In the eternity you said, I struggled forward.

I just watched "There is a place only we know" directed by Xu. We all thought it would be far away forever, but in fact it may be so short that we can't even see it. Now ... hug the people around you. "

It suddenly occurred to me that many years ago that winter, my cold hand was stuffed into Fei Da's pocket. I asked him, how far is it forever, and will we become immortals?

Fei Da said, little fool, if we are together now and forever, we will definitely become an old man with gray temples, but not necessarily a fairy, because you are too bad, maybe you will become a monster. ...

Damn it, you've become a monster. I reached out and patted him on the head. ...

At the moment, I am sitting in front of the French window of Starbucks, in front of which is a "love letter" from Mocha and Shunji Iwai.

Outside the window, the sun is pale and the north wind is blowing violently.

There is a couple sitting in front of me. Boys are white and fat, girls are thin and weak, with fair skin and bright teeth. Looks like a quiet girl.

The girl said it was windy. I heard that there will be a wide range of rain and snow next week. Let's go across the street and buy a pair of snow boots.

Well, you're so thin, you're not cold. You have to buy a pair of thick boots and a bulging bread and cotton-padded jacket to wrap you up, no matter how heavy the snow is.

My eyes drifted to the opposite Daphne shoe store, still in that corner, and the window was full of shoes. In the cold winter, the crowd keeps flowing.

I saw the silhouette of time switching before my eyes.

Second,

Hey, Ponzi, why are you wearing a pair of cloth shoes or purple cloth shoes in cold weather? It doesn't match your blue cotton-padded jacket at all. It doesn't matter. The important thing is that it will snow soon. Your shoes are cold. Let's buy a pair of boots, thick snow boots.

Fei Da rubbed my hair and dragged me to the shoe store.

Then, we looked around the counter and finally picked out a pair of light brown snow boots. The price is 499 yuan.

Yes, Fei Da is my boyfriend. We had just started working at that time. Apart from the monthly rent in 300 yuan and the water and electricity charges of 100 yuan, there is not much left. We are really poor. 499 yuan a pair of snow boots is our living expenses for one month.

I've been looking for reasons to say how ugly and inappropriate these boots are. But Fei Da saw my caution at a glance.

He said, Ponzi, I know you are worried about money, but in such a cold day, you are running around outside every day, and it is going to snow soon. You must have a pair of thick and durable boots. Don't worry. I'll handle the money.

That day, he borrowed 800 yuan from Xiao Liang. We sat in Daphne's shop, waited for more than an hour, and then took out the money from the Industrial and Commercial Bank of China opposite and bought that pair of snow boots.

I'm wearing boots, Fei Da said. How beautiful! My fat man is not afraid of snowy days.

After many years, I don't have to worry about it being cold in winter. I have many pairs of boots, knee boots, Martin boots, UGG snow boots, English booties and so on, but those brown snow boots still stand quietly in the corner of the shoe cabinet. Although the rubber soles are broken, I have made up my mind to throw them away n times, but I still can't bear to part with them.

Third,

When I was with Fei Da, I just graduated and worked as a salesman on Wowotuan's website. This job is hard and boring, but I surf the Internet all day. Fei Da is a friend of my friend. After we met once at a friend's party, he added my QQ and chatted with me online at 9 o'clock every day.

When you first go to work, newcomers in the workplace will inevitably suffer some grievances, and it happens that someone has confided and felt the warmth of the world.

At that time, we were not in a city, and we contacted each other by phone, message and QQ every day. I feel connected with each other.

Three months later, Fei Da ran from Nanjing to City C with his schoolbag on his back. He said that since he likes it, there is no reason to stop us from being together.

Fei Da graduated one year later than me. He just left school, with no money and no work experience. Only a hot heart.

At that time, Huanhuan and Liang Xiao and I shared a room in an old-fashioned residential building near the company. In winter, Leng Xia was warm and uncomfortable. After Fei Da came, I temporarily arranged him in the living room of my male colleague next door, and then began to help him find a house and a job.

Because there is no computer in the boys' dormitory, I helped Fei Da write his resume during the day, and in Zhilian, 5 1job helped him to invest in some sales positions. Looking at the rental information while submitting my resume, I rented a house for Fei Da in different units in our same community for about a week, and shared it with three boys in the advertising industry. The smallest bedroom is less than 10 square meter.

