The shortest diary

The weather is so hot, the weather in Beijing is too dry, and the summer lasts for a long time, which is far worse than our northeast. Who suggested climbing the mountain? Compared with Huangshan Mountain and Lushan Mountain, Xiangshan Mountain is simply a slope. It's extremely easy to get up, but the sun can't stand it. Everyone blames me for being lazy and getting up late. Really, how cool can it be in the morning? Dongpo went up the steps for a while and found a dirt road in the middle. Sugar and Jingjing are in danger, which shows my advantage. I can always find a foothold on the smooth sand slope and let them walk in my footprints. But the more you walk, the more afraid you are, because the more you walk, the less like a road, which means you have to fight your way out from the thorns. As far as I can remember, turn left again and you will get to Nanpo Road. "Ah, finally found the organization." Aa let out a cry and found the damn way to the south slope. We haven't seen any other figures for a long time. The sugar is used up. "Come on, we are only one step away from Rome." Jingjing and I pulled her. It took an hour and a half to climb the mountain, but it took less than ten minutes to get down. The wind is too strong. Candy wants to eat noodles from Xiangshan to Yuanmingyuan. There happened to be an old Beijing who ate a bag of sauce. As a result, I got a nickname-a generation of famous soldiers (sauce).

1998.8.2

That was a few years ago. I have been to all four Beijing discos, J.J., Letterman, Nasa and big warehouse. Hot spot: I remember it used to be an auditorium. When did it change? Dancing in a cage, the actor looks ordinary, dances well and has charm. The man standing under the actress's cage and the woman over there really proved that the man is left and the woman is right. Me and I were screaming like crazy. For some reason, my right eye keeps jumping these days. Vent your chest sulking every time you shout. My brother wouldn't let me be with L, reminding me that I was married. So what? Life without love is not life, and it is different from walking dead. God let me meet L and give me love. I learned to spend money on men, choose clothes, choose ties and wear matching clothes. Just like today, our pure black T-shirt is inlaid with 180 sequins, which are very dazzling under the light. I shook my hair desperately to get rid of my troubles. I really forgot everything at that time. But after I calmed down, I still lived a dull life. I must seize this sincere feeling, or I will regret it all my life.

1998.8. 16

"You are really energetic now, and you will always look up when you walk." Sugar sugar said so. "Are you? I don't think so. " I am really proud of the spring breeze. Candy was right. Women must fall in love to stay young. Most of my friends don't support my love. Do you think it's strange? If you really love, you will understand that everything is silent. I bought several bicycles and went to work, got off work and rehearsed with L every day. In my heart, l is my husband, and no one has the right to interfere with my freedom. I regret it now. If I didn't know L six months ago, I wouldn't be like this. We don't care about other people's gossip, we leave the unit and the family building. Seeing those strange eyes, I became more and more proud. We just love each other. Tell me. T has written frequently recently, and it seems that he knows something from the content. Who cares? I never loved you. The new pager number is only known to L and a few friends, not even my mother and brother. I didn't answer a letter to T. I was afraid I would see it, so I burned it every time I wrote a letter. Everything with a T shadow in the new house is gone, just like my single dormitory.

1998.8.26

I made it clear that he would marry me. Yesterday I wrote to T and asked for a divorce. I feel a little guilty about doing so. However, we are still young, why should we remain empty for an unhappy marriage? You can live with anyone, but not with anyone. As a result of love, no marriage can last long. I care about what I once had, and I hope to be together forever. L is my choice. We love each other as if there were only two of us in the world. Except for a few good friends, my colleagues hardly talk to me. Open extramarital affairs make these people look down on me, but I don't care. My parents said that if I divorced, I would not be allowed to enter the house. Do you blame me for not settling accounts with you? If it weren't for this house, I would have obtained the license with him. Is it worth sacrificing my marriage, my friends and my job? The answer is naturally yes. Ai Ai and Jingjing advised me to stop being formal. But I am in a state of divorce. The whole world knows that I and I are fine. Are we going to live like this forever? Stabbed by others all your life? We must have a result. I don't think I have a husband. What else can I think of him?

1998.9. 1

T came back and took a week off. In his words, he gave up everything for me. There is no need. What I have decided is irrevocable. T sat opposite me, very calm and a little surprised. "Just for this reason? I don't agree. " T said, "We are still young. It was a mistake to choose the other person at first. There is no affection between us. " I feel a little soft-hearted when I look at t, but these words must be said. Breaking up is inevitable. I took out the ring I had never worn. My eyes are red when I see t. There's nothing I can do. I have come so far that I can't go back. "I have written the agreement. I don't want all your things. I will pay you back the money I spent. " I finished in one breath, just like reciting a text. "Can't you get it back?" "I won't write to you until I think it over." "It's okay, don't give me what I gave you. I'll take mine. I just hope you can consider making a decision. Is it really worth it? Will he be kind to you? " "These you don't worry, I also hope you can find better than me. I am not good at all, I can't do anything. " Say these parting words with your heart I always feel that I have heard this fixed language somewhere.

