou Jinxiang suffers from cancer, and her mother's disagreement also makes her feel like a knife.

Finally, she chose to listen to her inner voice and decided to divorce Yin Shiping. When I saw this passage, two girls around me kept whispering that Yu Xiuhua was selfish and willful, and her mother was dying of cancer, which made her feel very uncomfortable. What I want to say is that we are not parties, and it is not good to make irresponsible judgments and accusations about other people's life choices.

Yin Shiping agreed to divorce because Yu Xiuhua gave him a sum of money. On the way back from the divorce, Yu Xiuhua jokingly teased Yin Shiping: "Money makes the mare go. You old ghost, you never promised a divorce before, and now I give you money, so you give me a push, fuck. "

I finally got rid of my marriage and realized my long-cherished wish for many years. I thought I would be happy. Unexpectedly, Yu Xiuhua found that life after divorce hasn't changed at all. Because before the divorce, her marriage seemed to have nothing, and after the divorce, it still seemed to have nothing, and she didn't feel any difference. This made her feel very sad. This marriage is bullshit.

Yu Xiuhua admitted that he was a pessimist. Although she became famous and rich, "she still has no happiness in life."

Mother Zhou Jinxiang also said when she was alive: "I don't admire her name or her poems." I only admire that the family can live in harmony. If it weren't for her disability, she (Yu Xiuhua) would have done more than just writing poems.

Yu Xiuhua once said in public that the impact of disability on a person is not only physical harm, but also spiritual.

In a poem, she compared herself to a barnyard grass, in a beautiful spring, in full rice, afraid of being pulled up at any time.

Director Fan Jian tried to render Yu Xiuhua's deep pessimism through the movie Shocking the World. Especially the last sentence of the film, "Is there tomorrow? Unfortunately, there is still tomorrow ",which vividly shows Yu Xiuhua's complex psychology full of expectation and despair for his future life.

I prefer the unexpected popularity of poetess to the turbulent world. Coincidentally, the latter is also directed by Fan Jian, and the protagonist is also Yu Xiuhua.

It is a documentary filmed and released at the beginning of 20 15. The difference is that the latter conveys Yu Xiuhua's inner optimistic and positive tendency (personally, it is closer to Yu Xiuhua's real thoughts).

For example, there is a quotation from Yu Xiuhua in "The World":

This is an excellent expression of Yu Xiuhua's anxiety at the beginning of his popularity.

In the unexpected popularity, this passage goes like this:

I believe everyone can see the difference. Was deleted in the world. And such deletion is precisely to delete an optimistic attitude into pessimism. Obviously, this is what the director Fan Jian deliberately did to express the theme.

And I am also pleased to see this scene.

After reading On Earth, I felt heavy and even worried about Yu Xiuhua's future fate. But when I finished watching "Unexpected Popularity", I was in a good mood. Turns out she's not that fragile. Everything is just the director's expression intention, not to say that Yu Xiuhua is really pessimistic.

In 2003, Pu Shu released his second solo album "Life is like Summer Flowers", after which he was silent for ten years. 20 14 At the invitation of Han Han, he made the ending song "Ordinary Road" for the film "No Future". Everyone exclaimed, "Ten years, Pu Shu is back!" In the song, Pu Shu said frankly, "The only answer is to see the ordinary".

You and I, sentient beings, are also ordinary in our own lives. Throughout our lives, we will not leave any trace in the vast universe. Maybe life itself should not ask the so-called meaning, maybe living is the greatest meaning.

As for Yu Xiuhua, I also hope that she can find her own ordinary way as soon as possible. What people see from those poems is her amazing talent, and what I see is the pain of her life.

Speaking of this, I have the same attitude as her mother Zhou Jinxiang: writing poetry is not important, but the happiness of life is important.

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