A face written on the wall

The sun pulls down the curtains and knocks at the door at night.

It's been more than half a year since I graduated, and I live a star life every day. I know that "it is not easy to find a job and love is difficult to achieve", so I went to the postgraduate entrance examination. When college is boring, I will watch movies to relieve boredom. Later, I actually watched one a day and got into the habit. I have graduated and grown up, so it's really wrong to go home and disturb my parents. Besides, I have a loose nature and just moved out by myself. Friends in hometown go abroad to look for the future, and mentors and friends in universities are scattered everywhere like sparks, gathering and parting are impermanent, and intimate friends are scattered. Fortunately, communication is convenient, and everyone contacts online.

I watched A Chinese Odyssey again and learned the story by heart. I can recite Stephen Chow's famous sentence in one breath, and I almost fell asleep listening to it. However, every time I hear "there is no inescapable fate in the world", my heart is full of lead, especially after I return to my hometown after graduation.

Seeing this, I want to make it clear that I have never been the protagonist of any occasion, including those vulgar university figures. Although I often dream that I am surrounded by a group of schoolmates, I often ask, "How did you get here?" I'm often anxious about it. I think most people are the same as when I was young. They always stand by and don't applaud the hero, but often secretly give the heroine a look.

two

I flipped through my mobile phone and saw a message: the registration activity is over, an expression.

I said, what registration activity?

"This is it (picture)"

I have a look, and the content of the activity is to send my own photos first, and then the organizer will write a story dedicated to her for the person who gets the most votes.

I thought there was such a good thing that I could participate in it.

Only women are allowed to send photos.

Fuck.

Hu Sanshui is one of the few girls who keep in touch after graduation.

I said, I can write for you. Out of confidence in myself, I came up with this sentence without thinking.

She said, write, and fulfill my wish to write a story.

I asked, what style do you want? The heroine in the legendary swordsman or that heroine in Jin Ping Mei?

She said, you deliberately targeted me, right?

I said, how dare you tell me your story?

She said, I am a female classmate without stories.

"Tell me about your first love."

"I am not a lover, I am a fetish."

"Write about your four-year experience in college."

"I slept for four years."

"Write 72 postures while sleeping."

"Hehe."

It's already late at night. The moon rises from the window, stays at the window root and looks at the people lying in bed.

"You write me a story about shadows. This shadow is what I have always imagined. "

"I have always had a good impression on boys with glasses, and I am inspirational to marry a nearsighted person for a lifetime."

I adjusted the glasses frame.

"Myopia is mostly a weak scholar. I punched down, kicked down and slapped the wall. "

"In fact, this person may not exist at all. She doesn't even know her gender. She is a shadow, a phantom that I have been chasing but can't catch up with. "

I can imagine her serious expression.

three

Hu Sanshui is very cute, and he is one meter tall on campus. There are many boys chasing her. I'm afraid she didn't have a fixed lover in college for four years in order not to cause campus fights. Every time she talks about it, she falters and says that her eyes are at the top of her head-her eyes hate the sky.

Hu Sanshui and I met in an off-campus training institution when we were freshmen.

In a team activity, I overreached myself and drew a picture. The content is like this. I can only describe it roughly in words. I believe in the imagination of readers.

"The sky is clear, and two children are sitting on the swing by the lake, laughing and laughing. Next to them, a child plunged into the lake, splashing waves like wrinkles on his face. "

This painting was "criticized" to pieces by the girls in the same group, saying that the painting skills were invisible, let alone the artistic conception, and even the content was childish and ridiculous.

I said, what do you know? Have you seen Monet's first painting? It's just a standing child peeing on the sea. This is the artistic conception, you know? mood of a artistic work

That's how we met.

four

The willow line is green, and spring returns to the earth. In the second semester, with my leadership and the help of my friends, we started a current political society together, which looked like "we can change the direction of the trend". In that year, Lao Luo began to make mobile phones "cross-border" and everyone laughed at him.

Encouraged by my irresistible personal charm, Hu Sanshui certainly joined. I make rumors, and I don't want to bear legal responsibility. )

During this period, we climbed mountains, swam, squatted under the streetlights of the football field and played cards to imagine the future. Through these two glasses of wine with courage and blood, we talked about cultural figures and their fate, "feeling the moment of life and admiring the infinity of the Yangtze River".

If time can freeze, freeze youth at this moment, on this day when everyone is laughing.