1998.9. 15

Or a name, a seal, a few lines of black letters, and a red card turned into a green card. Looking at this free paper, I feel relaxed to the extreme. Sugar sugar said that the red card is a red light, which is a legal certificate prohibiting you from fooling around after marriage; The green card is a green light, which means you can turn at the intersection. If you make a mistake, you will come back without any responsibility. As long as you are alive, you can afford to play. Actually, I don't want to play. I just want to be with L legally, so I don't have to be looked down upon by others. Now some people in the company scoff at my actions, but I feel very happy now, because I can make friends and get married with L aboveboard. My parents sighed helplessly, and only my brother said, "Let the young people handle it themselves." My brother is nine years older than me and married. Belongs to the true color hero who flies the colorful flags outside and the red flag at home does not fall. He is a middle-level leader in the unit and is respected by all walks of life. I admire my brother from the bottom of my heart for being such a master. If a woman is compared to a kite, a brother is a man who can fly more than one kite. Many men can't fly kites. When they are too strong, kites will fly away. When they are too weak, they can't fly and show their beauty. I feel like a kite.

1998.9.23

T left me a long letter saying that he still loves me and will wait for me to come back. Actually, this is unnecessary. Because I have moved on and will not look back. T said that if the house is taken back, I can continue to live with him, and he won't come back this year. What's more, the company has been issuing houses without recycling them. Besides, I'm going to marry L soon. Before leaving for the northwest, T bought a huge insurance policy, the beneficiary of which was me, and planned to give it to me on my birthday this year. God, I know that you are very kind to me and can make my life carefree. But I need love and a lover, which you can't give me. I am not a heartless person. After all, T is my first man, and I have been recognized by law. Although I will visit strange bedfellows occasionally, there will always be some feelings. At that time, I felt very guilty, and I was glad that this short marriage history did not bring much influence to both sides. T is really good to me and my family, and my life partner is first-class. But emotional partners are much worse. I can meet all my requirements. He will play with me and make me happy. I really want to stay with L until we get old.

1998.9.29

Relaxation, no more cheating, almost crazy process The smell of body mixture is a little unpleasant. I left l and went into the bathroom. The water from the shower head spilled evenly on my face, and I closed my eyes and enjoyed a warm massage. I don't know when I went in and got the shower head to wash my back. What are you doing here? "I'll rub your back, you can't reach it." "Forget it, you just came in to take advantage." I said with a smile. The water in the bathtub is running out. I stepped forward and sat down. I feel very comfortable and all my pores are open. My repressed heart was finally released, just like rebirth. I squeezed in and sat behind me, holding me with one hand and rubbing my back with the other. Two adults were huddled in a bathtub that was half lying, and the water overflowed at the slightest movement. Reminds me of the famous story of gold crown appraisal. I went around behind T, rubbed him hard and gave him a bath. "I'll rush for a while." I handed him the shower head. Put on a bath towel and sit on the bed to wipe your hair. I came out to have sex with me. Of course I won't refuse. In Jingjing's words, I have feelings, desires, passions, courage to do, love, love.

1998.9.30

The whole eleventh, l is like turning into air. His pager won't return, and his friends don't know where he is going. I'm a little worried. This is the first time that l has left my sight for more than two days. Several good friends have all gone back to Beijing, and there is no one to play with me. Back to Shandong? That is to say, let me live alone in my freshman year! Excessive. I have bought a lot of clothes and shoes these days, and my salary has been spent. I was in the bar, listening to the singer with a bad voice performing an adapted love song. Why is this cup of pink girl so bitter? This is gin. I've been calling L on my brother's mobile phone, but I still can't find his information. "Miss, alone?" I looked up and saw a man, tall and thin, as big as L. "We have some friends over there. Let's talk together. They are all young people. " I smiled to see that he didn't look like a bad guy. "all right." I didn't refuse the invitation of the uninvited guest. Talking with strangers may ease my boredom. We talked for a long time without exchanging names, and no one knew what the content was. In the end, the buddy settled my account and didn't leave a phone number.