Rent 300 yuan for one month, which is 1000 yuan. Fei Da and I both spent all our savings to pay the rent.

I found my job ten days after renting a house. I am a salesman of financial software.

At that time, the job was to survive. Fei Da works very hard. After the training, he ran out with clients every day.

We send messages and make phone calls during the day, and happy and unhappy things are always shared with each other at the first time.

Go shopping and cook together after work at night. His cooking is better than mine. He cooks and I cook porridge. When these dishes are on sale every week, we quickly buy more, called rings and Liang Xiao.

They have been praising Fei Da, saying that Fei Da is not only handsome, but also good at cooking, and whoever marries him is happy.

I said that's good, but such a good boyfriend is mine, and you are not allowed to rob me. ...

The three of us were chatting with each other, and Fei Da kept bowing his head with fried peanuts, as if the good man we were talking about had nothing to do with him.

I'm the kind of girl who dresses up whether she has money or not, so more than half of her monthly salary is spent on clothes. Fei Da basically doesn't buy clothes. I never liked his rustic style, so I took the initiative to help him buy clothes and shoes.

Fei Da is tall1.82m, thin and well proportioned, with long arms and legs, which is simply a clothes hanger. As long as you buy the right size, a 100-dollar shirt can also wear the fashion style of South Korea Ouba.

Under my careful care, Fei Da looks full of energy and vitality.

Fourth,

Life is so simple. Fei Da is clever and diligent. In less than a year, he was promoted to business manager, and then he didn't want to do business all the time and transferred to the technical department, starting from scratch.

Fei Da said that giving him more time and mastering a skill is also for our future life to be more leisurely.

He has a habit that his mobile phone is turned on 24 hours a day, and he rarely lets others touch his mobile phone, including me.

But in the face of love, these little problems are really not worth mentioning.

After two years together, life has improved. Both he and I have been promoted. We can invite Huanhuan and Liang Xiao to eat western food, Korean food and Southeast Asian food at any time ... There is no need to queue up for an hour in the bustling vegetable market to buy discounted tomatoes. You don't have to wait for a friend's relief in Daphne for a pair of snow boots.

In 20 12, the third year we were together, before the Spring Festival holiday, Fei Da went to Shanghai on business. I was supposed to go home with my parents, so I had to go back alone. He said that he would come to me as soon as he was busy.

Mother prepared a table of rich hometown dishes, but only waited for me. I'll get a circus quickly and come by myself after two busy days. I have all the addresses in his cell phone.

In the evening, my mother sat on the sofa and kept looking at my mobile phone. There were many photos of me and Fei Da in it. My mother said that Fei Da looked honest and steady, but I always thought he was naive. Usually, I always feel uneasy about whether you should take care of him and give you to him.

I said, don't worry, mom, you will definitely change your mind when you see him in person. He's nice, mature and interesting. Besides, you always said that two people should take care of each other and support each other, so if I take care of him, he will accommodate me. Judging from your narrow mind, your daughter won't suffer.

The first night, I fell asleep in my mother's chatter.

In the next few days, I visited relatives and friends and called Fei Da. He kept saying that he was not busy.

On the last day of the Spring Festival holiday, Fei Da appeared. I am very dissatisfied, but I still have to carry it in front of my parents. Fei Da didn't treat himself as an outsider as soon as he came in. He rolled up his sleeves and went into the kitchen to help my mother prepare lunch. After a meal, my mother talked to Fei Da about the first time he hired jiaozi when he was in the third grade of primary school.

After that holiday, my parents called regularly to remind me of my age.

On another phone call, I told my mother that I was getting engaged. My mother first took a long sigh of relief. Then, smile and say yes. My eyes suddenly saw my mother's smiling face, and the wrinkles in the corners of my eyes were slightly tilted.

Well, since you have met the right person, don't worry your elderly parents any more.

Fei Da and I got engaged before summer came.

After our engagement, we moved. In the residential area five kilometers away from my unit, there is a row of dense poplars in front of the road, and the sun is mottled among the dark green leaves. Fei Da and I are moving in the clear and jumping sunshine.

In the evening, I made green pepper tofu, fish-flavored eggplant, shredded cabbage, cola chicken wings, and Fei Da's favorite tremella porridge.

The most homely dishes also have an eternal taste.

After dinner, Fei Da hugged me and said, Ponzi, from today on, we will be together forever and never part. You are my wife. In the future, I will work hard. I want to earn money to support you. You can tell me anything you want. I am your magic lamp.

