Grandpa is an old man.

Grandpa has been an old man for as long as I can remember.

He is so old, it seems that he has never been young.

He is so old, it seems that he was born to be my grandfather.

But I never seriously thought that he would die one day

I always thought that a man could live another year no matter how old he was, but one day he died.

Like a mound of courtyard walls.

No matter how stormy it is, it will fall down one day.

It's gone.

It's over.

I know little about his life.

He said something I don't remember.

As much as he loves me,

I just call him grandpa.

My grandfather has been away from me for almost four years, and it feels very close, but when I think about it, I have experienced my grandmother's death, so time doesn't count, because it will be terrible.

When I was at home last month, I went back to my grandmother's house several times. As usual, the portrait of my grandfather was placed on the table in the main room with a particularly kind smile. As my father said, this is really the kindest photo of my grandfather. When I was a child, my grandfather was unsmiling, especially like my father now. I don't know when he began to feel like a child (maybe the day when he felt like a big friend). Now the clearest picture I can recall in my mind is those smiling eyes, which are very similar to my brother's smile. Yes, it's all the feeling of children smiling. How can it be different? Are the smiles of old people especially cured? Now I feel so warm when I think of the smiles of my grandmother, grandfather and grandfather who died.

As described in Sang Hai's poems, they are as old as I remember, but I think they can live another year even if they are old. I wrote in my diary when my grandfather just died that "he has been lying there for several months, and I thought I could see him lying there every time I went back".

I often joke with my grandmother and say, "You often say that you are too old to die, but I always think that you will definitely watch me get married and have children. I take it for granted, but I don't have a boyfriend yet. You must at least wait until I bring him here to meet you, otherwise how can you rest assured of your baby granddaughter? " Of course, this is a joke, but sometimes I do feel a little scared, and I always feel that this kind of joke can also be her spiritual pillar.

Grandma began to suffer from Alzheimer's disease one or two years before her death. Every time she sees me, she always likes to treat me as her mother. After the explanation, she began to ask which one to marry. Of course, I'm used to talking to her like this, but I still haven't given her a real promise.

Now when I think back to the three old people who died at home, I still burst into tears. I know too little about their stories, perhaps through their parents' chat, or their small talk with me, but even so, it is still very little. The only thing I know is that I am their granddaughter, and our relationship is only a blood relationship of several generations. I still don't know my grandparents' names. I should have asked them, but I forgot, because their names didn't seem to matter to me. I just need to know that they are my grandparents. Even if I don't say their names, they know I'm calling them.

Before, in everyday+everyday ... = miracle, how many cycles did I write to make us become father and daughter, mother and daughter, brother and sister, and relatives. It may be harder to meet every other generation. Even if you are destined to be a grandson in this life, you may not meet it. I am really lucky to meet you. You have been with me for more than 20 years.

I talked to a friend about the age gap yesterday. I am two years younger than you, so I am a little girl in your place, so even though I have been there for many years, I am still a little girl. So I will always be a child with them, even if we are separated by Yin and Yang, even if I become an old woman, I am still a child in your eyes.

Grandpa is an old man.

I am a little girl.