It was a little late when I met you.

This girl is a medical student. After eating medical books higher than others, she stepped into a hospital internship and started the road of combining theory with practice.

The boy is a patient who has been lying in the cardiology ward for two weeks, suffering from chronic heart failure. This disease is like accumulating poison for many years, and it is almost incurable. What we can do is to make it come later and suffer less.

On the first day, the girl followed her brother to the ward to make rounds, and her heart, which was curious for learning, jumped in her chest. Looking at the director's homely atmosphere in a few words and asking about her illness, her admiration came to mind. When I look at that boy again, I can't tell you all kinds of feelings. Cardiology is different from other places. It seems inappropriate for him to live here. Among a group of old people, this kind of life is young but not fresh enough.

Back in the office, the girl wants to see the boy's medical record. The big brother saw through her mind and said with a smile, "learning is not like this." You ask his medical record first, do a physical examination, and integrate one. I'll show you the medical record again, so it's easier to grow. " So the girl led this task and went to the ward frankly.

"Hello, I'm an intern. Is it convenient to ask about your illness? "

"Well, 23 years old, male, native, student, I don't remember how many times I was admitted to the hospital. I was caught in the rain this time. I was caught in the rain two weeks ago and I had a fever. The rest will be fine. Usually do not like sports, poor physical strength. I have been taking medicine. When I was a child, I was diagnosed with rheumatic heart disease because of hemolytic streptococcus infection, and later became chronic heart failure. This is an acute attack. I don't have any genetic diseases, my parents are healthy, I don't drink or smoke, and I have no infectious diseases at all. If you have anything to add, you can ask. "

"Are you studying medicine?"

"No, more, and teaching hospital. Ask too many questions and you will know how to answer. Is it a doctor after a long illness? "

"The answer is quite good, long illness into medicine. Doctors should know that you shouldn't get wet in the rain. "

"Doctors know that there is no cure for this disease."

The girl escaped.

2

After returning to the office, the girl slightly integrated the medical records and found that she didn't have a physical examination and didn't dare to face the boy again. So she begged her brother for medical records. Knowing that she didn't have a physical examination, my brother joked, "What, are you worried about the difference between men and women?" That's not what medical school teaches you. "

The girl remembered the last calm sentence and didn't know how to answer it. "His movie? I want to see it. " Seeing the video on the computer, I was full of sadness. Although I don't know much, I also know that my heart has expanded a lot and my valve is also involved. Usually breathing exercises, but the affected heart is overloaded. My brother looked at her expression and only said, "It's still too small." I don't know whether to give it to him or her.

The next day, the girl hid behind a group of white coats and dared not look straight. She only heard the boy say to the director, "When can I leave the hospital? I'm a little bored. I have lived here for so long that I can't sleep at night. " The director looked at him kindly and said, "Then read more books and don't do strenuous exercise. Stay two more days and I'll see what happens. " Later, the girl didn't hear it, but she was secretly planning a plan.

My brother was on duty at night, and the girl sneaked back, claiming to be knowledgeable. After eight or nine o'clock, she took off her white coat and walked into the boy's ward. The boy sat, panting slightly, and the girl approached and said, "It's called sitting breathing in medicine. What, is it difficult to breathe? " The boy looked up at her and shook his head in disbelief. The girl paused and said, "I'm on duty tonight." I'm afraid you are not feeling well. Is it boring? I talk to you, you say I listen. "

"Just boring, not staying in the duty room, not afraid of being scolded, intern?"

"No, you are so smart that you must know that your brother is on duty."

"Ha ha, is my illness serious?"

"You are so smart, you must know that I just came here and don't know anything."

"Well, I don't know, so I've always wanted to ask."

"Don't be paranoid, it must be better than you think."

"……"

"Do the locals know where there is fun? I'm a stranger, and I just came here to study. Are there any scenic spots introduced? "

"The locals don't want to tell you."

"Outsiders really want to know, and outsiders are humbly asking."