In less than a year, our club has maintained the initial level of more than 20 people. Once in the process of surfing the Internet, I saw the sentence "Luo Yonghao is the God of Internet Marketing", so I immediately failed. I forgot to watch the news of his new system, read some materials, returned a rag and wrote: "This may be the first political society in the northwest."

The next day passed, the third day slipped away, and the fourth day came, only one person was recruited.

What is Hu Sanshui doing at this moment?

Keep up with fashion. I learned how to make up, how to match clothes and how to tie a scarf in nine ways.

A year later, as expected, the elders who had followed me and vowed to "Genesis" had their own plans, and then the club closed.

Hu Sanshui signed up for a series of courses that seemed to make her look better, such as Computer Level 2, and bought a bunch of clothes that could make her look better. Either she didn't look for me or she asked me to invite her to dinner. I don't spend much in college, but I have a lot of living expenses. In addition to buying books and necessary daily necessities, I will save the rest of the money just in case. Every time I reveal my idea of lending her money, she puts a fish in my mouth.

That's what she did. She doesn't bother her friends.

five

I also started my own journey. Start reading books that don't help you find a job all day.

The school is not big, but they seldom meet each other. A large part of the reason is that I am nearsighted and don't like wearing glasses very much. Ten meters away, people and animals are very similar. Of course, don't think that Hu Sanshui is a fairy. I saw the photos sent by her circle of friends. I have been to Pingyao, walked through the Great Wall and almost went to Thailand to worship Buddha. Because she is short of money.

The days passed slowly for two people.

Ladies and gentlemen, when I recall, there are often some pictures that pop up suddenly. I have to write them down first. People's memory is not chronological, at least mine is not. I'm not completely sure that I can remember Hu Sanshui's gentle and lovely face.

At the end of last semester, many friends left school one after another to go to work or go home to find a job. Two friends of Hu Sanshui are leaving. We had a meal. On the way back to the dormitory, I don't know if it's because of the disastrous interview experience before, or if I really can't bear to part with them. A tear was in my eyes, and I wanted to shout, but I still watched them enter the dormitory.

six

friend

See the words like a face.

1, the reason why I spend all my time studying and desperately accumulating is because I can firmly grasp the people and things I like. You can say with confidence that you won't run when you come. I hope you're just in time. I can trust it.

2, thousands of miles to build long eaves, all banquets in the world. There is no reason to leave East Chang 'an, and don't meet again. I'll have a drunken laugh with you for 30 thousand games, and I won't say much until I tell you to quit fighting and advise you to drink more. Not drinking can't persuade you. We have been friends for three years, and we have had a good talk. In every night of playing cards, in every melancholy moment, a word of truth is worth a thousand cups of old books, which is not a good word. It's not nice, but it's worth listening to.

Too soon, but the cold rain came early and the wind came late. Where there is gathering, there is parting, regardless of the length of time or the depth of fate. Nice to meet you. You are all good girls with good heart and excellent personality, and you will have a bright future. Thank you for accompanying me through the ups and downs. Watching me grow day by day, my car performance is at its best. I just want to take you for a ride and see the scenery. You reminded me whether I got my driver's license or not.

The encouragement on the road to growth will not be forgotten. I was happy when I left, so please don't hesitate when I come.

If on a rainy afternoon, you see a clown in old clothes passing by his house on a motorcycle, don't be afraid, don't panic, just give him fish.

You and I cherish each other, and it is even harder to meet each other. And the east wind has blossomed, dare to teach the sun and the moon to change the sky, and dare to climb Huashan even if it is hard.

In Kerouac's words, barely tie a tail. ....

"We all have a longer way to go, but it doesn't matter, the road is life." _

Oh, by the way, I changed SmartisanT 1. Note: Her Chinese name is "Hammer", which is different from the meaning of "Hammer" in Xi 'an dialect. When I get paid, I will send one to my future mother-in-law.

This is my letter to them on February 27th, 65438, two days after Christmas, the night they left school. After writing, a light snow began to fall in my heart.

six

Graduation ceremony.

Shoot graduation photo, drink farewell wine and have farewell dinner.

The night before I left, I went to the house that Hu Sanshui had just rented.

Only she lives alone, and we talked about her house. The decoration is good and the price is reasonable, which is very suitable for the temporary residence of fresh graduates.

I asked her if she was ready to go on like this. She said that there is no plan at present, so do the work at hand first. As for the future, well, whatever. I never plan. Who knows if I can live to see tomorrow?

