Named Clown —— The Significance of Gorgeous Turn

A clown is an aesthetic performance.

pursue the ultimate and ideal beauty of that moment.

that depressing and difficult staircase finally became the stage for my gorgeous turn.

I have a graceful gait and am reborn.

Let's look at the clown I drew first:

Arthur the clown is the protagonist in the article.

In the movie The Clown 219, Arthur's mother said "Everyone says."

Then Arthur replied:

"Oh yeah? Everybody who?"

yes! Under the pressure of today, we always keep saying, "Who said that?"

Because:

"Everyone says that and does that."

then the question comes, "everyone", who is it? We, rather, live in the reflection of our own experience and think that it is the real world.

In fact, there shouldn't be any rules. We set "rules" for ourselves and locked ourselves in that cage.

Do you remember what Arthur said to his doctor? You never listened carefully to what I said.

Arthur's dream is to be a comedian, and he always carries a diary with him, that is, he writes diaries and jokes with a flash of light. He said:

capture what really makes people laugh.

Depression should be a very popular topic now. Unfortunately, the vast majority of real depression patients have not received the respect and care they deserve. Many other diseases related to depression have repeatedly tortured patients' spirits and recently affected their physical functions.

when I was studying in St. Petersburg, Russia, I suffered from severe depression, so severe that I couldn't live. In that cage-like hut, I recorded the onset and calm process of depression in despair and pain, as well as related stories and memories.

It was like a sewer maggot:

I woke up from a dream. How many times did you wake up and go to sleep? Every time I thought I had woken up, I wanted to get my mobile phone, or I wrote down the inspiration of this writing in my diary. Boom, I closed my eyes and went to sleep again.

this feeling is very strange. Even he didn't believe himself, and this time he really woke up. Struggling to the front of the green sofa, the mobile phone shows a do not disturb call, and there is 99% charge.

I had slept for so long, and I just thought I just wanted to take a nap. I clearly remember it was after nine o'clock. Love love love felt a little queasy and nauseous, but there was nothing to vomit. I can't remember how long I haven't had breakfast.

I rubbed my aching head and carefully recalled the hints in my dream just now. Maybe there are some clues. He touched the wall of his right hand and found nothing. But in a dream, there was a big white paper with a list of people written on it: Ma Mei, Liu Fang and Li Shuaixi. . . It seems that there was a strange voice saying not to use these names, otherwise it would trigger something bad. It's a bit like a word game often played by the scarlet letter in the apartment in hell. In the execution place of the supernatural scene of a narrow escape, the apartment residents are informed of some information with obvious hints to deceive the apartment residents and let them trigger a dead end. Yes. . . I'm not executing the word "blood". What are you implying? Is it a character name that can't be used when writing a novel? Thinking and thinking, I can't remember anything. I kicked the dumbbell beside my foot in anger, and the dumbbell purred toward the wardrobe, making a deep sound in the friction with the wooden floor. Forget it. Forget it. I closed my notebook and went to the window to open it. At this moment, the sunny day suddenly overcast, and soon, you can even hear the faint sound of rushing. "No! It's May 3rd! It's snowing? "But I soon calmed down, because I thought that this was in Russia.

I am silent about life for a reason. At noon in St. Petersburg, I always wake up from nightmares, and every time I open my eyes, I see the empty house. Wow! There was a huge shout, and the voice drifted into nothingness and disappeared along the wall. The brown wallpaper is stacked with repeated patterns, which makes people dizzy every time. The invasion of depression and other diseases has made me unable to exercise, and even when I think about it, my eyes feel dizzy. I dare not go out, because I have nothing to say to those people, and I can't pretend that I am happy and optimistic.

The most ironic and sad thing in life is not to give you what you really want at the most important and necessary stage, and to give it to you when you don't need it much later. I got it at that time. It's already boring. I wonder if I will one day become like many people (I once called these people weak) and have to beg others to listen to my story. No matter whether others can understand it or not, they just need the sadness of an audience. How barren is that life?

Times have changed. The "old heroes" have been almost forgotten, and there are "new heroes" everywhere: movie models, stars, businessmen, bankers ... Most young people can still adapt to these things, and the old people can only die in silence.

Their lives have been shut out of the new world, and they have been poor all their lives until they are forgotten ...

What do you want me to say about the suffering and all this now? I don't know ...

People can't cry when things are really heavy.

My expression is like a puppet,

because:

This is an era of excessive demand for "positive energy", and the effectiveness and power of negative energy are mostly castrated.

I don't know what you think when you see the above words. Different people should think in different ways. It's just that every time I see them, I think of whales. When the whale is being hunted, in order to survive, it turns around and faces ... those dangerous people, as if remembering the source of all disasters.

People with depression really don't want to disappoint others, and they really don't want to have a positive life. It's just that they are too painful and can't get out. We just don't want to be so sad all the time.

However, this does not mean that our life will always be gloomy. I am grateful for my luck, so that I finally escaped from that place and the possibility of continuing to be depressed. Now, I will think that illness is another revelation to life, and the soul can escape from reality in truth and illusion. From beginning to end, I carried the box full of antidepressants with me, but I never opened them.