The boy gave a wry smile. "Locals seldom go out to play. You can go to Baidu. It may know more than me. "

The girl was surprised, but she was also deceived. "You are so smart, you must know that everyone uses Baidu. I want to go somewhere interesting, you know. What about your home? Are there any interesting places nearby? "

"Want to play so much?"

"No, I don't know what to talk about."

"I don't want to go, but this topic is still with me."

"What do you say?"

"……"

Finally, it broke up in discord. The girl scratched her head and looked at the sky speechless. This is not the original intention.

three

On the third day, after the director's rounds, the girl took her brother into the boy's ward again and said to him please, "Brother, I'll listen to his heart sounds first, then you can listen to it and see if I'm right, ok?" The elder brother looked at the boy silently, and the girl looked at the boy. "Can we listen?"

The boy was speechless. "You treat me like a mouse and discuss it in front of me?"

"Don't feel inferior, even if it's just a mouse, you are also the most handsome one inside. In front of you, you have the right to know. "

"……"

My brother said slowly, "The director has heard of it and will have questions. Since the patient is inconvenient, you can't force it. "

The girl was disappointed, but she didn't lose heart. She looked at the boy with burning eyes until he unbuttoned his clothes silently. ...

This day may be the busiest day for boys. The girl began the ECG operation with great joy. At first, she was always in a hurry, but she had no idea of retreating. The boy was helpless, but he compromised again and again.

"You are so smart that you must know it's time to unbutton your coat." The girl is all smiles, smiling like a flower thief who is addicted to men's colors.

"Why do you blush when I take off my clothes?"

"Don't you blush? ! "

"……"

The girl suddenly remembered that her mother had said that it was better for a girl to be reserved, just explaining in words, "I blush because of the heat."

"I'm hot, too."

"You have taken off all your clothes. How hot is it? "

"……"

After the mysterious embarrassment, the girl left silently with an electrocardiogram. The last sentence is, "Have a good rest and don't get tired."

In the evening, the girl came again, carrying a schoolbag and full of energy. When he came in and put down his schoolbag, the boy looked out of the window, puzzled. "Are you still on duty tonight?"

"Well, I love studying."

"In my ward? If you study, you should follow experienced people. "

"I know, don't worry, I'll talk to you now."

At this time, there was a loud noise outside the window, and then bundles of beautiful fireworks appeared in the night sky.

The girl looked at it for a long time and said to the boy, "Is it nice?"

The boy looked at the fireworks. "It's so beautiful."

"Can fireworks be set off just in the city center?"

"What do you say? Pollution the environment? "

"Well, fireworks are flammable and explosive, and I'm afraid the seniors in the burn department are very nervous."

"……"

The girl has been bored for a long time, and she always has a way to keep any topic from going on. She is racking her brains silently brewing the next topic.

The boy suddenly said, "I also liked to set off fireworks when I was young." I was with my parents at that time, and now I really want to go back to that time occasionally. "

"Well, I also want to go back to my childhood. There are not only fireworks, but also a lot of meat during the Spring Festival. By the way, where are your parents? Why are there only nurses at ordinary times? Still living in such an expensive single room? "

"They divorced when I was older."

The girl was surprised and didn't know how to answer the phone. The film came to her mind, full of sadness but unspeakable. I unconsciously grabbed my schoolbag and touched a small book. "Do you like watching Laughing at Campus?"

"……"

"I think you can have a look. This is very ... hilarious ... "

"... yeah. "

That night, for some reason, fireworks were set off outside the window for a long time. Boys giggle at cartoons, while girls study silently with thick ECG spectrum.

It was a long time before the girl knew that the fireworks that day were celebrated by the opening of a nearby hotel, and the boss was the boy's father. Only then did she understand where the loneliness of the boy looking out of the window came from.

four

The director seems to be in a particularly good mood today. Seeing the boy's course record, I said happily to him, "Your situation is well controlled. If you are a little better, you don't have to come to see me again and you can leave the hospital. " The boy seemed a little surprised, but he just said slowly, "The heart has been beating a little fast and irregularly recently. Is there any impact? " The director paused. "Let's do an electrocardiogram first."