Allah, do you still have Doraemon? I smiled and squeezed his palm, but my heart was heavy with happiness.

Maybe this is the taste of happiness.

I think how far is it forever, that is, until the hair turns gray, we can help each other to go out for a walk and play mahjong lazily in the sun.

Five,

I've been engaged for half a year, and I've chosen a wedding time to take a wedding photo.

It's just that the big plane is getting busier and busier, and the scheduled photo time is delayed. I have been waiting, waiting.

Wait for him to work overtime, wait for him to go on a business trip, wait for him to train.

At noon that day, I happened to pass by their company and asked him to come out for dinner. He said that he was in a hurry and busy, so he saved time and ate casually in the company restaurant at noon.

I didn't ask too many questions. I bought his favorite chicken pot rice and went to their company.

I stood in front of the shutters and saw Fei Da having dinner with a girl with a big smile. I told myself over and over again how normal it is to have dinner with my colleagues. But women's intuition tells me that they have problems.

The girl took a paper towel and wiped Fei Da's mouth. He looked at her with a smile in his eyes. What familiar eyes, what familiar smile, but at the moment, I hate Fei Da's face.

I went straight over and put the lunch box in front of Fei Da. His smile froze on his face and he said, you, why are you here? You didn't tell me beforehand.

I said, nothing, you are busy, worried that you forgot to eat. Say that finish, I turned and left, Fei Da calling me, I didn't look back.

In the evening, I didn't fly back until twelve o'clock. He looked haggard and I ignored him.

He sat next to me and said, Ponzi, I want to talk to you seriously.

I think he is very strange. Well, tell me about it.

Thanks for walking with me for so long, Ponzi. I remember when we first got together, you bought all my food, and I couldn't give you anything. I can't even afford a pair of snow boots in winter. You have suffered so much with me. .....

Fei Da, it's normal for two people to be together. What are you talking about? I interrupted him.

Ponzi, I want to say, let's, let's break up. I'm sorry

My back chills and I stand up, Fei Da. What the fuck do you mean?

He didn't speak, his eyes were red, and he repeated, Ponzi, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. ......

Are you in love with someone else? It must be the woman who had lunch together. How long have you known her? Did you break up with me because of her? I'm blind ... Sadness and anger come to me.

Fei Da didn't speak. He squatted there, tears streaming down his cheeks.

We have been together for four years, and I have never seen him cry. Seeing him like this, I also squatted down, distressed as hell. Ask him, do you have any difficulties? Didn't you say that no matter what happens, we will always be together and will not break up?

You're right. I do not love you anymore. I can't be with you. We have to break up. He wiped his tears and looked at me firmly.

Ok, let's break up, then you should pack your things and get out of here at once. I said to him coldly.

That day, I watched him pack his luggage one by one, then opened the door and left without looking back.

Hardly had he closed the door when I wrapped myself in a quilt and cried hysterically.

I still don't understand why loving someone changes. Why is Fei Da such a person? Why did I love him like a fool for so long? why ......

I haven't contacted for a month, so I just put up with it.

I think he is impatient at the moment and will come back when he figures it out. After all, we are all getting married.

Even if we really want to break up, give me an explanation.

But he never looked for me again, just like he disappeared out of thin air. I called him, but I didn't have an empty number. I sent QQ and WeChat, which all showed that I was no longer a good friend.

I finally realized how terrible it is for a man to be rude.

I went to see him in their company, and his colleague said that he resigned. I looked for the female colleague he fell in love with, and she also resigned.

I think maybe they are really together and start a new life.

I want to call Fei Da's mother. After all, when we were together, his mother was always very kind to me.

I called several times, but no one answered.

I think Fei Da must have talked to his mother and can't take my call. Afraid I'll get entangled in him.

Thought of here, I feel like a joke.

I went home and told my parents frankly about it. I said that my daughter was unfilial, engaged and broke up, which brought shame to the family ... I began to cry as I spoke.

My father has been smoking with his head down, and my mother helped me wipe my tears and sobbed, saying that since Fei Da is such a person, it is better to break up early, so as not to regret it for a lifetime after marriage. It's okay. We are still young. Don't be sad. We will meet better people.

After leaving home, the burden in my heart has also been put down by more than half. I have been worried that my parents will be sad and will not talk about it. It's okay now. Say it, and you will feel better.