I said, I admire you very much. An independent girl like you is really rare. When your boyfriend is dizzy with happiness.

She said, I am not good enough. I want to make a slimming plan, a reading plan and a work plan.

I said, didn't you just say you didn't intend to? !

She said, hehe, you still don't understand women.

I saw that the cat's eye of the security door was broken when I left. I repeatedly reminded her to protect herself and blocked the cat's eye with paper.

Coming out of the community gate, Bai Yue stared at me, as if to say, you are a big fool.

seven

As usual, I returned to my hometown and lived on an unsatisfactory job. Occasionally I read the four years when I knew Hu Sanshui, and the dust was everywhere.

Every time I stand on the bus home, I look at people's hurried backs, at the neon lights overhead, at the moon hanging in the sky, thinking that I must travel all over the great rivers and mountains in the future, even if I want to be a postman.

I changed my cell phone. My previous mobile phone was stolen. You know the skill level of Xi 'an thieves.

What mobile phone did you change?

Suddenly, the mobile phone is out of my control, as if someone else is manipulating its own switch interface …

Finally, these words appear on the interface.

"Nut phones go straight to 200 yuan, and they are available in JD.COM Mall".

Shit, you scared me to death.

What's your function?

Gee, you still use T 1, which is a "remote assistance function" specially set up by Hammer Technology for elderly parents. My mother likes it very much, and falls in love with Lao Luo by the way.

She said that my mother especially likes Lao Luo's mobile phone.

eight

The story should end here. I wrote it according to Hu Sanshui's request. Who taught her that it was my apple?

"Flowers will always fade, but they will come back for you, the love of your life, looming outside the white clouds."

I don't know how many times I sang this song, but I heard this sentence when I woke up. During the day, I heard from my colleagues that Stephen Chow's new movie "The Mermaid" will be released. I miss the Monkey King so much.

Well, I also think Stephen Chow's Sun Monkey is the most like a monkey.

the second part

After reading this article, Hu Sanshui wrote the first article in his life that was not an exam composition based on the principle of "comity".

one

I wrote this nonsense because I missed a favorite voting session in the official WeChat account, just because one of the prizes was that the author wrote his own story for the winner.

I am a girl without a story.

I have never loved anyone before today, but I have always loved the past. There is no guarantee that I will fall in love with myopia in the future.

Two hobbies in life, I love all retro things and all short stories.

I am a blx girl who looks cold, but my eyes will be sore when I see other people's stories.

Therefore, the inspirational desire to have a story is getting stronger and stronger.

As far as I can recall, only two people are qualified to write stories.

One has been out of touch for several years, just because people liked me in those days, and I am the kind of heart that gets upset when someone likes me. In order not to make myself uncomfortable, I can only wronged others, so I can't live or die, so this one can't fulfill my wish.

What I can still think of is Xiao Z. After I finished talking with him, I immediately promised to write an article for me, which instantly made up for my regret.

Look, these are the people around me.

two

I am not an excellent girl, so it is too difficult for me to let others write.

Because when it comes to my advantages, I can't remember any of them.

On the contrary, you can recall countless shortcomings.

I am a paranoid, eccentric, cold-looking, spiteful Martian who won't comfort or praise others, and will encourage me to marry a nearsighted girl all my life.

No one can understand that I have a good relationship with nearsighted boys since I was a child, but I still insist on this persistent heart when I am so old. I really doubt whether I was belittled by a nearsighted man when I was a child!

It is such a girl with a bad record.

Recently, I have been praised by others. In fact, I was a little touched. So many people know that I am a pearl that is not very bright! (I still have slight symptoms of feeling good about myself) So far, the most touching male students, Xiao H and Xiao Z, count as one. Because I can complain all the time, and all the ugly photos and embarrassing things can be said. This is the legendary girlfriend. She regards me as a girl's friend. )

three

Xiao H, a male high school student who came back from other places, helped me solve countless math problems that caused me a headache in the college entrance examination. At that time, I was particularly afraid that he would ask me what I said, because I had never lived at all. Usually it's particularly embarrassing. I thought I was grateful to him, otherwise I wouldn't have been admitted to the university! Actually, we haven't seen each other for almost four years! Usually there is little contact, but he always comforts my restless heart in my ordinary and sad life. Perhaps Sagittarius is characterized by acumen and foresight.

One noon a few years later, in the busy work, I met little H.

He said, "I'm back."

I joked, "Invite me to dinner."

"Ok, what do you want to eat?"