The girl was sent to push the instrument and walked to the bed with a worried face. The director said, "A little girl, an intern?" The girl replied cautiously, "Yes, I just came."

"ECG surgery, will it?"

"yes."

"Good, you come."

This time, the boy coaxed off his coat, and the girl was very calm.

The director looked at the girl. "The little girl is good. I can see that she is eager to learn." Only later, I took the ECG and frowned slightly, leaving a sentence, "Stay in the hospital for two days."

Hearing this, the boy looked at the girl. The girl's beautiful eyebrows twisted into two caterpillars and silently followed them out.

The girl who couldn't understand what happened to the electrocardiogram followed her brother's ass all day, hoping to get some news from his brother, but she found nothing. My brother looked at her and only said, "I don't see anything unusual, at least from that ECG."

In the evening, the girl put a string of stars in the boy's room. The boy wondered, "How to send flowers or stars all over the sky?"

"Because my name is Xiaoxing."

"It sounds very comfortable."

"My family and friends call me Xiaoxing."

"Better."

"……"

"My name is Grace Wai Wong."

"I know."

"……"

The girl and the boy stared at each other and looked after each other silently.

five

Two days later, the director carefully read all kinds of checklists, waved and agreed to leave the hospital. The boy can stay away from this group of white coats the next day and don't bother, but the boy's face is as calm as ever, and he can't see a smile.

Mondays are always busier than usual. The girl behind my big brother is as busy as a top and keeps spinning.

In the evening, the girl rushed to the ward in a white coat and said with a smile, "I will be discharged soon." Are you happy? " Things must be much better. I can finally rest assured. "

"I didn't worry too much about my illness before."

"Well, I have to talk about you. Your body is yours. You must take good care of it. Don't catch a cold and eat indiscriminately. You can also exercise a little, eat more snacks with your blood pressure, and come to the hospital as soon as you feel uncomfortable. Don't die. "

"You finally look like a doctor."

"Very old woman mother? Hey, parents' heart. "

"Not bad."

"I have to go. I am on duty today. My brother forced me to write medical records in the duty room, and I have to look at others. "

The boy bowed his head and smiled. "However, your brother was very relaxed with you when he was on duty the other day."

The girl turned slightly red and calmly replied, "Everything should be done slowly. Take good care of your illness. I don't want you to see me in the future, and I don't want any white coat to see you. "

The boy looked at her for a long time and only said, "I wish you all the best."

Without saying a word, the girl smiled slightly and turned to leave.

six

The boy was discharged from the hospital and picked up by his father, and the girl was lucky enough to meet him. Although his father is a businessman, he is rarely elegant and expensive, and he is also very polite to her.

The girl turned around, and somehow, the film came back to her mind, and she couldn't help feeling distressed. If possible, he can live to be thirty years old, and he will stay away from her white skirt in his prime. For the first time, she was not proud of her white coat.

"It's all gone." Seeing his silence, the boy's father said to himself, "What a watery girl, like a clever child."

"hmm." The boy turned around and couldn't figure it out. The girl's back was not alive in the past. He couldn't help laughing when he remembered her two lifelike caterpillars. The back of that day was also so thoughtful.

When the girl returned to the department, nothing seemed to change. People come and go, and girls are more diligent and studious. She took pains to ask her seniors every day and didn't say anything when she was scolded. She learned what she should learn silently and was not afraid of being tired. This senior brother is very surprised. "At the beginning, there was a lively girl. What's wrong with you? "

"I want to know more and make them feel better."

"hmm."

"I can't stop it. I also want to make more preparations and I won't be helpless."

"I said that when you come, everyone has to go through something and then suddenly grow up."

seven

As the days passed, winter came.

Today, when I was at work, I overheard the nurse mention that a young man from Shuai Shuai lived in a single room today, and the girl's eyebrows jumped.