1998. 10.6

"Where the hell have you been? You went to Mars. " I swept it. "Going back to Shandong, really, there is something urgent at home." "Then you wouldn't have called me." I am firm. "It won't come back! By the way, what happened to what I asked you? " "What ah, work. If you didn't do it well, why did you go to Beijing? " I am impatient. If I transfer to Beijing, there will be less chance for us to meet. I can't bear it. "And the Beijing head office requires academic qualifications, and there are many master students. You don't make fun of your big family. " "Why can't you do anything?" I looked angry and turned to leave. What are you doing with this guy? Who dares to play with me since I was a child? I didn't chase him in anger and rode home by myself. Ear suddenly rang towards him, towards him is the person who is most opposed to my divorce, "what do you think of L figure you? He is a young man. You are married and your salary is higher than yours. He is young and promising. Will he want you? " What, do I want to use my family connections to enter Beijing? I really didn't think about it. I think we love each other, that's all. I have a goal? No, I believe he won't.

1998. 10.8

I haven't found l all day. Aa said she saw l with a woman in Rogers at noon. She didn't look at the woman carefully on the bus, but the man must be L. His pager is off again. The boys' dormitory was empty, but I took the clothes I bought for him. I can't figure out what kind of woman. Some colleagues also said that L was seen with another woman some time ago. I don't really believe it. I think it was their jealousy that separated us. Mourning will not. She is my best friend for many years. She is honest and never equivocates on serious issues. How can she make fun of my happiness all her life? I am very interested in that woman now, not afraid that she will rob me of my L, but want to know what their relationship is. Aa and Jingjing always remind me to pay attention to L, saying that I am crazy about love. I am the closest person to L. I know him more than myself, and I am heartless. Since he made friends with me, he has gone to work together every day. How does he get in touch with other women? Several of his buddies are also very close to me and won't keep anything from me.

1998. 10.24

I really have another girlfriend! Then why did he instigate me to divorce and say that he would marry me? According to one of his buddies, they brought a girl to the party the day before yesterday and introduced them as girlfriends. No one answered at that time, but I knew that I had a good relationship with this girl. Damn it, why didn't you tell me earlier? These bastards, I was the only one who was kept in the dark in China. Those vows, sweet words and promises turned into a bunch of lies. Think of that famous saying, a man's promise to you is just afraid that he can't do it, basically can't do it. I only love you once, but I love you more than once. Come to think of it, I'm not much better. Young women with husbands are still out with men. Heart to heart, I feel that although L is hateful, it is understandable that no one has emotional fluctuations. But it's too much to publicly announce another relationship among friends. Be sure to talk to him clearly. At this time, I suddenly felt so stupid, stupid to a certain extent. How can I be so hasty and credulous about L's promise in bed? See how he explains it to me.

1998. 1 1. 15

This son of a bitch really has another girlfriend, which is extremely hateful. Last night, he brought that woman to my house and told him not to leave. It's like showing me on purpose, for fear that I don't know. It's no big deal to break up after breaking up. However, what am I after this breakup? Lost, divorced. At first, my friend's advice was ignored. How many people will laugh at me. God, how can I hang out in the company? I have to face those colleagues every day, but I have a topic after dinner. "We can still be friends." L the oil cavity is very slippery. "Fuck your friends, you two get out." The girl couldn't sit still, and she was caught by L when she wanted to leave. She is so beautiful that my vision is a little blurred, but I can still see the girl clearly. It's beautiful. "Leave the key." This is the last sentence I said to L, and I announced to myself: Xiao Lei is single. Walking alone, the empty street, how come no one comes out! I really want to find a male prostitute to vent. Where should I go? A bar? Karaoke? Everything is strange, and everyone is so far away from me. "You are so stupid, Ray." Aa always says that about me, and I also say that fools are blessed. I really took it this time.

1998. 1 1.29

I experienced a feeling that I lost my mind. Like Cinderella avoiding everything at midnight; The little girl lit the last few matches, longing for beauty and left; Even like Sister Xianglin, when she catches people, she asks them if they have souls. I don't walk with my head held high anymore. Looking up at his wife, he bowed his head and said, Han, I'm not a wife anymore. I put this position on the shelf myself. Dare not look up at those sympathetic or sarcastic eyes. Sugar sugar and aa have been looking for me for a few days. I turned off my pager and didn't want to hear any words of comfort. Walking on the road like this every night. I have run out of annual leave and have to go to work. Is it God's revenge on me that such a proud man divorced for L and ended up like this? What did I do wrong? Love the wrong person? The wind on the overpass is so strong that the cold wind in the middle of the night cuts my face like a knife. Cut off my flesh inch by inch and break my heart. I suddenly want to jump off the overpass, and the car that gave way woke me up. It's better than being confused now. Keep walking. Why have you been romantic for so long? This is the place that T and I like. Go ahead. The Contact Me bar is just around the corner. Have a drink.