In order to commemorate those days when I suffered from depression, and to inspire the patients suffering from depression, I drew a long-term realistic colored lead work:? Joker--Create your own life and recorded the painting steps:

Painting materials: special colored lead paper for flying birds, academic green box Faber-Carlton 12 color lead

Painting steps for realistic clowns, and various detailed techniques:

What should I do when the colors of the picture conflict or paste? Of course, I just add complementary colors-the colors with high lightness and the complementary colors with high lightness. In this way, the dark part can be heavy, and the color of the dark part looks natural and stable.

I left the color number of academic Faber-Carlton at the bottom of the screen, and recorded several painting processes: pre-stage, middle stage, post-stage and adjustment stage. Of course, this is recorded according to the painting technique of local evolution.

face: 233 (light gray) as base, 172 (light green) as two-layer color, 121 (environmental suit red) +141 (environmental blue) +15 (environmental hair yellow) +183 (environmental yellow vest yellow)? < * * * Six-layer color >

the shadow part of clown red suit: 142 cold red +121 bright red (basic color); 267 dark green +141 cobalt blue (green first, then blue); Finally, use 263 deep ochre color to make a transition. ? < * * * Five-layer color >

This is done because to make the black of the shadow part stable, it is sometimes necessary to add heavy colors of the same color to transition and eliminate dry spots.

yellow vest: 15 bright yellow base +18 medium yellow secondary paving with big color +182 khaki dark folds +142 cold red deepening dark folds +165 light green transition dark folds +183 light khaki to increase the reflection of vest, and finally, use the bright color red 121 on the red suit to draw texture to increase the texture.

Clown's hand: 142 cold red base +13 flesh red over the bright part +263 dark ochre deepening the dark part, and the structure of the card's hand once +267 dark green deepening the dark part twice+environmental color and yellow vest, and the red dress reflects the color of No.18,121

Stairs: supported by dark gray long lines. After finishing the painting, No.156 Cobo Green is fully paved with color +14 light gray blue +142 deep red+dark gray

Land and some wall surfaces: 274 dark gray base +28 mature brown base color +271 m yellow gray upper bright color+later ambient color

Speaking of painting, this three-dimensional sketch is equivalent to a simulation of nature. A good idea is that Of course, the outline is the part where the edge of a shape ends. In a way, it is the weakest. We should not deliberately describe the outline, that is, the misunderstanding of painting. Description is not to strengthen, but to weaken, because the more you draw, the more flat you are. The correct way is to "create" the shape, cut it with lines in the early stage, use the relationship between light and shade in the later stage, and use the positive and negative shapes to search. Drawing colored lead is the same as sketching. "Lines can be broken". Colored lead, with many subtle techniques, belongs to the field of personal research and experience. When the picture has two or three layers of background color, you can use the same color to arrange the lines in the same direction in a large area to achieve a large-area color change effect. If you want to make a subtle contrast between the dark side and the shadow part, then my method is: change the overlapping color order. There is a similar cognition to the principle of color matching, that is, four colors, red, yellow, blue and black, can bring out ever-changing colors. Just like we usually take a printed master painting to analyze the color. We can find that every color is a question of "how much are these colors". If it's white, just leave it on a white background.

back to the analysis of movies.

Arthur's mother has been writing to her father tirelessly, hoping that he can see the sufferings of the living environment of himself and his children and help them with compassion. But she forgot that she was the executioner who really castrated Arthur's life. That's why Arthur "collapsed" when he read the letter and learned the truth.

I said, that's called rebirth.

This kind of result is by no means pleasant, because the victim has to reorganize the value of life with scars that are difficult to heal, find the motivation of life again, and live. I feel the same way.

We, despite being ourselves and trying to be ourselves, actually, we are in a world where others are talking about us.

We need to wear masks to associate with others, because we are a vulnerable group; We are engaged in art, and our ideological realm is extremely high, but in the external realistic environment, we lack money and have no status, and we are still a vulnerable group.

We should consider whether our actions and body movements are appropriate, otherwise we will be discussed, even ridiculed and beaten.

At the beginning of the film, Arthur was robbed of the billboard. He was beaten to the ground by a group of people in the alley. He was panting on the ground, in front of a broken billboard.

bullying.

For those who were bullied and bullied in childhood, you must know the true elements of my thoughts. In other words, only we know each other. Because you have all experienced what it is like to live with humiliation and anger. We, as a minority, should be more competitive and use our strength and achievements to avenge ourselves, instead of giving up on ourselves until we die. This reminds me of a sentence: the more a tree's crown yearns for the high sun, the more its roots go deep into the dark underground.

We live in a dark package of negative energy; We have reinterpreted negative energy.

"We are not grandstanding. On the other hand, we show our self-cultivation."

Everyone feels uncomfortable around you and thinks you are a freak ... I can't have this kind of negative energy around me ...

Haha.

remember the stairs that Arthur the clown climbed? At first, he struggled to climb up, and the background was full of loneliness; Now, he is dancing in a gorgeous red suit, revealing a yellow vest!

Because it doesn't matter, in the face of external injuries, we are still planning jokes and looking for materials.

as clowns, please let us turn around beautifully.

To paraphrase Nietzsche:

? "They were all in an extraordinary loneliness. At that time, only they lived only for cognition."

The clown put on a red suit and danced down that flight of stairs. The background music link has been put below:

Rock and Roll Part 2

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