I work hard, read books, exercise, learn to arrange flowers and play golf.

I am like a fish, swimming, swimming and moving forward. To cover up the sadness that rises in my heart. I've thought about it, at least it's better than flying there.

Six,

20 15 years, I was 28 years old, and I was promoted to sales director. I took my team and ran hard in the workplace in high heels.

Once Party A's company was doing an activity, and I took my team to Party A to put forward a plan.

The sky was gray that day, and the dense fog that could not be melted drifted away. I sat in the front row and tried my best to express the results of one night's teamwork.

Looking up, in the corner of the right rear, he used to be familiar with him, sitting there with his head down, writing and drawing in a notebook with a pen.

Yes, I'm sure it's Fei Da. He thought that there would be no intersection in his life, and he sat less than five meters away from me.

I tried to suppress the choppy mood and finished the case.

In the evening, Fei Da invited me to talk in a cafe under Party A's company.

The lights exude a different kind of warmth, and the purple daisies are fragrant at the corner of the table.

After two years apart, we met for the first time. Less anger and anger. Just like ordinary friends, sit down and talk about the changes in recent years.

Only two years later, Fei Da's face was full of vicissitudes of years. When he picked up the coffee cup, I noticed the unhealed scar on his finger.

I asked him, what happened?

He said, not bad.

I said, are you and her okay? Are you married?

He paused, which her?

Then he breathed a long sigh of relief.

I thought I would never tell you anything in my life, but these two years have weighed me down like a stone. I think I can tell you now.

In the intermittent memories of Fei Da, I gradually saw him clearly.

Two years ago, my father did business and borrowed a lot of private loans as working capital. Later, there was a business problem and the loan was never paid back.

His home is surrounded every day, and his father has no choice but to escape.

Later, I didn't know where I found his phone number, and it was blocked downstairs in their company. He was worried about being found out where he lived, so he made a detour after work every day and went home quietly at night.

I'm afraid of going home and worrying, so I can only say that I'm working overtime.

A week later, he was exhausted.

He thought for a long time and felt that I had no good life with him. If this goes on, our life will only become a mess.

It took him half a day to make a difficult decision, and he had to break up with me. Break up firmly and leave cleanly.

So he lied to me with his poor acting skills.

In the past two years, Fei Da and his parents have gone to Shenzhen, Guangzhou, Hainan and Yunnan to escape their debts ... They have no fixed address and wander around. In these cities, he worked as a porter, washed dishes, delivered takeaways, and worked as a construction worker, pouring sand into concrete mixers under the cold sea breeze. Once the coat is dragged into the blender. If he hadn't reacted quickly and thrown it away, his life would have been lost.

In the past two years, the economic pressure of private lending was enormous, the capital chain was broken, many small and medium-sized companies went bankrupt one after another, and the Fei Da family scraped together the principal and finally subsided.

Fei Da spoke slowly, as if telling other people's stories.

I burst into tears when I listened. I grabbed his hand and looked back and forth. There are countless scars between my fingers, big and small.

I grabbed his arm and said, why didn't you come back to me?

He said, I am only a junior salesman now, and you are already the business director of a listed company. With your conditions, you can have a better choice.

Did you ask me? You know what I'm thinking? You never ask me, you are always self-righteous, you think I will live better, yes, I can live better without you. However, I think, the only person holding hands forever is you. Didn't you say that you should bask in the sun and play mahjong together when your teeth are out and your hair is gray? Have you forgotten all about it? You liar, you fool, you idiot. ......

Before I finished, Fei Da hugged me, and we used up all our strength and thoughts. This hug was 730 days late.

Seven,

Shunji Iwai said that despite years of baptism, sincere feelings have not been erased, life is short, but love is eternal.

I looked up at the sky outside the window. It's snowing, and white snowflakes fall aimlessly from the pale sky, spinning and dancing one by one, as if rushing to attend a grand date.

Fei Da was wearing a blue plaid scarf, rubbing his hands and running breathlessly. Fatso, wait and worry. It is snowing outside. Let's buy you snow boots. Step on the snow and creak, bring a wool ball cap and thick gloves. ......

We all thought it would be far away forever, but in fact it may be fleeting, so short that we can't even see it.

In the forever you said, I have been struggling to move forward and finally reached the other side. I will hold your hand tightly and let time pass.