1998. 12.5

No, I can't work anymore. Although my colleagues are still the same, I am too awkward. Behind everyone's cold face lies more pity and ridicule. I know this is inevitable. I wrote two letters of recommendation and sent them to Beijing head office and design company, hoping to be admitted somewhere. Otherwise, I have to go back to Daqing. Anyway, I have to leave here, leave my scarred land. Looking in the mirror, I feel a lot haggard, not like twenty-four or five at all, but forty-five at first glance. Put on some evening makeup and come back to "contact me" Drink a few bottles of Crona, and you won't feel anything. "What a coincidence, alone?" It's him, the man who paid my bill last time. "Yes, what a coincidence." "Sit down together. We have a few friends you have met. " "Very good." I went over to greet those half-cooked faces. Introduce each other. The tall man is called W, who is several years older than me. The rest can't be heard clearly. It is easy to get drunk when people are coaxed. Fortunately, it's just Heineken and Crona with low alcohol content, and a piece of green lemon is slightly sour.

Two days ago, I was sick. I remember that night, my mother suddenly woke up and found that I had a high fever. She immediately took my temperature, which was 40 degrees. My parents were frightened and took me to the hospital overnight. When I arrived at the hospital, my mother immediately took me to pediatrics, and the doctor gave me blood tests. It turns out that I have a bacterial infection. The doctor prescribed me some medicine and told me to go to the emergency room to get two bottles of normal saline. When I have an injection.

When I got home, I heard my mother calling grandpa. Grandpa asked me if I was better. I said, "I'm much better, you don't have to worry."

I like the title "On the Road". Although I haven't read Kerouac's book until now, I know the general content. Maybe I'm not interested in the messy narrative, but I like this state, on the road, all the way forward.

In fact, the practice of milk porridge is very simple. Pour the cereal soaked in clear water and water into the pot, cook for 20 minutes, add milk, stir gently, cook for 15 minutes, and then add sugar.

If you add eggs, it's called egg milk porridge.

It's Dragon Boat Festival again. I just don't have time to go home this Dragon Boat Festival. I have always liked these festivals handed down from ancient China. By the way, it's interesting to think of some customs and habits of the Dragon Boat Festival in my hometown.

After a busy semester, I was still a little uncomfortable at first. At work, I get along with students every day. Although they will be naughty and make me angry, I still miss them so much. I want to know if they will be more obedient when they come, whether they will make progress than before and so on.

The Class Reunion

It has been raining cautiously and continuously every day since the holiday. Today, the weather finally cleared up. I am very happy to see such fine weather. At the same time, today is the day for our high school classmates to get together.

Since reading, what impressed me most is that almost every Chinese teacher requires us to write well and practice well. Although I listened to my teacher at that time, I didn't stick to it. I just practice occasionally. Looking at my handwriting now, I really regret that I wasted too much time and didn't practice well. Just this winter vacation, the headmaster of the school arranged winter vacation homework for us, so I wanted to use it to practice calligraphy.

"A year's plan lies in spring", "A good beginning is half the battle", and the arrival of beginning of spring means that spring has come.

Spring has come, everything is reviving, a hundred flowers are blooming and a hundred birds are contending.

A year has passed. New Year's Eve is a night of reunion. Every household is hung with lanterns to celebrate the peaceful end of the year and the good beginning of the new year.

I have nothing to do during the winter vacation. I took out a magazine and saw such a story, which deeply touched me.

You should adjust your mentality when you do anything, and always remember to shake the other person with a smile and let him see your sincerity. Smiling can bring warmth, friendship and happiness. So smile in your work and life and treat people and things around you with a good attitude.

During the winter vacation, the headmaster asked us to enrich ourselves and read more books during the holiday, so I like to look around whenever I have time, but I found a lot of valuable things inadvertently.

The month-long winter vacation life is coming to an end. Looking back this month, I feel that I have gained a lot.

During the winter vacation, we came to Lianyungang. Today, my father took me, my mother, my sister, my uncle and my aunt to the seaside in Lianyungang. That day, the wind was very strong. We all put on our hats and braved the wind to come to the seaside. Looking at the rolling sea, how beautiful! Dad took the camera off the car and took pictures of us.

Winter vacation life must travel outside the city. Today, my mother gave me this wish, and our family came to Shantang Street in Suzhou.

I just looked out of the window and thought: How many days before the Spring Festival? In the face of the arrival of the new year, should I say "Happy New Year"?

It snowed heavily last night. In the morning, I looked downstairs, and the ground was covered with snow. Even on the roof and leaves, it's beautiful! So as soon as I finished breakfast, I ran downstairs and played in the snow with a little brother. We made a snowman, a mountain peak, a few small animals and so on, and had a snowball fight. How interesting! Then each of us had some snow and went home.