Qingming's "Last Four" Sacrifice to His Ex-wife

After the Qingming Festival, four sacrifices were offered to the dead, and

endless thoughts haunted me.

Yin and Yang are separated from each other.

When will it be a world situation?

Tomb-sweeping on Qingming Festival, we pay attention to "the first three and then the fourth" locally, which means that we will never visit the ancestral graves on Qingming Day as "Zhengqing", either three days before Qingming Festival or four days after Qingming Festival. Generally, the first three days of sacrifice are chosen, and they are placed in the "last four" as a last resort.

I go to visit my ex-wife's grave on the fourth day after Qingming every year. It's been 38 years since I left for a year.

This year is no exception. Today happens to be "the last four days". I went to the flower shop to buy orchids and went to my ex-wife's grave.

Before his death, his ex-wife liked to play with water, and bluegrass was her favorite. Behind his ex-wife's grave, he looks forward to the stream winding eastward.

when I came to my ex-wife's grave, bluegrass flowers were in full bloom, and the flowers were full of fragrance. I planted one of these bluegrass flowers every year a few years ago, and the whole grave was already crowded. Sometimes I use scissors to get rid of the old and keep the new, so that my ex-wife and daughter can smell orchid flowers every year. I planted the bluegrass flowers I bought at the foot of the grave with a hoe. After everything was finished, I lay on the grass beside the grave for a while on a sunny day and squatted on the stone in front of the grave on a rainy day, so I had to spend time with her and talk to her.

It's sunny today. I'm lying on the grass beside the grave, and the scent of bluegrass flowers comes in with the hot air, which is refreshing. Although refreshing, my heart is doubly sour. Although my current wife is so perfect and full of children and grandchildren, I can't stop thinking of my ex-wife. I think at the beginning, we were in the same village, looking across the door, childhood friends, former classmates, and then married Yuanyang. But fate, you are pregnant, hematologic cancer let your girl go to the grave, and you and I are separated by Yin and Yang.

How many nights have you and I dreamed of playing in the water by the stream, fishing for shrimp in the water.

How many nights in my dream, you and I picked bluegrass flowers, watching you holding a bunch of bluegrass flowers and smelling their fragrance, the look of ecstasy.

How many nights have I dreamed of you? On the podium of our school, you smiled so sweetly.

How many nights have you and I dreamed of each other on the curved corridor of the university campus.

how many nights in my dream, I watched you limp towards me with a big belly.

......

If there is an afterlife, we will continue our relationship in the afterlife.

ex-wife, you and my true love confuse me with endless thoughts.

on the night of April 8, 22.