Many boys laugh at my cowardice and look at me with eyes that want to laugh at me. Do they despise me?

They don't look down on you, they just think you are weak, or they may just think you are funny.

When I was at school, I was afraid of the dark. After each evening self-study, I always find various reasons for other students to send me home (because my family lives in a different direction from any other students! ) Every time, I will find a seemingly reasonable reason for my classmates to accompany me home, whether male or female. Every time my reason is that I bought something new and invited my classmates to my house, or I forgot to bring something to someone and my classmates. I hope my classmates will go home with me to get it. No matter which classmate, as long as I have a name, they will accompany me home with a happy smile. ...

At a party after graduating from high school, our monitor mentioned my story. He said, in fact, at that time, we all knew that you were afraid of the dark. Let's go with you. We all know your trick, just to avoid hurting your face, so we didn't say anything! After that, all the students laughed, and I smiled embarrassedly.

You see, no one laughs at anyone between classmates, but it's funny!