The girl followed the director to make rounds and walked into the ward. It's him. Looking at him, surprised and expecting. The boy looks pale, as if he had caught a cold again. He has been coughing, and the director's brow has never been loosened. The boy looked up at the girl and smiled, but the girl didn't know what to look at.

At noon, the girl walked into his ward with an incubator.

"There is millet porridge. Can you drink? "

"I stayed for a long time and felt uncomfortable."

"I didn't say not to die."

"You also said you didn't want to see me again."

The girl looked at him, but she didn't know what to say. After meeting him, the suffocating little star seems to have rarely appeared.

"It's still hot. Have a drink. "

"hmm."

"The weather is getting cold, don't catch a cold again."

"hmm."

"What do you want to eat? I'll bring it here at night. "

"Both will do."

In the evening, the girl still came with an insulation box, and there were a few drops of water on her coat and hair. He looked at him and said, "It's snowing outside. Tell me what you want to eat in the future. You can't go out. Keep warm. "

"hmm."

"How is your health these days?"

"The body has been quite good, I have worked hard every day, and I have never been chaotic. I watched a lot of "hilarious campus". "

"The lively campus is beautiful, isn't it? The first time I saw it was at my uncle's house. When I warmed myself, I burned all my socks and was still laughing. Later everyone said that I was possessed. "

"Well, there is this kind of magic. What other books do you like? "

"No, does the Book of Songs count? After all, I only recited one or two poems. "

"Well, count."

"Speak, do you want to laugh? I am a science woman, you have to understand me. "

The boy's face flushed with laughter, but at least there was some blood in it. "It's okay."

"What are you looking at?"

"Photography."

"Yes, the art major that really burns money."

"...", the boy was helpless. "Don't you have any other ideas?"

"Yes, will you make me ugly?"

"Why do you say that?"

"The pixels are high, and my face has nowhere to hide."

"……"

Snowflakes were flying outside the window, and there was laughter in the ward.

eight

When I first met her, she looked around the ward with curious eyes like an excited child. The second time I saw her, she hid like a child who had gone the wrong way. I know, I said too much. She just came here, full of joy. She really shouldn't throw cold water on her and keep her warm.

Later, she sneaked into my ward and took the initiative to talk to me to make me happy. Those untenable reasons don't matter. I'm actually very happy. I have been here many times, but I am familiar with it. Every night, I sit and wait for her, and I have what I want and expect for the first time.

As an acquaintance of the Department of Cardiology, I have done ECG many times, but I couldn't help blushing that time. This is her first time. She is clumsy and used to bickering with me. Her brother is guiding me, and I know this is her life, a life that is too beautiful for me to put into.

Later, the director's uncle let me out of the hospital. I suddenly thought of her and told the first lie in my life. Later, I wanted to stay for two more days and see her again. Since when, I don't think the hospital is a cage for me to be sentenced to death.

She said she didn't want to see me again. I wished her all the best. After leaving the hospital, I had the idea of trying to live for the first time, and I wanted to walk beside her healthily. I want to read so many medical books and documents in the library day after day. With the rapid development of medicine, cancer can be cured, but is there no way to cure heart failure? It's just that the more I look at it, the more desperate I am.

I shouldn't get sick, or I can stay with her for a long time, but if it weren't for illness, the world is so big, I'm afraid I wouldn't meet her. I met you a little late and didn't even say I liked you. Then I caught a cold and died. When I left the hospital, her back was deeply imprinted on my mind. That's sadness. I don't want to see any color that doesn't belong to her.

I looked at the bustling campus day by day, but I couldn't laugh, thinking about the fireworks that night and the starlight in her eyes. Her name is Xiaoxing, and the stars in her eyes are more beautiful than the fireworks outside. That night, I held the cartoon she used to make up for her guilt, thought about her eyes and smiled.

