Obsession is a disease.

Presumably, recently, everyone knows that a tramp named Shen Wei is on fire, and some people call him a wandering master. He is called a master because he is different from other vagrants. He is more knowledgeable and eloquent than any other vagrant. He speaks standard Mandarin, has a high level of knowledge, reads many books and exports golden sentences.

The wandering master's name is Shen Wei, a Shanghai native and a college student in the 1980s. His father used to be a college student in the 1960s. At that time, it was not easy to get into college. College students deserved it, and they were respected at home, at work and in society.

Shen Wei's hobby of picking up garbage was born in a family and was cultivated from an early age. At least his college alumni confirmed that Shen Wei had been picking up garbage since he went to school. Shen Wei's old neighbor said that he had been picking up garbage since primary school. This is really a persistent hobby, which seems to have lasted for 40 years.

The reason why Shen Wei picks up garbage is actually to sell money to buy books. He likes painting and reading books like history, but his father hates it so much that he has to give up writing and become a professional in numbers.

? Shen Wei has fallen to this point. Of course, he is related to his father. As a graduate of an old university in the 1960s, he was too opinionated, took a stand and forced his children to do things they didn't like. He is uncivilized and can't turn. This kind of trouble is sometimes terrible.

Shen Wei can openly resist, stick to his own opinions, study his favorite major, and try to accept his father's arrangement if he can't resist. Now that you have chosen, you should make psychological adjustment in time and face your work and life in a different way of thinking, instead of going into darkness all the time, so you are getting closer and closer to the disease. As a bystander, Shen Wei, like his father, has an obsession. If he persists for a long time, he will become ill and not know it.

Baidu Encyclopedia explains: Obsession refers to clinging to something without detachment. There will be resentment when you are persistent, and you will be comfortable only if you let go of your persistence. Philosophically speaking, if a person is too focused on something and falls into a certain emotion for a long time, this complex will become tangible and bind it. Now it is also used to express long-term adherence to a certain pursuit.

Now the TV series "Everything is OK" has caused a heated discussion about the family background, saying that some people can't get rid of the shadow of the family background all their lives. Shen Wei, the direct victim of family of origin, has an almost morbid obsession.

Of course, some people can get rid of the shackles and shackles brought by their family background, and need to change their thinking and deeply understand the behavioral influence brought by their family background. The ideological reversal will have a feeling that "there is no way for mountains and rivers to be suspicious, and there is another village in the dark." When you change your mind, you will be suddenly enlightened, and everything will be suddenly enlightened.

Shen Wei still thinks that his father is responsible for this, but he hasn't realized his mistake, a terrible obsession. Before his death, his father was fully aware of his mistakes and felt very guilty. He kept slapping himself in the face and said not to stick to his own opinions and hurt the children.

It is easy for us ordinary people to fall into obsession unconsciously, and only when we reflect on the problem do we find that our thoughts are not on the normal track. Often onlookers will know better. If we can listen to the wise man's advice when we are awake, we won't have so many regrets.

Attached from Shen Wei's readme:

My father is a sample of my reflection on life. He was an undergraduate in the 1960s, majoring in navigation. After moving from Jiangsu to Shanghai, his life met with setbacks.

I was born in Shanghai and live with my grandmother. But my father and grandmother have a bad relationship, and somehow my father often takes it out on me. Even so, I don't hate him.

I like painting and reading books about history, but he hates them. Sometimes, I sell garbage to buy books, and I can only hide it in my stomach when I go home so that he can't see it. It was not until the evening when he was sleeping that I dared to secretly take out the books under the quilt.

The Chinese teacher at that time said that I felt very depressed. Yes, I am at a loss in front of my father. Learning auditing is my regret in my life. If my father communicated tactfully, I would never choose this major. I will choose Chinese Department or International Political Studies.

After graduation, I entered a district audit office in Shanghai. I don't have a prestigious school background and I don't like auditing, but I made this choice under the constraint and pressure of my father. It's a pity that I have never done what I want to do in my life. If I could do it all over again, I would choose a job that suits my wishes, linked to culture, not numbers.

In the final analysis, the reason why I have this situation is because of the conflict of ideas. I grew up in a difficult environment. In order to study, I pick up garbage, orange peel, broken glass and anything that can sell money, and then I buy books. When I was a child, I was often laughed at by my classmates for picking up garbage, which was also embarrassing. But at that time, I was wondering why the beggar didn't do anything, but felt sorry for him. And I paid the labor, but I was laughed at. The most interesting thing is that the orange peel I picked was collected by a special person. Why was it ridiculed?

I didn't understand until now. It's been 26 years, and I just came here alone. Sometimes, I feel painful. Normally, I should have a son. But an incident 26 years ago directly led to my result today.

1986, after graduating from university, he entered a district audit office in Shanghai. On the first day I entered the unit and walked into the bathroom, I found a lot of paper thrown in the trash can. I don't think useful things should be wasted like this. It's a pity, so I picked them up. From now on, as long as I stay in the office building for one day, I will pick up useful things, such as newspapers or paper printed on one side only. But instead of picking up coke bottles and things like that, they are economically independent and don't need to sell money to spend.

At that time, I worked very hard and went back late every day. Sometimes I lived directly in the office. This went on for several years until someone complained that I was picking up garbage at work. That's 1993. As soon as I got home, my grandmother, who was in her seventies, sat up in bed and shouted at the top of her lungs: The leader of your unit came and said that you are out of your mind and always picking up garbage. I just want to explain to the unit and leaders. The next day, before I went to the leader, several leaders came to talk to me. They said, Shen Wei, from today on, you pack up your things in the office and go home to be on duty. They think I'm crazy to pick up garbage.

On that day, the Philadelphia Symphony Orchestra performed in Shanghai Gymnasium. I want to have a look. But for the first time in my life, I was frustrated, and I couldn't stand it. After getting on the bus, I should have got off midway, but the bus arrived at nanpu bridge terminal. I think, then go home and read more books. But my family and I fought as if we didn't know each other. I feel wronged when I cry for the first time in my life. I don't sell garbage, I save money for the unit. How did this happen?

1995, angry at home, rented a house outside. The old house is about to be demolished, and I think I can have my own house soon. But it was not until 200 1 that the house was demolished. After the house was demolished, I lived under the eaves of an old man next door until the Spring Festival in 2002. Later, I moved to Pudong. There is an old house, so no one complains about me. Later, my family assigned me a house, but I was kicked out twice because of complaints from my neighbors. At that time, I had broken off relations with my family and officially slept on the street.

September 30th, 20 12 is the Mid-Autumn Festival. My brother contacted me and said that my father was dying. He asked me if I wanted to see it. I said yes. I was living under a bridge with messy hair. I asked someone I knew to cut it for me, and reluctantly, I borrowed some clean clothes. I even asked people if they wanted to bring anything.

When I arrived at Shanghai Changhang Hospital, my father was in the hospital bed. I haven't seen him for ten years. He doesn't know me. Knowing it was me, he began to cry, held my hand tightly and said he was sorry. He said that you could have achieved something in your studies because of me ... He kept slapping himself, and I sobbed and couldn't speak. I said forget it. It's over. At that time, he didn't know that I had been sleeping on the street. He said that the family was finally reunited, and that day happened to be the Mid-Autumn Festival. We bought a moon cake and shared it.

Soon after I left, my father left.

The above is an excerpt from Shen Wei's self-report.