"Don't have time, forget it, you come to me! Come to our company's restaurant and I'll treat you to dinner. "

A man who left Xi 'an for nearly five years is really more stupid than me. I have been waiting for a long time.

I'm afraid my boss will rush back to the company and invite him to have that terrible meal in our restaurant. I didn't mean to, so I really couldn't leave. Someone gave me a present when I left. When I opened it, it was a smog mask.

Actually, I don't need any expensive gifts. Just this one mask, in the smoky city of Xi 'an, instantly makes my blood boil, always makes me moved in the ordinary, and makes me strong.

I can't describe the nature of my recent job to anyone, but I am very tired.

I sent him a message when I really couldn't hold on.

"If you are free, come to our company for help tomorrow morning."

"Yes, I have time at any time."

In this way, from morning till night in our company, I finally understand why I have been unable to make an appointment and why I have been very tired! The only thing I can thank is that I gave him some so-called products from the company. Fortunately, he didn't dislike it.

Listen, these people around me.

I had dinner with my old company brother and little H,

I invited them to eat Sichuan food that I thought was delicious, but the taste was not as good as my cooking.

On the eve of serving, we talked.

I started nagging, so busy that I didn't even buy new clothes. A weak girl turned into a woman alive.

Little H said, "I found that after knowing you for so long, you are still so stingy."

"Am I stingy? Have I ever been stingy with people around me? Have I ever been stingy with you? "

"I don't mean that you are good to us, I mean that you are good to yourself and you are good to us."

"You are always stingy with yourself, and the girls around me are very kind to themselves."

I was speechless at that time.

"You are like a piggy bank. Whoever marries you and goes home is reluctant to part with this and that. It would be nice to spend all your money then. "

I can only smile, because I am not as frugal as you said.

Because you can always read my people.

I gave Xiao H a bus card when I left.

In the evening, I received "Thank you for the bus card and the meal! Don't be too tired. "

(Little Z: I should have deleted this paragraph. I thought about it and stayed. )

Speaking of little Z, he is my college classmate. Although the majors are different, all those who have been circulated in a school since ancient times can be counted as classmates.

I didn't find him a young man of literature and art before, and I admire him for insisting on writing.

I am a fake young woman in literature and art. I like reading, but I can't write well. I never write anything. I take notes occasionally.

Maybe Cancer is born friendly and caring, so she can tolerate all my messy complaints and unreasonable demands.

I always send him some graphic news of the company after I do it myself, and ask him to point out the maze, and I can give advice to the point every time.

I don't want to send it to other female girlfriends or friends, because they don't see anything wrong, and in fact they don't have the interest or mind to read it. In fact, I know, but I will work hard, and finally I really don't waste my feelings.

In fact, I occasionally read his writing, which is actually quite powerful. I'm actually a girl with a bad mouth. Usually I can't say anything flattering. Maybe they are used to it. When I sincerely praise them, people really don't believe me! As God as my witness, I am actually a straightforward and brainless girl.

The article written by Xiao Z is actually quite good. I still can't help joking about his own scene. Isn't it addressed to me? (Little Z: I have always been very restrained. )

I always say that I really have no luck in my life until now, and all the good luck is used to meet you! (Little Z: No need for "children". )

I am grateful to have you female friends in my life to accompany me through the cold winter. We have never changed our wishes for next spring.

Having said that, I am still the paranoid, eccentric, forgetful, cold-eyed, super-poisonous mouth, unable to comfort or praise others, and I will marry a nearsighted girl all my life.

ten

In order to show my superb novel skills, I will pretend to write a paragraph about spring here.

Spring has come, the earth unbuttons its crotch, the green hills support the sun, the rivers take off their winter clothes, the icebergs plunge into the ocean, birds fly freely in the sky, and Cupid begins to pretend to be strong again. Ah, the spring wind, the spring sea, the spring girl is no longer here.

eleven

In September this year, one year and three months after graduation, I returned to this city, went to school to eat boiled fish, which we all love, and took photos at the East Gate. Hu Sanshui, it's been four years and we haven't taken a group photo yet. I was going to see you the night before I left. You said you were working overtime, so I'm afraid I'll have to wait again. I saw this message when I was having dinner with my friends. At that time, the table was full of beer bottles. I said, boss, another case of beer! Normal temperature! My friend patted me on the shoulder and said, well done! Come on! Drink it!

Immediately, I sent a message in a circle of friends.

I really want to see you, so I can only wait for another time.