Post-80s generation struggling for life

As a generation born in the 1980s, have you ever felt that you are suddenly old, your youth is no longer there, and you have a lot of worries. From time to time when you are chatting with people, "when I was young" will pop up, and you even have a moment where you doubt your existence in this world. What's the use? What is the meaning of my life?

1. Have you noticed that you are becoming less and less talkative, do not like lively occasions, do not party, do not go shopping, do not like to play, and just like to be alone quietly without being disturbed. Walking on the bustling street, the lights are bright, and there are all kinds of people on the street, but you have no expression, and there is no familiar face around you. When you look up, you will see towering tall buildings, and you will feel a sense of oppression. You are in a foreign place, and among the thousands of lights, not a single light is on for you.

2. I often can't sleep at night. I am tired of playing with my mobile phone. After taking the mobile phone to charge, I curl up on the bed alone, hugging the quilt. I don't know what I am thinking, and I feel inexplicable. The darkness wraps you up like a huge spider web. Even if you are married, you would rather be alone. I thought I could fall asleep by smoking a cigarette, but I couldn't fall asleep one cigarette after another, so I picked up my phone again, but I didn't know what to do with it. I turned on the screen to check the time and then put it down. I haven’t had a dream for a long, long time, and even if I did, I wouldn’t remember anything except feeling tired when I woke up the next day.

3. Frequent wandering, memory loss, and suddenly forgetting what I was going to do. Are you thinking about washing the clothes you left in the washing machine after you go out? Are the windows closed tightly? He obviously had his phone in his hand, but he kept looking for it. I wanted to do something in front of the computer, but time passed by without me noticing and nothing was accomplished. When chatting with others, it is easy to forget what has been said, and you will say it again, and you will not know it unless others remind you.

4. I feel like I can live without everything except my mobile phone. You have downloaded a lot of music, apps, and movies and TV series on your phone, but you have no use for many functions. There are some movies that I said I wanted to watch half a year ago, but I haven’t seen them until now. There are not many songs to listen to. They are all old songs. I don’t know a few singers of the new era. Huang Zitao, Cai Xukun, and Fan Chengcheng seem to be very popular, but they don’t know them, let alone the songs they can sing. I also watch very little TV, especially TV series that often have sixty or seventy episodes, and I don’t even watch them at all. I have neither time nor patience.

5. I don’t know how to put on makeup and I don’t like to dress up. All the good clothes I bought in specialty stores are hung in the closet and well protected. I only wear a shirt and T-shirt worth more than 20 yuan. Anyway, I can do it as easily as I can. , if you don’t go out, you can wear pajamas for a few days without changing. It’s not that I have to go out without washing my hair. Regarding my hair, I used to want to style it and dye it a color, but now I think it’s better to have shorter hair to save on taking care of it. Women buy complete sets of cosmetics in boxes, but what they actually use most every day is facial cleanser. I promised to apply a facial mask every day, but now I am too lazy to even moisturize.

Men are the same. They don’t have many clothes. They just wear a few old clothes from their early years. If they don’t feel comfortable, they don’t bother to buy new ones. Unless they are so bad that they can’t be worn at all, there is no need to change them. The less luggage you carry with you when you go out, the better. I always feel that too much stuff is a burden.

6. It is easy to recall the past. I often forget recent events, but I can still remember the past more than ten years ago very clearly. When I think of something funny, the corners of my mouth will raise unconsciously, and when I think of something bad, I will sigh softly. When you come back to your senses, you will still laugh at yourself for remembering the past again.

7. I am very irritable every day, thinking about work, family, children, parents, money, and have no energy to think about myself. Obviously the news says that the entire country's economic level has improved, but I don't have much money and I still owe a lot of foreign debt. All kinds of pressure are concentrated on you, and there is a feeling that dark clouds are pressing down on the city, threatening to destroy it, and you will die before you get out of the battle. When those with cars drive to the parking lot, they would rather stay in the car for a while than go home immediately. For those without cars, taking a taxi is too expensive.

8. There is no social interaction, you don’t want to go to class reunions, you don’t want to participate in company group activities, you have no interest in KTV singing, unless there are activities at your child’s school that require parents to attend, otherwise you don’t want to see acquaintances. There are fewer and fewer friends, and there are only one or two who can talk. After the separation of the good brothers and best friends in the past, they gradually lost contact with each other, except for family members and children. If you don’t have money to lend to others, you are also afraid that others will ask you to borrow money. There are many holidays, but they have nothing to do with you, and you don’t like to celebrate them.

9. You play with your mobile phone every day, and you can’t tell what you are playing on. Don't care about national affairs, current affairs, entertainment and gossip.

As long as you see a funny video or article, you will be slightly interested, and it will be over if you laugh a little, and there will be no gain at all. There are so many numbers in the address book that I'm really in trouble. Not a single number is used.

10. I tell myself every day that I can’t go on like this and that I want to change myself, but when I wake up the next day, my life is still the same. I have no ability to execute and only talk about it. If you are used to this kind of self, you are afraid of change, afraid of failure, and dare not try. When I was young, I had a lot of dreams. Now I am satisfied that my whole family can have enough to eat. I want to see what a huge world it is, but it is difficult for you to even leave home.

11. I used to be very dedicated to relationships, but now I feel that love is just like that. If you can live with it, live with it. Divorce is normal if you can’t live with it. No one will laugh at divorced people. In your heart, your children are more important than your lover. important. We don’t pursue love, we just want to maintain family ties. Don’t talk about romance. We don’t understand romance and we don’t have romance.

12. Society has made great progress, there are many things to learn, and we often cannot keep up with the times. Less than a month after I bought the mobile phone, a new model came out. I was still lamenting the large traffic of 4G, and 5G came out again. I finally got to know a celebrity, but he immediately became obsolete. You really want to work hard, but you are always lagging behind. You feel that you are about the same as others, but others are just doing better than you.

13. I feel very tired, and even more tired after reading the above words. I have troubles and don’t know who to talk to. I am afraid to go home during the holidays, afraid of being attacked by relatives, afraid of being asked about my salary, and about my family. Many grievances are kept in the heart, and people who are too close to them dare not speak out because they don't want them to know their situation and they don't want others to worry. You can only resist silently alone, but you are not a god, and you will be crushed sometimes.

As a generation born in the 1980s, do you feel that it is really not easy for you? You have seniors and juniors, and you often have no choice but to carry the whole family. You can't complain or be negative. You have to force yourself to smile every day to encourage yourself to persevere. When you're tired, you cry secretly alone without letting others see you. You live a life of eating and vomiting, and you have to lie to others that you are living a good life.

It doesn’t matter, I can understand it. The earth rotates every day and the sun rises every day. As long as we are still alive, have labor force and face life bravely, we can overcome any difficulties. It will get better and better. We cannot fall, we still have responsibilities on our shoulders!