There was always a feeling that time was running out. Tell her I love watching snow, but she doesn't agree. She is more worried about my health than anyone else. Regarding guilt, my parents agreed to my request and let me go out to see the snow. I know she will be uneasy and will sit in a wheelchair with me. I feel that every breath is like a cold wind blowing into my lungs, which hurts badly. It's just that I've always wanted to take a picture of her.

Dry the tears in the photo, my mother cried so desperately beside me, as if she had made up for all her previous love for me, and I seemed to have put it down. The stumbling of my life is that I looked up and saw her, and she kept walking with her head down.

It's almost dawn, and my breathing is getting heavier and harder. I watched her often sit on the small bench beside the bed, as if she were still telling me all kinds of jokes. Maybe this is what heaven looks like.

nine

I don't know whether I sympathize with him or like him. At first, I sympathized with his illness and life experience, and later I fell in love with the boy who was teased and bickered by me. I am afraid of his calm appearance, like the first time I saw him, without any vitality. Later, when I saw his loneliness, he smiled and felt that fate was unfair. Good things don't last.

At first. I always approach carefully with a three-point cautious and seven-point flattering tone, for fear that he will dislike and deliberately alienate me. Later, it was found that his aura was all paper tigers. In fact, he was just a big boy, clean and lonely.

I like to see him laugh, I like to see him amused by me, I like to see him angry but helpless … even if I just look out the window quietly and don't talk, I like it. This quiet time always reminds me of Gu Cheng's poem "In front of the door", in which there is a sentence: If we stand and don't talk, it is beautiful.

On that day, there was a light snow, and the snow of the previous days had not melted. I wouldn't let him go out, nor did the teachers, but he was persuaded by his parents. I flew into a rage and accused his parents of not giving him a complete family since childhood. Who is qualified to make a decision for him in this matter? Later, my brother heard about it and said to me calmly, "You know, it's his time."

He looked very happy and said that he liked the scene of heavy snow, which was white and like heaven. I was so scared that I slipped and fell. He smiled helplessly and took many photos. Later, when we went back, he asked me to get the photos. I said I was in no hurry, but he just smiled and said he wanted to see the photos, which would be very nice. He doesn't know, except what harms him, as long as he talks about it, I will want to do it for him.

That night, I refused to leave and always wanted to be with him. He said I was a conscientious doctor and he wanted to spend time with his parents. I don't know how I came back that day, except that it was the last time. To him, I was never just a doctor. I haven't worn a white coat in private since I started sneaking into his ward. I always think selfishly that he should stay away from the white coat.

After he left, I went to Lijiang, put a lamp by the ancient city river, and made a wish to let it float away. He, too, appeared in my life and then left, taking away all my expectations of him.

Later, when I look out of the window in winter, I always think of him inadvertently. Is it because he laughs well enough? I never thought that the smiling teenager in my memory became the deepest miss in my later years.

10

That day, it snowed heavily, which is rare in the south.

The girl smiled slightly. "He should be happy that it snows so heavily today."

Before entering the ward, I heard the crying of the boy and mother. Such an elegant woman also has such an embarrassing side. The girl approached and saw his calm and restrained face as lifeless as at first sight.

The boy's mother gave the girl a gift box, a letter and a handwritten book of songs. The girl never thought that his handwriting was so beautiful.

Xiaoxing:

? Nice photo. I'll take it with me. You will be a good doctor. I know. No one has ever protected me like this. Thank you for appearing in my life.

Grace Wai Wong

After reading the letter, the girl put it down and whispered in his ear, like a love story, "It's snowing heavily today. I thought you would be happy. Also, I like you, starting with the fireworks that night. "

It was a little late when we met, and neither the girl nor the boy said their favorite sentence.

After that, the girl asked for leave and went to Lijiang alone. I remember at the beginning, when they were joking, he said that he must go to Lijiang, the capital of affairs. Later, the girl knew that she had met the most beautiful relationship in her life in the most ordinary city.

The girl recalled the boy's face, put a river lamp by the river in the ancient city, and made a wish, "If there is an afterlife, I wish you peace and health."